"I was always hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to get my fill of it – to be fed so much love I couldn't take any more. Just once."
― Haruki Murakami

Rey walked down the ramp of their ship as if she hadn't just had Ben Solo's cock deep inside of her as she attempted to land the ship in his lap. Her lips twitched at the memory of him holding her still as they went through the turbulence of entering the planet's atmosphere. The back of her neck still stung from the way his teeth pierced it as she came.

But now they were back in the reality of their situation, meeting up with one of Leia's contacts in Vakkar on their hyperspace route, and even here - parsecs from Coruscant and the Jedi template, they couldn't be seen to be together. She smiled back at Ben as he followed her, eyes flitting from point to point. Always vigilant.

"You should go gather supplies as I meet with the contact," he said as his eyes met hers. They were hard to read - or would have been, if she hadn't spent years with him doing just that. He was unsure, this planet had a lot of activity from travelers headed far away from Coruscant - and therefore, Galactic Law. "I want to spend as little time here as possible."

Are you sure that's just because you don't like the planet? She asked in her mind, wondering when she got to be so flirtatious.

Rey noticed a slight blush reaching his cheeks even though his face was impassive, he brought out the compass beacon that would take him to the contact as a distraction.

She walked towards him, forcing his eyes down to meet hers, "I'll go get the supplies and refuel, don't take too long. Remember I'm also getting you a present…"

Ben gulped almost audibly as she lingered, too close to be platonic to any onlookers, but didn't touch him. He asked her for this, but Rey could tell he was clearly a bit unsure about it. It was a pleasant flip to the norm, as he's been so confident and experienced compared to her. She shuddered as she remembered where he got that experience from.

I'm yours, Rey.

His voice echoed in her head as she walked away, trying to reassure her again; she knew that, realistically she did - he risked a lot for her. They both were, for this - people don't do that unless they were sure.

Or stupid.

You are many things, but stupid isn't one of them - and I went to the best schools in the galaxy you know.

She snorted as she worked her way through the crowded streets, Yeah and all that modesty got you so far. I know, Ben - it'll just take time, though.

Aren't you glad I convinced them to let me take you on this trip now?

Rey smiled at that, she was indeed - if she hadn't known any better, she would have assumed it was her birthday even. Feeling him perk up at the idea, Rey pushed back a little, asking him to let her focus on finding her way. Not all of them had fancy beacons telling them where to go.

She found a supply shop fairly easily, ordering packs of rations and some fresh food to be sent to the ship at priority, since similar to Ben she felt uneasy being here. Although perhaps for different reasons. For the special item, she had no idea where something like that could be found - and the idea of asking around made her stomach churn. It was amazing how open she could be with Ben, but as soon as she has to talk about it elsewhere her body starts to sweat.

So instead she wanders the streets, keeping an eye on the signs of each shop, knowing it was frustratingly futile. She shook herself and moved to the side, her back pressed against a storefront and away from the people. Closing her eyes, she centered herself and focused on her need; the Force swelled around her and the sounds of the world went away. When she opened her eyes, it was as if a string tied her to the spot she needed.

After a few minutes, she entered a store with no sign and brightly colored windows - it was quieter in here, with sumptuous furniture that made Rey feel a bit out of place.

"Hello dear, may I help you?" An older woman asked her, coming out of one of the doors as Rey walked in.

Rey's fingers laced together and she couldn't stop them from fidgeting, but the woman smiled at her almost knowingly. She found her voice finally, "I'm looking for something, for my-"

"Oh yes, I can see what you need, dear, follow me." Rey's brow scrunched up in confusion, but followed the woman anyway; despite feeling wary of the planet, she knew she could hold her own - and Ben was close behind if she needed backup. "I'm Chessua, by the way. And I have a sense about these things, it's helpful in my line of work. Oftentimes people are a bit nervous as you can imagine."

Rey just nodded, she absolutely could understand - this was not her world, but with Ben it still somehow felt right. She ached for him, even now.

Chessua brought out a box and handed it to Rey, "This is our most popular design, it has straps so there's no slippage, and the size seems to work for most humanoids - he is human, correct?"

Rey blushed a bright shade of red at the suggestion that Ben may have been non-humanoid, but nodded, "Yes, uh - thank you, he is."

She gently took the top off the box and swallowed hard at the straps of fabric and pieces of some plastic-like material. Her heartbeat accelerated as she thought about trying to use this with Kylo, head spinning a little. The woman was asking her something, but it was muted and she blushingly had to ask her to repeat herself.

"Do you want me to show you how to put it on?" The words were kind, as if she knew Rey may have been a bit overwhelmed, but the Jedi just shook her head.

"No thank you, this is great - I think I'd just like to pay for it. Is there anything else I need?"

"Maybe not need, but would you like to look around? We have one of the finest stores in this region and something might spark your interest?" Not really waiting for an answer, the woman guided Rey around the store, showing her odds and ends. It went on for over an hour before Rey finally ask to just get checked out, her heart sputtering and her thighs sore just thinking about some of these things.

You're so wet I can smell you from here, little padawan. What have you gotten us?

At his voice, Rey's hands slammed down on to the table in surprise, making the woman jump a little. She smiled an apology and transferred the credits before thanking her profusely and dashing out of the shop. Looking over her shoulder as if someone was chasing her for daring to buy things like this, Rey raced back towards their ship.

Ben was there when she arrived, with more data disks and information and a fully fueled ship.

"Supplies came while you were…out," he smirked and his eyes fell on the package she was carrying. "Find everything you were looking for?"

Rey nodded nervously and tried to walk past him on the ramp without looking at him, but he stopped her with a hand on her stomach. "Rey, are you okay with this? You don't have to do anything to impress me. I already l-"

He shut his mouth quickly at that, and Rey frowned, wanting to ask him what he was going to say, "No it's fine, just an odd experience - I want this Ben."

She stood on her tip toes and pressed a kiss to his lips, for once almost the same height thanks to the ramp. Ben let a soft surprised sound out before pulling her close against him, the box clattering to the ground. Rey tugged on his lip until he opened his mouth for her, letting her explore, sucking her breath from her body and leaving her gasping. Two solid hands went around her waist and pulled her up with a grunt, legs circling around his body.

He pulled away briefly to look at her and the look in his eyes made her heart stop and then start pounding even heard against her chest. So loud that she was sure he could hear it.

"I missed you today," he said softly as they stood there.

Rey gave him a small smile, "I was only gone for a few hours, Ben."

"It felt like a lifetime. I don't know how I ever survived it on Coruscant," he ducked his head into her neck and let out a shuddering breathless sigh. Rey felt the mood turn from desperate to sweet and she pulled her hands from his back to run through his hair, murmuring soft words of affection.

His head moved slightly up, lips brushing her neck in light kisses, slowly moving across her chest to the other side, his hands pulling her even tighter. Ben shuddered at some sheltered thought and raised his head to look at her. They watched each other, moments of silence passing through them and their bond, before he made a decision and began walking into the ship towards their bed.

Their bed, Rey thought. Such a strange phrase, it was always his bed they were in - at the temple, or the grass in the gardens - they had never had a place their own. This ship was as good as any, though, and as he laid her onto the bed she sighed contentedly; feeling at peace as she smiled at him.

He unbuckled her belt and slid it off, focused on the task at hand as Rey just watched him, her chest rising and falling with anticipation. Ben knelt on the bed with one leg as he pulled her boots off, slipping his fingers under her pants and tugging them down slowly. Far too slowly, if she had any say - but Rey didn't want to shatter the silence and so let him pull them off, baring her lips to him.

A haggard breath escaped him, "Oh, sweetheart."

The softness in his voice made her legs go weak and as his warm fingers raised her shirt up and over her head, she was grateful her body was already somewhere solid - and that Ben didn't seem to need her to be any more active than she already was.

Large hands roamed up her body, barely pausing as they ran over her breasts and hardening nipples, until they framed her face and he made her look at him, "You are beautiful."

The intensity of the moment made her want to shy away, but he mercifully let her go as his mouth traveled between her breasts and down her stomach, leaving light kisses until he reached her nether lips. His hands pushed her thighs apart even further, one moving to pull her open, letting him run a long lick from her pussy directly to her clit, swirling it with the tip of his tongue.

"Oh stars," she huffed - Rey knew she should have expected it, but every time it makes her body quiver with surprise. He grazed it up and down, so gently that her mewls became groans as his hand squeezed her thigh. She desperately wished for more, and her stomach muscles rippled as she pushed herself up towards him, seeking the missing friction.

But Ben maintained focus only on her clit, circling the outside before running the flat of his tongue against it; no teeth, no fingers - it was enough to make Rey sob. Finally the hand that gripped her thigh moved up and inwards, leaving her panting and begging for more, a string of please please please running through her mind.

He just hummed in response until he dipped his tongue finally, blissfully, into her pussy; he thrust it in as far as he could, fingertips pressing onto her clit. Her hands went to his hair and pulled hard as she sat up slightly just to watch him.

Pulling away slightly, Ben kissed her clit and moved to bite the skin of her hips, distracting her from the way his fingers danced around her lower lips. One finally slid inside, meeting no resistance, and her body fell back, "Thank you," was all she could say.

He added another one as his pace kept increasing, long fingers twisting inside of her, brushing against her inner walls. Ben latched on to her left breast at the same time his thumb started flicking her clit. Teeth grazed her erect nipples and her nails dug into his scalp, eliciting a hard moan from him.

"Let me make you feel good, please Rey, need to see you come for me," he whispered against her chest as his fingers picked up the pace, begging her in a string of near-unintelligible phrases that left Rey somehow even more breathless, begging for air.

His hand was thrusting harder now and with less finesse, each one causing a shudder as his thumb circled and pressed into her clit with just the right amount of pleasure. Rey knew he must have been reading her through the bond, it was the only way he could have known just what to do to make her scream.

Her body bowed upwards and her legs spread even wider as she felt her hips start to shudder uncontrollably, nerves on a live wire from full body attention.

"Come for me, my little Jedi, just for me," Ben whispered possessively, feeling her orgasm build, and she pulled him up to kiss his lips that tasted of her. He seemed surprised, but lavished her with a deep kiss until she crested and wailed, eyes clenching shut as her hips thrust in time with his hand, riding out the wave as her insides gripped his fingers, unwilling to let them go until they had completed their job.

Ben watched her face the whole time, the myriad of expressions, with such intensity that had she not been in the aftershocks of orgasm, she might have been self-conscious. Instead, she smiled warmly at him, kissing the corners of his lips, thanking him breathlessly.

Once her body let them go, he pulled his fingers out, glistening with her cum, and licked them clean as she watched. Her fingers danced over his clothed chest as he knelt there next to her; it occurred to her that this was something she never thought in her wildest dreams she could have - someone who loved her, worshipped her.

As that word ripped through her mind, she blushed with embarrassment, hoping he hadn't heard; even now, she felt it was foolish to expect him to love someone like her - in their situation no less. But he was devoted to her, for now; and Rey felt that was enough.

Ben gave no inclination that he was privy to her inner monologue, just dipped back down to her pussy to lick her clean, the cum cooling and drying already. When he was done, he stepped off the bed and kissed her cheek as he pulled the blanket over her to keep her cool.

"I'll finish packing the ship, you rest until we can leave - alright?" Rey just nodded, somehow not expecting him to take such good care of her, but twisting to lay on her side as the blanket tucked around her. He smiled briefly and then left.

A few hours later, she was woken up by a hand brushing against her cheek, thumb grazing across her cheekbones. She wasn't sure how long he had been doing it, but Rey almost wished he would never stop.

"If you want to leave before sun down, it's time." His voice made it seem like he'd be okay with staying the night, despite his earlier protests, but she shook her head and sat up. Even she knew that they should get moving - their schedule hadn't accounted for unexpected post-coital naps.

She looked at her clothes and groaned, deciding she didn't want to bother, and instead covered herself in the blanket and moved to get up. But Ben noticed what she was doing and rolled his eyes before picking her up in his arms and walking out of the room.

"Mmm," she nuzzled into his chest, "I'm like a princess and you're my knight."

He laughed a little, and Rey felt that he had laughed a lot more with her the past few days and decided she liked it, "Yes, a princess that could easily kill anyone in her way including me."

"Even those kinds of princesses like to be carried by their knights," she said lightly as he set her in the pilot's chair and looked at her indulgently. He didn't respond, just sat next to her in the co-pilot's seat, readying the ship to leave atmo.

She comm'd the docking station and got the green light, and lifted them into the air smoothly, all while wrapped in a sheet, still wet from Ben's ministrations earlier.

"Are you tired?" She asked him innocently, and he just stared out of the viewport, refusing to meet her gaze as he simply replied with a no. Nodding to herself, she smiled mischievously, knowing just how to repay him for his thorough efforts earlier.

She entered in the next jump coordinates along with the thermal shields, and as the ship pushed into hyperspace she stood up and offered her hand to Ben. He looked nervous, but excited, and as he took her hand she pulled him towards her.

"I can't wait to fuck you," she said low and fervently, watching his body ripple with anticipation as the words hit him, before moving to follow her to the bed she had just left.

Author's Note: Surprise! A nice little chapter for all you sweet reviewers and readers - thanks so much for being patient with me in my 15 month drought of this story. I hope you enjoyed this taste of sweetness. It was not how I intended for things to go this chapter, but when writers say the characters demand things - that's not just craziness talking. It's true. Ben and Rey needed this and so here it is.

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