Title: Dear Danno – Letter 5

Auhtor notes: this is the next chapter in this story, hope you like it.

Big thanks to my amazing beta Jerseybelle, for her amazing help.

They were staying in. Danny couldn´t even remember that 'it was the best for Gracie and for him too'. It's like she told him, "You need time to mourn" and he didn´t want to hear more. The bitch and Step Stan were keeping his baby away from him; they wanted to let Gracie heal, and he wanted to bang their heads with a hammer. They didn´t have the fucking right to keep his baby away from him or that was what Steve´s ghost told him.

Danny was lost, they all were now. He had seen Chin when he came by the house to talk to him. Malia wanted marriage and him away from the police force and the last thing he heard was when Chin told him that his door almost broke from the force of the slamming. Steve had made it possible for Chin to come back onto the force, to leave now would be disrespectful to his effort and memory and when Malia called the next day Chin told her to not bother again, they were over.

Kono, his beautiful friend, put Haikinini into the hospital because he went into Steve´s office and broke a toy car Steve kept from his father.

Danny was so enraged that he wanted to go to the hospital and break the bones Kono missed.

They were loosing their minds and Danny wondered if it was possible for all of them to go crazy? The answer was apparently yes, they missed Steve and he was gone and they were lost.

Danny´s mom had to leave; Danny kicked her out when she washed his bed sheets. He screamed at her so loud that he was sure he could be heard in the mainland, but the sheets had Steve´s smell, Danny´s pillow was impregnated with Steve´s cologne.

Danny was always sleeping; he didn´t want to be here. In sleepyland he could touch Steve. Yeah, awake he could talk to him but not touch, asleep he could.

"I miss you."

"I´m here, Danno, see," and Sleepyland Steve flashed his trademark, shit eating grin and made Danny so happy.

So Danny ran to him and Steve hugged him for hours; they made love in sleepyland, and Danny told Steve how much he loved him in sleepyland and he could hear Steve confessing how much he loved Danno in return and then they would kiss and go back to making love.

Danny was happy in Sleepyland his sun was there.

When he couldn´t sleep, Danny walked outside with Steve's picture. He always took a letter with him in the afternoon, so he could see the sunset with Ghost Steve.

"Are you gonna finish all my letters?"

"Of course, babe, they´re mine."

"Of course they are, Danno. Who else but you?"

"No one, the same way that there would be no one else but you. I love you, Steve, always and forever."

"Always and forever," Ghost Steve told him.

He grabbed another letter.

Dear Danno,

Danno, I´m starting this in the clinic. We finally got here, but don´t you worry, I wasn´t badly injured but I couldn´t let a fellow SEAL die alone.

We got some major resistence and they were ruthless but we got them under control. Our info was wrong and we though we were going into a friendly zone. We were wrong.

Something is fishy here, Danno. We're SEALs, we don´t make mistakes, not like this one. Another leader took his unit to do some recon when they were attacked. My guys were ready and I led them to help the other unit. This SEAL was another newbie and he got caught in the fire, took three to the chest and got himself in a trap. I sat with him and he looked at me. "Don´t leave me alone, sir, please." I cradled him into my chest. "Does it hurt when you die? Do you feel something? Would I be a disgrace for the SEALs if I´m scared?" and he looked at me with his big green eyes and was begging me to be there for him and to answer him. "I don´t know if it hurts when you´re dying. I want to believe that all of your loved ones that are waiting for you in the light make themselve visible for you and you would never be a disgrace for the SEALs, no matter how scared you are." I hugged him. It didn´t take him long to die. Fuck, Danny, this was another SEAL we lost and another kid we send home in a coffin.

We´re getting ready to go to our next target in this hunt; they´re waiting for me. My brothers decided that I´ll be the Alpha in the mission. We're all feeling that something isn´t right here.

But enough about me. How is Gracie Daisy, is she with you, Danno, because if she is give her a kiss for me, would you. I know her birthday is close so I´m telling you her gift is in my study Give her what I bought, Danno; it's for her, for my princess.

Are you leading the task force, Danno? I guess you are. Always be sure to eat something, like you always tell me 'work with no food makes a trigger happy-violence inclined boss'.

How is Chin? I hope his relationship with Malia is on the tracks. And my protégée, Kono, please, Danno, let her blow something up.

Take care of our Ohana for me, Danno, and let them take care of you until I return.

I miss you, Danno, my partner, my friend, my... Ohana.

Wait for me, Danno.

Steve.

"Always and forever. Always and forever," Danno told Ghost Steve.

TBC