DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN SKINS OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS AND THAT MAKES ME SAD :(
Ok sorry it has took me so long to update but i've had a rough time since i wrote the last chapter and some horribly heartbreaking news. I want to dedicate this chapter to my beloved twin brothers (older brothers) Jason and Tim who were big a fan of skins as I am. Sgt Jason Quinton 17/09/87 - 13/10/09... Sgt Timothy Quinton 17/09/87 - 15/10/09.... Both died serving their country and protecting their friends. Gone but never forgotten, the two best big brothers in the world. Forever missed by all the family.. i'll make sure your boys remember you Jason. R.I.P the heroes in my heart.
Sorry not trying to get sympathy but just had to write all that. I'm sorry if this chapter isn't great but i just need to keep writing to keep my mind on things. Hope you enjoy it
Chapter 10 (Naomily)
NAOMI'S POV
God i hate this. Fighting with Ems. I know im in the wrong but she is taking this silent treatment way too far. I get that its Katie and Cook's day and i shouldn't make it all about me but i don't know how much more of this i can take, especially when she looks so fucking gorgeous. At a wedding your supposed to look at the bride and Katie does look gorgeous but i just haven't been able to take my eyes off my baby.
I know what she's doing, she's trying to make me suffer because i upset her which is understandable but i can tell that she hates us fighting as much as i do. Fuck this i need to talk to her.
I make my way across the dance floor and can't help but laugh as i see Cook dip Jenna, she looks terrified that he's going to drop her. Thats when i lay eyes on her once more, she's stood at the bar with Effy and Pandora and she's laughing about something and i feel my heart swell as i see the look of joy and happiness in her eyes. I carry on walking towards her. Effy notices me and gives me a small smile whilst Pandora starts beaming at me before running and attempting to jump into Thomas' arms, imagine the lift from dirty dancing but with Jennifer Grey ending up headbutting Patrick Swayze. Emily locks eyes with me and although she tries to hide it, the corners of her mouth come up ever so slightly.
"Hi" I realise that it came out as barely a whisper. I look at Effy, silently asking her to give us a minute and she gives me a nod before walking over to pandora and thomas who are now sitting at a table with an ice pack to Tommo's head.
"we need to talk" we both say it at the same time and release a nervous laugh
"can we go somewhere?"
"where?"
"anywhere" she takes my hand and we walk out of the function room and up the stairs to her hotel room. After about 5 minutes trying to open the door with those fucking stupid card things, Jesus whatever happened to good old fashioned keyholes, we walk into the room and sit down on her bed. She's just staring at me waiting for me to start
"I'm sorry"
"and so you should be, I was only trying to help you Naomi" I put my hand on top of hers and entwine our fingers
"I know, its just i needed time to digest everything, i felt let down"
"i understand that, it was a shock for me to hear and i can only imagine how you are feeling but your mum was obviously just trying to protect you" i feel my eyes welling up and i can't stop a stray tear from falling from my eyes. Emily reaches over and wipes it away with the pad of her thumb and i can't help but lean into her touch
"I promise i won't take stuff like this out on you ever again, i don't want to lose you Ems" she leans in and gives me the lightest of kisses
"Nai, listen to me ok, no matter what happens, i'm in this for the long-haul, you're never going to lose me" I smile and I think i am finally ready to open up to her about my childhood, the family that she doesn't know about, my dad's side, because even after being together for over a year its always been too hard for me to talk about.
"Em, the reason i reacted the way i did, about Stacey and my mom, was because of what happened to.." my voice trails off and i take a deep breath trying to compose myself
"because of what happened to who Naomi?" i know she's worried, i can tell by her voice
"because of what happened to Jack and Carly" I close my eyes tight as painful memories come back into my mind
"who are Jack and Carly"
"my dad's kids, my brother and sister, well half" she's completely stunned as expected but she doesn't interrupt me "I didn't meet them until i was 10 years old and they were 12, my dad has never told me about them before, I was so angry at him, at ten i was older enough to understand it all" she just nods and squeezes my hand "well after my dad skipped town and left for good, they moved in with my mum and me and we became so close, i really loved them and then one night they'd gone out to a friends birthday party and their friends mum was driving them home and the car..." my voice starts to break a little and i can feel the tears falling freely now "the car was hit by a lorry and Carly died" She covers her mouth in shock and i look at her to see she's crying too "Jack survived but he was distraught, i'd never seen a brother and sister as close as they were, he got involved with a really bad crowd, started doing heroin and he eventually overdosed, he was only 13" she pulls me into a tight hug "and i'm terrified because i got so close to them even though i only knew them for a year and what if let Stacey in and we become really close and then something happens and she gets taken away or what if my mum does or you or.."
"hey shh, Naomi please don't think like that" She pulls out of our embrace and places a soft and loving kiss on my forehead "i'm glad you finally told me about it, i know its awful what happened to them but you can't let it control you anymore, if you want to let Stacey in let her in and if not i'm sure she will understand and as for me and your mum, we both love you unconditionally and yes one day we will go but for now we are both always here for you"
I wipe my eyes at her heartfelt speech.
"I don't think i've ever been more in love with you then i am right now" she smiles before i crash my lips against hers. After a wonderfully blissful eternity we pull apart and i find myself feeling happier
"I love you" she whispers it into my ear
"I love you more" i love the string of giggles that comes out of her
"nope sorry thats not possible" she kisses me one more time before we stand up and walk back down to the wedding. I'm sure our abscence has been noticed.
EMILY'S POV
I can't believe Naomi has been hiding that heartbreak for so long. It only makes me love her more that she can open up to me fully now, not that she couldn't before but that was her decision and i understand that. Were back at the reception now and i can tell she feels happier now she got it off her chest. She hates showing her vulnerabilty but i love her for doing it.
I take her hand and pull her onto the dancefloor as the DJ starts playing one of my favourite songs. I put my arms around her neck and she wraps hers around my waist.
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
When i was confused about my feelings for Naomi and about my sexuality, I used to listen to this song and imagine a time where things would just fall into place. And they finally have.
But I'm open, you're closed Even the best fall down sometimes
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide
The song plays on and we just dance, holding each other. Its a perfect moment, one i don't want to end.
"I love this song" she reads my mind
"me too"
"little confession, when i was trying to figure out what you meant to me, i used to listen to this all the time" I burst out laughing and she goes bright red with embarrassement, i lean up and kiss her
"I used to do the exact same thing" she's now laughing with me
"well it seems we have a song now then"
I'm quiet, you know Even the best fall down sometimes Don't stop here Even the best fall down sometimes You finally find
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
You somehow find, you and I collide
I've lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
"Yeah we do" She kisses me and its again, a perfect moment.
BANG
a horrible noise and a deafening scream from Katie pull me out of the moment. I turn round to see my dad collapsed on the floor.
"DAD" i rush over and crouch down by him with my mum, Katie, Cook and James "SOMEONE CALL A FUCKING AMBULANCE"
were all sobbing, I feel Naomi wrap her arms round me and i turn round and cry into her shoulder. How could such a wonderful day, end in such a tragic turn of events
Please wake up Dad...Please
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