James POV

Why did I think that I could trust a teenage boy with a whole lot of hormones, around a whole bunch of girls in bikinis? I wouldn't let him touch me and now he was looking elsewhere to be loved. I was sobbing quietly sitting against the door of the apartment. That stupid girl had stolen my man. I wanted her to feel my pain, to know how hurt I was. I got up and tried to tell myself that maybe I didn't see correctly. Maybe Kendall didn't even kiss her. I walked into my room. I was tired and sad and I just needed SLEEP.

Logan POV

I felt worried that maybe Kendall should tell James. He would probably understand, besides it was bad to keep secrets. Carlos and I were soaking up the sun by the pool and Kendall was in the pool playing "Marco Polo" with Tyler. I looked over at Carlos who had his iPod on and was lip syncing whatever he was listening to. He was too cute, I wanted to climb over there and wrap myself around him; but I couldn't. We both agreed that we wouldn't make our relationship public, we didn't want any trouble from the media or fans or Gustavo. Carlos caught me staring at him and he winked at me and made a kissy face.

I mouthed, "Hey sexy." We both laughed but suddenly Carlos's face turned annoyed. I was confused but then I turned around and saw Camille coming towards us. I groaned. I did not want to deal with her right now.

Camille POV

I walked into the lobby and saw Bitters eating…as usual.

"Hey Bitters have you—" I tried to say but he cut me off.

"That's Mr. Bitters to you." He said with a mouthful of popcorn.

"Ugh, Mr. Bitters have you seen Carlos and Logan, I heard that Carlos got pretty hurt yesterday and—" he cut me off again and pointed to the pool.

"They're out there." Then he swatted me away.

I rolled my eyes as I walked out to the pool. I was wearing my brand new one-shoulder banded tee dress that I had just gotten from Victoria Secrets. I was hoping that Logan would notice how cute I looked. I strutted over to where I saw him. He was talking to Carlos, and call me crazy but it looked like they were flirting. Well they are best friends; they were probably just messing around. He looked annoyed when he saw me, which displeased me. But Carlos was the one who probably annoyed him.

"Hey Logan. Carlos." I said smiling at Logan.

"Uh, hey Camille." Logan said as he picked up a magazine and read it…except it was upside down. I cleared my throat and put my hands on my hips.

"I heard you were in the hospital Carlos, are you okay now?" I said trying to sound like I cared.

"Yeah, I am alright. Logan was with me the whole time, he's such a great friend." He said with a mocking smile. Logan snickered.

"Hmmph, well are we ever gonna have that date then?" I asked trying to make Logan jealous.

"Actually Camille, I kinda see you more as a friend and I was trying to make someone jealous, so I'm sorry about that. I didn't wanna lie to you so…yeah ha." He said nervously.

I laughed, "It's okay Carlos, I was doing the same thing."

"Oh, so we cool." He said smiling.

"Yeah, we're cool. So Logan is that upside down magazine interesting." I asked as I sat down on the lounger that he was sitting on.

He looked at the front of the magazine and laughed, "Ha. Yeah very interesting."

He seemed very uncomfortable. I grabbed his face and turned it toward mine.

"What's wrong Logan?" I asked in the sexiest voice I could make.

I leaned in to him when I heard Carlos yell. "DON'T…" I let go of Logan's face and looked at Carlos. Wtf was his problem. "..you think that it's just so hot out here, wooo! We should go Logan." he said as he got up and started to walk away.

"I'm right behind you!" Logan said walking away swiftly.

"UH!" I was mad. Stupid Carlos, why would he do that. It made me wonder…

Kendall POV

"MARCOOO!" I said as I swam around the pool.

I had agreed to play Marco Polo with Tyler and I was actually having a good time. A whole bunch of little kids had joined, and I didn't mind. I was always good with kids.

"I got someone!" I said as I touched Tyler on the head.

He started giggling, "Aw darn!" he said.

Just then Carlos and Logan both called my name and motioned for me to come over there.

"I'll be right back you guys," I said as I got out of the pool and walked toward Carlos and Logan.

"What?" I asked shrugging. "We have to go every girl out here wants to jump our bones!" Logan said nervously.

I laughed. Since when did Logan use the saying, "jump our bones".

"Dude, he's serious! Camille totally wants his junk!...but its MINE!" Carlos said. Logan and I started cracking up.

"Alright, but has anybody hit on you yet Carlos?" I asked smirking.

"No , but—" Just then Stephanie King walked by.

"Hey Carlos." She said as she checked him out. He waved, and then turned to me and raised his eyebrows.

"Alright let's go!" I said as I went to grab my towel. "Tyler, I gotta go! You guys have fun!" I shouted as walked into the lobby with my boys.

"HEY! Don't drip water all over my lobby!" Bitters yelled at me. "Dude chill I'm not dripping!" I said annoyed.

When we got into the elevator, Carlos and Logan started whispering to each and giggling. "You're my gorgeous little monkey!" Logan just suddenly said.

I looked at him, and then we all laughed. Carlos was leaning to kiss him on the cheek, when Logan turned his face to kiss him on the lips. "Ok! OK! Enough loved dovey stuff you guys!" I said feeling uncomfortable. They both blushed and said sorry.

When we got to the apartment it was dark and there was a message on the answering machine. I figured it was mom but I didn't want to play it because my Jamie-Poo was probably sleeping still.

James POV

"YOU FUCKEN GOOD FOR NOTHING SON OF A BITCH!" Kendall said as he kicked me. We were in a dark alley and I was on the floor bruised up and crying. "You actually think I would want you!" he laughed manically. "I could get all the bitches I want, and you think that I would want your faggot ass!" he spit on me and then bent down and burned me with the cigarette he was smoking. I screamed as tears streamed down my cheek. "Why Kendall! Why are you hurting me!" I yelled. He put his foot above my face and slammed it down on my face.

I woke up screaming and sweating. The first person I saw was Kendall. I screamed again and noticed that my face was wet with tears. "Baby, it's okay it was just a bad dream" he said with a worried expression. "Come here," he said as he grabbed me and held me. He started stroking my hair as I whimpered in his embrace.

"Kendall…do you really have feelings for me..or are you just…I don't know, seeing what it's like with a guy.." I didn't want to ask it, but I had to know.

He hesitated and I pulled away. "James, I love you!" he said to me.

"You hesitated Kendall, and I don't know if I could trust you." Just then a tear rolled down my cheek.

"Don't say that James, you know you're my everything!" he said with a choked up voice.

"What about what happened earlier!" I said defensively.

"What are you talking about." His brows furrowed.

"Don't act like you don't know!" I shouted. "

I don't!" he yelled back.

"Fuck! I can't believe you can just lie to my fucking face!"

He got up and gave me a confused mad face, "What the fuck am I lieing about!"

My eyes suddenly flooded with tears. "You made out with Jo, and you thought you could get away with it." I said calmly.

Kendall's face relaxed. "No, James she kissed me! I pushed her off!" His eyes looked watery.

"Then why didn't you tell me about it if she's the one who kissed you?" I started to pace but then stopped and looked at Kendall. "I can't trust you Kendall, so… I don't think this is gonna work." I tried to keep myself from sobbing.

Then Kendall started sobbing. "James, no! NOOO! I love you! Don't do this to me." He walked up to me and grabbed my shirt. "You're my everything James! Please stay with me!"

I felt my lip quiver but bit it to hold back a sob. "Kendall, it's over."

"NO! It's not! James David Diamond I love you! Don't you understand that! I LOVE YOU!" he yelled at me while never ending tears came out of his eyes.

I just walked out of the room, not wanting to see the love of my life in such dismay. I saw Carlos and Logan on the couch sharing pudding, it made me sad. "You alright James?" Logan asked looking concerned. Carlos was frowning and his eyebrows were furrowed. "Yeah..I-I don't know." I said with a shaky voice.

Kendall POV

I felt lightheaded. I was sobbing so hard. I fell to my knees, I felt like I had just broken into a million pieces and half of me had just been blown away by an evil wind. How had this just happened to me. The best thing that had ever happened to me had just been taken away. I was in love with that boy, everything about him. I felt that if I couldn't be with James, then what was the purpose of living? My mind started racing with ways to end myself. There were endless possibilities. I could use a rope, but then I would suffer before dying. I had suffered enough in my life. I could electrocute myself…with James' hairdryer. Ok now I'm just thinking crazy. I had a headache, I needed an aspirin. Ah! Then it hit me! I could overdose on pills. I had to plan to do it when no one was home. I wouldn't want anyone to stop me.

Carlos POV

Logan and I were worried about James and Kendall. James told us he would be back in a little. Logan went to go check on Kendall and told me that Kendall didn't look good, and was taking a nap. I sighed. Logan rubbed my back. "Don't worry Carlitos, they'll be fine. If they didn't fight with each other once in a while, then they wouldn't have a normal relationship." He laid his head on my shoulder and I put my arm on him and pulled him in closer.

"Should we do something about it?" I asked, talking into his hair.

"No, we shouldn't butt in. I don't want to make it worse."

"Logan."

"Yeah?"

"I love you."

I felt him smile on my neck. "I love you too Carlos." He kissed my neck and it gave me chills. He laughed. "You ticklish Carlitos?"

"NO! Don't do it Logan." He unexpectedly started kissing and sucking on my neck.

"AH!" I screamed because it tickled. Then I felt that Logan gave me a hickey.

"Logan! Did-d you just give me a hick-eeeey?" I asked laughing.

"Mhmmm!" He said as kissed down my neck.

"STOP! No more Logan!" I said smiling. I wanted more but, you know. He frowned at me with big puppy eyes. "Logan don't give me that face! It won't work!" He leaned really close to my face almost kissing me, but then I realized he was just being a tease.

"Oh really Carlos? You don't want me to kiss you all over." He whispered really close to my lips. I licked my lips.

"La-hogan, you-u uh haha, um smell sooooo good."

He laughed "Do I?" he asked biting his lip. I wanted to bite his lip, he was soo gosh damn sexy. I couldn't take it anymore so I just grabbed him by the hair and pulled him towards me. I showed him who was boss, I flipped him over and pushed him on the couch and made out with him. He smiled through the kiss. I felt his hands on my butt.

James POV

I sat outside the apartment with my phone in my hand. I wanted to call someone to talk about it. I had looked thru my contacts like 5 times. I finally stopped on Kelly. Should I call her? I knew I could trust her, and she was the sweetest person ever. I pressed talk and waited for her to pick up.

"Kelly Wainwright"she answered cheerfully.

"Kelly, it's James."

"What's wrong honey, you don't sound too good." She sounded concerned

"Yeah.. I actually wanted to talk to you about something. It's important and you're the only one I trust. You busy?"

"I always have time for you James. Now what's wrong sweetie?"

"Kelly, I'm gay, and I was dating Ke-, this guy and I caught him cheating on me with a girl. So I broke it off and I still love him a lot. And I don't know what to do!" I had started to cry while talking.

"Aw Jamie, don't cry sweetie! I can't believe Kendall would do that to you! James anyone would be lucky to have you! So don't you cry, just hold your head high!"

"How'd you know it was Kendall?"

"I've seen the way you guys are during rehearsal…I'm not stupid."

"Kelly, the thing is that I still love him so much, but he broke my heart."

"Are you 100% sure that he cheated on you?"

"Yes, I'm pretty sure."

"Then let him go James, you deserve better."

I started to sob so bad. "Do I have to Kelly?"

"It's your decision baby boy, do what you feel is best for you."

"Thanks Kelly, I love you."

"I love you too honey."

I had sat outside the apartment just thinking for about 5 hours. I stood up and stretched. I walked into the apartment and saw Carlos and Logan asleep on the couch. They had left evidence of doing something on that couch. I went towards the door of the room that Kendall and I had shared. I put my ear to the door and heard little sobs thru the door. It broke my heart. I decided that I should sleep in Carlos and Logan's room tonight. They wouldn't mind.

I decided to call it a night. Everyone else was asleep and I was tired. I hadn't realized that it was kinda late too. I laid on Logan's bed and fell asleep quickly. That night I dreamt of my first love, Kendall Knight.

A/N: Okay so I kinda almost cried while writing one part of this. Even though I didn't get a lot of reviews for the last chapter, I realllyyy felt like writing so, yeah! :] But if you don't review enough I'll take my sweet time writing the chapters haha. So I hoped you liked this chapter. Carlos and Logan are kinky and poor Kendall and James :[ Also here's the link to Camille's dress - victoriassecret.com/ss/Satellite?ProductID=1265294625793&c=Page&cid=1265295712560&pagename=vsdWrapper

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