CHAPTER 10: A mother's love

Monday, November 15th, 2000

Carlin Street, 4:20pm

Carrie was in her room doing some math homework, she hasn't been feeling the same in the last few weeks. Mostly because there has been some problems with the relationship between her and her friends. Not only is it that Carrie gets bullied sometimes, but it's also due to the fact that Chris, Tina, and Sue join on the joke. This has led to Carrie being by herself during recess, lunch, and class. Even though she tries her best to fit in it still doesn't help, because the students find new ways to pick on her. This has caused Carrie to come home crying to her mother and getting really upset, but Margaret manages to calm her down by giving her a hug. Carrie always feels better when she's with her mother, she feels that as long she has her mother no one will ever harm her. Carrie enjoys spending time with her momma, she would help her grow flowers in the garden, clean up the house, and sit together and read the bible.

Carrie feels safe when she's with her mother, although there are days when momma wouldn't act the same. Because whenever Carrie did something wrong Margaret would beat her daughter or send her to the closet. Sometimes she would keep in there for days, but eventually she does let Carrie. The closet was the one thing Carrie feared the most, she didn't like being locked in a small and not knowing when her mother will let her out. She tried to not think about it and just focus on her homework. "CARRIE" Margaret yelled from downstairs sounding very angry. Carrie got scared by her mother's voice, but respond to see what was wrong, "Coming momma" Carrie said. She walked downstairs while still feeling nervous, when Carrie got to the living room her mother stared at her with an angry face.

"I found this in your backpack" Margaret said while holding a magazine. Carrie remembers last week in school while she was heading to class a random girl dropped her magazine in the hallway. Carrie picked it up and it said boy band magazine, she brought it home read it and found it very amusing. She tried to hide it from her mother, but Carrie never thought that Margaret would check her backpack. "Momma I can explain" Carrie said but she was cut off by her mother, "This stuff is perverted, how dare you bring this filth into our home" Margaret said as she threw it away in the garbage. Carrie was afraid to say anything so she stood still as her momma looked at her, "Do you not realize that reading magazines will turn you into a sinner" Margaret said as became more furious with her daughter. "I didn't mean to upset you momma" Carrie said feeling guilty, her mother than walked up to her and slapped her right in the face making Carrie shriek a little bit.

"Where did you get this magazine, I want an answer" Margaret demanded. Carrie was still feeling scared but she told her mother the truth, "One of the girls accidently dropped it in the hallway when I was heading to class so I took it home and read it" Carrie said. "You're grounded do you hear me, and you are never bringing those perverted magazines home ever again" Margaret said. "Yes momma" Carrie said to her mother. Margaret then threw away the magazine and after that she turned towards her daughter and stared at her with an angry face. "Go to your closet" Margaret said to Carrie. She got frightened when her mother said that to her, because she doesn't like being locked in the closet. "No momma" Carrie said to her mother, which makes her mad. Margaret then forces her daughter into the closet and locks the door. This makes Carrie have a panic attack and she begins to scream to her mother to let her out. Margaret ignores it and then tries to pass the time by working on a pair of shirts she's trying to fix with her sewing machine. She had a lot of clothes to repair for some the customers that came to the dry cleaners. Meanwhile Carrie started to cry and felt sad, because she feels trapped in a prison cell. Knowing that her mother locker her in the prayer closet was very scary. She eventually calmed down and tried to pray for guidance. She read a little bit of the bible to pass the time, knowing that the closet is filled with religious stuff. There are also pictures on the wall of Jesus being tortured along with a cross in front of Carrie hanging on the wall.

As the day goes by Margaret finally lets her daughter out of the closet. She gives Carrie a hug and tells her that she loves her. "I'm sorry momma" Carrie said, "It's alright sweetie I forgive you" Margaret said. After that they have dinner and Carrie gets ready for bed and goes to sleep.

Hey everyone, sorry I haven't updated the last few days. I was on vacation with my sister and dad. I hope you enjoyed this new chapter, I wanted to write about how Carrie feels about being locked in the closet and her relationship with her mother. There will be more updates in the future. Thank you for reading this and have a great day.