Main Pairing: Renji/Rukia!
Type of Pairing: Two sided, Angst.
As requested by: Rafiki-Kun
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"The stray dog in me is dyed into my bones. I'm getting sick of it.
All I do is howl at the stars, I ain't got the guts to leap at them."
~ Abarai Renji ~
"Rukia!"
She was always there, in my life. She made my life have meaning, have purpose. I, calling after and she in turn, calling after me.
"Baka!" She teased, sticking her tongue out at me. "What would you do without me?"
My life revolved around Rukia, I couldn't live without her. Even when we started at the Shinigami Academy, the two of us were always together.
Always and forever.
Then I fucking let her go.
And she was gone.
Gone, from my life. How could I cope? She was like my oxygen, my life support. All I could think about was surpassing her brother, so I could have her in my life again. I just wanted her back. Days, weeks, months, even years passed by. I needed Rukia so badly. I still need Rukia.
Then I saw her in the real world. She seemed different somehow, weaker, more vulnerable. It wasn't her anymore. My hatred and anger grew, I wanted the Old Rukia back, I needed to get rid of this new facade.
I hurt her.
Physically and mentally.
Again.
She was always with that man, Kurosaki Ichigo. Hatred soon gave away to understanding which I had never had before. It was then I realised her suffering, her pain. Everything. Of course we were reunited after Soul Society, but I never told her those words. Those words, I always wanted to say but they were always left unsaid.
I'm sorry and I love you.
Can you possibly forgive me?
I could never seem to find the right moment, to tell her. Even when we were alone, I just couldn't say it, couldn't' form those words. I couldn't even begin to say how I felt about her.
How? How could I say it?
Then like all moments do, it came suddenly. So suddenly, it was unexpected. Kuchiki Taichou was out on a mission and I was glumly sitting indoors, doing paperwork. Those stupid bastard things. Then just at the wrong moment, a south easterly wind scattered my paperwork. I stared at them frantically, watching as my paperwork flew out of the open window before my very eyes.
And then it happened.
Snatch.
In a flash, Rukia caught my paperwork in her hand, her knees nearly buckling over with the weight.
"Here ya go." She grinned at me.
"Thanks." I muttered not looking at her, as I took the paperwork out of her hands, putting it gently back on the table.
Then suddenly, she said something truly wonderful.
"Baka!" She teased, sticking her tongue out at me. "What would you do without me?"
Talk about Deja vu.
I swallowed hard, looking into Rukia's beautiful violet eyes.
"Rukia, I-" I took a deep breath. "I'm sorry alright? I'm sorry for everything, I'm sorry for the pain I caused, I just didn't mean to, um..."
To my surprise, Rukia laughed.
I frowned at her. "Hey, I'm trying to be serious dammit!"
"Never did I think you'd say something so sweet, Renji." Rukia smiled. "There was never anything to apologise for. You don't even have to care."
Furiously, I slammed my hands on the table. "Rukia, why shouldn't I care? I've always cared about you!"
My beautiful angel.
"I -" I found myself shaking with fear and anger. I couldn't say those words. Those simple three words, just couldn't come out of my god damn mouth.
She stared at me, her eyes filled with tears and very slowly snaked her arms around my waist. Surprised, my heart beating faster, I hugged her back. I never realised how vulnerable she was.
"I know." She whispered in my ear. "Sometimes I think I care about you too much."
Then she was gone, out of the door but not out of my life.
Then I realised.
Some things are sometimes better left unsaid.
Hey did you like that guys!
I know this was for Rafiki, but it was kinda dedicated to my best friend Snowy Peach Tsubasa too, coz she's a HUGE RENKIA FAN.
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It's a pretty cute pairing! =DD
Next: Byakuga/Hisana!
That's probably going to be shorter sorry!
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:) I love you all! XxXx