Scott's World-Ch. 10
It was dark and quiet but Natalie could feel some movement in the room. She turned over to see the silhouette shadow of Shelby pulling away from the window and silently slinking towards the bathroom. Natalie went over to the window and pulled the curtain aside to view what Shelby was looking at. She saw two tall figures walking away. Peter walked next to Scott with his arm around the boy's shoulder guiding him towards the other side of campus. She wondered what was going through Shelby's head right now. She didn't dare disturb her so Natalie walked over and crawled back into bed and went to sleep.
Shelby pushed her back up against the wall and slid down to the floor drawing her knees up to her chest. She wrapped her arms around her legs, put her head down and became engrossed in deep thought. Why am I feeling this way? I know I have feelings for Scott but I can't seem to accept what's he's done. I thought he was stronger than that. I need him to be strong for me. How can he be strong for me when he can't even be strong for himself? What made him become weak again? I thought he knew how to stand up for himself. What kind of person is he that he can only take the easy way out? Am I loosing my faith in him? Am I loosing my trust in him? I'm so confused. I don't know how to handle this. Maybe if I just back away than I'll save myself from getting hurt in the long run. Why can't people understand how I feel? I need some help with this. Who can I trust? No one. The answer is no one. I can only trust myself. She turned over and lay on the bathroom floor and eventually fell asleep.
The next morning Jules was the first one in the bathroom and saw Shelby lying on the floor. She screamed a blood-curling scream, which immediately woke everyone else up. All the girls came running in the bathroom as Shelby sprang up wondering what the hell Jules was screaming at. Everyone just stood and stared at each other and all turned towards Jules.
"What the hell is your problem queenie? You scared the shit out of me."
Daisy looked flustered and said "out of you, she scared it out of all of us."
"What is this? A new kind of an alarm clock?" Natalie asked. "It sure worked for me. I'm awake now."
"Shelby, what were you doing on the floor? I thought you were dead or something."
"Not in this life-time. I wouldn't give you the satisfaction. Get a life."
"But you were laying on the floor."
"Maybe she just felt like bonding with the cock roaches." Daisy added.
Jules looks a little stunned. "What cock roaches? There are no roaches, I don't see any roaches, and there can't be any roaches. Are there any roaches? You guys stop teasing me. I can't stand bugs."
"Don't worry princess, David has to clean all the bathrooms today so we'll make sure he takes care of them."
"That's not funny. I'm getting ready for breakfast."
All the girls laughed at Jules insecurity and got dressed for breakfast.
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Scott had a pretty good sound sleep. The tossing and turning was down considerably from the nights before. He got up and got dressed hoping Peter would start to give him some freedom now.
"You're up early. I didn't hear much out of you last night. You must've had a good nights sleep. Would you like to go eat breakfast with the group this morning?"
"Yeah" was all Scott said? He didn't want to press his luck and say something that might get Peter to reconsider.
They both headed over to the lodge and Peter noticed that Scott was looking a little tenser the closer they got. "Are you scared about joining group again?"
"I don't know, maybe. It just feels weird for some reason."
"I'll walk you in and announce your presence. We do have a new cliffhanger. Her name is Natalie. I'll introduce you to her."
The cliffhangers were all seated at the same table yaking away about this and that when Peter and Scott walked in. Scott was feeling nervous and had an uneasy feeling about him. He was hoping that the minute he saw Shelby, than all those feelings would disappear and would be replaced with contentment.
"Alright cliffhangers, look who will be joining you today."
They all became excited at the presence of Scott and started shaking his hand and slapping him on the back, welcoming him back in the group. The only one who didn't move or say anything was Shelby. Scott just looked at her until their eyes met. They continued to stare without any words being said. Scott had blocked out all the other commotion that was going on around him. Life seemed to be moving in slow motion. He vaguely heard Peter introduce the new girl Natalie. Peter shoved him to get his attention when he realized that Natalie was standing there with her hand out waiting for Scott to produce his hand for a formal greeting. Scott shoved his hand forward without ever unlocking his eyes from Shelby's eyes. Natalie was put off a little that she didn't have his undivided attention but there would be another time. Scott waited patiently for Shelby to say something or anything but nothing ever came. Scott was getting an uneasy feeling that something was wrong. Everyone became silent and stood observing the situation. Scott decided he'd make the first move.
"Hey" was all that came out of his mouth.
"I've got kitchen duty" was her response as she quickly turned and walked away from the table.
A bewildered looking Scott stood with his mouth half open and said "What'd I do?" He in turn spun around and ran out of the lodge.
Peter ran after him. It didn't take Peter long to catch up because Scott was out of breathe quickly. He stood bending over trying to catch his breath when Peter came up behind him.
"I don't understand. What did I do? I thought she'd be happy to see me. What happened?"
"Scott you just need to give her time."
"Time for what? Is she mad at me?"
"For some reason Sophie said that she was having a hard time dealing with what happened to you."
"But why?"
"I don't know. I wasn't in-group when they discussed it. I just know that you need to give her some time to figure out her feelings. In the mean time I want you to hang with the group and get settled back in. I'll make sure that Auggie and Ezra stay with you and help you out."
The rest of the day went on as usual with Shelby going out of her way to avoid Scott. It was getting harder and harder for Scott to give her time. He needed some answers so he tracked down Daisy because he knew that they were close.
"Daisy, I need to talk to you" Scott said grabbing her arm and pulling her around to face him. "What can you tell me about Shelby? What did I do to make her so mad at me."
"What are you blind Scott. Have you looked in the mirror lately? You come back here looking like shit all bruised up and all strung out on drugs. What kind of message where you trying to send?"
"I'm not trying to send any message. I'm just trying to survive. You don't know what I went through back home."
"Well are you going to tell anybody? I've heard that you haven't opened up since you've been back."
"Well I haven't been in group since I've been back" he said sarcastically.
"Maybe you should ask Shelby yourself at the next group session" with that said she turned and walked away.
Scott was getting real discouraged and couldn't seem to accomplish any other task because this whole issue weighed heavy on his mind.
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All the cliffhangers were gathered around a circle in the lodge waiting for someone to head the discussion. Sophie started.
"It's nice to have everyone back in our group. Welcome back Scott." He didn't reply, he just nodded his head at her.
"Does anyone have anything they'd like to ask the group?"
David spoke first. "Yeah, I want all the guys to aim a little straighter when going to the bathroom. I got tired of cleaning up all there piss from around the toilets."
"Oh my gosh that's gross, I think I'm going to be sick," Jules looked disgusted.
"Well it doesn't take much to make you sick. Usually your own finger can do it." David smirked at her.
"Shut up," Scott told David. He was sitting there slumped down in his chair watching Shelby's eyes ignore him.
"What's your problem. You know it's true. By the way, what did the other guy look like?"
"What are you talking about? What other guy?" Scott looked confused.
"The other guy that turned that pretty little face of yours into meatloaf."
All the stored up anger and confusion that Scott had built up inside of him finally broke loose. He was on top of David in record time grabbing him by the throat with one hand and pounding away with the other.
Peter ran over and grabbed Scott off David and shoved him back into the chair.
"That is unacceptable. We don't use fists here we use words. There was nothing wrong with the question that David asked. If you didn't want to answer it than all you had to do was say so."
"It's nobodies business" Scott yelled and walked out of the room.
Peter decided to let Scott cool off a bit. He followed him but decided to give him some space to think. Scott's healing process was going to take some time. Peter felt that Scott was hiding some major obstacle that was clouding the back of his mind and until he could release it, than he would never truly be healed.
To be continued.
It was dark and quiet but Natalie could feel some movement in the room. She turned over to see the silhouette shadow of Shelby pulling away from the window and silently slinking towards the bathroom. Natalie went over to the window and pulled the curtain aside to view what Shelby was looking at. She saw two tall figures walking away. Peter walked next to Scott with his arm around the boy's shoulder guiding him towards the other side of campus. She wondered what was going through Shelby's head right now. She didn't dare disturb her so Natalie walked over and crawled back into bed and went to sleep.
Shelby pushed her back up against the wall and slid down to the floor drawing her knees up to her chest. She wrapped her arms around her legs, put her head down and became engrossed in deep thought. Why am I feeling this way? I know I have feelings for Scott but I can't seem to accept what's he's done. I thought he was stronger than that. I need him to be strong for me. How can he be strong for me when he can't even be strong for himself? What made him become weak again? I thought he knew how to stand up for himself. What kind of person is he that he can only take the easy way out? Am I loosing my faith in him? Am I loosing my trust in him? I'm so confused. I don't know how to handle this. Maybe if I just back away than I'll save myself from getting hurt in the long run. Why can't people understand how I feel? I need some help with this. Who can I trust? No one. The answer is no one. I can only trust myself. She turned over and lay on the bathroom floor and eventually fell asleep.
The next morning Jules was the first one in the bathroom and saw Shelby lying on the floor. She screamed a blood-curling scream, which immediately woke everyone else up. All the girls came running in the bathroom as Shelby sprang up wondering what the hell Jules was screaming at. Everyone just stood and stared at each other and all turned towards Jules.
"What the hell is your problem queenie? You scared the shit out of me."
Daisy looked flustered and said "out of you, she scared it out of all of us."
"What is this? A new kind of an alarm clock?" Natalie asked. "It sure worked for me. I'm awake now."
"Shelby, what were you doing on the floor? I thought you were dead or something."
"Not in this life-time. I wouldn't give you the satisfaction. Get a life."
"But you were laying on the floor."
"Maybe she just felt like bonding with the cock roaches." Daisy added.
Jules looks a little stunned. "What cock roaches? There are no roaches, I don't see any roaches, and there can't be any roaches. Are there any roaches? You guys stop teasing me. I can't stand bugs."
"Don't worry princess, David has to clean all the bathrooms today so we'll make sure he takes care of them."
"That's not funny. I'm getting ready for breakfast."
All the girls laughed at Jules insecurity and got dressed for breakfast.
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Scott had a pretty good sound sleep. The tossing and turning was down considerably from the nights before. He got up and got dressed hoping Peter would start to give him some freedom now.
"You're up early. I didn't hear much out of you last night. You must've had a good nights sleep. Would you like to go eat breakfast with the group this morning?"
"Yeah" was all Scott said? He didn't want to press his luck and say something that might get Peter to reconsider.
They both headed over to the lodge and Peter noticed that Scott was looking a little tenser the closer they got. "Are you scared about joining group again?"
"I don't know, maybe. It just feels weird for some reason."
"I'll walk you in and announce your presence. We do have a new cliffhanger. Her name is Natalie. I'll introduce you to her."
The cliffhangers were all seated at the same table yaking away about this and that when Peter and Scott walked in. Scott was feeling nervous and had an uneasy feeling about him. He was hoping that the minute he saw Shelby, than all those feelings would disappear and would be replaced with contentment.
"Alright cliffhangers, look who will be joining you today."
They all became excited at the presence of Scott and started shaking his hand and slapping him on the back, welcoming him back in the group. The only one who didn't move or say anything was Shelby. Scott just looked at her until their eyes met. They continued to stare without any words being said. Scott had blocked out all the other commotion that was going on around him. Life seemed to be moving in slow motion. He vaguely heard Peter introduce the new girl Natalie. Peter shoved him to get his attention when he realized that Natalie was standing there with her hand out waiting for Scott to produce his hand for a formal greeting. Scott shoved his hand forward without ever unlocking his eyes from Shelby's eyes. Natalie was put off a little that she didn't have his undivided attention but there would be another time. Scott waited patiently for Shelby to say something or anything but nothing ever came. Scott was getting an uneasy feeling that something was wrong. Everyone became silent and stood observing the situation. Scott decided he'd make the first move.
"Hey" was all that came out of his mouth.
"I've got kitchen duty" was her response as she quickly turned and walked away from the table.
A bewildered looking Scott stood with his mouth half open and said "What'd I do?" He in turn spun around and ran out of the lodge.
Peter ran after him. It didn't take Peter long to catch up because Scott was out of breathe quickly. He stood bending over trying to catch his breath when Peter came up behind him.
"I don't understand. What did I do? I thought she'd be happy to see me. What happened?"
"Scott you just need to give her time."
"Time for what? Is she mad at me?"
"For some reason Sophie said that she was having a hard time dealing with what happened to you."
"But why?"
"I don't know. I wasn't in-group when they discussed it. I just know that you need to give her some time to figure out her feelings. In the mean time I want you to hang with the group and get settled back in. I'll make sure that Auggie and Ezra stay with you and help you out."
The rest of the day went on as usual with Shelby going out of her way to avoid Scott. It was getting harder and harder for Scott to give her time. He needed some answers so he tracked down Daisy because he knew that they were close.
"Daisy, I need to talk to you" Scott said grabbing her arm and pulling her around to face him. "What can you tell me about Shelby? What did I do to make her so mad at me."
"What are you blind Scott. Have you looked in the mirror lately? You come back here looking like shit all bruised up and all strung out on drugs. What kind of message where you trying to send?"
"I'm not trying to send any message. I'm just trying to survive. You don't know what I went through back home."
"Well are you going to tell anybody? I've heard that you haven't opened up since you've been back."
"Well I haven't been in group since I've been back" he said sarcastically.
"Maybe you should ask Shelby yourself at the next group session" with that said she turned and walked away.
Scott was getting real discouraged and couldn't seem to accomplish any other task because this whole issue weighed heavy on his mind.
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All the cliffhangers were gathered around a circle in the lodge waiting for someone to head the discussion. Sophie started.
"It's nice to have everyone back in our group. Welcome back Scott." He didn't reply, he just nodded his head at her.
"Does anyone have anything they'd like to ask the group?"
David spoke first. "Yeah, I want all the guys to aim a little straighter when going to the bathroom. I got tired of cleaning up all there piss from around the toilets."
"Oh my gosh that's gross, I think I'm going to be sick," Jules looked disgusted.
"Well it doesn't take much to make you sick. Usually your own finger can do it." David smirked at her.
"Shut up," Scott told David. He was sitting there slumped down in his chair watching Shelby's eyes ignore him.
"What's your problem. You know it's true. By the way, what did the other guy look like?"
"What are you talking about? What other guy?" Scott looked confused.
"The other guy that turned that pretty little face of yours into meatloaf."
All the stored up anger and confusion that Scott had built up inside of him finally broke loose. He was on top of David in record time grabbing him by the throat with one hand and pounding away with the other.
Peter ran over and grabbed Scott off David and shoved him back into the chair.
"That is unacceptable. We don't use fists here we use words. There was nothing wrong with the question that David asked. If you didn't want to answer it than all you had to do was say so."
"It's nobodies business" Scott yelled and walked out of the room.
Peter decided to let Scott cool off a bit. He followed him but decided to give him some space to think. Scott's healing process was going to take some time. Peter felt that Scott was hiding some major obstacle that was clouding the back of his mind and until he could release it, than he would never truly be healed.
To be continued.