"Ok, we will try hypnosis." Dr keller said pointed at the bed.
"Okey." Mia said doubtfully and walked to the bed as she thought of movies where people had hypnotized each other by swinging a clock right in front of them and then flicked with their fingers so they could woke up.
"It´s ok. It´s not dangerous and you have control over yourself." Dr Keller said like she had read her mind. "Now I want you to close your eyes and listen to my voice and do your best to focus. Ready?"
"I guess."
"Ok then. Close your eyes."
Mia did as she was told.
"Good. Now relax." She said with a smooth voice. "Just let your feet relax. Then your arms and your legs. Feel your hips relax together with you waist. Your neck relaxing together with your head. Feel now how the whole entire body is relaxing and take a deep breath."
And so she did and she had never felt so relaxed before.
"Good. Now you´re feeling relaxed and you can feel a heavy feeling coming over you. And as I continue to talk, that heavy relaxed feeling will get stronger and stronger, until it carries you into a deep, peaceful state of hypnosis."
One minute passed by in the quiet room and they could only hear each other breath.
"Now we will start slowly to remember back in life. Tell me about the last time you´ve feel happiness."
Some seconds passed by.
"Me and Bec baking pancakes and we started a flour-war in our apartment."
"Good. Remember how you felt that time and then use that feeling to jump back in time until you´re 12 years old and tell me about a happy memory."
Dr Keller waited for Mia to response.
"Jackie. My adoptive parents dog."
"Good, And now use that feeling to go back another three years. You are now nine years old. Think about a memory. You can pick whatever you want."
"I can only see a red carpet."
"Good work. Now I want you to think back another two years and tell me what you see."
They were close now. If Mia could remember something when she was seven years old there was a big chance that she could remember when she first time arrived at Atlantis.
Dr Keller saw how hard she tried. Suddenly she opened her eyes and screamed.
"It´s ok, It´s ok, you´re safe."
She looked at her and then she calmed down.
"Did you see anything?"
Mia nicked.
"Wraiths."
"The red carpet is my earliest memory from my childhood and I don't even know if I was nine years old. Maybe I was older or younger. Then I really tried my best to think another two years back in time and it was then I saw the wraiths. I think they´re controlling my mind or something."
"They do if you let them". Sheppard said as they walked through the corridor.
Mia stopped.
"They will come, won´t they? They will come and kill me."
John turned around.
"Maybe they will come some day, but you will be protected so they will not kill you."
"Can you learn me to spar?" she asked and continued to walk with him.
"What?"
"So I also can protect myself."
"I think you should ask Ronon or Tayla instead of me."
"They´re better fighter?" Mia asked irritant and smiled.
"No…Ok maybe. Just talk with them and they will teach you." He said.
"And always keep your elbows low so the enemy wont hit you on the side of your body. Now we will try a move."
Tayla did a movement with her leg. Some kind of karate kick. Mia opened her moth of what she just saw.
"Do you really think I could do that?"
"Not now, but eventually you will learn." Ronon said. "Try on me."
Mia put herself in position.
"Now look me in the eyes. Do not forget about the elbows and bend your knees and when you ready you do what Teyla just showed you."
I´m so going to fail, she thought and then she tried the kick and land on the butt at the floor without touching Ronon.
"At least it looked much better than Rodney at first time." Teyla said.
"Well, I guess I should take that as a compliment." Mia said and stood up again.
It was evening and when her "fighting class" with Tayla and Ronon was over, Mia walked through the corridor to her room. She started to run when she felt the nausea and when she finally arrived at the toilet she puked. No, no not already she thought and then came out from the bathroom with pale face and then went back to the bed.
When she woke up in the middle of the night she felt that awful nausea again and ran to the toilet and puked. She felt the tears burn behind her eyes. She had never been this scared before.