Yuki struggled not to flirt with Kyo after a few drinks. He always tried not to but alcohol gave him confidence, the bravery to do what he truly wanted, what he truly desired. He had almost forgotten that the rest of their friends were in the other room, laughing and joking around. He just wanted to be with Kyo at the moment.

Tonight he was finding it harder than most. Yuki didn't know if it was because he had a couple more than he usually did, or if it was because after Haru's departure a week ago, he finally entertained the possibility that Kyo might feel the same way. He didn't know, but as he stood the kitchen of his crush's flat, listening to him speak, all he could think about was Kyo's lips.

"You look happy tonight," Kyo said while preparing two scotch on the rocks for them both.

"Long week at work, so I'm happy it's the weekend," Yuki muttered, "A lot of paperwork, I'm in court next week. Tax avoidance trial."

"You're the defence?"

"Sadly."

Kyo frowned, "So he's guilty?"

"Oh yes. But I don't have any choice, do I?"

"You always have a choice, Yuki," Kyo said like it was the easiest thing in the world.

The rat zodiac stared at his friend, a small smile emerged on his face. He knew what Kyo was implying, that he had a choice with everything in his life. Not only his job, but his friends and boyfriend. He had a choice to be with Sam or not.

Then why did he feel like he didn't? He spent his life just doing what other people told him to. It had been Akito. Now it was Sam. Well tonight, he was going to do what he wanted. Tonight he was going to take what he wanted. And that was Kyo.

"Do you want to go up to the roof?" For a cigarette?" Yuki said uncertainly.

Kyo smiled flirtatiously, reaching out to hold Yuki's upper arm, "Let's go."

Yuki smirked in return and turned to leave the room. He almost let out a yell when he ran into something, and the next thing he knew he was disorientatingly small. Within a few seconds he realised he had turned to into a rat. It had been a while since he had been in rat form, an even longer time since he had been in rat form, drunk.

He looked up and saw Jane, looking rather confused, but she was guaranteed to be drunk enough not to realise what had happened. Her voice boomed, asking where he was and Kyo quickly replied saying he was meeting his cousin on the roof, they needed to talk privately. Yuki just stayed still and hoped Jane didn't step on him.

She bounced away and Kyo immediately scooped up Yuki and his clothes. He held Yuki close to his chest, as he sneaked past their group of friends to the window, who were too distracted laughing at Jude's impression of Anne Hathaway.

He climbed out onto the roof and shut the window behind him. Kyo switched the lights on and the roof glowed. He set Yuki down on an old bench and sat next to the rat.

"It's been a long time since I saw you as a rat," Kyo grinned, amused.

"I bet it's a sight."

"You're always a sight," the redhead smirked.

Suddenly, Yuki transformed and he was sat there, naked in front of the man he had a crush on. He immediately flushed and reached out to grab his clothes, but felt a little bit satisfied when Kyo turned away and his eyes cast back ever so slightly.

"Probably been awhile since you've seen me naked too," Yuki said teasingly as he redressed.

Kyo almost spluttered in response and Yuki couldn't help but laugh. He sat back down when he redressed. The other man seemed to have calmed down again and handed Yuki a cigarette, holding out a lighter for him. He lit his own and leaned back, looking at Yuki inscrutably.

"Do you ever think it's weird that we're friends now? I mean, after how much we hated each other back then," Kyo said.

"Yeah… Sometimes. I did admire you back then," Yuki answered without thinking.

"And you don't now?" The redhead said playfully, kicking Yuki lightly, "So, you really admired me back then?"

"Yes… you were always so charismatic and you attracted so many people even though you didn't want to or mean to. I've always found it hard to be myself and… you did it so effortlessly. I was always jealous of that."

"Wait, wait, wait… wait," Kyo babbled, "You were jealous of me?"

"Yeah…" Yuki lowered his head, embarrassed.

"I was jealous of you!"

Yuki shrugged, "I know."

Kyo rolled his eyes, "Thanks, Yuki."

"If it makes you feel better… you're also the reason I realised I was gay," Yuki said nonchalantly.

When Yuki was only met by silence, he realised what he had just said. His drunken mind had no filter and he immediately regretted his outburst. He finally looked up at Kyo who was staring at him, his eyes wide, almost as if in shock.

"Um-uh… How's things going with Jude?" Yuki said awkwardly.

Kyo suddenly frowned, "What do you mean?"

"Well I just thought… I thought you were seeing each other again."

The cat zodiac scoffed out a laugh, "No, not at all. Why the hell would you think that?"

"Well…" Yuki took a deep breath, he really wasn't used to being the one out of control when it came to him and Kyo and it was unnerving, "I saw you and Jude… that night you went to that club, so I just assumed..."

"You were there that night?"

"I-I came yes… but I didn't want to interrupt so I just left…"

Kyo suddenly shifted closer and rested his hand on Yuki's leg. The smaller man's breath quickened and he felt himself leaning towards his friend, "Yuki… were you jealous?"

Yuki realised their lips were only inches apart. Somewhere in the back of his mind, he thought of Sam. But it was clouded by the alcohol and being close to Kyo. He wanted Kyo to consume him. He just wanted to feel.

Slowly, Kyo came closer until they could feel each other's breath on their lips. Yuki's head was racing with thoughts, but he couldn't stop himself from taking that last step and meeting the lips of the person who had taken over his life.

Kyo's hand immediately reached up and he wove his fingers through silver hair. They both dropped their cigarettes, the real reason they had both come up overcoming them. Yuki responded, sliding his palm around Kyo's neck and pulling him even closer.

Their kiss was effortless and strangely familiar, yet it was still exciting. They moved with unexpected synchronisation considering the amount of alcohol they each had. Kyo's hands tightened in Yuki's hair. The smaller man grabbed Kyo's shirt as his passion overwhelmed him.

The next few minutes were a blur. They tugged at clothes, hands wandered. The taller man's hands slipped under the rat's buttocks, and they pressed their entire bodies up against each other.

It was when Yuki felt their members brushed that he realised what he was doing was wrong. He was still with Sam. He was cheating on Sam. He was the first person Yuki had ever had sex with, the first person he ever had feelings for, let alone fallen in love with. And he was doing this to him… it was wrong.

His arms shot out and he shoved Kyo away suddenly. Kyo looked surprised and confused and he reached forward to pull Yuki close again, but he just shook his head and Kyo stopped.

"I-I can't…" Yuki began to cry and then sob.

Kyo grabbed Yuki's hand and said, "Yes you can… you need to break up with him."

"I love him…"

The cat zodiac stood up abruptly, dropping Yuki's hand dramatically and let out an angry growl, "I don't get it anymore! You don't love him, you're not happy with him and you know it! I just don't get it, why do you do this to yourself!"

Yuki jumped up and stormed towards the window, ready to leave, but he turned around and shouted, "I don't need this shit from you, okay! I was perfectly fine before you came along! Everything was fine! And you messed it all up! You ruined everything!"

"I didn't do anything! I just showed you that you could be fucking happy! You're in denial! You need to wake up and change yourself, cause this can't keep going on!"

He stared at Kyo for a moment, his anger overwhelming him, "Then I'll get out of your life and leave you be if I'm that much trouble."

Then, Yuki ran. He heard Kyo's yelling behind him as he rushed through the apartment, ignoring the concerned calling of his friends, Kyo's friends, when he grabbed his back and left. Kyo followed him all the way down to the ground floor. As Yuki left the building and dashed down the street, Kyo stood there, shouting his name over and over.

~x~

Hi everyone! Sorry this took me so long! I've had exams but I'm nearly done with them, so hopefully I'll be updating more frequently!

The reason this chapter is short though it's a big moment is because I wanted it to be fast moving and impulsive, like the characters themselves.

Thank you veemistrot, pinksugarrush and SweetLiars for putting up with my late updates!