I locked the door, rushed over to the farthest corner away from the door, and slid down the wall. I let the venom well up in my eyes, the tears that would never leave my eyes and dry sobbed. I did not know what to do. I did not know whom to choose. Matt or Edward, I mean Matt he's awesome. He is funny, sweet, and just an overall optimistic person. Then there is Edward, The brooding asshole, the sweet, romantic, gorgeous brooding asshole. I inhaled and exhaled loudly-my body dropping with the unneeded breath. Why was this so hard? Why couldn't I choose one? I sat there thinking for a while until I came up with a resolution that would help with all this shit.

I would leave. I need to leave and clear out my thoughts. I do not care how long it takes-their vampires they live long. I groaned and fisted my small hands into my brown hair and yanked at in a frustrated tug. I went to my overnight bag that lay on the floor beside the bed since there was no room for a dresser or a closet. I picked it up, not caring whether there were things inside that I actually needed and did not have. I walked out of the room into the small space that we call a living room; I grabbed a mail card and ripped it in two then found a pen near the sink, which was never used. I wrote a sincere apology to Edward since I had him on a Rollercoaster ever since he showed up and put it on the table face down. To Edward I wrote then laid the pen beside it. I heard someone walk in and turned around to come face to face with the one person I really didn't need to see right now. Matt-Just great-Terrific really. I took a deep breath and took a step forward with my mouth opening and closing with words they wanted to form.

"I need to go." I said quietly. If it wasn't for his super hearing he would have never heard me.

"Cool. Where you going?" He asked as he sat down on the couch. I looked at him stupidly. Did he not get it?

"I said I need to leave, As in not with you. Excluding you. Without you?" I said ending in a question.

"And?" He asked his eyebrows furrowed.

"This means I want a break, to think things through if you will. I need to decide on whether I want you or Edward." I said calmly

"Well, I hope you choose wisely." He said his eyes showing no emotion.

"Okay?" I said then walked out of the tour bus. I left and headed towards the payphone to get a taxi since I never felt the need to get a cell phone. It wasn't till I was in the cab that I finally thought thing through.

I was not expecting that. I wanted him to fight for me. To fucking fight for me like I knew Edward would do. I wanted him to tell me-no to beg me to choose him. That he would do anything, I don't know just show some emotion. He acted as if what we had-very little- meant nothing, nothing at all to him. I dry wept silently in the back seat of the cab as it drove me home.

Matt's POV-Didn't expect that did ya?-

I just got away from Ryan who was ranting on about Carrots being healthier then milk, as if I care, I don't even eat for fuck's sake. I shook my head and walked up the steps to the bus. I walked in to find Bella facing the opposite wall, it soon changed when the door closed and she twirled around to see me. I noticed that her eyes seemed to get a little bigger, but I brushed it off. I stood there looking at her face that seemed to radiate beauty. I inwardly grinned at how this exquisite woman could be mine. I was brought out of my thoughts when words came out of her mouth.

"I need to go." She said quietly. Okay not to sound rude, but why do I need to know that?

"Cool. Where you going?" I asked as I sat down on the couch. She looked at me stupidly. Why was she looking at me like that?

"I said I need to leave, As in not with you. Excluding you, without you?"She said

"And?" I asked and I could feel my eyebrows knitting together. Why did I need to know that? I think I got the idea that she was going somewhere from the very beginning. Was she leaving me or something?

"This means I want a break, to think things through if you will. I need to decide on whether I want you or Edward." She said calmly which caused my eyes to widen. Fuck, she is really leaving me. No, I do not want to lose her; I fucking swear my dead heart just broke into two-She cannot be serious. I glanced up quickly to see she was waiting for my reply. I had to say something.

"Well, I hope you choose wisely." I said showing no emotion while my mind was screaming at me saying 'Dickweed! Say something. I don't want her to go!'

"Okay?" She said then walked out of the tour bus. Leaving me to my thoughts and my shattered heart, well technically it is not over until she makes a decision. So I still have a chance, right? I sighed. Fuck it- She will choose him, I know she will, they both love each other, I am never going to win shit. I groaned and let my head fall into my hands. I dry sobbed and I heard the door open. I probably looked like a broken man. I am a broken man whose life just walked out the door.

{I was going to end it there, but I haven't uploaded in a while so I decided to make it long.}

BPOV:

It's been Months and I'm back.

Matt POV:

It's been Months. The only things I've down were walk around and take unneeded breaths. So in short it was hell, but she's back.

Edward's POV:

It's been Forever.

I have been a dead body that was only alive for a second or two these past months; I have missed Bella terribly. I do not know how she could just just do that. She only left a note-only a wretched note, but she's finally come back and I'm awaiting her decision.

BPOV:

I walked up to the tour bus where I told Matt to wait for me; I knocked quietly and held my breath as I looked down. He opened up the door and grinned softly at me his eyes a light gold color, but he's smile disappeared when he saw the look on my face. The pained look as I silently begged him not to be nice to me. To be angry and throw things, I wanted; no I needed a reaction, to ease my doubts.

"Can I come in?" I asked my voice painfully low. He nodded and I stepped in and when the door shut I stayed in my position so I was looking at the floor instead of him. I stayed quiet trying to gather the thoughts in my head. I was about to speak when he beat me to it.

"You chose him, didn't you?" He asked his voice breaking.

I looked at him through my eyelashes and I saw something I didn't expect. I expected to see Anger or Nothing at all, but once again, he surprised me. In his honey eyes were sadness, heartbreak, confusion-the list could go on. He stared at me unblinking his face contorted in grief and he literally just fell onto the floor his dry sobs ringing in the air. I watched him as he placed his hands into his arms and tugged at his mahogany hair angrily. I didn't know what to say, but for one thing it reminded me of me, when Edward left me in the forest. I looked down and blinked away the tears threatening to well up. I crouched low and placed myself beside him and just do what anyone would do. Hug him. I hugged him to his sobs stopped and he looked up at me some strands of his hair in his eyes.

"What does he have that I don't?" He asked his voice raspy.

"My heart." I said and he looked back down.

"Did what me and you have-was it nothing to you, nothing at all?" he asked

"It meant something, but while I was away I focused on my love for the both of you. In the end" I began

"Your love for him was more." He said as if it was final and there was no more discussion about it-which was true.

"I'm sorry." I said

"Just answer me one thing Bella." He spoke

"What is it?" I asked as I moved closer to him

"Would you die for me?"

"I'd die for you, would you die for me too?" I asked

"In a heartbeat." He said as he smiled softly

{Got the dying thing from Black Dresses by The Spill Canvas-While I was writing this the song was playing and when I got to Matt's part it said would you die for me too. So there it is!}

I hugged him and we just sat there on the floor and talked about the good days when we were like Bestfriend's. We laughed and said things that were on our minds, before we knew it I had to leave.

"I'm assuming you have to tell Edward the news, am I right?" he said his voice breaking the silence as we stood in front of each other, his hands in his dark washed jeans that I'm pretty sure haven't been washed in 2 weeks.

"Yeah;I'll be back though, to get my stuff and all and we'll see each other when we do another tour." I said trying to be optimistic.

"About that, I'm quitting the band-"

"If this is about you and me then-"

"No, I've been meaning to do it for awhile now, but I just haven't gotten around to it. I hope you forgive me."

"Of course."

"Plus I really wanted to travel across the globe, it's something i wanted to do for awhile now and Ryan and Dylan are going to join me. Were going to visit every town, city and village and send you post cards. So it's going to be something."He said softly rubbing the back of his neck.

"Yeah, well I have to leave so.." I started

"Yeah-Yeah go do your thing Bella" He said trying to lighten the mood.

"Yeah, Bye." I said as I waved and exited the bus and I started to walk to the Cullen's house where I'm meeting Edward.