Sorry for the late update, but I got some late-night writing done where I have completed chapter 16 (I think it was). From this point is where the story gets interesting because you get to explore a part of Johnny's mind that you probably have never really seen before. I'm working on some cool ideas to keep the story interesting and fresh. Thank you for reading, and please, if you liked it, leave a kind review! Please tell your friends! Thanks a lot, take it easy, and enjoy!
Who You Are - A Degrassi Fan Fiction
Chapter Ten: The Immaculate Consideration
So we walked around the building for a while since the bell didn't ring...that meant we had some time. Then, Darcy asked me a rather difficult question.
"Hey babe, what are you doing this weekend?"
"I don't know, you tell me."
"Wanna go to church with me on Sunday?"
Church? Really? Church? I've never been to Church a day in my life. The only time I've been inside one was for some lame wedding and that's about it. I never went to church when I was a child because my dad would get pissed off about us leaving so early in the morning. He thought the morning was 'time for cheating' for some reason since that's when people worked. Makes a lot of sense, right? What a douchebag...
I don't even know if I believe the same things that she does. She believes that there's a like..superhuman force called God who's got all this power and knows everything. She believes he randomly had a son called Jesus and had him die to save people from their sins. I'm sorry, but none of that makes sense to me. I hate religion because it ruins people's lives, but also on the other hand it doesn't make much sense to me.
People say that God is loving, and he helps you out and stuff...I don't even think that's true. Why? Because look at my life. Look at other people's lives. You've got people dying on the street, people with no home and they're the ones who turn to this God guy every day. I never got why. If He is even existent, then where the hell was he to help me out? Couldn't he have 'stricken my dad down' from hitting my mother? Couldn't he have made my mom find him cheating on her or even file for divorce? I guess not. Look, I'm not going to tell you that he doesn't exist because I don't know, but I just don't think he does.
Of course, I didn't say this to her. I said something similar to it, actually.
"Eh, not really."
"Oh? Why not? You busy already?"
I'm sorry, but I wasn't about to lie to my girlfriend. Lying is what screws people up in relationships.
"I just...Darcy, I don't believe what you believe." I thought she'd like break up with me or something, but she kinda smiled and was cool about it. The odd thing is she usually likes to preach to people about religion, but she didn't with me. I like that.
"Well, why not? How do you think we were made?"
"I don't know how, and nobody else does either. If there is a God, then well, he's a jerk because he hasn't been around for me or anyone else."
"You just gotta believe."
"It's hard to believe in something you don't even think is real."
She started to look a little sad. Damnit, I knew I screwed things up...
"I'm really sorry, Darcy. I just don't."
"It's okay, babe. Will you go with me anyway?" What? She still wanted me to go after I had just denounced everything she believed in?
"Uh...sure, I'll go." This girl is lucky I like her.
"Have you ever been to church before?"
"No."
"Good, then maybe this will be an eye opening experience for you. I just wanna show you that there is a God, and he exists. He's everywhere. Maybe you'll feel that in church."
I'm gonna need a whole lotta' believing to feel that. Something miraculous would have to happen, I swear.
"Alright, I'll try I guess." She smiled and we started kissing for a while. Then suddenly we heard someone clear their throat, and when we pulled away we saw it was Ms Hatzilakos.
She was grinning for some reason. "So Johnny, I can see that's the reason why you wanted to come back here." It was a joke, but I let out one of those half assed smiles and uncomfortable chuckles.
"You don't have to worry, Ms. Hatzilakos. Johnny's gonna be a good boy." Darcy said.
"Well that's good to hear, but just none of that PDA anymore. Oh yes, Johnny...I heard you apologized to a lot of teachers. When they told me I was very impressed."
"Yeah, well...I told you I was trying to change." I said.
"And I'm glad I can see that. Listen you two take it easy...on the kissing, of course." She said, smiling and walking away. Boy, that was weird.
We walked along in the hallway until I heard a familiar voice talking somewhere. I turned to see who it was and it was Liberty. Kinda rude though, because Darcy was talking to me about something. When she looked up at me and saw where I was looking, she looked in the same direction and sighed.
"Which one? Liberty? Are you serious?"
"It's not what you think...I'm not like...looking at her. I'm just...looking at her."
"I would appreciate it if you didn't."
"I'm sorry. So, what were you saying?"
And on she continued, talking. I really didn't know what the hell she was going on about because I kept tuning out. I was thinking about Liberty...I just had to explain to her what happened. Then I looked up and saw that Liberty had walked past me now.
"Liberty!" I shouted. Darcy was in the middle of a sentence and I had again, like an idiot, interrupted her. If it makes you feel better, Liberty ignored me again.
Darcy didn't look happy. Remember that 'rent money' look I was talking about earlier? Well, that's the look she gave me.
"What was that all about?" She asked.
"Nothing..."
"I'm not stupid. I know you like her or whatever."
"Don't say that..."
"Can I trust you? Like really, can I trust you? Because if you're gonna go and cheat on me with that, then..."
"You can trust me. I promise you I don't like her. I just have to tell her something."
"Yeah really? What?" Damnit, I didn't wanna tell anyone about this. But I guess I do now.
Then the bell rang and we kissed and went on our way. Saved by the bell would be an understatement. Hm, maybe that was God trying to help me out for once? I guess I'll never know.