Sometimes I really hate my life. I own nothing!

I felt really awkward when typing this. Since I don't really like romance unless it's Yaoi. All the other stuff like well Twilight…ugh! Just don't get it, that's my opinion.

So enough of my life, which I know isn't interesting at this moment, on with the story.

Chapter 10

Shinra decided to only examine the head only in the night as Celty slept, if he managed to wake up before the head-less women he'd also check, Shinra felt bad, he hated himself for having to connect Celty's head to all those machines but he had no choice. Celty's head had all the normal functions that any person might have. The thinking process was still functioning, along with all the normal body function. There was still the problem with Celty's smile, although her eyes said something else. Behind her thin eye lids her eyes were moving back and forth, as if searching or looking for something. Her body perhaps or a way out. There was also a worriment on her face that her just couldn't explain.

When returning home Izaya was relieved that he didn't run into anybody else who knew him. Truth be told the only thing different from him was his clothing. Could there be something different in his physical appearance? After putting away all the grocery they bought Izaya went straight to the bathroom. As he stared at his face in the mirror he noticed there was something different. His face had a more child-like appearance to it. His cheeks seemed fuller and his face seemed a little rounder too.

Izaya stared deep into his own eyes. His eyes appeared wider and his pupils deeper. In his eyes he couldn't find the strains of malice that used to stain his orbs. His face, overall, just had a new abundance of child-like innocents that he himself didn't know he possessed.

Izaya wondered if this was why Namie hadn't recognized him, or maybe it's because she never really looked me in the face. Ha.

Izaya really didn't know what to make of this. When had this happened to him? Was this a sign of his newly gained view on life? Izaya actually hadn't gotten to terms on his new life. Basically he just wanted Shizuo. Well he needed to come into turns.

Okay from now on I will be nice, the complete opposite of the person I was that lead to my demise. I will now truly try to understand others instead of just causing them pain. There was one rule he just wasn't sure how to deal with. Humans aren't allowed to touch their gods, but he had Shizuo now. Could he still keep that rule but make an exception for Shizuo.

Well all he knew was that he'd be sure when the time came, Izaya had other things to focus on at the moment. He and Shizuo were suppose to cook something together. Couples do that, right? Right? Someone say right!? Whoa calm down Izaya. First things first something to cook.

"Shizuo do you have a computer I can use" Izaya said as he approached the blonde. Shizuo seemed a little confused by the question while Izaya took a seat next to Shizuo.

"Umm…..no" Shizuo was clearly not as rich as Izaya was. It took him a few years just to earn enough money for a television. His job and life style was different from Izaya.

Izaya could tell by Shizuo's expression that he really shouldn't have asked, how could he have forgotten that the blonde was always working "Oh well then maybe I could go get my own-"

"I doubt it would have survived the trashing of your apartment"

"Oh right" Izaya recalled his accidental viewing of the news report.

Shizuo stared at Izaya, his face was despaired and quite sad. Shizuo may have not had any idea what Izaya was planning to do but he just reall wanted to make the raven happy. "Actually I think I might have something you could use"

Apparently Shizuo did own a computer, one his brother had given him a couple years ago. It's just Shizuo lacked the technical know-how, and patience, to set it up. He kept the computer only because it was from his brother and his brother was important to him. Shizuo had placed the box containing the computer and all the equipment in his closet.

Shizuo grabs Izaya by the wrist and takes him to his room. Izaya was a little worried, what was Shizuo planning to do. Shizuo went into his closet and began going through at the clothes, junk and other crap he had lying on the floor of his closet. During the entire time Izaya couldn't help but stare at Shizuo's butt the entire time, all in which earning an obvious blush. Shizuo had a very nice ass.

Shizuo came out with a bunch of card board boxes covering his face, lucky for Izaya seeing he was bright, cherry red. Shizuo once again grabbed Izaya by the wrist, managing to balance all the boxes in one hand. Izaya had actually forgotten about Shizuo's strength for a moment and was a little shocked that he could do that. Shizuo must have known his apartment really well seeing he was able to make it back to the living room with all those boxes covering his face and not tripping once.

Shizuo set the boxes on the floor and set Izaya down on the couch, while Izaya looked at Shizuo confused the blonde began to open up the box. While he did this Izaya once again pondered what was in those bland card board boxes. Shizuo was going throw one after another, throwing white pieces of packing peanuts all around the air making it look like snow. Shizuo went through three of the boxes every time looking unsatisfied when he sees what's in them and pushing them away. Izaya took this chance to go see what was in these boxes. Looking in one he found a broadband, in the other were several cables and an instruction guides. Izaya's eyes lit up, when he turned around he saw Shizuo carrying the computer monitor, a trail of cables hanging behind.

"So where do I put this thing" Shizuo had no clue what Izaya wanted with this but he just really wanted to make Izaya happy.

"Um…" Izaya began to look around and spotted a desk in the corner of the living room "there!" Izaya said as he ran to the spot. Shizuo did as the energetic raven asked.

Shizuo carefully set the computer monitor down, not wanting to break it with his strength. Shizuo grabbed one of the cables that was attached to the monitor and began to look at it puzzled.

"Just bring all thee boxes to me and I'll take care of the rest" Izaya said taking the cable from the blonde.

Shizuo did as Izaya had instructed and moved all the boxes within arm's length of the raven. While Izaya connected everything up Shizuo kept his eyes on the raven the entire time. He knew Izaya was smart but the way he knew where everything went and never even once made a mistake was impressive. He never even once looked at the instructions. Once again Shizuo noticed how fascinated Izaya became to a point were once again shining. Whatever it was he was going to use that thing for it must have been important.

Izaya managed to get the computer running and immediately preceded to check how well the internet connection was. Shizuo didn't even know he had any but apparently his cell phone provider did.

"Alright I'll say it, your pretty damn smart" Shizuo said gently patting Izaya's back.

"T-Thanks….um…would it be…to much if you…,you know" Shizuo knew were this was headed.

"I get it, you want to try out your new….whatever" The ex-bartender stated as he left the room. It's not that he didn't trust Izaya it was just that what would be so secretive that he would actually tell him to go.? They haven't even been dating for that long. There was also this pain in the back of his mind, what if Izaya was just using him?

Izaya wasn't sure where to start so he just typed in "Food couples make" in the search bar, it felt a little weird referring to himself and Shizuo as a "couple" but it was a good kind of weird. His search ended up with the usual mash up that search engines offer. Helpful recipes, adds, celebrity gossip, and the useless crap that just happen to have those words in it. One of the first ones that came up said "Romantic meals for couple" Izaya picked this one and found stuff that would work. He choose Apple crisp, seeing Shizuo loved sweets, grilled sesame chicken breast and maybe drink juice or cider seeing Shizuo hated alcohol.

He continued to go through the other links wondering if there was anything else he could use. While the raven made it to some of the last pages and decided to log out. He was about to when a link caught his eye. It was to a website that told the history of cultural myth and there ordeals with food and love. He found several stories on tragic loves between gods and humans and the strange remedies such plants and fruits provided, even one on the pomegranate being tied with the cold hell of Hades. There were several sections that focused on a particular culture, he even found one for Ireland, Celty's native land, and a page on Japan. While going through the native cultures he found a particular myth in the India section that interested him. It was about certain special beings that would be born among humans as a combination of male and female characteristics and bring upon a new age for them to lead. Even today that was still practiced in the rural parts of India, usually dealing with feminine looking males or masculine females. Izaya new the entire gender-swap thing was quite common in other countries but the idea that a specific person would be with both genders was interesting. Like a chosen one or messiah.

Seeing how long he had spent on the legends Izaya quickly went back to the food sight and went to go get a paper and pen to write down all the ingredients. As the raven did he felt something in his stomach, something tingly and strange. Izaya realized what he was doing was pretty strange, relationships were weird to him, love was an odd concept and now he was in it. He didn't understand what he was feeling but mainly it felt light nervousness. Maybe it was just his lack of experience that made him feel this way or maybe it was the fact that he really liked Shizuo and didn't want to mess this up.

Izaya wrote down all the ingredients, which were pretty basic, and went to go find his blonde. Hmmm mine. I like it. Oh I shouldn't but I cant resist. Izaya Heiwajima. Izaya made it to Shizuo's bedroom were the blonde was casually lying on his bed staring at the roof. While the blond was distracted Izaya took the chance to jump the blonde. Izaya landed right on Shizuo's chest, the blonde didn't even flinch.

"Hey" Shizuo said wrapping his hands around Izaya's waist.

"Come on, let's go cook" Izaya said as Shizuo pulled him closer.

"Cant we just stay like this for a moment"

" After, okay. Cooking takes time after all" Izaya said c upping Shizuo's face in his hands. Shizuo moved his face closer to Izaya's and placed his lips on Izaya's kissing him gently. Izaya giggle deep inside as he felt Shizuo warm lips, it really did make him feel special when Shizuo did that. After all how many people can say they've kissed Shizuo Heiwajima?

"Okay let's go" Shizuo said grabbing hold of Izaya's thin hand and hauling the raven along with him.

The slow clang of a silver blade hitting a cutting board while slicing through bright red fruit echoed through the kitchen.

Izaya took one of the uncut apples and held it in his hands holding it up to Shizuo's face "You know Shizuo apples are known as forbidden fruit by it's role in several myth by causing chaos?" Izaya then set the uncut apple down and picked up the two pieces of the apple he had just cut. Izaya showed off the center of the apple, it's cut up seeds and pit "Apples are also known for being romantic because of how they look when cut down the middle"

"Um…no" Shizuo said taking the apple, Izaya really made Shizuo feel stupid sometimes.

"Strawberries too, they're the cause of a lot of romances in legends, because of their smell and….ha" Izaya began to giggle.

" Why?! Come on I likes strawberries!' Shizuo looked at Izaya's face, so red from laughing.

"It l-looks….like a nipple" Izaya said trying to contain his laughter. Shizuo stared at the raven confused , sure he knew Izaya had a thing for folklore but that's just weird.

"Well, maybe I should get one and suck on it in front of you" Izaya practically fainted. Shizuo just wanted to laugh at Izaya's blood red, shocked face.

Izaya went back to cutting apples while Shizuo took the apple he had cut and began mixing it with cinnamon. Izaya had so many questions to ask the blonde but wasn't sure where to start. Well, might as well start with the most serious.

"So Shizuo" Izaya said positioning the blade of the knife on the apple. If there was one thing Izaya knew it was knives "h-how long h-have you…known that you liked…guys?"

Shizuo stopped mixing and looked at Izaya "Izaya why would you ask that. Have you known for a long time?"

"N-No that's not it! I-I never knew I liked anybody, male or female, never had feeling for anyone before you. I just wanted to know if I'm your first too" Izaya blushed he couldn't even look Shizuo straight in the eyes he was so embarrassed, Shizuo actually laughed at this.

"Nope never really looked at other guys , so I guess you can say you're my first guy" Izaya remembered Shizuo saying he had gone on one date before him. Something deep inside him hated that. Izaya tightened his grip on the knife he could feel his hand began to sweat.

"You said that….you had been on one date before. Who was it?" Izaya body felt stiff, he wanted to take back the question. Izaya's hand began to hurt because of how hard he was gripping the knife, jealously was truly a horrid emotion. Izaya let go of the knife letting it fall back on the cutting board, the blade jutting out.

"Well it was-" Izaya couldn't take it.

"Actually Shizuo I-"

"Izaya you should know s-" Izaya was about to stop Shizuo when his hand swoop over the bowl of apples, the red fruit rolling across the floor as the glass bowl smashed into small, crystal like pieces. Izaya cleared a small patch of the glass with his foot and got down on his knees to pick up the apples. Shizuo did the same not even bothering to clear away the glass. Izaya could feel glass bits digging into his flesh.

"Izaya why does this bother you so much, I told you I've never liked any guys before you" Izaya didn't want to hear it, he continued to pick up the apples. Shizuo decided to stay quiet seeing Izaya just didn't want to hear it, he wondered if he'd be this mad if he found out Izaya had been in a relationship before him. The thought of it actually pissed him off, the thought of someone touching Izaya the way he did really did make him mad. Shizuo had become so protective of Izaya, he wanted Izaya to be his and only his.

Izaya's arms became filled with apples, as he tried to stand a piece of glass became jabbed in his hands, blood slowly pouring from his cut and down his arm. Shocked by the pain going through him, the sight of his red blood, Izaya slammed his head on the bottom of the counter. The shock sending waves through the counter, the knife wobbling. Before either of them had a chance to react the knife fell jabbing itself inside Izaya's side. Izaya could feel the pain course through his body, the clod metal going through his skin, flesh, and veins. Red blood began to stain his shirt and run out of his body, dripping slowly on the floor. Izaya body couldn't handle it, he felt himself get colder and colder as the world around him darkened. The last thing he saw was the blonde's face, a face filled with horror, shock, and worry before everything went black and his body fell, his head slamming hard on the floor as more blood poured out of him and bits of glass jabbed into his flesh.

Me: Ohh! Poor Izaya no! Remember when I said something bad was brewing, well it still is, this is not the bad I was referring to. Is this angst or just plain drama to you?

Izaya: I'm Dead!

Me: No your not, don't say that. You guys haven't even done the dirty yet! This just builds up Shizuo's protect-

Shizuo: Stop your giving it away.

Me: Your just embarrassed because you becoming obsess-

Shizuo: STOP!

Me: Oh I also had a weird dream where Izaya's voice told me of a warm between the three gang leaders. Guess who he was talking about?

Izaya: Reveiw or she might kill me!

Me: I'd never do that*Halo*

Izaya: Sadiast.

Me: Hmmm...I am a bit of a sadiast, I like getting hurt so I can be comforted.

Shizuo: That's...just...sad.

Me: I know. Reveiw! Every reveiw get's me further away from depression and suicidal thoughts.

Izaya: She's not kidding.