Ikuto: Well it seems we have to take over this again.
Amu: Is Small-chan STILL upset?
Ikuto: Appears so.
Nagihiko: I told her it wasn't a big deal.
Ikuto: Yes well apparently you're her favorite character.....wait.....WHAT?! I thought I was her favorite character!
Lynya: Nope. Nagi is. You pwn him in hotness. No doubt. But he pwns you in sheer awesomeness. Therefore, he is Small-chan's favorite character......Wait where'd Ikuto go?
Amu: In the emo corner with Small-chan.
Lynya: I see.....well....I guess it's just us three now.
Nagihiko: *sigh* It's really not a big deal. So she totally forgot about episode 91. Big deal. At least she watched it.
Yeah......THREE DAYS AFTER IT CAME OUT! * cries in emo corner *
Lynya: Oh great now she's crying again.
*sniffle* It wouldn't be *sniffle* so bad *sniffle* if I hadn't *sniffle* TOTALLY forgotten *sniffle* about it. *bursts out crying*
Lynya: Jeez.....Oh and if you lovely people out there don't know what she means, she means that instead of going " Oh episode 91 is out today. Well I don't have time to watch it. I'll watch it when I have time." No, she completely forgot. She didn't remember the episode came out on Friday for her. Heck she didn't even remember until Monday.
Amu: I doubt she would have remembered if that site didn't say Shugo Chara episode 91 out. Then it got her thinking about if she watched it or not.
Lynya: Yeah.....
*cries louder*
Nagihiko: You two. Stop making her feel worse.
Lynya and Amu: Sorry......
Nagihiko: Okay. So now we have to get Ikuto to snap outta it. Any ideas?
Lynya: I have one. * Goes over to Ikuto. Pushes him against the wall and kisses him in a fiery passion*
Amu: O.O
Nagihiko......
Lynya: Well that should do it.
Ikuto:....what?
Nagihiko: I think you made him a mindless zombie.
Lynya: Better then being emo in a corner.
Nagihiko: True...
Lynya: Okay so enough about that. Small-chan has a story to write.
Yep...I do.....
Lynya: Okay! *throws computer over to Small-chan* Now write!
I gotta say something first. Okay for this song.....well....lets just say I'd have an easier time writing it as M. But this IS my virgin account so I have to keep it at a T. So it may have minor mature-ish content. Onto the chapter.
( Amu's POV)
My mind was far from gone at the moment. I could feel Ikuto's movements against my body. After a few more minutes he collapsed beside me and pulled me closer. And now my mind was coming back.
Release me , release my body.
My mind was begging him to release me. But my heart was saying otherwise.
I know it's wrong, So why am I with you now
It was so wrong for me to be with him now. I was with Tadase. It was wrong to cheat on Tadase, I knew that. But then why was I with him now.
I say release me, Cause I'm not able to
convince myself
That I'm better off without you.
I knew that I could never convince myself that I didn't want to be with him. But Tadase and I were married. But he worked nights, that's why I could be with Ikuto. I wish he would let me go.
Yeah, it's perfectly clear
That love's not what you need
He was asleep. I know he didn't need love. Just lust. Love has nothing to do with our relationship. Well...for him anyway. I loved him with a mad passion. Maybe it was because we've been through more together, or maybe it's the fact he doesn't suck in bed.
I tell you I don't care
But I don't want to
I tell him that I don't care about him but we always end up having sex anyway. It's not like I want to, but it'll keep me from having to break Tadase's heart. I do love him....but I also still love Ikuto.
Anything that you say
I hear myself agree
" You know you want me." He would always say when I denied him.
I always nodded my head or agreed. Somehow I couldn't find myself able to disagree.
And I don't recognize
What I've turned into,
I don't even recognise myself anymore. I use to be all Tadase's. Never so much as looking at another man. But then I saw Ikuto.....and he turned me into someone else.
I don't know why I want you so
'Cause I don't need the heart break
I don't know why I want him. Why I need him. I'm sure if I told him my true feelings, he would break my heart. I didn't need a heartbreak.
I don't know what addictive hold
You have on me I can't shake
He was like an addiction. Like some sort of drug. An addictive hold that I just couldn't shake.
No, I'm not in control
So let me go
I wasn't in control. I needed him to let me go. So I could live happily with Tadase. My husband Tadase......
Release me
Release my body
His warm arms were comforting around my waist. I kept staring at the ceiling. Ikuto would be gone in the morning but back at night.
I know it's wrong
So why do I keep coming back
Why do I let myself do this? Why can't I just be happy with Tadase? My heart was always fighting with my head and I don't know which one to listen to. No matter what though, I would always go to Ikuto if I had a problem. I could confide in him, not my husband.
I say release me
'Cause I'm not able to
Convince myself
That I'm better off without you
I wish I could convince myself I was better off without him. But I knew I never could. Never in a million years. He was the one I wanted in my heart. But my mind told me I wanted Tadase.
I could sleep by myself
You would burn me alive
I wouldn't have a problem sleeping by myself....I think.....I've never really tried it. Ikuto showed up before Tadase got the night shift. I use to go out at night and sleep with Ikuto. Tadase never knew. He thought I just went out to dance.
Find me somebody else
But I don't want to
I'm sure with more practice Tadase could be just as great as Ikuto in bed. But something told me that I wouldn't want the same thing with Tadase. It was all about Ikuto.
Try to leave out the love
That goes against the grain
This love totally goes against all properness. A married woman should only be loving her husband. Not some other man. No matter how sexy he was.
But I can rationalize it
If I have to
Somehow my heart rationalized it for me. Saying it wasn't wrong. That I should be with the one I truly loved.
I don't know why I want you so
'Cause I don't need the heart break
I don't know what addictive hold
You have on me I can't shake
No, I'm not in control
So let me go
I sighed and felt tears well up in my eyes. If only he could release me from his hold. I don't know weather that'd be better or not though....
Release me
Release my body
I know it's wrong
So why do I keep coming back
I say release me
'Cause I'm not able to
Convince myself
That I'm better off without you..
My cell phone went off and I picked it up right away.
" Hello?" I answered in a fake groggy voice.
" Yes Amu this is Tadase." Tadase's voice said.
" Oh hey Tadase. What do you need?" I asked.
" I called to tell you I've divorcing you. I know you're with Ikuto right now. Unless you can leave him then I won't be with you. Goodbye." He said then hung up.
I hung up the phone then brought my knees up to my chest and began to sob.
I'm not in control
So let me go
I wasn't in control of my feelings so this is what I get. Pain and misery. I cried a little louder.
Release me
Release my body
I know it's wrong
So why do I keep coming back
I say release me
'Cause I'm not able to
Convince myself
That I'm better off without you..
I knew what I had to do to keep Tadase. I shook Ikuto awake.
" What?" He asked yawning.
" You have to leave. And never come back." I choked out.
He sat up straight and looked into my eyes. I tried to show I was serious but I don't think he saw that.
" Tadase knows." I said.
He was silent. He didn't move.
" You can't be with me." I shook while saying those words.
Release me
Release my body
I know it's wrong
So why do I keep coming back
I say release me
'Cause I'm not able to
Convince myself
that I'm better off without you..
" I'm better off without you." I said.
He shook his head and pulled me to him.
" I love you." He exclaimed.
I froze. I don't think I heard him right.
" I-I....what?" I asked.
" I said I love you. I've wanted you for myself this whole time. Please don't make me leave. You're like an addiction to me. " He said.
Didn't I just call him MY addiction? This was too much for me to handle. He leaned down and kissed me. Not with lust like usual, this time it was love.
I pulled away and hugged him.
" I choose you then." I muttered.
I picked up the phone and called Tadase. I told him I choose Ikuto and that I got the house and everything in it since I payed for it all. He agreed and I never heard from him again.
Ikuto and I spent the rest of our years together. Every time I was laying with him in bed, one thing went through my mind.
" I never want him to release me."
Done. It sucks. Going back in emo corner.
Lynya: whatever * watches Small-chan go back into corner*
Amu:........
Lynya: What?
Amu: I can't believe she wrote that.
Lynya: Oh grow up. It was a good idea.
Amu: ......
Nagihiko: I thought it was interesting. But didn't she want to do a Rimahiko one?
Lynya: Yes. But it's hard to find a good Rimahiko song.
Nagihiko: Okay. Well then lets ask the lovely people who read this.
Lynya: Good idea. Okay so anyone who can think up a great Rimahiko song gets it to be the next chapter. Come on people, she needs Rimahiko.
Amu: Review please!
Lynya: and suggest Rimahiko songs!
The song was Release me by Agnes Carlsson