CHAPTER 9

I'm sorry this is so short. But it necessary

Rosie's POV

"Carter, I have a baby"

"Baby I'm not a fan of role playing" I can't help but laugh. But I guess it's a nervous laugh cause its soon gone.

"I'm being serious Carter. I'm having a baby"she looks at me with blank eyes. I just look at her as she lowers her gaze. I'm about to say something, anything. But I think it's better if I just give her time so I wait. I wait looking at her and praying to God for her to understand. She quirks her eyebrow. I'm sure she's talking with herself. She always does that and it's usually cute but right now it just makes me more nervous.

"You cheated on me?" She whispers without looking at me. Her finger playing with the spoon inside her coffee

"What!? No! Carter no, I will never do that. The baby is not mine" she finally looks at me with a confused look. I am about to explain but she speaks before.

"Did you plan on having a baby with another girl?" A tear runs down her cheek and I feel so stupid for making her cry. I'm such an idiot.

"Baby, baby. Listen" I push my chair and stop when I'm just beside her. She turns to me but never lifts her head. I touch her cheek and lift her head up.

"Listen to me. I love you. You are my only girl. My one and only love. I will never cheat on you or ever leave you for another girl. The baby is not mine because I'm adopting him. It's a girl's baby who was getting an abortion but I didn't want that to happen so I adopted him" she pulls away from my touch and let her body relax over the chair.

"Oh boy Rosie. Don't ever scare me like that!" She leans over the table and rubs her face with her hands.

"I am so sorry baby. I didn't know how to tell you" I sit straight and took her hand between mine.

"I would understand if you don't want to stay with me" I whisper nervously. She isn't saying anything and it scares the crap out of me.

I pull my hands away and sit straight in my chair. She's just looking at the nowhere; her eyes are blank. Fuck my life, what do I do?

I wait a few minutes that felt like hours. She lowers her head to the opposite side and I take that as my signal.

I stand up from my chair and leave my napkin over the table.

"I'm sorry. I never wanted to hurt you" my voice is piercing. I'm at three to cry and it is too noticeable. I drop two dollars over the table and run away.

It's raining and I'm just in a thin coat. But honestly, I wouldn't care if a thunder falls on me right now.

I'm an asshole. Adopting a baby, what was I thinking?. Heck I had a life. I had a beautiful life. With my girlfriend, my school, my liberty. I shouldn't have adopted him. Now I lost her, I lost her forever.

Why didn't I think about it before? Of course she wasn't going to understand. Accepting your eighteen years old girlfriend having a baby that is not even hers? Accepting that kind of responsibility just because your girlfriend wanted to help that girl without your approval? Without even your opinion?

I walk through a dark hall with just one single light in front of a tattoos and piercings store.

Nobody is that stupid. Let alone Carter. She's an amazing girl with a beautiful soul. But this is too much and I'm the one who ended up understanding. Understanding that I was so so so stupid. She's an amazing and sweet girl. An amazing girl who I lost now

I'm lost. I don't know where to go. I don't know where I am. Everything is dark and I can hear a group of men laughing and crashing bottles. I'm dead. I'm fucking dead . . .