Staying At Home
When we got home, it was silent. I wanted Edward to play the piano, but he just didn't pay attention to me. I maybe a pain for him but I didn't care. I wonder when the others are going to get home. The only thing that pleased me was when all of them were here.
I was sitting on the couch. I was so bored, and I wanted to sleep….
I was sure I was dreaming, but it just seem real. Their was someone following me as I run through the trees. I was scared, I didn't even know why I was running. It maybe for me life or for something. My life wasn't as I plan but I was please, but what other thing would be important so it can make me run this fast. I suddenly stop, and I saw someone standing in front of me. I didn't know who it was. Their were other three figures along the other one. They were looking at me, well more like examine. As they look at me, one of them move toward me. I notice it was a woman, she had pale white skin. She went through me, and it surprise me. I turn around and saw other people. Just one second past and she was done. The pile of people were my friends and part of my family. I saw Lucy and even my mother. I wasn't going to be mad at my mother and I still love her. She gave me life and I will always be thankful for it. The other people were the ones that will always help me. My grand and my dad's family. I didn't know who did this.
"See what you have done?" a dark voice told me.
I stood their in shock, that couldn't be me. The beautiful woman couldn't be me. Even if it would be me, I would follow the Cullens diet.
"Lets go" he told me and his voice was mad.
I wanted to figure out who it was but suddenly a breeze of wind came towards me. The scent was nice and mouth-watering. I turn around and I act with "my instincts." When I was done, I notice who it was. The most loving person I ever had. Someone that was with me no matter what I do. My dad. I killed him. Everything went so fast.
I woke up screaming and crying. I was breathing fast and sweating. I got up trying to find my inhaler. When I found it, Edward came in the room.
"Are you okay?" he asked.
I nodded and went to sit on the bed. He must carry me here. I started to cry, why was it like that. I knew it wasn't real, but if it would it happen, I could actually do that to someone that I love.
Go. Away. Edward. I order, but he just stood there. I was trying to wipe me tear and I still couldn't breath right.
"What happen?" he asked in a calm voice.
"Nothing" I lied. He knew what happen and so why did he bother asking me. I wipe me tears again.
He sat down next to me. I automatically hug him tightly. He was cold and hard, but I didn't care. I was still crying. It thought about if they were back, but I knew the answer was no because if they were back Rosalie would be here right now. Well Edward can at least make me feel me better.
"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked.
I though about that, I didn't know.
"Why?" I asked him and he took the wrong expression. But I meant why did I have it or why it happen.
"We are giving you nightmares aren't we?"
"No" I said, but it sounded like a lie, but it wasn't.
"It maybe because you are afraid, I saw everything. And also because someone told you something, that you weren't suppose to hear." he said.
"She just…it was her sister" I said.
"I know, Carlisle…" he started. I knew if he go on he would say to much.
"Could we not talk about this, please" I told him.
"Sure, but just one more question" he told me.
"Okay" I responded.
"Have…you had more, like this one?" he asked.
"Like you don't know" I told him looking down. "Yes and no. Yes because I did had more dreams, but they are kinda nice and weird. No because they are all different and not as scary as this one."
"Okay"
I was down stairs drawing. I didn't know what to do, when I heard Edward started to play the piano. I went to see him fast because I got an idea.
"Can you teach me?" I told him. Suddenly he stop. I wonder what I said wrong, they were only four word "Can you teach me" I repeated in my head.
"Please" I said and smile.
"Why do you want to learn?" he asked.
"I don't know I just like it….I like the music and the rhythm…" I told him.
"Sure" he said.
"Thanks" I said and smile.
"But not tonight" he said.
"Fine" I said and smile more. I didn't know what was wrong with tonight but who cares and so I let it go.
I went to sat back to the sofa. If he was going to teach me I wanted to be lyrics, but not just lyrics. I want them to be meaningful to me. I went to get something to write with. I was going upstairs, but he stop me.
"Wait" he order me.
"Yes" I said annoyed.
"You can't go upstairs right now" he told me.
I heisted. "Why?" I asked curious.
"Not now" he told me.
"Okay, but can I go outside?" I told him.
"Sure but only the front porch, if you get lost Rosalie will…." he trail off.
"I'm not going to get lost and okay, I. Am. Not. Dumb." I informed him.
"Just go" he told me.
When I got outside, it was dark and it maybe late at night like about 10 pm.
I sat their quietly thinking of what I wanted. Their was nothing I wanted more then be happy. But I already was happy. I lay in the down, looking at the stars. They were beautiful just like them. It was amazing how can something so little can be seen. When I got up, I wanted to see more things. As I run through the trees, I looked at them carefully. Taking every little detail of what made them different from other trees. When I looked back I notice I was faraway and I hurry back. As I went back I saw something run in front of me. I stop to see what it was. It was a deer. It stop to looked at me.
I was afraid it would do something but it just stop. He lay down and I saw he was hurt. I go closer and he let me touch him. His fur was soft and brown. I hug him like a teddy bear. I let him go and run back to the house. When I was their, I turn around and saw he follow me.
"What do you want?" I asked in a whisper knowing he won't understand me.
I thought about getting him ice and a bandage but wouldn't go against the Cullens. I mean they eat them but it was cruel but eating humans was more cruel.
"Wait here" I whisper pointing down. "I will be back okay."
I hurry inside trying to find what I needed. Edward was still playing the piano. I had to be careful on what I would be thinking.
And so the lion fell in love with the lamb. The lion was mean, but the lamb didn't care. They were both in love. Yes in love I kept repeating to myself. I saw Edward chuckle. I knew it was working and so I kept inventing things while I pretended to get a glass of water with ice. It was more ice then water.
They were both in love. They wanted each other, but how can a lion be so selfish. If their could be a way to do this. The lion would like to be a lamb so they can be together. And maybe the lamb wanted to be a lion so they can be together, but that would never happen. I knew it didn't make sense but that all I got. I was finish getting every thing and he was still playing and paying attention. Some how he found this funny. I didn't, I though it was dumb then funny.'
I went outside and think of playing with my doll.
Okay now you do this I said thinking about my doll. I was cleaning where he was hurt. I raped something around him. He lay in my legs as I pet him.
"Don't worry you will be okay" I whisper. I notice the music stop. I got up quietly and trying to let go of the deer. He was really cute and so I had to do something before Edward came here.
"Go, go you have to go" I whisper. I try to push him, but that was worthless.
"GO!" I said. And he went. I saw how he disappeared in the trees. And Edward came outside.
"Hi" I said breathless. "What?"
He was silent for a moment and I forgot that he could smell it. I saw how he went running to the trees. I knew he could smell the blood. I notice I had blood on my t-shirt. It could be he is after him or he wanted me to change.
I run behind him and he wasn't too faraway. I stood their in surprise. How can he do this?
I run back, tears coming down my cheeks. It was just like my dream except it wasn't me or a human. The deer and me had a good friendship, that only lasted for a few minutes. I went to the bathroom to wash the blood off. I knew I couldn't still go upstairs, but if I was just upstairs when I went to sleep. I remember I hardly saw anything. They are hiding something, and I knew it.
When he came back, I saw him with angry eyes.
"Sorry" he said sounding sorry.
I didn't say anything because I knew it would be worthless and so I let is go.
"Why did you do it?" he asked.
Because he was cute and he was hurt. I found him in the woods. I don't know what cause it but he was hurt.
"Okay… you should be asleep." he said.
"I am not allowed to be upstairs" I reminded him. I knew what was upstairs, so what was the point.
"You didn't go upstairs did you?" he asked.
"NO!, but it is easy to know what it is, but I could be wrong. You are hiding something. That's all I know." I told him.
He nodded and went to the kitchen. I follow him and saw he was looking for something in the refrigerator. I knew he was going to make me eat something. According to them and more Carlisle, I had to eat everyday. It was a pain when Rosalie try to get me to eat something.
"What do you want?" he asked.
"Can I do it myself?" I asked.
He nodded and I though he was going to leave me alone, but to my disappointment he didn't.
I looked to what we had and I wanted just cereal. I wasn't that hungry. As I ate, he looked at me.
"What?" I asked.
"That's all you wanted?" he asked.
I nodded. "I am not that hungry" I said and smile.
I was finish and went to sat on the sofa. I was still thinking about what happen but I let it go. I thought about what time was it. It maybe like 6 am something. I went to the window and it was morning or almost morning. I hadn't sleep, and that was weird.
I got up to look for Edward. He may just be outside or somewhere. I found him outside, and he was looking forward to something.
"What time are they coming back?" I asked them.
He took me and carried me.
"Looked" he said pointing toward some shadows.
"Is that them?" I asked. That was a stupid question but it could also be something else. They were really fast. With just one blink of an eyes, they were closer and closer.
"Can you let me down?" and he let me down.
"You want to see run with them?" he asked.
"Not really" I said. And we both laugh. I knew I wouldn't be able to follow them.
"Wait" he told himself. "Come here" and he meant it. He carry me again. He looked serious and so I didn't argue. It was only two days, what could had happen to them, that made Edward be protective.
"What, Edward?" I asked.
He didn't respond. He was trying to figure out someone's thoughts, but whose?
I looked forward again and notice someone was missing. I could see Emmett with Rosalie, and Esme, but Carlisle wasn't with them.
They were with us now. Rosalie greeted me, but Edward won't let me go. I, some how, got in the conversation.
"Carlisle is with him right now" Esme said. "He is willing to follow us, he seems nice."
"If something happen we would be here, you know" Emmett said.
"I won't let anything happen to her" Rosalie said.
"The only thing is if we will be able to stop him" he said.
Stop who? Carlisle or who. This is crazy I want to know.
"You should know, but not now" Edward said.