Like a writer lost with words, never knowing how to start the first sentence of a long elegy, that is how I feel right now. Sorry for being such a melancholic person. Enjoy reading if you can…

"Someday, I will see the sun through your eyes, so I have to stay blind for now."

It was the thick clouds that covered the sky that painted a sullen mood on the supposedly sunny afternoon. They were walking towards a grocery store when Cagalli suddenly recalled an important item on her shopping list.

"I have to go to the pharmacy when we're done with the grocery."

"Why, are you sick?" Athrun asked.

"No. I… just have to buy something."

"Sleeping pill," Athrun mumbled.

"I have no problems with sleeping, whatsoever," Cagalli objected.

They headed towards the grocery store. Athrun pushed the shopping cart as Cagalli searched the items on her list.

"Bath soap, Shampoo, toothpaste…."

"Breakfast stuff. Oat meal, butter, milk…laundry stuff…"

"I'll go over the frozen meat okay?" Athrun said then he left her and headed towards the meat section. Cagalli went to the counter and got a small shopping basket.

She must have forgotten to look ahead that's why she accidentally bumped on someone standing near the counter.

"Oh, I'm sorry," she immediately apologized.

"It's okay…. Ma'am," the man replied.

"I think I saw you before." Cagalli felt surprised after seeing the man's face. He looked familiar.

"Yes, I'm Shinn remember?" the man answered.

"Oh…"

"Shopping?" Shinn asked.

"I'm with someone… yeah."

"Okay, it's nice to see you," Shinn finished. Both went opposite directions. Shinn was with Lacus, Cagalli realized as soon as she gazed the path were Shinn's heading. Lacus was on the toiletry section with her daughter Katherine. Shinn approached them and pushed the cart as the two went on to the next section.

It is surprising indeed that they were out shopping, with Kira being substituted by someone. Is he even aware that Shinn was with his family?

"Kira's sister is here, I saw her at the counter," Shinn noted.

Lacus didn't say a word. Pretended not to hear him.

"I thought you might be interested," Shinn added.

"Why should I be?"

There was pain and anger in her voice. Shinn immediately dropped the topic.

"I'll be paying for this," Athrun decided as he pulled his credit card from his wallet.

"Are you sure? You haven't received your pay from your last job," Cagalli said worriedly.

"I'm fine. I'm not yet broke."

"Okay."

They were outside, carrying the five shopping bags loaded with groceries when Cagalli remembered the next thing that she has to purchase.

"I'll go to the drug store. It won't be long"

"I'll wait here." Athrun went to the nearby cafeteria stationed himself to the seat near the glass door so he will be able to see her. Cagalli followed him, carrying two of the five shopping bags.

" I think coffee's great. Order a cappuccino for me. I'll be there before it's done." Cagalli said smiling.

"Sure princess."

"Thanks."

She went to her destination, and nervously went to the sales clerk.

"Where could I find this…" she described the product that she's looking for.

" A first timer ma'am?" the clerk asked.

Cagalli blushed. "Yes."

"There are a lot of them. This way ma'am."

"What did you buy?" Athrun asked as he sipped his espresso.

"Nothing."

"A secret, that's very sexy."

"Hey, it's not like that."

"Then what is it?"

"I'll tell you later. Not now."

"Fine."

Cagalli diverted the topic.

"I should get the car, the mechanic said it's already fixed."

"I'll just take the groceries home and you get the car," Athrun suggested.

"No. I can't drive yet… I mean I feel sick."

" I thought you have to get it now. Would there be extra charges when it stays there longer?"

"Yeah, there's a parking fee."

"What kind of automobile shop is that?" Athrun scorned.

" I never really thought of choosing one when that thing busted in the middle of northern highway."

Athrun suddenly felt her pulse.

"You look pale. What's going on with you?"

"Nothing."

"You said you felt sick."

"Stress that's all."

He paused for a while. He thought of an idea but he wasn't sure if Cagalli would take it.

"I'll go and get the car. You go home with this stuff, but I'll have to call your brother so he'll accompany you. Perhaps he could look after you while I'm still away."

"No. I'll be fine."

"I don't think so," he countered.

He got Cagalli's cell phone from her purse and searched Kira's number.

Cagalli on the other hand was started rubbing her forehead. Her stomach was churning and she felt like throwing up.

"I have to go to the restroom." She immediately left her seat.

Inside the cubicle, she began to expel everything on the toilet bowl.

Meanwhile Kira was driving home when his cell phone displayed the familiar number.

Cagalli calling

He stared at the screen for a while, deciding if he would take the call or not. He answered.

"Hello."

"Hey it's Athrun."

"Why?" Kira's brows twitched.

"Cagalli isn't feeling well and I have to get her car from the shop. If you're not busy, could you pick her up and take her home?"

It was as if Athrun's testing him, and he wasn't up to the challenge. But soon, he realized that it wasn't Athrun's intention. He'd been observing Athrun during their first meeting, and he could tell that this person has a lot of traits that he lacked. Maybe that's the reason why Cagalli fell in love with him.

"Where are you?" Kira asked.

Athrun gave their location to Kira and the latter assured him that he'd be there.

She sat in front of him, covering her mouth. She felt like throwing up again, but she tried to suppress the urge.

"You aren't telling me something," Athrun suspected.

"I …I've been having doubts Athrun."

"What?"

Cagalli blushed and continued her revelation.

"I was delayed for about two months. I'm suspecting that I'm pregnant."

Athrun's spoon hit the white porcelain. It's like everything has gone silent, or they were taken into a vacuum.

"I bought a pregnancy testing device earlier."

She recalled what she had done in the restroom. After throwing up, she immediately pulled the device from her jeans' pocket. Her heart was beating so fast because she knew her intuition was true. She immediately got a sample of her urine and dropped it on the device.

Blue color shows the test is negative

The red color indicates pregnancy is positive

"What color?" Athrun asked. His fingers were trembling, but he couldn't understand why.

"Red," she confided.

He blinked twice, looked outside the glass window and remained silent for a while.

Then he laughed.

"What's so damn funny?" She was flushing with embarrassment.

"I'm going to be a father soon!"

"Yeah I suppose you are."

His eyes were shining. "I have never thought of becoming one."

"Are you happy," he suddenly asked.

"Yeah, I am."

"But… this doesn't mean we have to… get married right?"

"No," she answered.

She laughed after that. He laughed too. All the other people in that place was staring at the two of them, laughing like crazy people.

"I thought you're sick or something," Athrun said in between his laughs.

"I thought so too."

She shook her head and suddenly thought of Kira. What could be his reaction to this?

It wasn't long until Kira entered the scene.

He saw the two of them as he was trying to find a parking space for his car.

Athrun saw him first as he entered the cafeteria.

"I called your brother so he could take you home while I get your car."

"You what?"

"He's here."

Kira was standing behind Cagalli's seat.

"Hi," Kira greeted.

Athrun smiled briefly while Cagalli refused to turn back and meet his eyes.

"Take a seat Kira," Athrun offered.

"Thanks."

He seated beside Cagalli, and the latter spoke.

"Athrun has to pick up my car, so…"

"Yes, and he told me that you were sick."

Cagalli looked at Athrun's eyes. His expression was unreadable, but she knew he wouldn't want Kira to know about their secret yet.

"I think I am," she said softly.

"Would you like some coffee Kira?" Athrun asked.

"No, thanks."

"Then I'll go. Thanks man," Athrun said as he stood. He left his seat, kissed Cagalli on her forehead and tapped Kira's shoulder.

"Your car busted." Kira wasn't able to think of anything to say so he made that comment.

"Yeah, three days ago. Old age I guess."

"Insured?"

"Yes, but they only paid half."

"I see."

"I…saw Lacus earlier."

"She said she's be out to buy things with Katherine," Kira noted.

"Yeah, but we didn't talk. I talked with Shinn. He's with them."

"Really?"

She nodded.

"Lacus didn't tell me about that."

He looked at his watch and it was already five-thirty.

"I think we should go."

She agreed and they both left the place.

They weren't speaking to each other. He held the clutch and maneuvered silently. She was looking at the gray sky, turning into black. The stars were beginning to show up. She removed her shoes and gathered her knees up. She used to do this when she was young. She remembered Kira's first driving experience. She was with him, on the passenger seat.

"Someday I'll get my license too and I'll dry wherever I want."

"Driving isn't as easy as you think Cagalli," Kira said.

"I won't be sitting here forever. I'll be on my own one day."

She recalled her last words. They came true, and she was on her own. Two years later and she learned how to do it, but she always allowed Kira to do the driving. She enjoyed taking the passenger seat, and being with him as he takes on the road.

The road was long and lonely, just like the lives that they're living.

" I remembered that day when I first saw a shooting star. We went to mom and dad's grave, and it was your first time to drive," she said softly.

Kira recalled the same moment. "I told you back then to close the window, but you always roll it down," he said without looking.

And she did it once more. She rolled the window down breathed the damp air rushing in.

"I thought I saw a satellite falling, but you said it's just a meteorite."

"You romanticize everything," he commented.

"And you were always cynical," she replied.

"How can a satellite fall?" he asked.

"If it loses its orbit, it will fall."

He chuckled.

She hugged her knees, as if she was feeling cold.

The streetlights were quite dim. Sodium lamps were becoming extinct.

" I… missed being your sister."

He smiled.

"Yeah, and I missed being your brother too."

There was a long silence after that.

" I'm having a child, with Athrun."

Kira remained silent, while the car started to decelerate. It stopped.

He laid back and closed his eyes. Cagalli watched him and stretched out her hand delicately touching his shoulder. They remained that way for almost an infinite span of seconds, and then she decided to peer at the night sky.

And she saw a shooting star once more.

"I saw a satellite falling."

He smiled and said, " Make a wish."

"I did back then, but it didn't come true," she confessed.

He ached to touch her, and tell her that it's okay, that he will be happy if she decided to move on, but then he was to honest to show what he really felt.

He stepped at the accelerator. Took her home and left as soon as the shopping bags were dropped on her doorstep.

She didn't ask him to stay for a while. Just watched him as he left.

Alone in his car, driving to he so-called home, we wondered what it was like to be young again. The reality was too hard for him to bear but somehow, he must pull through.

Once again, he was on his own doorstep. He reached for the keys, and as he inserted it on the keyhole, the door slid open.

Lacus was there, sitting at the couch.

"I'm home," he said.

"Where should you be instead?" she answered bluntly.

He didn't reply.

"I thought you were to come home early?" she asked once more.

"Athrun called me to pick up Cagalli."

"And you obeyed without hesitation," she said sarcastically.

He stared at her, as she was with him. Her gaze was accusing.

He didn't bother to dwell on her comment, and started to walk upstairs.

"You immoral bastard!" she cursed.

"How long have you been lying to me? You and your sister!"

Kira was pinned on the ground. He refused to look back at his outraged wife.

She walked briskly towards him and as soon as she reached him she pulled his arms so he could face her.

Tears were burning her eyes, as she cried helplessly and fell on her knees.

He didn't want to witness her in this condition. He knew he betrayed her, and it was her right to hurt him, or kill him if she wanted to. Somehow, he wished that she would. He wished he could die.

That's it for now. More to come but it may take long. Thanks for reading….