A Death Wish – Chapter 9
When the women were finished helping me get changed and bandaged up, they led me down a hall I had never been down before. Silently we walked into white wooden door and inside there was a white bed, and a white dresser. Everything was white. They led me to the bed, and pointed. I looked at them confused. What the heck? Why was I being led into a bedroom? Was this some kind of trap?
"Lay down!" one woman snapped, and I quickly and carefully did what she said. It was so comfortable, from what I was used to that is. I looked at the two women again, but there was no hint of betrayal beneath their green eyes. Wait, green? I looked at them again and realized they weren't vampires, but were humans! I wanted to ask them so many questions, but they glared at me when I opened my mouth.
Shortly after the ladies left and I sat up. I looked at my arms and legs, it was the first time I had a chance to in who knows long. Other than my pale skin, there were dark purple and blue bruises covering ninety eight percent of my body. White bandages covered the cuts and wounds. Some already had blood seeping through.
I continued to stay alert, looking in the direction of every sound I heard. It felt like someone was watching me, and I didn't like it. I didn't want to sleep either, the nightmares would be too great to handle right now, and I didn't trust my current situation. What if something bad happened while I was sleeping? What if? Tears began running down my cheeks.
"Edward!" I breathed out loud, sobbing as quietly as I could into the palms of my hands. I missed him so much, he was gone from me. He was no longer the Edward I loved. Jortuel had taken everything away from me! There was nothing left to live for. I stopped crying and laid my head back, staring at the white ceiling. I asked myself what was the point, what did I have to live for now that there was no hope. My family, my love had been taken away! Why? Why of all the creatures in the world, did I and Edward have to be the ones to suffer?
These thoughts went for several hours, and I drifted to sleep but woke up moments later. I was tired, tired of crying, tired of trying to hold up strength, tired of trying to hold on. I was beginning to lose it again when I tilted my head to the left. At first I didn't notice, but after a second glance there was a white envelope with my name written beautifully on the front. I recognized it immediately. I tore it open and pulled out the letter. I heart pounded as I began reading it, Edward was still here! He still cared! I felt hope enter me once again.
My Beautiful Bella,
It is Edward here. I am sorry. I am terribly sorry, but there was no other way. Please, do not panic. Do not hurt anymore. I did this for us. Jortuel gave me a choice, sacrifice you or me. Guess who I chose? I hope he didn't notice this letter, I hope you are reading this Bella. Please. I love you! Do you hear me? I love you! We have all decided that it is in all our best interests to stay behind and let you escape.
I am terribly sorry I treated you so coldly when you were screaming for help, I'm sorry I hurt you. My heart broken into a million pieces each time you rang out my name, when you were unconscious I begged Jortuel to let you go. I hope you have gone from this place. I know it'll be hard Bella, but you need to get over this place and leave all these memories behind and begin to make new ones. I know when I first left, it was a terrible time for you and I still feel horrible for what I did but this time Bella, please. Oh please Bella. I need you to be strong for me. I need you to know that no matter what I love you.
Oh Bella. I wish for so much right now. I wish that I was as strong as you! I wish that I could be as kind as you. Oh, how I wish that I could kiss you. One last time, and then I'd never let you go. Never. Not even the worst of weapons could tear my arms around your beautiful body. I will never forget the way you smelt to me, how you hair blew in the wind, how your cheeks turned red when you were embarrassed. I miss it, I miss you. I miss your warm touch. Isn't it sad how wishes rarely come true?
Bella, I promise to come back to you one day. Don't lose hope, don't lose who you are. Always remember us, because we will never forget you. I will never forget. I love you. I love you Isabella Marie Swan, I wish I married you. I wish now that I had made love to you, countless times. I wish for so much.
Now go have a life. For me. Remember, I will come back to you. I will find a way.
Love,
Your Edward
I read the letter many times, over and over. Each time, a new feeling would come in, and then sadness would overtake it and I'd cry.
Oh, how I wish that I could kiss you.
My heart burned at those words. Edward! I wish I could kiss you to! Was he the one in the room watching me? I looked up, hoping that he'd walk out from the shadows and tell me that this was all a horrible dream. After a second or two, I gave up and re-read the letter.
I love you. I love you Isabella Marie Swan, I wish I married you. I wish now that I had made love to you, countless times.
Oh Edward! You have no idea how much those words make me feel! Countless times! I sighed and let my head fall backwards, banging it against the head board. Edward, Edward!
"EDWARD!" I yelled, pounding my fist on the bed. I wanted him to be with me, to hold me. To say out loud that he loved me. To kiss me, to… I sighed again. Suddenly a noise stopped my thoughts. It startled me and I instantly held my hand up to my face.
After it stopped, I slowly lowered my hand and gasped. The locked door was now open, open for me to escape. I looked around again, expecting the worse. I looked at the open door again, and decided to go for it. The worst has already happened, so nothing can be as bad. I tucked the letter into my pant pocket, and slowly got up. Wincing as I put pressure on my ankle, it must be broken. I limped towards the door, and walked out. I looked both ways, hoping for someone to be there. I didn't see anyone. Suddenly the door at the end of the hallway opened. Before I even thought about it, I was already on my way towards it. Again, when I walked through it, I didn't see anyone.
And again, a door to the left opened. I once again, followed it. This time it was into a dark room, and when I walked into it the door closed behind me. I jumped and turned around; what was happening? Was this a trap? Another noise made be turn back around,
"H..h..hello?" I stuttered, my voice cracking. I really didn't want to hear a response, so I closed my eyes and tucked my head. Thankfully no voice, but the noises continued.
I didn't move, partly in fear but because I was really hoping that it was Edward who led me here. I limped forward an inch, and the noise started again. I went forward again, but stood on my foot wrong and I collapsed to the ground. I bit my bottom lip, trying to suppress the scream building within me. It hurt so much, I just wanted it to end.
Then I heard my name being called, only in a whisper. The voice was sad, full of pain and worry. I reached my hand out, begging for help through my arm, not having the strength to speak.
After a moment, my arm got tired and I lowered it.
"Please" I mumbled, lowering myself to the ground. Closing my eyelids very slowly, still waiting for his touch, his presence, I felt cold soft hands wrap around my waist.
"I love you." He said, and the last thing I remember was lips brushing across my neck as I slowly lost consciousness.
Author's Note: Hello :) Sorry that this one is a bit short, I really wanted to write this. I know the letter doesn't seem very Edward-ie, but he was in a rush, a great deal of pain and he needed to get his message across. Even our perfect Edward wouldn't write the most perfect letter in the current situation. And I also know this story is a bit dark, atm, but not to fear! Light, and good stuff will come :) I promise. I want to thank everyone for their review, it means a lot to me!!
Love,
EdwardCullen123