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Eric held on to Calleigh like a lifeline. He knew he had to be strong, he was supposed to be the man in this relationship, the one to hold everything together, but at the moment he didn't have the strength. Calleigh was having his baby. He still couldn't quite believe it, he was going to be a dad, his child would be completely dependent on him for everything. He was still confused, he didn't know how he was supposed to feel, he desperately wanted to feel happy, to be excited at the prospect and he knew if this had happened before, he would have been the happiest man alive. Why did what those bastards had done have such an impact on everything? As much as he wanted to forget, it was as if they controlled his entire life, they controlled what happened and how he felt about it, and that meant he would never be happy again; or at least that's how he felt at the moment. He hated that control they had, men he didn't even know, deciding his every move, he didn't even dare to leave the house alone anymore, so far he'd managed to cover that up, but how long could he keep that up for?

Calleigh enjoyed lying in Eric's arms, it reminded her of the Eric from before, the Eric she fell in love with, the man who would just hold her whilst she slept, protect her against anything and love her with all his heart. She knew that that Eric was in there somewhere, she just had to find him. She still had to tell him about the case, the fact that they men who had done this may get away with it unless Eric came forward, but she knew he wouldn't want to. She couldn't blame him for that, after all she had kept what happened to her a secret for years before anybody found out and even then the shame she had felt had been almost unbearable.

"I am happy," Eric said, breaking the silence, "it was just a shock, I wasn't expecting it."

"I know," Calleigh replied, "I just didn't think I'd be able to hide it for very long."

"I still can't quite believe it!" Eric said, "I'm going to be a dad, we're having a baby!"

Calleigh smiled, this was the Eric she wanted to see, only now she didn't want to have to spoil it. She knew she had to.

"Eric, there's something else you need to know." Calleigh stopped, regretting the fact she had to do this before she had even done it.

"What is it?" Eric asked already becoming worried by Calleigh's tone of voice, "you're ok, the baby's ok?"

"Yes Eric we're fine, it's not that."

"Well what then?"

"There's a case….at work…I think it might be related to what happened to you."

"What…what do you mean?" Eric asked, unhappy the conversation had turned back to this when they had been happy.

"We've had two male victims turn up who have been killed, they were both raped and strangled before they were killed, I think it could be the same guys who attacked you."

"So…" Eric said, hoping she wasn't going to say what he knew she was going to say.

"We don't have enough evidence," Calleigh said flatly, "if you just reported…"

"No," Eric said firmly, interrupting her, "I'm not reporting it!"

"But Eric…."

"No! I don't want everyone to know what happened!"

"Eric please, just think…"

"I can't Calleigh, you don't understand, I don't want everyone laughing at me."

"Eric, no one would be laughing."

"They would Calleigh, look at the state of me." Eric paused and tears slowly made their way down his cheek, Calleigh lifted up her hand to wipe them away, Eric flinched.

"Eric, this wasn't your fault, people would understand that, there was no way you could have stopped them."

"Calleigh please, I don't want everyone to know, if they don't laugh then they'd pity me, I don't want that either, they'd never treat me seriously again."

"Eric that's not true! Ok, what about you just tell Horatio, no one else needs to know."

"Calleigh, come on, the lab doesn't work like that. You know that. They'd all find out eventually."

"They might not," Calleigh replied, "please Eric, you can't let them get away with this!"

"Why not? What difference does it make to me?"

"They're killing people Eric, and you can stop them!"

"You don't know that! There's probably no more evidence on me than there was on them!"

"Eric, they found DNA on you, that's all we'd need to force a confession, you might not even have to go to court."

"I can't Calleigh, I'm sorry."

"Please Eric! Just tell Horatio and explain that you don't want anyone else to know, he'll understand."

"No he won't! No one understands. I just can't Calleigh!"

"Please…"

"No!" Eric shouted, "why do you have the right to lecture me? What makes you so special? If I remember rightly you spent nearly 20 years hiding what happened to you and you expect me to just walk into the lab and declare it to everyone!"

"It's not like that Eric! Please!"

"Calleigh please, just leave me alone, I can't do this now!" Eric stood up and walked back toward the bedroom, shutting the door behind him.

Calleigh just stood there as she heard the door lock behind him. She was so stupid, she had pushed too far, tried too hard. She just wanted to help him but had ended up pushing him away and now it was like they had gone backwards to where they had been just after it had happened. She moved and sat back down on the couch, huddling her legs to her chest, she desperately wanted everything to go back to how it had been, she just needed that normality.

Eric lay down on the bed, he shouldn't have shouted, he knew that, but she wouldn't let up. He thought she would understand, but she just kept pushing, was the case more important to her than how he felt? He knew he was being stupid, but he just wanted this to go away. Calleigh was having his baby, this should be the happiest day of his life and yet it wasn't, he truly felt like he would never be happy again.

TBC…

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