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Chapter 10: Dinner and other things…
Emily was sitting in her kitchen, a plate of salad between her hands and a glass of juice next to her; in the other room, the TV was on and with a high volume so the house didn't fell so silent and lonely; it was something Emily had started to do in the past weeks, even when she was in California, she let the TV on to at least heard someone so she wouldn't feel so alone.
She swallowed the salad and then ran her fingers along her lips again; a few hours had passed since she saw Paige and that feeling of her soft skin was still lingering on her lips, it seemed like her lips were still remembering her…
Emily shook her head and ate another spoonful of salad; she shouldn't be thinking so much about this, it was just a kiss, a kiss on the cheek, nothing more; but the memory of Paige refused to let Emily's brain alone, which was starting to annoy Emily a lot.
She hadn't been able to stop thinking about Paige, and she was afraid that those thoughts could become more intense and break the barrier of friendship; Paige was eighteen years old, she was still a teenager, she was still in high school, and she was Emily's student; she couldn't be thinking about her.
Maybe she was just confused, she had spent a lot of time with Paige lately and maybe she was just confusing all the feelings, after all, she cared a lot about the girl, she still felt a lot of affection towards her.
But she couldn't be thinking so much about her; she couldn't be thinking about anyone, she wasn't ready to be in love again, she wasn't ready to meet anyone, she was tired of relationships, she just wanted to be alone, and happy.
Happiness was something she hadn't felt in a long time; and unfortunately loneliness was the thing she felt every single morning when she opened her eyes and found herself in a cold empty bed…
A sharp pain crossed her chest and she widened her eyes in horror; she didn't want this again, she placed her hands over her heart and took deep breaths as she tried not to panic, the more nervous she got, the worst the anxiety became.
"Please… not again" Emily said as she breathed. She stood up quickly and walked to the bathroom where she kept her pills. She opened the bottle and took one of them and swallowed it fast.
She placed her hands on the sink and sighed in relieve when she felt her chest relax and her heart beat returning to a normal rhythm. She hated these attacks, she felt so bad and so vulnerable. A tear rolled down her cheek; she shouldn't have been thinking too much, she always ended up like this when she thought about her life too much.
The bell rang interrupting all her thoughts; she sniffed loudly and wiped her tears. She wasn't expecting anyone to come today; she walked to the door combing her hair and before opening it she sighed deeply.
When Emily opened the door she was welcomed by the sight of Ezra carrying a bag in his hands and Spencer was behind him with a bottle of wine and a bag fool of sodas.
"Emily!" Ezra said happily, they didn't wait for Emily to tell them to come in; they just entered the apartment and placed their bags on the living room.
"Hi guys" Emily said a bit confused
"Wow" Spencer said surprised "This is better than I thought it would be"
"I told you, Emily's apartment is nice"
Emily looked at Ezra and Spencer confused and tried to understand what was happening; they just stood there arguing about how cool Emily's place was or something like that
"Okay… can someone explain what are you doing here?" Emily asked finally crossing her arms over her chest. Ezra looked at her with embarrassment as if he was just realizing that Emily was there with them.
"Hi Em" He said, Spencer looker at her too and waved her hand happily "I hope you don't mind… we came to make a small visit"
"Someone here" Spencer said pointing to Ezra "Was bored and thought that it was nice to invade your house"
"Well" Emily said "You're here now" She commented looking at the bags on the floor "And… you seem to be prepared…"
"Oh" Ezra said, he picked up the bag he was carrying previously and showed it to Emily "I bought some Chinese"
"You mean the 'whole' Chinese food in the world" Spencer said
"Okay, I wasn't sure what you ladies liked so I bought a bit of everything" He said as he checked the contents of the bag.
"And I bought the drinks" Spencer said proudly. Emily eyed them and let out a laugh
"I guess we have a plan now" she said as she walked to the kitchen
"Yeah" Ezra said as he drag all the contents out of the bag and placed them on the kitchen table "Thanks to me, it took a while to convince this stubborn lady to come and get out of her house but here we are"
"Shut up" Spencer growled from outside the kitchen.
"Are you going to drink wine?" Emily asked to Spencer as she eyed the wine bottle in the table "I thought you said you were done with the alcohol"
"I am" Spencer said "The wine is for you two… and I might drink a bit… but only a cup"
"Fine with me, more wine for me and Emily" Ezra said exiting the kitchen and walking in the living room.
Emily observed as he stood in front of the TV checking the remote control trying to find how it worked and then she observed Spencer checking on the books that were on the shelves; it might be an unexpected visit, but Emily was definitely happy to have them both there, she wasn't in the mood now to be alone until tomorrow so it was a blast to have friends there.
"You're going to break that" Spencer said to Ezra as she watched him touching all the buttons of the remote control
"I'm not" Ezra said
"Stop touching everything!" Spencer growled at him.
"What do you say Ems" Ezra said ignoring Spencer and turning around to face Emily "Are you in the mood for a movie?"
"Uh… I guess" Emily said smiling
"Don't worry, I brought like ten movies, so we could pick one so…" Ezra said as he looked for something "Spence, where did you put the bag with the movies?" He asked
"Which bag?" Spencer asked
"The one I brought with all the movies inside" He said
"You were carrying the bag" Spencer said
"No… you were" Ezra said
"No"
"You left it in the car!" Ezra said, he took a deep breath and then smiled as if nothing had happened "Okay, okay, don't worry, I'll go back to the car to bring the bag"
"Okay" Emily said trying not to laugh.
Ezra walked to the door and exited the apartment and the moment he was out Spencer and Emily burst out laughing.
"The bag is there actually" Spencer said when she stopped laughing, she pointed to a spot near the couch
"He's going to lose his nerves looking for it in the car" Emily said
"Let's not say a word, he will come back when he realizes it" Spencer commented.
Emily let out a laugh and walked to the kitchen to prepare all the food, Spencer eyed her and then walked behind her to help; they stood in silence for a moment placing the food on the plates and preparing the glasses.
"How have you been?" Spencer asked all of a sudden. Emily turned around and smiled at her.
"Fine" She said "Busy with the classes…"
"I haven't seen you since… you know, our awkward 'hang out night'" Spencer said
"That was a fun night" Emily said laughing
"I'm trying to forget it" Spencer said
"You seemed to be having a nice time" Emily said
"Yeah, being dragged out of a bar by a friend and a student is amazing" Spencer said "How embarrassing"
"Don't worry, your reputation is intact and that secret is safe with us" Emily said
"I hope that, because if that girl tells something I am going to make her fail all the exams" Spencer growled with seriousness. Emily looked at her with a raised eyebrow "And it would be a shame… I like McCullers…" Spencer said
"All the teachers seems to love her" Emily said suddenly, she remembered how Ezra and the coach described Paige.
"She's a brilliant student, all her grades are perfect and she is polite and nice" Spencer said "What a shame that her mom is a pain in the ass"
"Wow" Emily said laughing. Spencer sat in one of the chairs and sighed deeply
"Don't get me wrong, she's a wonderful doctor, and really professional but damn she's really intense" Spencer said "And I am no expert in human relations but…. That woman treats her daughter as if she was shit"
"I feel really bad for her" Emily said sadly
"Yeah, me too, but we can't do anything for her, I mean, is her mom… we can't get in the middle" Spencer said
"I know…"
"But I trust that Paige won't say a word" Spencer said with confidence
"She said that she wouldn't" Emily said
"And… changing our subject…" Spencer said smiling devilishly "Ezra told me"
"Told you what?" Emily asked confused
"That same night, he met a girl…" Spencer said still smiling "And he said is perfect for you"
"Ugh… you too?" Emily said
"It could be a nice opportunity Emily" Spencer said "She's single, you're single… you both are gay…"
"Spence, the fact that two people are gay doesn't mean that they have to date each other you know?" Emily asked
"No, but that means that you have a chance with each other, and who said anything about dating?" Spencer asked, she stood up and approached Emily "You could just have fun, you know, give your body a nice time"
"I am not ready" Emily said "I don't want to meet anyone"
"Ready?" Spencer asked "What are you waiting for?"
"It's complicated" Emily said sadly
"What happened to you to make you so scared of love?" Spencer asked concerned when she saw Emily's hurt expression
"It's a really long story" Emily answered simply
"That you obviously aren't going to share with me" Spencer concluded with sadness
"I am not ready to share this with anyone" Emily confessed "I wish I could, but I can't"
"It's okay" Spencer said
The door opened and Ezra came in with a frustrated expression; he walked to the kitchen and crossed his arms over his chest as she saw Emily and Spencer laughing at him.
"The bag is here huh?" He asked
"Sorry" Spencer said "I couldn't resist"
"You ladies are going to pay for that" Ezra commented as he walked to the living room.
"Whatever you say, but now let's eat, I am starving" Spencer said smiling to Emily.
9 years ago
Paige stood in front of the door with trembling legs and sweaty hands; she had been trying to do this all week but she hadn't had the courage to do it; she was simply scared. She had been all day trying to gain the courage necessary to do this and it wasn't until she found herself alone in the house that she decided to do this.
Her mother was working, it wasn't anything new, she had a double shift and her dad had a surgery so he wasn't at home either; so her sister Cassie decided that it was the perfect moment to sneak out with her boyfriend Noel and go to his cabin in the woods; she always said that they were going to watch movies, even though Paige knew that they didn't watch any movie, she entered in Cassie's room once and saw she and Noel lying on the bed and Cassie was shirtless and the TV was off…
And last but not least, Liam was gone for the weekend, he had convinced their parents to let him go to a friend's house to spend the weekend there. So Paige was alone, even though she was supposed to be with Cassie.
But the truth was that she was actually glad to be alone; the past month had been a torture for her, she cried every night, and during the day, she wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone, she only wanted to be alone.
It had been a month since Emily left and as the days passed Paige was starting to accept that she might not come back never again. That feeling made her chest hurt really badly; she missed her a lot and she didn't know how to stop it.
When her grandma Molly died two years ago she had cried too, and she had been devastated for a while and she had missed her too but it passed quickly, after all she was old and she didn't know her too well, but now was really different; she just wanted Emily to come back, she wanted to see her again.
Her sister had tried to talk to her that night, she tried to be nice and have a nice conversation but Paige just wanted to be alone so she yelled at her and told her to leave her alone. And Cassie did what she was told, she didn't like to see her little sister so hurt, but she didn't want to argue so she went and left Paige in her room.
After a few hours of crying, Paige finally decided that she didn't want to be all night locked in her room, she had her eyes red and her head ached from all the tears.
So now here she was, standing in front of Emily's house; not exactly knowing what she was doing there. She rubbed her eyes and fixed her clothes a bit as she thought about what she was going to say. She was pretty aware that Emily wasn't going to open the door, she had finally accepted that she was gone; at first one of the things that kept her from going to that house was because she didn't want to remember Emily, the first weeks she had been waiting for her, and she had decided to not go to her house.
She knocked the door timidly, she thought that no one will hear the knocking but after a few seconds she heard steps and the door opened slowly.
"Paige…" Pam's voice sounded weak, and really sad. Paige couldn't help to notice that the woman was in terrible condition; she was wearing a robe, and had her pajama on as if she had spent all day in bed… also she had her eyes red and seemed tired.
"Hi" Paige said softly. Pam observed her; she didn't understand what the girl was doing there.
"Is everything okay?" Pam asked concerned as she looked at Paige.
Paige sniffed and looked down embarrassed, she didn't know what to say, and didn't know what she was doing there to be exact, maybe she didn't want to feel so lonely with all this pain.
"Yeah…" She mumbled
"W-what are you doing here?" Pam asked curiously.
"I don't want to be alone" Paige said softly
"Are your parents out?" Pam asked, Paige nodded and looked down once again.
Pam felt like crap that day; it had been a month since her daughter had left and she felt like the worst person in the world; she wasn't used to come every day to an empty house and not see her daughter's face; she missed her so much and it hurt more every day. So that Sunday when she woke up she just decided that she wasn't going to get out of bed, not today, today she needed a moment so stop and just cry and be sad.
But now that she was at the door with Paige; she kind of understood that she wasn't the only one suffering; they Pam hadn't see Paige since the day Emily left, but she knew that the girl must have been having a hard time with the situation.
Now she seemed so small, there at her door, with her little eyes red and her hands tucked in her pockets as she waited for her to say something. It made Pam's heart melt.
"Come with me" Pam said, she grabbed Paige's hand and pulled her inside the house.
They walked to the kitchen in silence, Pam didn't know what to say at first; she just knew that she wanted to help Paige; she wanted to take the pain away from her…
"Are you hungry?" Pam asked. Paige looked at her and nodded frantically
"Yes" She said
"Okay then, do you like pasta?" Pam asked again reaching in one of the kitchen cupboards.
"Yes…" Paige said again.
Pam turned around to face her and smiled sweetly at Paige as she grabbed her hand; she looked at the girl in the eyes and was surprised to see the depth in Paige's look, they reminded silent for a moment.
"You still miss her" Pam said in a whisper
"A lot" Paige said, she fought her tears but her lip quivered a bit.
"Me too" Pam said, she moved and hugged Paige for a moment, the girl wrapped her arms around her and they reminded silent as they hugged each other
Then Pam pulled apart and wiped her tears as she turned around again to start dinner; she opened the pasta box and checked that she had the rest of the ingredients.
"You know" She said as she handed Paige a cookie so she could eat something while she waited "I don't want to be alone either" Pam said "You could come here more often"
"Really?" Paige asked with a smile
"Yes" Pam said "You can come here whenever you want Paige, you're always welcomed here"
Present day
Emily was sat on the couch, with a coup of wine in her hands as she listened to the background music that her mom started a while ago. She had arrived early, but she didn't care, she liked to have her mom's company again, after all these years and also she kind of preferred to not be alone.
Even though yesterday she spent the whole day with company; after her walk with Paige, she spent the rest of the day and part of the night with Spencer and Ezra, and it was a great time, more than great it was amazing; they watched a movie and after that they had dinner and played games, then they just drank and talked about stuff and then Spencer fell asleep on her couch so she just slept there until the morning.
Emily sipped her wine and looked around the living room, her mom was in the kitchen finishing the lasagna and they both were waiting for Paige to come, Pam said that she was about to come.
And after a couple of seconds the bell rang, Emily placed her cup on the table and stood up quickly.
"Can you get the door?" Pam yelled from the kitchen. Emily opened it and was welcomed by the sight of Paige who seemed to be extremely beautiful tonight.
"Hi" Emily said simply, Paige seemed to be a bit confused and shy but she smiled at her
"Hi Emily" She said.
She walked inside of the house and when she walked next to Emily, Emily couldn't help to notice the sweet smell of Paige, she smelled like strawberries, or something really sweet, and she was really beautiful… she was dressed in tight black jeans that hugged her curves perfectly and was wearing a grey tank top that fit amazingly on her body.
Then Emily realized that she was checking out the girl and she just shook her head and closed the door. They both walked into the living room and Emily noticed that Paige was carrying a big black bag.
"Well, here we are again" Emily said as she sat on the couch once again "It's nice to see you again"
"Yeah, I promise I won't run away this time" Paige joked as she sat too.
They reminded silent for a moment and then Pam walked in with a bright smile as she looked at Paige.
"Hi honey" She said as she waited for Paige to stand up; Paige leaned closer and kissed Pam's cheek lovingly and then sat again. Emily observed the action and whished that Paige would've greeted her with a kiss too…
"Sorry for being a bit late" Paige said "I had to finish something"
"It's okay Paige; how was work?" Pam asked nonchalantly as she fixed her clothes. Emily looked at Paige curiously; she didn't know she had a job.
"Exhausting" Paige said as she sighed deeply "I had to follow Dimitri all around the woods holding the camera tripod and all the bags; and we took like thousands of photos…"
"Well, now you can rest" Pam said smiling "Look at the great part… you got payed"
"Yeah, that's amazing, but I can't feel my feet" Paige said
Pam let out a laugh and walked into the kitchen again to finish dinner; Emily eyed Paige for a moment and smiled as she saw the girl rubbing her neck.
"So… you have a job" Emily said trying to start a conversation. Paige raised her head and made eye contact with her
"Yes" she answered
"How cool… I thought your mom didn't let you work yet" Emily commented
"Oh, she won't let me, but I don't give a fuck about what she cares" Paige said with anger "I… mean she clearly said that she didn't want me to work… but I just decided to accept the job since I like it" Paige corrected. Emily laughed and nodded.
"What is the job about?" She asked curiously. Paige grabbed the black bag she was wearing before and opened it, then she grabbed a camera from inside.
"I'm a photographer" Paige said
"Wow… I never expected that" Emily said surprised but proud
"Well I am not a professional, I have to learn a lot but I like to work at the studio with Dimitri… he is the weirdest guy in the planet, but he's so good" Paige said
"Who would've said that Paige McCullers would end up being a photographer?" Emily said jokingly. Paige laughed and shrugged her shoulders
"I don't know, I just found a camera in my garage one day and that's how the magic started" Paige said
"You always had a particular way to see everything" Emily commented "It's nice that you have a way to show everyone how you see the life, with your photos"
"Thanks" Paige said as she blushed intensely
"Does that mean that you're going to become a famous photographer in the future?" Emily asked; Paige eyed her trying to continue with the jokes and the nice conversation they were having but then she felt a pang of sadness in her chest, she looked down and sighed.
"I don't think so" She mumbled as she looked at her feet. Emily looked at her with a concerned expression.
"Paige…"
"My mom wants me to be a doctor" Paige said
"She can't decide your future for you" Emily said, she placed a hand on Paige's knee ignoring all the tingles this caused on her and trying to be soothing
"She's the one paying the college, and the one letting me live in her house, and the one that pays my bills and pretty much everything; plus you know it's not so easy to say no to Claire McCullers" Paige said sadly
"I know" Emily said "Hey" She said again when she saw Paige's upset face; she placed a hand on her chin making her look at her and smiled sweetly "But now your mom is not here, tonight is just us and my mom"
"Right" Paige said as she smiled softly "It's been a long time since we didn't have dinner together" She commented nonchalantly. She stood up and walked to the kitchen to help Pam bring the food to the table.
Emily sat on the couch with a pang of guilt inside of her body; she knew Paige never said those things with the intention of hurt her but Emily always felt really bad when she remembered that she left Paige behind when she left.
She was submerged in her thought when Pam and Paige entered the living room chatting quietly and laughing as they carried the plates with lasagna and a bottle of wine and the glasses.
Emily stood up to help them and couldn't help but observe the interaction between her mother and Paige; it was like they were family now, the way Paige trusted Pam and talked to her and the way Pam treated Paige with such love and endearment was as if they had become family during all this years.
They sat at the table and started to eat quietly; Emily at first felt a bit weird; sitting in the living room, having dinner with her mom as they used to do when she was a teenager.
"You have no idea how happy I am right now" Pam said as she swallowed her lasagna; she looked at Emily and then at Paige and smiled "It's been a long time since something like this happened"
"It's been a long time since we had dinner together" Paige agreed as she looked at Emily
"I've missed this so much" Emily said. Pam smiled at her and raised her cup of wine "To family reunions" She said
"And to your lasagna" Paige said "The best lasagna ever"
Pam and Emily laughed at this and finished the toast by drinking the wine; Pam eyed Paige swallow the alcohol and then smacked her shoulder softly
"Be careful with the alcohol young lady" Pam said raising an eyebrow "Remember that you're not twenty one yet"
"Sorry" Paige muttered as she placed the cup on the table "I'll drink water"
"That's better" Pam said
"Don't worry Paige" Emily said laughing "She won't let me drink alcohol when I was young too"
"Oh she can drink alcohol" Pam said "But I don't want to repeat the Christmas episode of two years ago"
Paige burst out laughing and Emily looked at them confused but knowing that it would be something funny
"What happened?" She asked curiously. Pam looked at her as she smiled
"This one over there" She said pining at Paige "Convinced me to open the bottle of whiskey your grandad gave to me; she said she wanted to try it"
"And that did not end good right?" Emily asked
"No" Paige said as she laughed
"One shot became four… and eight…" Pam said
"We pretty much ended up drank" Paige said
Emily nearly spitted out her lasagna, and she looked at her mom really surprised, she never saw Pam drink more than one or two cups, and obviously she never saw her mom drunk.
"No way" She said as she laughed
"Yeah" Pam commented "Actually I didn't realize that we had drank so much until I got up from the couch and I realized that I was dizzy"
"We got a bit carried away" Paige said
"Just a bit?" Pam asked "You threw up in my mom's base" She said laughing; Emily remembered that vase, Pam had it since she left Texas.
"I already said sorry" Paige said
"It's okay… I never liked that vase so much anyways" Pam commented
Emily laughed hard; she didn't remember when was the last time she got to laugh so much; she had a nice time last night with Ezra and Spencer but now she was nearly crying from laughing.
Pam and Paige sure had lived a lot of things together and Pam just started to tell some stories about them a few years ago; it was cute to see how Paige blushed when Pam told some embarrassing story and also it was fun to hear to them.
They talked and laughed for what it seemed forever; and after they finished the lasagna they just reminded there talking until Pam brought the dessert and then they just started the nice conversation again.
Emily finally forgot any kind of awkwardness she had been feeling at first and then she just relaxed and even told some anecdote from when she was in California.
Paige listened to her intently and they laughed and finally they ended up chatting quietly as they finished the apple pie.
"Okay ladies, I am going to wash all this" Pam said as she got up from the table.
"Do you want any help?" Paige asked.
"No; no you two stay here" Pam said as she carried the plates to the kitchen.
Emily and Paige sat on the couch again and looked at each other for a moment; now they were alone again.
They could hear Pam humming a song from the kitchen as she washed the dishes and they smiled softly.
"Thank you for inviting me tonight" Emily said sincerely as she looked at Paige
"It was nothing… it's your mom's house anyway" Paige said.
Emily looked at her for a moment and then let out a sigh as she smiled; she sat a bit closer next to Paige and then placed her hand atop the girl's.
"It means a lot to me that you still want to spend time with me after all the pain I caused you" Emily said. Paige swallowed hard at the confession and when she noticed how close they were.
"We said we wanted a fresh start" Paige said
"Yes… I am really glad that you were here for my mom, all these years" Emily said gratefully.
"She was the only thing that could keep me connected with you" Paige confessed "Plus she was always there for me"
"I'm glad to hear that" Emily said; at this point she was so close to Paige that she could hear the girl's breathing. "You didn't deserve what I did to you"
Emily reached out her hand and placed it on Paige's cheek; she caressed the soft skin with her thumb and observed as Paige closed her eyes at the contact.
Paige's breath hitched in her throat and the skin on her cheek tingled furiously as she felt Emily's hand there. She closed her eyes to be able to feel everything better and sighed deeply.
Emily watched the scene with a soft smile; Paige's skin was so soft… and she looked so beautiful with her eyes closed and her mouth slightly parted…
Paige opened her eyes a second later and blushed really intensely as she saw Emily's face so close to her and the look in her eyes; Emily's hand was still on her cheek and they just reminded silent for a moment.
And then Emily leaned her head a bit, it was a slow movement but suddenly her lips were just mere inches from Paige's, she could feel the girl's breath in her mouth and then she closed her eyes as she thought about closing the distance that separated their faces.
Paige was so blushed at this point that she could hear her heart beating in her ears; Emily had closed her eyes and she was clearly going to kiss her, she was so close to her mouth that their lips almost brushed. So Paige parted her lips a bit as she waited for the unexpected kiss…
"Okay girls" Pam said exiting the kitchen
Emily opened her eyes startled and Paige almost jumped to the floor when she heard Pam's voice; she pulled back immediately and sat as far from Emily as she could.
"I'm done" Pam said smiling "And I am really tired"
Emily smiled nervously and stood up quickly trying to avoid eye contact with Paige. What the hell she was doing?! She was about to kiss one of her students, and she was even enjoying the moment…
"You can stay here if you want" Pam said "I think I am going to bed"
"I… think I am going to head home" Emily said nervously
"Oh" Pam said
"Tomorrow we have class and I have to read some papers" Emily said; she looked briefly at Paige; the girl was still sat in the couch, her gaze fixed in some point on the floor as she tried to process what just happened
"Well then, I guess our night is over" Pam said sadly "I hope we can repeat this soon"
"Uh… yeah, totally, we have to do this again" Emily said.
Paige stood up too and walked to Pam ignoring Emily completely; Emily looked at her but didn't try to catch her attention or to say something
"I should go too" Paige said simply.
"Okay sweetheart, be careful" She said looking at Emily and Paige.
Pam kissed Paige's cheek and hugged Emily and walked upstairs happily; Paige looked at Emily for a moment once she realized that they were alone again and then she just walked to the front door.
Emily walked behind her and they both exited the house in silence; Paige was trying to figure out what to say or what to do; she was really confused now, what had just happened? Emily was really going to kiss her… or she just imagined it…
"Paige…" Emily said once they were outside. Paige looked at her but didn't say anything; the truth was that Emily was out of words too so they looked at each other for a moment
"Good night" Paige said simply; she turned around and started to walk to her house.
Emily stood in the porch with a confused expression and wanting to hit something, she just ruined all the new start she had with Paige, she ruined it by being stupid and not thinking about what she was doing.
"Good night" She whispered with sadness as she tucked her hands in the pocket of her jeans and started to walk along the street.
She had made a huge mistake tonight; she couldn't believe that she was just about to kiss Paige, how she could even think about it…. Her skin was so soft… and she was so beautiful tonight… but those weren't excuses to what she was about to do.
The only thing that crossed her mind now was how she was going to be able to have class with senior year and look at Paige in the face…
Have a wonderful day/night :)