Sorry it has taken this long to get this done…almost forever, haha, a year actually. Are there anyone of you left? Hmm, either way I wanted to try out a sad story without a happy ending. I know it so not like me, but this has been my ultimate goal of some sort – was I able to do it well? I think I did. Yes? No?
Please do not flame (I do not find a reason for it so you better not either). I apologize for the possible misspellings and other errors.
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Pairing: Sasuke x Naruto / Naruto x Sasuke
Summary: Locked in an institute out of sight. Trying to work your way through life with your abnormal abilities. Finding a refuge in a person like you. Then that person is gone. SasuNaru.
In the corridor Naruto halts me and pushes me up against the wall. His eyes are burning holes on to my body, but I could not care less. What the fuck is wrong with you, he curses. We had a fucking deal, he continues anger raping his words from every direction. Oh did we, I ask him maliciously and push him off of me. I need, he starts but I interrupt him with saying that sperm, he needs my sperm and nothing else. That I can give you in a cup too, I tell him coldly.
Naruto looks mad, but he does not say anything at all. I give him the finger and tell him to fuck off. I walk from him while he just keeps standing where I left him. Pathetic. On my part. I go back into my room and trash and kick everything. I am so mad that it strangles me and I just end up crying for my broken heart. I fucking hate having feelings for someone!
I end up avoiding him even more and the only glimpses I see of him are always with Sakura. Well, duh, he likes girls more, I try to tell myself all the while I also try to deny the fact that he would have fucked anyone with the same condition as me. He is so fucking selfish!
It is evening already and I try to get into my room without Naruto noticing me. I have avoided him well and there is a good reason – I would not know what to say to him without acting like a damn brat. I know we need to settle this, but my anger blinds me and I can be selfish too if I want, since no matter how you look at it – I am still a kid.
In the corridor I bump into him again even though I have tried not to. It seems he has been stalking me for a while now and just waited for the right opportunity. Naruto takes me by the hand forcefully and orders me to follow him, since apparently we need to settle this and now. I know that, but I am still unwilling to follow him for the obvious reasons. His fingers dug into my skin as he walks me away from everyone else.
We go to a secluded corner where he suddenly pushes me against the wall like not so long ago. What is it with him and walls? Why the fuck are you avoiding me, you dipshit, he growls at me. Leave me the fuck alone, I mumble back, but his grip feels even tighter than before. Do not back on our deal, he curses and spits on the floor. Like, I do not have any say in this matter, I growl back at him. Like, you can fucking use me like a toilet and then dump me when you do not feel like it? I scream at him.
He looks a bit taken back, but either way orders me not to scream or everyone will notice. Do you think I care about that, I curse and push him. He ends up pushing me back with a strength I did not know he had. You need me more than I need you, I spit at him and that basically does it. Naruto sinks his fist into my stomach swiftly and still so silently. I do not end up on the floor solely because Naruto's strong arm keeps me where I am.
You have gotten cheeky, you twerp, he smiles maliciously and the way he looks is scary. Suddenly I do not know this person who holds me still against the wall, who not so long ago whimpered under me. His other hand has sought its way to my throat and I have hard time breathing. You are too young to defy me, he growls like a demon. I am sorry, I try to tell him, but the sound is muffled. I try to remove his hand but without a success.
I am scared, I tell him and suddenly his eyes soften a little. His hand loosens and I can breathe again, but he keeps his body still close to mine. I try to hold back the tears, but it is impossible and I want to tell him that he means everything to me. I, I , I love you, I manage to whisper to him. I love you like it is possible here, you are my everything, I cry silently to him. I know you do not care, I know it, my sentence trails off and I feel like I could die because of this pain dwelling inside me.
Naruto is silent, his hands resting on me and his face so really close to mine. A small sad smile breaks on to his lips as he strokes my cheek. You are so stupid, of course I..and then the sentence ends as he drops on to his knees on the ground. His figure starts to waver again and I panic. I scream as I see him disappear and then nothing. The time he is gone feels like forever and I can hear the nurses run towards us, but my vision is solely focused on Naruto or where he was just a second ago.
Then he is suddenly back, but does not move. Even the air is still. It is like we are in a vacuum which nothing can penetrate. My mind does not work and thoughts run in circle; all I can think is that I need to make sure he is alive, that he has not left me behind. I get to him and I notice that his chest is not moving at all. Do not die on me, I cry as I try to move him into a better position.
Suddenly he coughs blood onto his shirt and his eyes focus for a second and then they roll backwards. Fuck, fuck, fuck, I scream and shake him a little in order to awake him again. His eyes focus on mine now and with a weak whisper, he tells me that no way in hell he would not have any feelings for me, that I am an arse..then he loses consciousness again.
Where the fuck are the nurses, I scream and they get to us, but not fast enough. I take off my gloves and start to defibrillate him with my sheer hands. Tears blind my eyes and burn beds on my cheeks as I try to get him back to us. The doctors and nurses are finally there and they peel me off of Naruto's still limp body. They have their machines and all with them. The nurses keep me away from him and I scream and kick. Everything happens in a slow motion and then they take him away. The nurses get me back into my room, where I cry hysterically even though I know it does not help at all. I keep thinking that if I had not avoided him, if I had confronted him and what if, what if..
I have not eaten in three days now and no one tells me anything. I just lie in my bed or hang out in the common area in wait for Naruto. He never comes. My life shrinks to the size of the dirty mattress and I do not even know how long it has been.
Sakura comes to the mattress looking sad and hollow. You tear yourself apart like this, she sighs. There is nothing you can do, she says and I know she speaks the truth. I get up and my eyes are swollen, but I do not care. Is he gone, I ask her. He cannot be gone, I mumble. No one tells me anything, I keep up my monotonous talk.
I love him, I am hopelessly in love with him, I sigh sadly as I bury my face in my arms. It is a good feeling to voice out what I feel. Eases my burden. I do not know all that much, but I think he is alive..physically at least, she tells me carefully as if trying the ice with a stick. I am not sure if he ever wakes up again though, so..she continues and then silence fills the space we occupy.
I will wait forever, I tell her. I get back on to the mattress and close my eyes. It is easier to stay like this, easier to not to see, but wait until the weight on the mattress shifts again, then, maybe it is him. I know you will, she smiles a little and gets off of the mattress. I think he loved you too, she whispers and gets going. I wish I had heard him say those words himself, I cry silently and then I keep waiting. Somehow it looks like nothing had ever happened and in the eyes of the others I have turned into him. Just like that everyone forgets. Except me.
Show me some love and tell me what you think! This was the end – did it work out for you? Love and hate, give me all!