(A.N: holy mother of cream cheese! it has been a few months and I feel like crap! life just kinda attacked me and everything. I graduated, got a job, got my black belt, enlisted! everything happened all at once and I had no time to actually update this and I'm soooooo sorry to all of you! and I will be getting back into the groove of updating more often. When I'm finished editing the net one it will go up after this one and so on and so forth. this time I have nothing to do but this so! Enjoy this and I'll see you all very soon!)

DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN BLEACH! I'M JUST USING SOME OF THE CHARACTERS TO SET UP A STORY!

Chapter 10

-Beach time-

(Soi-fon)

It had been a whole day since I got the news from unohana. I had no real idea how I was suppose to tell anyone. Let alone Shun or Hideaki. But Unohana told me not to stress over it and to just have fun today. Yoruichi was there so I would hang with her. Maybe even tell her the news, and get my old mentor's advice on the subject. We went searching for sharks in the ocean while the others. Did who knows what.."Lady Yoruichi.." I said hesitantly.

She looked at me and raised her eyebrow. "I have to tell you something." She looked at me. "What's up?" I sighed there wasn't any real way to work my way around the subject. So I just came out and said it "I'm pregnant." She stopped and looked me up and down. "Hideaki knocked you up?" She asked as if it was a regular question. I nodded. I wasn't sure if she was upset or happy about the fact. "That's cute. You tell him yet?" I shook my head. "No.." telling him seemed like taboo to me.

She gave me a certain look. "Because of shun?" I nodded. I couldn't bring myself to tell her about it. And hideaki would just rub it in her face. Then they would fight more and stress isn't good for children. "I don't think I will keep it." Yoruichi looked at me surprised. "Because hideaki would only rub it in shun's face and I don't think the head captain would appreciate a pregnant captain too much." She smiled "I could take your place while you're on your maternity leave or shun. She is your lieutenant girlfriend after all."

That was true. She was my girlfriend. And my second hand. I sighed as we started to search for the sharks . "Well I suggest telling them both together and see where that takes you, if it turns out how you think. Follow your first plan. If it turns out differently. Go along with it." I nodded. Her advice was a bit basic but it did give me place to start with my thoughts.

I knew that there was only so much time before I started showing and symptoms started becoming super obvious. I wasn't surprised that my mood swings didn't tip it off. There was only one way that I could think of getting this situation under control, and get a favorable outcome: don't tell them. I sighed knowing i couldn't do that. That was denying Hideaki his child and shun her niece or nephew. That just isn't right. I completely lost myself in thought trying to find some way to just get through this without it being this really huge thing.

My options were very few. I could tell them and have them continue to fight I don't want that at all, tell no one and leave until this whole thing blows over but I don't particularly wish to do that, or just take up yoruichi's offer. it would give me a good idea about how far shun is in her leadership skills.

After spending all day in my head when we finally started heading back Renji dropped in out of nowhere, his zanpakuto in his hand.

Yoruichi figured something was up so we rushed back. to find two giant melon looking things. One had lieutenant Isane and nano. The other had Ichigo. Yoruichi when after the one the land and i took out the one nearest to us. Summoning my bankai, . Suzumebachi.

After all was under control Yoruichi wailed on Ichigo for standing around doing nothing. "So what happened?" I asked. Jushiro woke up from looked like a sand coffin, I seriously thought some of these people should get their heads examined. "Oh you started the watermelon smashing." he had a childlike smile on his face. I felt the need to face palm. that thing was a giant tentacle having water melon. I sighed and went into the sea side snack shop.

Sitting at one of the tables and laying my head on the table, I just closed my eyes. Kind of hoping a short nap would kill these thoughts in my head. "Soi-fon?" I heard a voice say. Opening my eyes i saw toshiro, I looked at him for a second. "What's wrong?" he asked sitting across from me. I sat up rubbing my eyes, a migraine setting in. "Nothing." I lied. He stale faced me eating his icey. "Don't lie to me." I sighed and laid my head back on the table. "I would rather not talk about it." I mindlessly said.

"Relationship issues?" I nodded. was it that obvious? "Alright come on spit it out already." I glanced at him. His face was completely serious. I sighed heavily. "If you insist toshiro." I thought of a coded way to say it but threw that thought out the window. "i'm pregnant." his immediate reaction was almost choking on his icey. "you're what?!" he almost yelled. "shut up hitsugaya, don't you dare say a thing. no one knows yet. not even them." I said them as soft as possible. He calmed down. "It's obvious he doesn't know. He and Shun wouldn't be that close if either of them knew."

I sat up and looked at him. "I don't really know what to do...if I just abort it, it's as if none of this ever happened, but that's not right to Hideaki it's his child too. Then again I have to think about my job and my effectiveness in doing such activities while pregnant. and there's Shun I couldn't tell her even if I tried..I can't see her hurt again. It would kill me…" I groaned hitting my head on the table. Toshiro stayed quiet for a while "nothing to say?" I said rather coldly. "Well if you really must know I do have something to say about it. and it is very very simple." I looked at him , my head still down.

he pointed his spoon at me. "talk it out with them." I sighed rejecting the idea instantly. "Hear me out. like you said it is Hideaki's child too. So talk to him and shun as well about what they think. You may find things go smoother than you think. Nothing will change if you just keep arguing with yourself." I sat up. " But what about my job as captain?" he continued eating his icey. "Shun is still you lieutenant. and Yoruichi will probably more than willingly take up the offer if it's for you." I sighed getting up. "Thanks Toshiro." He waved me off being as a 'Don't mention it'

I went out and I noticed a bunch of smashed watermelons. I was surprised I heard no kind of crashing of the giant things hitting the sand or anything. Yet what I did see were Shun and Hideaki covered in watermelon juices. I smiled. "Hey Soi-fon you missed it! Watermelon smashing to the max!" Hideaki said happily. "yeah! it was awesome!" shun said agreeing. They were so cute when they smiled. "You saved me one right?" I asked carefully rejecting a hug from both of them, sticky and me didn't work out too well.

"Of course" they both said, I was surprised I was just joking. "Oh I was just kidding I didn't want any." They both shrugged "Oh well, more for us." They high fived and went to eat their destroyed prize. I sat near them watching them as if they were my children. I already could tell that if I had a girl she would be just like shun, and if I had a boy he would be just like his father. I smiled unconsciously. Jushiro sat next to me without me noticing.

"They sure do have a way of brightening your mood." He said kindly. I would always try to get mad at Ukitake but I just couldn't do it. I blushed, covering my face. "Oh well. I guess they do. When they aren't at each other's throat." He laughed. "Yes of course. but in any case. They make you happy whether together or separately. You love them equally, and I think that's really good you don't favoritize them." I nodded. He was right I loved them both the same. It didn't matter which came first or anything like that.

"It's so weird how you of all people can just read me like that." He smiled " I just know how it feels to love someone unconditionally." He didn't look at anyone there so I assumed he meant someone back home. "It's nice." we both nodded. Then shun came over with a piece of watermelon in her hand. "Soi-fon you have to try it." I smiled "I'm okay shun, you can have it." She whined adorably. "plllleeeaaasssseee." I rolled my eyes smiling. "fine fine." I took the piece and ate it, Shun looked at me with anticipation. I was surprised at how sweet it was it must have shown on my face because shun grinned. "Wow that's good." I said after swallowing. She smiled and turned back to Hideaki giving him a thumbs up which he returned.

She turned back to me and smiled. I smiled back, she was still covered in that juice. " You two should go get cleaned up." Shun nodded and scurried back to her brother tackling him to the ground and both laughing. "They are really energetic." Jushiro commented I nodded "You don't even know the half of it." We laughed, the two ran off to the cliff.

After getting my full of sun for a while I got up. Yoruichi walked over and started talking to Jushiro. Walking over to the shack again I felt a bit nauseous. I thought I would just shake it but it persisted until I actually threw up. Which wasn't for another half an hour I just spent laying on the floor near the window. Not realizing that I had fallen asleep until toshiro woke me up. "Come on we're getting ready to leave, and the other two are asleep on the beach and won't get up." I got up and went out to the beach.

It was dark and of course they were the only two laid out in the sand. I just stale faced them and did what wakes them both up. Sticking a finger in one of their ears. "Get up." They both jerked up and looked at me. They both looked at me with the same expression of 'what was that for?!'. "Unless you want to be left here. Let's go." Hideaki got up and put shun on his back who had inadvertently went to sleep again.

As we were leaving there was only one thought that crossed my mind and it was how was I even going to explain to them both. It was a bit stressful. When we made it back home it was night as well there. Everyone said their goodbyes and went their separate ways. Hideaki and I walked back in silence. It wasn't uncomfortable it was normal. We just went in and everyone went to sleep. Hideaki cuddling close to me, his arm wrapped around me.

I sighed and tried to sleep but my thoughts were so everywhere that I wasn't able to sleep. I just laid there with my eyes closed.

When morning hit I just headed out by myself. I didn't bother waking up Hideaki or Shun. They deserved all the sleep they could get. I just went to my office and started jotting down my thoughts on a piece of paper. On the paper or in my head it didn't make much of a difference. " There is no way around this I guess." I thought aloud looking at how my paper thoughts all lead up to me telling them eventually. Weather it be because of my sudden weight gain or obvious symptoms of something is up.

I spent most of my day in my office no one was to bother me all day so I could get some sort idea of how I was to tell them. Not even them could get in there. If they did disturb my thoughts I would more than likely crack.

I had heard Hideaki's voice during the usually time he would come in and check on me. "Hey Soi! What's wrong?" The guards promptly asked him to leave. Shun also came by a little while later. "You say she doesn't want anyone to go in?" The guard answered in question. "Does that not click as something is wrong?" The guard answered with "She's the captain and she has rule over what she wants, and not even you lieutenant can change that." I already knew that pissed Shun off but she was worried.

When sun set hit I was both exhausted and nauseous as ever. I thought of sleeping in my office tonight but quickly thought of all the crap I would get from both of them. So I decided to head home.

Walking home wasn't usually my style but I decided to walk. On the way smelling all the food from down the street. I hadn't eaten at all that day so I stopped and got a few things, when I looked in the bag it was all a bunch of weird stuff i thought I had picked up at random. I shrugged it off and just continued on my way home. When I reached the door to the house I couldn't bring myself to open the door. I knew something was getting ready to go down and I wasn't ready I knew I wasn't but despite the voice in the back of my head screaming for me to go stay somewhere else that night I opened the door, then went in.

Putting the bag of food on the counter I walked around to see if anyone was there. completely empty. I guessed they had a night out together which was ideal for me to take a shower and get some rest, but first throw up. Feeling my stomach reject whatever I had eaten in the last two days I ran to the bathroom hacking up everything.

Feeling slightly better than a few moments ago I hopped in the shower. Getting out the shower I didn't feel like putting on clothes I just put my robe on. Remembering I left the food on the table I put that away then laid down. I didn't realize how tired I was until I had relaxed.

I closed my eyes coming to the quick conclusion of I would tell them in the morning and before I knew it I had fallen asleep.