So it's been four days since that whole fight between Riley and I. She ended up transferring to another unit thank goodness. Jane and I have been doing really good. We decided that we really didn't need to see dr Carter anymore because our relationship was finally back on track. And I couldn't be happier.

Its friday night and Right now we are at a charity event. I basically had to forse jane into coming. She is wearing a tight black dress with red heels, she straighten her normally untamed curly hair and she even wore make up for me. I'm wearing a red cocktail dress with a pair of Jimmy choo black heels and my hair is in an elegant bun.

"This Champagne is really good, but the food here sucks" jane said to me. We are walking around the room and we settled in a spot in the back."Can we get some food before we go home babe" she asked

"The food here is good jane" I said to her "stop complaining" I rolled my eyes then my eyes went wide I saw my mother walking toward me with my ex. She doesn't know about jane, I haven't spoken with my mother in two years "Baby I'm so sorry. Just know that I love you "I said and before she could say anything my mother approached me.

"Maura dear" she said and kissed both of my cheeks

"Hi mother"

"Look who I ran into, Garrett Fairfield"

"You look beautiful as ever" he took my hand and kissed it

"Thank you, where is my manners. Mother, Garrett this is Jane Rizzoli my um bestfriend. Jane this is my mother Constance isles and an old friend of mine Garrett Fairfield" I looked at Jane, I saw hurt flash across her face but she quickly covered it.

"Oh come on Maura im more than that, I was your fiancee for two years" he smiled, I look at jane and she just looked so broken but she managed to smile and say

"It's nice to meet you"

"You as well dear. Anyway maura you're single correct"I wanted to tell her no I have a wonderful girlfriend standing beside me but that didn't come out.

"Yes mother" I said avoiding jane eyes

"Great, Maura I was wondering if you would like to accompany me on a date, I still love you maura" You don't love me! all you want is a trophy wife. And im in love with Jane Rizzoli! That's what I wanted to say but all that came out was

"Sure Garrett" I said with a fake smile and he pulled me into a hug and he kissed me, I wanted to throw up. I pulled back after a few seconds.

Oh my gosh how could I do this to jane. After I finally got her trust back I mess it up again. Im not ashamed of my girlfriend. I know my mother would humiliate jane if I told her about us. I had to do it, I hope she understands.

"Will tomorrow be okay, how does 8 sounds" Garrett said

"It sounds okay" I said with a forced smile

"This is perfect I'm so happy for you. You too are perfect for each other" my mother said with a smile

"Um Jane, I have a bother. Since you and maura are bestfriends maybe we can double date" Garrett said

"Gee as fun as that sounds" Jane said sarcastically. No one picked up on it, but I did "I'll pass, maybe next time. But I must be going now it was so lovely to meet you two. And garry you and maura really do make a lovely couple. Maura stay here and catch up, I will catch a cab home." Jane said as she walked away

"Its Garrett by the way" he said to jane. I hope I can fixed this.

After the charity event I went home alone. I have been calling Jane's phone non stop ever since I got in the car, but she haven't been answering.

After I completed my nightly routine I crawl into bed and I called her one last time and she finally answered.

"What do you want maura, I really wish you would stop calling my phone" she hissed

"Jane, im sorry I didn't want say you was my girlfriend because my mother would have humiliated you Jane, I panicked. I'm going to cancel the date, Im sorry"

"You kissed him, I hope it was worth it was worth it maura"

"Jane im sorry, please im going to tell her the truth im sorry"

"Im so sick of this shit maura. What did I ever do to deserve this shit? I don't care about what you're mother was going to say about me! You don't think I was scared to come out to my mother, my Catholic mother! But I did it anyway because im not ashamed of you. But I guess it's different because you're rich and im a blue collar,right? Your ashamed I get it maura, I do. Just please let me go and I can handle the pain. I just need time to get over it and then I'll be okay. I mean why are we still doing this?" her voice cracked and then I broke down

"Baby I'm not ashamed of you! I just panicked can you please come over so we can talk. Im sorry"

"Maura just let it go! We can still be friends okay. Please I can't take this anymore." oh no I can't lose her.

"Please jane dont say that please, baby I need you. You promised me you wouldn't leave me! You promised nothing would come between us." I whispered

"You promised me you wouldn't hurt me anymore maura. I can't do this anymore"she whispered

"I'm so sorry jane"I sobbed "I love you baby"

"If you love, why do you keep hurting me?" She asked

"I'm sorry babe, I love you with all my heart. please come over my love" I begged.

"Fine maura" she hung up. She didn't even say she loved me. I put my phone on my night stand and I sob into my pillow. I don't want to lose her. I'd give up everything for her. I just want her back.

I don't know how long I have been crying but I felt a strong yet soft arm on my waist and snuggle up to me, it was enough to stop the sobs.

"Im sorry" I whispered

"I love you maura, I will always love you. But maybe we should break up" she said sadly. I immediately turned around and looked in her eyes. I shook my head and I sat up knocking her arm off me and I pulled my knees to my chest.

"Im so sorry baby" I started sobbing again "please don't leave me. I need you jane. I love you please don't break up with me. Promise me you won't leave me baby. Please I'm not ashamed of you. I freaked out I didn't want her to be rude to you, I'm sorry. I'll tell her right now I don't care, all I want is you Jane." I straddle her waist and pulled her up. She put her hands around my waist and pulled me closer. I wrapped my legs around her waist and put my arms around her neck and I buried my face in her warm neck and that calmed me down a little. I wasn't sobbing anymore but I still had tears in my eyes.

"Maura when you tell your mother that, she will cut you off completely. No more fancy restaurant, clothes, shoes or anything. Your only end up resenting me I don't want that." She said

"I don't use my trust fund for me. It all goes to charity, I make my own money, I live off of that. I go shopping with my money. And so what if she does, ill give it all away for you jane. I don't need it I don't want it. I want you" I mumbled I snuggled into her more. I feel so exhausted from crying, I just want to sleep in her arm.

"You're canceling that date first thing in the morning. You're going to tell your mother about us. I don't care if its in person or the phone or email. You're telling her tomorrow you got it" she said sternly

"Yes I got it" my voice is very hoarse from crying so much

"Did you kiss him again after I left" I felt her stiffen

"No, I didn't he wanted to but I refused. I shouldn't have kissed him in the first place, im sorry"I kissed her neck I felt her relax and I sighed and kissed her neck again

"Can you get off of me, please" she lets go of my waist. I pull back trying to look in her eyes but she looks away.

"Jane" she didn't say anything "baby what's wrong"

"Nothing I just want to go to sleep okay" she said and I slowly got off of her and she turned her back to me and snuggle under the covers

I got under the covers and became the big spoon

"Im so sorry baby" I whispered "I love you so much, " I kissed her shoulder and kissed her head and fell asleep.

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( sorry for the mistakes)