A/N: Firstly I am dreadfully sorry at how late this chapter is. Please forgive me. Watching the last episode of Glee simply gave me so many Seblaine feelings. I could just see the feelings in Sebastian 's eyes. I honestly think he does love Blaine. So I knew that writing this chapter I was really going to have to focus on that. I was going to have to seriously prove to Sebastian just how much he loves Blaine. And it also showed me that he really does have the biggest heart that anyone could ever ask for in a person. he's just so afraid of showing it. So here it is. I hope you like it.
Blaine dropped down onto the sofa, his legs had turned into total jelly. If they were not like that already. He simply closed his eyes and just tried his best to block out the whole world. If anything he had never more scared. He just wanted everything to go away. he found himself almost wishing that he hadn't said anything. Would things be better that way? He had never come out as being gay in the first place? Maybe right now it wouldn't but in the long run he knew that things wouldn't be like they were now. For a start he wouldn't have ever met Kurt. Or Sebastian. Although thinking that made him wonder if they would have bumped into one another in the Lima Bean. Possibly. Yet things wouldn't exactly have panned out in the way they had in the first place. Would they? No matter what he thought in these past few moments he knew that he wouldn't have changed anything. Save today this had by far been the best year of his life. Everything finally seemed to be looking up for him and now this had happened. Now he found his life flashing before his eyes. All those horrible words running through his head. Those pushes and glare of disgust. It just hurt him so much inside that he was afraid to show how he felt. Just for fear of not being able to stop himself from breaking down. He had never felt so lost before in his life. It was the most horrible feeling.
Blaine instantly flinched as he felt a hand upon his shoulder. he snapped his eyes open and sighed slightly as he noticed Sebastian next to him. He moved and buried his head into his boyfriends chest. He just wanted to feel safe again. Thankfully being in Sebastian's arms made that happen. He never wanted to be away from him again. he just wanted that safe feeling to stay there forever. He closed his eyes and simply tried to block out the previous events of the day. The only thing that he wanted to think about right now was the feeling in this moment he felt safe and he just never wanted that to change.
Was it minutes or seconds before Sebastian spoke? Blaine wasn't sure each second just seemed to feel like an hour and he couldn't think straight. He wanted this whole thing to be over, yet he had a horrible feeling that this was the start of everything. How could he continue with this whole ordeal. He could only hope and pray that everything was now over. He wanted to enjoy the rest of his life with his friends and his boyfriend. Still maybe that wasn't what he was destined for. At least for the moment he wanted to be able to forget everything and just be with Sebastian. Just in his arms was more than enough. He couldn't ever ask for more than that. Being in the arms of the person he loved. Nothing could top that. Nothing.
"What is wrong, Blaine. You're scaring me. I haven't seen you in such a state before. You're shaking. Whatever it is surely it can be that bad" Sebastian mused to him as he pressed a soft kiss to the top of Blaine's head. Truth was he just wanted to be there for him. He just wanted to pull him back up again and be there for him. He hated having to see him in such a mess. It was almost painful o know that his boyfriend was in such a state. There had to be something that he could do to help. Yet he had to know what he was helping with first.
"I just want to forget about it. Just hold me and don't let me go, yeah. I love you. I love you so much. Don't let them hurt me again Sebastian. Please. Just don't let them hurt me." Blaine murmured holding Sebastian closer.
"Let who hurt you, gorgeous. if you want my help then you have to tell me what is wrong. I would never let any harm come to you. I promise. I will protect you with my life if that is what you want me to do. But you have to trust me"
"I do trust you. It was... some guys. Well... one guy really. I don't know where his mates went off to after they caught up with me." he paused for a moment and looked up at Sebastian. His eyes locking in with his. He found himself getting lost in those eyes. It was like he had entered a Labyrinth. A Labyrinth of warmth and safety. The one place that he never wanted to have to leave again. "He tried to rape me. I don't know what I would have done if Jeff hadn't been there. He smashed my phone. I lost everything on there. All those pictures you sent me during class last week. Everything."
"Never mind about those stupid pictures. I can take new and better ones and send you them." Sebastian said to him with a smile. "Just forgot about that guy. I don't know who he is myself and honestly I don't think I want to. If he hurt you and I ever find out I will probably end up in so much trouble from killing him."
Sebastian felt like he should be able to do something or say something to help out Blaine. Yet he couldn't think of anything. He just wanted to find that this dreadful day had come to an end. It was a day that he could forget about most years. February 29th. A day that didn't happen every single year of his life. It was four years ago today exactly that it had happened. An event that he wanted nothing more than to just regret. he closed his eyes. Maybe now would be the time to tell Blaine. At least it would get it off his chest, considering the fact that he felt as though he was going mad with insanity.
"I have to tell you something. Something huge. Something that I haven't ever told anyone before. None of the other Warblers know. I think it has something to do with the reason as to why my parents are not really all that fussed about what happens to me. I guess they buried me away with him. Now they have a fear of getting to close in case something happens to me. Something terrible."
Sebastian suddenly felt nervous. He had no idea why. It was all just so strange. The truth was he had wanted a long night in with Blaine just to forget about the outside world, maybe that way he would be able to forget everything that had happened four years ago. They could still do that, right? If anything now they both had things they wanted to forget. Things that they would never be able to change. As twisted as things might sound. This day caused them to have something in common. A secret. A story. A horrible truth. A truth that should just be buried away with every of stinking unfair happening in the world.
"What?" Sebastian heard Blaine saying. He realised only then that he had slipped into an almost daydream state.
Sebastian's eyes rested upon Blaine's face once more. "I am not an only child. Well I never used to be. I used to have a brother. A twin brother. Only four years ago he was murdered. Something I have never forgiven myself for. It was supposed to be me that was murdered and not him." Sebastian took a breath in. Strangely talking about it, for the first time since it had happened, was actually helping. He hadn't thought it would. Yet then again before meeting Blaine he had never felt close enough to anyone to actually tell them all of his secrets. He certainly didn't want to have to talk to strangers. He preferred to keep it all bottled up and pretend that he didn't even have troubles. It was easier for him to deal with that. "I was fourteen and stupid enough to take drugs, I can't even remember what drugs it was, and anyway. I promised to have the money by the end of the next day. Only before I got there they found my brother. Obviously thinking it to be me and due to the fact that he knew nothing about the drugs and therefore refused to give them the money for it. They killed him. If I had been there I could have stopped it. It was all caught on CCTV. I knew I shouldn't have watched the footage. Yet I had to prove to myself that it wasn't my fault. Only instead I ended up find out that it was"
Sebastian didn't realise that he was crying until he felt Blaine's hand reaching up to touch his face and brushing away the tears. For a few moments the two boys simply held one another in their arms. Neither knowing what to say. Finally Blaine broke the silence
"I'm sorry. You mustn't blame yourself, Sebastian. You couldn't have known what would happen. You can't go your whole life blaming yourself for what happened to your brother." He said to him pressing a kiss to his lips. "Were you identical? You and your brother?"
"Yes, completely. I don't think there was anyone who could tell us apart. Not even mum could She was always getting confused. Actually Andre could. I swear he was the only one. I guess that is what tricked me into thinking he loved me. Anyway enough about depressing subjects. I would normally suggest that with us both feeling sort of messed up at the moment, for totally different reasons, that we went upstairs and fucked. Although I am guessing that is the last thing on your mind right now."
Blaine had to smile. Somehow the fact that it was Sebastian who had said that made it okay. He knew that if Kurt or Nick, or anyone else for that matter, had said it then he would have freaked out. He didn't even need to say anything. He certainly didn't get a chance to, before he felt Sebastian whacking him in the face with a cushion. He gasped. his jaw dropping as he simply stared at him.
"Blaine, darling. Shut your mouth. You will only catch flies like that." Sebastian laughed, ducking as Blaine lifted the other cushion and aimed it at his head. "Going to have to catch me first, Anderson" he mused to him bolting up from his place on the sofa and legging it out the Living Room door and into the hall.
it certainly amazed him how they had managed to get like this. From being emotionally wrecked to well he hoped laughing and playing around. It just all seemed a little weird. Not that he was complaining. Just having a laugh and having fun was what life was supposed to be about.
Now Sebastian was faced with a small problem. Did he run upstairs? Did he run through the kitchen and around the back room to come out back into the Living Room? He tried to listen for Blaine's footsteps. His cushion was still firmly in his hand. he wondered if Blaine was still playing this game or if he had other ideas. he swallowed, pressing himself back against the wall of the staircase and keeping a look out in both directions. He had to make a decision and now. Soon deciding on the stairs. just as Blaine came running in through the kitchen. it was certainly a good thing that he hadn't decided on that way to go.
Exactly how long the cushion fight had gone on for he wasn't sure. yet they had sure as hell had a good lot of fun and laughter. Somehow they had ended up in Sebastian's room, crumpled up in his duvet, in a fit of laughter.
"I have never laughed so much in my life. I have a tummy ache" Sebastian managed to say.
"Same. We have a laugh you and me, right? Despite everything"
"Course we do. Although I don't know about you but now I am fucking starving. How about we cook that pizza."
"Sounds like a plan" Blaine said with a smile. "I bought it therefore you can stick it in the oven"
Sebastian just laughed. "Whatever. You just don't want to admit that you have no idea to work my oven. Anyway come on. Get a move on. Downstairs and I will teach you."
A/N: Simply down to the fact that you have all had to wait so long for this chapter. I am stopping here. I will elaborate more on things in the next chapter. Plus a word of warning. Things take an unexpected turn for the worse so to speak. The next chapter will be longer. I promise. Review and let me know what you think.