A/n sooooooooo, I don't really have anything to say for myself other that sorry. I completely lost touch with this story and it wasn't until recently when Bubbles-Belle reviewed that I even remembered it was still unfinished. I appreciate all the reviews I have gotten up until now and hope that you don't hate me too much. I am going to try and finish the story soon though. If anyone has any suggestions please let me know because honestly I don't know where to go from here. enjoy! KM
Rory
Rory
Rory woke up to a room covered in early morning light. As she looked around she remembered where she was – Logan's hotel room. Because Logan came back she thought with a small smile pulling at her lips. Though the smile slid back off her face when she realized that Logan was no longer there. She was beginning to panic. She was rushing out of bed when she felt a piece of paper crunch under her hand.
Ace, I'm coming back… I promise. I just needed to clear my head.
L
Rory relaxed slightly, the clock began to beep, it was 8 am; just then, her phone went off. It was a text message from Rick : Mom, where are you? You never came home, are you okay? She quickly typed a reply: I'm fine, want to meet at pop's for breakfast?
With that, she got out of bed and, made herself presentable and headed out. She figured that she would pass Logan on the way to the diner.
Luke
"So there Will and Ricky are, sittin there at the top of the hill, shaking – they're so scared, begging me to pull the sled further away from the hill– when Lola runs up behind them and says, 'You dummies, you're not even trying' and pushes them down. Boy, I'll tell ya, I have never heard two boys scream in that pitch before. They flew down that hill, jumped the curb and went straight into the street. They sat there about two minutes in the middle of the road just bawling when the plow truck turned the corner. They screamed even higher this time…"
Logan almost fell off his stool as he listened to Luke tell the tale of his kid's first time sledding when they were 5.
When Luke first saw Logan walking in the town square, he'd been ready to take the guy's head off with the ladle he'd been holding. But the sincere look on the young man's face when he said that he didn't know about the kids until 3 days ago and his swears that he came to make things right had Luke's guard down pretty quickly. He'd always felt bad that the twins didn't have a true father figure other than him and he knew that Rory never got involved with anyone hoping that Logan would someday show up. How Logan was left in the dark still wasn't making much sense to him, but Logan looked a bit to shell shocked to talk about it now anyway, so he figured he'd come back to it. Since 6 am Luke has been telling Logan stories about the twins in between orders.
"Hey dad, why is mom upset, did you mention Paul Anka again?" Will Danes asked walking in from the store- room. Though he is technically their uncle, Will is six months younger than Rick and Lola the three of them almost considered themselves siblings. "And why are you telling strangers about the day Lola tried to become and only child?"
Luke paused wondering how to explain the situation to his son, who was apparently just as out of the loop as he was. "Actually Will, this is Logan…. He's, uh, Rick and Lola's father."
Will's face dropped. "Eh… fuck!"
"William Alexander…" Luke started in a reprimanding voice
"Sorry dad, but, I mean… shit. That's weird."
"Yeah, I guess you have a point."
"Do they know he's here?" Just as the words left his mouth the bell on the door jingled. All three men turned around to see Rory walk in, followed closely by her two children.
Logan
So, this is it, I am officially their father now. Shit… what do I do? Do I hug them? Do I not? Do they call me dad? I am so bad at this! Logan's head was spinning as her saw his family walk in… Whoa!! I have a family…shit!
Rory had a slight smile as she walked through the door. "Hi Logan." She said sweetly.
The kids on the other hand seemed to be just as confused as he was, they were walking slowly right behind their mother, not saying a word.
Logan stood and walked over to Lola and Rick. "I'm going to be honest with you guys, I have no idea how to do this. I mean, you can call me dad if you want or Logan is just fine. But I do want this, I want to be here. Your mom and Luke are trying to catch me up on some stuff, but you know, 17 years is a lot of…" Before he could finish, Lola – who had been tearing up ever since she saw him in the diner – had launched herself into his chest and wrapped her arms around him. Logan was never a fan of hugs, they always seemed awkward, but as he wrapped his arms around his daughter he realized that he could get used to them quickly, because nothing in his life had ever felt as right as this.
As he squeezed he a bit tighter her heard her whisper 'Thanks for showing up, dad."
Rory
Breakfast had turned out beautifully, once Lola and Logan had settled down we all sat down to eat. For two hours the kids took turns recounting some of their favorite childhood memories like the Halloween when they were 6. Will thought that his Spiderman costume gave him Spidy's super powers and he tried to climb one of the walls of the Dragonfly. When he fell he broke his arm in two places, but Lola, dressed as a doctor, was convinced that he poked a hole in his "speen" as well and that she would have to do surgery. She was so convinced that she yelled at the real doctor not being able to see it and risking her cousin's life
But as much as Rory was enjoying herself, she couldn't stop her mind from wandering. What was going to happen now? Logan clearly wanted to be a part of their lives, but he had a demanding job in New York City; he had to be there. And she and the kids love Stars Hollow, it's their home, not only that, but there was no way that she would uproot them right before their senior year of high school. How was this going to work.
Just then everyone at the table burst into laughter and pulled Rory out of her daze. She watched Logan look in amazement at their children in the way she often did herself, then he turned to her and flashed a dazzling smile. It occurred to her that even in the care free days of their youth, she didn't think she'd ever seen him look so happy. And with that thought her insides melted just a little bit, and she wanted nothing more that to stay like this - laughing with Logan and their children - forever.
What are we going to do?
Lorelai
As soon as she walked into the diner everything stopped. Logan, Lola Rick and Rory had abruptly stopped laughing and Will and Luke followed their lead. All eyes were on her and her heart skipped a few painful beats when she saw the happiness fade from Rory's eyes.
"Rory, can I please talk to you." Lorelai asked quietly
"Mom, i don't think that's a good idea." Rory replied
"Please, Rory" she was pleading, but she didn't care, she would do anything to know that her daughter didn't hate her.
"Fine" Rory stood from her chair and they both walked from Luke's diner through the square and sat in the Gazebo. 'You wanted to talk, so talk"
"I'm an asshole. I get it, I underestimated you and him and I am so sorry. I will do anything to regain your trust and get back into your good graces, just tell me what and consider it done. But please don't shut me out. Please understand that I didn't get it, I thought that what you had with Logan was a purely physical deal and that he was just some rich stud. I thought I knew guys like him, that for him it was all just... I don't know pissing off mommy and daddy dearest. You know, drugs, sex and rock and roll and all that jazz. From where I was standing you and your babies where better off without him, without all that society scandal that I had to go through. Could you please just try to understand where I'm coming from? I saw that you cared about him and I was trying to keep him from crushing you...Never in a million years could I have guessed that he loved you too and I'm sorry... " Lorelai finished her rant breathing heavily and glanced back and forth from her hands, folded in her lap, to her daughter's unreadable expression. "Please say something.."
"Mom I don't know about th... wait! What do you mean he loved me too he- he loved me?" Rory asked with soft eyes.
"Yeah, babe he did, he told me last night." Lorelai replied regretfully.
"Wow. I... wow. Do you think--"Rory began.
"Okay kid, I'd love to talk about that with you more in a minute, but can you please just tell me that you don't hate me first, I'm dying over here." Lorelai blurted out.
"Oh mom, I could never hate you, your my mother, you raised me, you helped me raised my children I love you, but I can't but think that if you had given him the letter, my whole life could be different. I mean, he might have wanted to be with me, we could have been together this whole time. Lola and Rick would have grown up with a father, we could have been married, we could have had more kids..." It looked like Rory was about to start hyperventilating. then her face fell. "But then again maybe he wouldn't have been ready then, maybe he would be exactly like Chris and have always disappointed us... I can't be that mad at you because in all honesty, you may have done me a favor, it just hurts that you didn't even give Logan and I the chance to find out." Rory sighed and looked deep in thought. "I don't hate you mom, but it might take me a while to forgive you."
Lorelai gave Rory a watery smile. She started crying along with Rory somewhere around the time Rory supposed that she could have been 'happy' . I thought she was happy. "You know what hon, I'll take what I can get... Can I hug you now or is that a suspended priveledge?" The two women stood and embraced for a long moment until the sound of footsteps broke them apart.
"My turn?" Logan asked with hopeful eyes.
Logan
"So..." Logan began as Lorelai walked back in the direction of Luke's diner. "Interesting couple of days huh?"He said dryly.
"Yeah, I think the past three days have given me enough material for my next book." Rory retorted.
Logan sat down with a soft chuckle. A comfortable silence settled between them as they each searched for a handle on the situation. "What now, Ace?" Logan asked quietly after a few minutes, his eyes still searching the empty sidewalks for answers.
"That is entirely up to you Logan." Rory said glancing at his profile before turning back to look over the town again. " This is my life, our life. We're here for good, the only question that needs answering is do you want to be here too?"
"Absolutely, Rory, I'm in. I just have to figure out a way t make it work."
"That is an issue, I mean, you live in New york and have a busy job and we live here and..oh God," Rory gasped a thought just occurring to her for the first time. "You probably have a wife and more kids don't you. I didn't even realise Logan, how are they going to take this and..." Rory stopped her rant when Logan grabbed her hands.
"Calm down Ace," he said with a chuckle. she still looks cute when she's upset. He held up his ringless left hand "I'm not married, no kids... well, no others kids."
As oddly relieved as she was to hear that, Rory was still shocked. "You're not married?" She repeated. "Why not, you're successful, you're attractive, you're charming... how ar you not married by now... or are you still dating like you used to?"
Logan had a mixed bag of reactions to her comment. He smiled at the fact that she still found him attractive and charming, but he was surprisingly hurt that she thought he would still be that immature. " Well, I suppose I wasn't entirely truthful" he began. "I was married, for about 3 years when I was 28. But we had trouble having kids and once Charlotte miscarried for the second time our marriage kind of fell apart. And to answer your second question, I haven't really dated much since the divorce."
"Oh Logan, I'm sorry." Rory said. She couldn't bear to think about losing a child.
"Thank," Logan said stiffly. "But that's life I guess, it's better to focus on the good, like the fact that I have two fantastic children thanks to you." Once again he smiled brightly at her. Suddenly his smile turned sly. "Speaking of focusing on the good, you think I'm handsome and charming!" He teased in a sing son voice.
Rory turned bright red. "You know what y-... Grow up!" she huffed as she began to walk away. But he grabbed her arm and pulled her back and before she knew what was happening he was kissing her... he was kissing her good and after 17 years of near celibacy she wasn't going to stop him any time soon.
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