This was it. I walked over to my father, I was shaking just a little, and I really didn't want this. My mind was so clear that it was surreal, as though after these last few weeks of walking around in a fog my mind was over compensating. It was just going to make this experience all the worse. I walked across to Eric and slowly lowered myself down over his lap, almost wincing at the humiliation of it.

Eric quickly slipped a hand around my waist, holding me in position, before tugging my trousers down. I closed my eyes, wishing for it to end. I couldn't help but feel I was too old for this. I knew Eric disagreed. In his eyes I would always be his little girl and I would always be his to punish and keep in line. It was not an enjoyable notion to think of. I wasn't a baby anymore, however, I would always be his baby. To him it seemed as though barely a day had passed since he found me as a squirming infant in the wreckage.

I loved Eric, he was the only father I had ever known, he and Pam were the only family I had known. While they could be overbearing and controlling at times I still loved them as much as any kid loved their family. Why wouldn't I? Right now, though, this was hard to remember, I really didn't want a spanking. I knew I had been stupid and I knew why Eric was doing this- but that didn't mean I wanted it to happen.

I was waiting for it, for the first stinging smack. I always tried to remember just how painful it was, just so I wouldn't be surprised when it happened. Eric's hand came down heavily on my bottom and cried out a little at the sharp pain. Yet again I had failed to remember just how painful it would be. I squirmed a little as Eric brought down swat after stinging swat on my backside, trying to escape the pain.

I regretted what had happened, I felt bad for worrying her father, but right now I just wanted it to end. I was squirming and blinking back tears a few minutes later when he stopped. I couldn't help but be surprised, Eric's spankings were never that short. I had expected more. Eric stood me up and put me on my feet. Relief flooded through me.

"Remove your trousers, Lilla," Eric said in a low, serious, voice. No, oh god no, not that. Terror flooded into her mind as quickly as the relief disappeared. This wasn't fair! She hadn't been that bad!

"Pappa, snälla," Daddy, Please. I pleaded with him, hoping that he would change his mind, but knowing deep down that he wasn't going to. He was my father, he had never once changed his mind after he said there was going to be a punishment. He had always been set in his ways, stubborn. Pam said that I was the same, she blamed it on me having grown up with him, she had been raised by her own parents, unlike me, raised by a vampire.

"Nu, lilla," Now, little one. He replied. "Gör mig inte upprepa mig." Do not make me repeat myself.

I blinked back tears, he was so unmoving, despite the term of endearment he used he was unwavering in what he was doing. I pulled my trousers down and all but threw myself back over his lap. All I could do was hope that he didn't pull down my underwear as well. That would be too much humiliation. I didn't think I could take it. This was awful!

I lay there waiting. Eric started again, this time it seemed harder, I wasn't sure if it was because I had had to remove my trousers or because he was actually spanking harder. Either way I didn't think I could take much more of it. Tears were welling up in my eyes as he lit into my exposed bottom.

Tears escaped my eyes as I started sobbing quietly, thinking back over everything that had happened. Danny had left me. He was gone, he didn't want what we had been raised to expect. He had been my only friend, my best friend, he could have been my lover if we had both been turned. It hurt that he had left me. The pain I was focusing on stopped being in my backside. I couldn't believe that Danny had just left me when we had been raised together. I didn't understand why he didn't want what we had. Tears of mourning rolled down my cheeks as Eric kept spanking me soundly. Danny had gotten me into this situation, it was his fault entirely. I couldn't help but blame him, I didn't want to turn into a zombie, to be lonely and hurt, did I? But he had forced it upon me!

I didn't even notice that Eric had stopped spanking me. I was lying, sobbing brokenly across his lap as he rubbed circles across my back, he was crooning softly, whispering words of comfort that I was too distraught to hear. Eventually he picked me up and sat me on his lap, holding me close to him. I could tell that he was worried, he hadn't spanked me long enough or hard enough to warrant this kind of reaction, but I also knew that he understood.

He knew why I was crying really, and part of me thought that he had spanked me for this reason, he wanted me to get rid of all the emotions I had kept locked inside. I wasn't happy about it, hell no, no one was ever happy about getting hauled over their fathers lap. But at the same time, I knew he had done it because he cared.

My hands reached up and wrapped around his neck. I needed him right now, just to cuddle me and love me. I cried myself out over the next ten minutes, Eric was patient about it, more patient that I would have expected of him. He wasn't a tolerant man, to say the least. I was sniffling a little against his shirt. He kissed my forehead and I snuggled closer to him. "Do you feel better now, Lilla?" He asked, holding me close to him.

I nodded, still clinging to him in a way I hadn't done since I was around six years old. All I wanted to do was sleep now. I was emotionally drained from all the crying, it was typical really. A little bit of crying and I was ready to sleep for a week. I didn't even like sleeping during the night any more. I liked to sleep during the day so I could spend time with Pam and Eric, it had been that way since I turned thirteen and Eric stopped insisting that I had a regular bed time.

"Good," Eric whispered into my hair, kissing my crown softly. I hadn't felt this good in a while. Safe, relaxed and loved, it was lovely.

I yawned and dragged myself from his loving arms. "I'm going to go have a shower and then nap." I said, my voice hoarse from crying. I knew I must have looked a mess, I had looked that way since Danny had left, but my crying session would have given me red puffy eyes and tear strains all down my face. It wasn't a particularly attractive look.

"Okay, Lilla," He said, letting me get up. "I'll wake you in a few hours. My maker is arriving then."

I was surprised. "Godric is coming?" I asked him. I had never met Eric's maker. It wasn't unusual for Makers and their children to go a few decades without seeing each other, and Godric had always been a wanderer according to Eric. "I'm finally getting to meet him?" I couldn't help but feel a wave of excitement wash over me, despite my lethargy.

Eric chuckled at that. "Yes, child. Now go sleep."

I nodded and made my way to my room to grab a towel. Throughout my shower it felt strange how sharp everything looked. I felt alert and awake. I hadn't even noticed the cotton wool that had been wrapped around my mind since Daniel had left. It was bizarre that I hadn't realised. Water cascaded down my back as I rubbed a healthy amount of shampoo into my hair for the second time. I wanted to feel properly clean again. My mind was alert despite how tired I was, and part of me was nagging about Godrics impending visit. I didn't want to show Eric up my looking like a complete mess.

I stepped out of the shower twenty minutes later and made my way to my bed. Quickly drying off and towel trying my hair I crawled into bed. Godric was going to be there and I was finally going to meet my fathers maker.

As I drifted off to sleep not one thought of Daniel crossed my mind.

A/N Hi guys! I'm so so so so so sorry about how long it's taken me to update! I've been really busy with Uni and the boyfriend and attempting NaNoWriMo (I got over 30,000 words in before I realised I had 3 essay and an exam all in quick succession!). But anyway! I'm getting excited about where the story is going now! Any guesses about what is going to happen next? Please review and let me know! I love all of your reviews, they inspire me loads and make me really happy and feel loved! I hope you've enjoyed the chapter! I'll try to update again soon! xxx