time passed in ponyville and i grew out of my depression. me and the others had many fun adventures. and it was just growing out of winter. next week ponyville is going to celebrate winter wrap up. i'm kind of excited but i know its going to be allot of work.

we already went through the running of the leaves and it was pretty fun. i came in third place. me and twilight had a little race between each other. not like the one rainbow dash and applejack had. they are quite competitive. we just paced ourselves and we ran like hell near the end. she ended up beating me and i accepted my loss.

it turns out that in the chest i had kept for myself had a bit more money in it than i thought. when i was counting the money i realised i took a few things of jewelry. i cashed them in and made a couple hundred more bits. i also came across a huge blood diamond. it was worth a lot. i used the money from the diamond to buy my own house and land too.

so now i'm living in my own house now. its pretty big but it's also lonely here. rarity comes over sometimes and she usually spends the night. i have developed a habit of singing a lullaby to myself every night. it's the same lullaby i used to sing to sarah. the doctors say that i'm showing symptoms of chronic depression. they suggested activities to help me with my depression but they don't work.

my lifes a wreck but i'm happy on the outside and sometimes it feels like i'm happy on the inside. it's not a gloomy life, but sometimes i get depressed when i'm alone not doing anything because that's usually when i don't have anything to distract me and my mind wanders to my family. the doctors also gave me some medication to help me forget but i don't take the pills i just let the bottle sit on the counter.

i've been thinking about getting a pet but if i lost it or when it dies it would only make me feel worse. so i'm not letting that happen. although i do sometimes help fluttershy with the animals. it's fun but i don't do it too often.

i got rid of my job at sweet apple acres. well i didn't exactly get rid of it. i was fired. it was an awkward meeting between me and applejack but my work ethic was slipping because of my attitude and i was messing things up. it was for the best and i knew that too. i was going to quit anyway. so i'm without a job but i still have that chest of gold which has 120,000 bits in it. so i think i'm set for a while. i didn't mean to take so much money from that cave but i guess i did.

every day was just another day now. every day i usually go for a walk around town and wait for something to happen. and whatever happens is what makes my day. sometimes i go and help twilight with her magic by being a test subject. and other times i have a race with rainbow dash. plus i do spend a lot of time with rarity. i also make food with applejack and pinkie.

i woke up today around noon. i usually wake up around noon lately. i don't really miss much. i got up showered brushed my teeth and fixed my hair. i've started to get a bit of a beard. i'm not sure how that's possible but whatever it looks good. i went downstairs and made breakfast. by the time i finished and put away the dishes and grabbed my things it was almost one.

i headed out and walked through town. ponyville looks peaceful during the winter. the white snow and the cool wind. it's nice during the winter being a horse i'm not freezing cold. i eventually made my way in front of twilights house. i could hear her calling me from the window.

"hey blast come in."

she probably had a new spell to test out. whenever she tests out a spell it usually takes a few tries for her to get it right. and sometimes i end up getting hurt or blinded or both. i walked up to the door, opened it and stepped inside.

"hey i have a new spell that i wanted to try on you."

"what is it this time." i asked

"well if i'm correct." she said levitating a book in front of her face. "this should turn you back into a human for a short time."

"really." i said perking up to the idea.

"yep, i thought it might be nice for you to be human again plus i might try it on myself."

i was pretty excited about this i get to be human again. i was a bit too excited that i didn't take the time to think about what could possibly go wrong.

"alright twi hit me." i said determined to be me again.

"alright." she said. her horn started to glow and there was a bright flash of light. i could feel my muscles stretching and pulling. it hurt a bit and i grit my teeth to bare the pain. there was a flashing sound and a puff of smoke. i slowly got up and noticed that i was human again. i steped up and almost felt like dancing.

"twilight you did it." i said searching for her. i turned around and saw twilight. her eyes were the size of a grain of rice and she was blushing. then it hit me...i was naked and standing right in front of her.

"oh shit." i said covering myself. "twilight i'm sorry."

"its fine" she said looking away. "at least it worked. now i think i want to try."

before i could stop her she started to concentrate and her horn glowed. there was flash and another puff of smoke. i looked over and saw her lying on the floor. she was human. she was beautiful too. she tried to get up and ended up wobbling around. she fell down and i went over to help her.

she was very interested in her hands. she was staring at her new body. she looked everywhere. i mean everywhere. she even grabbed her breasts and started playing with them.

"twilight you shouldn't do that."

"how come you don't have these." she said

"only females do." i said covering my eyes and blushing.

"oh...OH, i'm sorry." she said blushing.

"it's fine just don't have too much fun."

for the next few minutes i helped her get on her own feet. i was completely aware of the fact we were both naked but there isn't really anything we can do about that. she finally got up and i helped her walk around. she got a hang of it quickly. i couldn't help stare at her body. it was definitely an awkward moment for me but she was just acting natural.

she walked around her house and started picking up random things. she closed her eyes and stood there for a minute.

"twilight what are you doing." i said

"taking notes." she said

"you know humans can't use magic." i said her eyes opened and she looked over to the notepad on the table.

"oh right." she said. she walked over to the quill and grabbed it. she seemed to have trouble grabbing the quill and writing. "how the hell am i supposed to take notes now."

"here let me." i said grabbing the quill and notepad.

"thank you." she said. as she dictated notes to me i wrote them down. some of them were a bit personal

"well the genitals seem to be similar." she said looking at her between her legs and looking back at me.

"this isn't one of my proudest moments."

"well it could be worse. the spell could have backfired and you could be a half pony half human freak."

"that is true. like the time you tried to turn that cloth into a suit and it ended up fusing to my skin."

"that was pretty bad."

we ended up reflecting on past experiments. some of them were pretty crazy. she walked over and sat down on her couch.

"come and sit with me." she said i slowly made my way over and i sat down next to her.

"so when is this supposed to be over." i asked

"well i don't know maybe like 20 minutes."

"you said for a short while."

"i might have lied a bit." i sighed and tried to relax but it was still a bit awkward. "so is there anything interesting about human anatomy i should know." she said putting her hand on my leg. she moved her arm up and it brushed my dick and i shivered.

"cmon lets have some fun."

"twilight no." i said getting up.

"what's wrong."

"have you completely forgotten about me and rarity."

"she doesn't have to know." she said getting up and pressing her chest against mine.

"alright twilight you wanna know something interesting." i said. i brought my hand over to her neck and pressed down on the artery connecting her heart to her jugular. she fell to the ground and dozed off. can't do that on a horse. but a human works fine. we call it the vulcan death grip like in the old movie star trek. it works quite efficiently.

i felt bad about knocking her out. i couldn't really go anywhere like this so i grabbed her in my arms and brought her up to her room. i placed her in her bed and put the covers over her. i took a seat next to her and sat there. she should be out for the next ten minutes. she might get up before we change back so i have to wait.

i knew that she might have been desperate but not that desperate. i felt sorry for her. i almost wanted to have sex with her too but i'm not that kind of guy. a few minutes passed and twilight started to get up.

"ugh... crimson i'm sorry."

"it's fine twilight. i don't blame you i understand."

"i honestly don't know what came over me."

"it might have been the mental change."

"that makes sense" she said rubbing her head

i looked over at her and she put her head down. she seemed troubled, but like i said she was desperate. maybe i could help her with that later. i walked over and sat down on her bed. it was pretty small. but then again i was twice the size of the ponies again. i put my arm on her back and pulled her close to me.

i put my chin on her shoulder and hugged her.

"c'mon, what's wrong?"

"nothing" she said.

we sat there for a minute in an awkward silence. i tried to comfort her but nothing was working.

"c'mon lets go back downstairs."

"alright."

i walked over to the stairs and stepped on the first step. i was hit with a sudden pain in the base of my spine and it soon rippled all over my body. i howled in pain and fell down the stairs. i hit the wall with a thud and stated writhing in pain. i looked up the stairs and saw twilight on the ground struggling too.

the horrible pain washed over me and i just laid there waiting for it to stop. i closed my eyes and grit my teeth. i grunted at every wave of pain. eventually i got tired of struggling and blacked out.

i woke up minutes later and stood up. i was smaller though. i looked down and noticed that i was a pony again. that hurt more than becoming a human. i looked up the stairs and saw twilight lying there on the top of the stairs. my eyes were only open for a second before i fell back to sleep.

i was woken up by a shoving and a strange voice.

"hey...hey are you alright." said the voice.

"wha...who?" i said waking up. i looked up and saw a brown pegasus stallion with dark blue hair.

"you alright mate?"

"uhh yeah i'm fine."

"are you sure. because i can come back later."

"no it's fine..."

"alright then are you the owner of this library."

"no that would be twilight...crap." i said running up the stairs where twilight was laying unconscious. i put my hoof on her and tried to wake her up by shaking her.

"hey twi wake up."

"ugh...my head."

"um is it too much to ask what happened."

"we were testing spells and there was some...ugh...lets call it magical backfire."

"but you're not a unicorn."

"no but i was the test subject."

i poked twilight again and she made her way onto her own hooves. we walked down the stairs and gathered in the main room.

"are you the unicorn in charge of the library." asked the brown stallion.

"yes that would be me. my name is twilight sparkle."

"its a pleasure to meet you miss sparkle. my name is star grazer." he seemed like a real gentleman. this might be exactly what twilight needs. this is perfect. "i'm here to take out a few books."

"you like to read."

"of course when i heard ponyville had a library i headed over immediately."

"you didn't know we had a library."

"well i'm new here, just flew in from cloudsdale."

"well then let me be the first to welcome you to ponyville."

"thank you miss sparkle."

"please just call me twilight."

"alright then." he said he looked back at me and looked at my wings. "so how did flight school treat you." he said to me

"oh i never went to flight school."

"really. can you fly? i've never heard of a pegasus that hasn't been to flight school."

"my background story is a bit of an interesting one. basically i schooled myself, you know trial and error."

"nice."

"anyway, if you want just look around and pick out some books from the collection." said twilight catching his attention

"alright then lets see here..." he said going about his business and browsing through the books i walked over to the kitchen and pulled twilight in with me

"what do you want"

"you have to ask him out." i whispered so that stargrazer couldn't hear us.

"you think i should"

"well duh. he's excellent i bet you two have tons in common."

"but i'm not good at this stuff."

"just ask him if he wants to take a tour of ponyville with you and if he doesn't have a place to stay offer him a place."

"you think that will work."

"absolutely."

"alright then."

we walked back into the room. he didn't seem to have noticed that we left because he was still browsing twilights collection of books. he had 3 books sitting on the floor next to him.

"alright i think that should be enough for the week."

"do you have a place to stay."

"well no but i plan to resolve that soon."

"well if you can't find a place to stay you're always welcome here."

"alright thank you."

i could see my work was done. i said goodbye to the two of them and went on my merry way out into the town. it was the late afternoon and there was a cold winter breeze. it felt rather cold today. so i decided to make my way back home.

i finally got home and into my nice warm house. i walked over to the fireplace and threw a few logs in the pit and made a cozy fire. i walked into the kitchen and wiped up some hot coco.

i sat down next to the fire and sipped my coco. i always did love the winter time. it was quiet and peaceful. and this was my favorite part. i looked outside and saw it was snowing. that made it perfect. i love to sit by the fire on a snowy day and drink some hot chocolate. i used to do this when i was a kid.

i remember one time on christmas eve i stayed in the living room and tried to see if i could catch santa. i fell asleep next to the fire with the family dog and woke up the next morning buried in presents.

i finished my coco and stood up to bring my empty cup into the kitchen. i put the cup in the sink and walked back to the fireplace.

i took one step and it felt like i had broke my ankle i fell to the ground and yelled out in pain. but i don't think anybody will hear me my house is in the middle of nowhere. i could feel an immense pain in my stomach and back.

i continued to hollar in pain. i rolled around and grasped my chest so i could take deep breaths but it was getting harder and harder to breath. my vision started to get blurry and i could see white spots in front of my eyes.

i yelled out in pain one more time and gave up. i clenched my teeth and passed out. the room around me went dark and silent too. i could feel the cold winter breeze on the back of my neck. i opened my eyes and looked around. nothing was different. the fire went out and one of the windows was open.

this couldn't be good and i think i know what happened. i looked down to see if i was right and i was. i was human again, and naked. how was i human though it didn't make sense. maybe twilight can help me with this. but first i think i still have my old clothes. i made my way upstairs to a locked drawer in my bedroom. i opened it and took out my old army gear. i put it on and it fit perfectly.

now this is going to be tricky. i can't let anybody see me like this or else it'll be a whole shit storm. i opened another drawer and took out an ensemble rarity made me. i need to hide my face somehow too. so i ripped it up and bit so that it would fit and i made it into a little hood. it had a bit of a cape to it.

i put it on and it completely covered my face. good. just incase somebody should see me they won't recognize my face. alright its now or never. i opened the door and peered outside. it was night time, perfect. i looked around and made sure that there weren't and ponies around and i headed out. i stuck to the shadows and the woods

i got to the thick of the town and there were street lights everywhere. there were also a few ponies out there too. i looked around and found a few things i could use to climb onto the roofs. i got on top of the building and jumped from building to building. i felt like some kind of superhero.

i looked around and i made sight of twilights tree. i hopped a few more roofs. i got to the edge of one roof and noticed there weren't any more buildings for me to get a clear shot to twilights. i looked down and there were some ponies hanging out down by one of the houses.

if i dropped down and ran for it they would see me. i looked around and saw a few rocks on the ground. i looked around and there was one lamp keeping the area lit. i dropped to the ground behind the house and grabbed a rock. i stayed on the side of the house and peered over the side.

they were still there. i could step out a bit and still be in the darkness but i only had one shot. i cocked my arm back and threw the rock. it hit the candle and it fell and went out. perfect now i can get through. i sprinted over to twilights. i looked back and the other ponies were setting the candle back up while others were looking around for who knocked it over.

the light came back on but i was in the clear. i reached for twilights door and tried the knob. it was locked, crap. i looked around and noticed the overhang. i started climbing my way up using branches and other things on the house. i got to the overhand and saw that there was a door to the library's second floor.

i pushed the door open and slipped in silently. i closed the door behind me and snuck through the house. i looked around and tried to find her. i heard the door downstairs open up and close. she must be home.

i peered down stairs and the lights turned on and she was with that other pegasus from earlier. crap i can't let him see me. i turned and rushed down the dark hallway into a random room. i looked around and saw i was in twilights room. i heard hoofsteps heading up the stairs and laughter.

i looked around for a place to hide. i quickly got on my back and wedged myself under her bed. i had to shift around so that my feet didn't poke out of the end of the bed. i heard to door creak open and the room was filled with light. i could hear her talking with the pegasus.

"thank you again for letting me stay with you."

"not a problem."

"so where's the guest room."

"thats the only problem i don't have a guest bed but my beds king sized so we can share it."

"alright then, it's better than nothing."

all i could see were their hooves. they disappeared onto the bed and the bed started to press down on my chest. they weren't that heavy but it made it a bit more uncomfortable. i just hope they don't start doing it right on top of me

"good night stargrazer."

"hey twilight."

"yeah"

"maybe tomorrow you and me could go out for dinner."

"that would be great."

"good night twilight."

"good night"

i laid there and waited for a bit until i was sure they were asleep. it was about an hour later that i decided it was safe to crawl from my hiding spot. i slowly poked my head out and crawled my way out from under the bed. i got up and saw the two of them sleeping back to back. they made a cute couple.

but this does put my plans to a pretty bad delay. i quietly snuck my way downstairs and into the kitchen. i looked around and found some blank scrolls and the ink well. i wrote her a quick note.

"twilight meet me at my house tomorrow. it's important. sincerely crimson blast."

i left the note open on her table and snuck my way out of the house. i quickly ran through the shadows and made my way to my house. i walked in and closed the door behind me. hopefully she will get my note and head over here tomorrow.

but it was late and i was tired. i walked into the living room and slumped down onto the couch and drifted off to sleep. i hope everything works out between her and stargrazer. and i hope that she can help me turn back.