Her memory was a little different then the actual story, but you guys get over it (and if you leave a mean comment about it, I'll get mad). I wanted to change it a little bit.

But other then that enjoy the story, Kay? :)

Chapter Ten

It was a dark and cold night. The night didn't seem to fill the air well. I could only be happy for being with my captain and mentor. We ran through a separated forest in the land of the living. The trees weren't bunched together but separated in feet's.

Captain Jushiro Ukitake and Lieutenant Kaien Shiba were on either side of me. They both wanted to make sure that we would all be protected in each direction. When I say "we" I mean me.

Suddenly the spiritual energy hit me like a pound of bricks. I'm pretty sure my captain and lieutenant felt the same pressure long before I did. I felt my self shake at the amount it had given off. This was my 7th mission I have done since I officially became a Soul Reaper. I was excited, and believed I could take anything down. I developed my brother's pride.

We could see the Hallow now. It was at least seven feet tall and three feet wide. Hundreds of tentacles swerved in different directions. Kaien didn't seem to worry, he held a hard face.

"Permission to go alone, Captain" Kaien said, without looking.

"Granted"

My eyes flashed worried toward Ukitake.

Kaien was off before I could protest. He couldn't handle this Hallow on his own, could he? Surely not!

"No" Ukitake held one arm in front of me. That's when I realized that I was about to march in that battle and pull him away. "He's not only fighting for the life of his wife, but for his pride. If you were to step in right now and save him then you'll make him loose his pride as a Soul Reaper and as a man"

I nodded uneasily and stared at the battle going on. I suddenly saw something I wished I could erase from my memory. One of the tentacles slid into Kaien's mouth, and then it filled every ounce of his body. Kaien's eyes turned black and his skin went pale. I gasped.

"Kaien…" I breathed.

"Run Rukia!" I looked hesitantly at my captain then I started to run away.

I ran away like a fool. Leaving behind my friends and my pride. What kind of soul reaper was I? I couldn't handle this? Of course I could, but did I know what it took to save Kaien? Yes. I knew how to save him. I'll have to kill him to save him. I'll save his pride.

I quickly ran back toward the battle ground. My legs threatened to give up on me but I kept going. I wanted to go faster. Both my sides began to ache. My feet hollowed and made a noise every time I took a step. My heart was pounding and dying at the same time.

I saw them. Ukitake held the sword blocking Kaien's. They were fighting. Ukitake sensed me and said "I told-you to go!" he growled.

I didn't answer. I couldn't.

Before I knew it, Ukitake was on his back and was breathless.

Kaien threw his sword down, I blocked it. I had to protect Ukitake.

"Rukia…" Ukitake glowered.

"Stand back, Captain Ukitake…"

I clashed swords with Kaien. We blocked and swung for what seemed hours. A tear escaped my eye. SLASH.

My sword when straight through him. His eyes went back to normal. He fell into my arms, and I held him, my sword still in his body. He was still alive, but barely. He held my back, his warm flesh, now cold. He was crying too. Those tears made me feel a little better though.

"Thank you, Rukia. Thank you for setting me free"

I felt his body go limp.

"Kaien…Kaien? Kaien!" I screamed.

I cried for hours. Maybe even days. I lost track. I couldn't stop crying. He was my mentor…my lieutenant…my friend…there to have been a better way to save him. There had to have been one! I killed Kaien Shiba! I shall never be forgiven for doing this. I'll never ask for it nor will I hope that some day I'll receive it by one kind heart.

~Rukia~

I woke up slowly from the nightmare. I felt that my face was covered in deep sweat and in the arms of my boyfriend, Toshiro Hitsugaya. I couldn't help but blush at his cute face.

"T-Toshiro?" I whimpered.

He looked down at me and smiled. I looked around. We were moving. Fast. Where were we going? He seemed to noticed my awareness and answered with two words "Soul Society"

It was nice to hear his gentle words again. It made me smile. I was happy. But why did he come for me? What happened to me? I tried to think as hard as I could but nothing popped up. I couldn't remember. Something to do with Ichigo. He did…then he…but I remember feeling his pain…or was it my pain that I felt?

I wasn't sure. It something to do with deep lust. Lust?

"Hold on…we're almost there, kay?" he entered the soul society. I closed my eyes again, suddenly feeling extremely tired for some strange reason. Toshiro shook me lightly, making me open them. "Stay awake a while longer. Okay?" he smiled and before I knew it, he placed me on some type of gurney.

"Unohana will be here soon" he held my hand.

"Captain Unohana? For what?" it took me awhile to focus me eyes straight on his.

"You don't remember?" I shook my head.

"You had a miscarriage"