"Why should I? Because before you didn't need me around. You would rather hang out with Dak and Jett and fuck my ex boyfriend than hang out with me. But when it's one of you two, we're brothers. Oh, I see how it works. Your just more important than me. Is that it?" I said because really, I am so over this. I know I probably sound like an insensitive bitch but I didn't ask him to steal my medication and try and commit suicide.
"Kendall. Come on. Your just dragging this out. We've apolo-" Pissed wasn't covering it like at all. Dragging it? If I wanted to be truly truthful with myself, the only person who seemed sorry was James.
"Dragging it? Dragging it. I'm dragging it? You want to see dragged out. I'll drag it out, bitch. I'm out." I said turning around and stomping away. To hell with all of them.
"Where are you going. You brother needs you, you heartless bitch." Logan hissed at me. I skidded to halt. No way in holy hell.
"Again with this brother bullshit. Just stop. Stop trying to make me feel guilty because I don't. You two were cruel to me for five years and then ditched me for Jett and Dak. And by the way, where are they, huh? If I were this heartless bitch your going on about, I would've been at home with Carlos or something. But no, I came here to hope for the best with the same idiot who told me to get over it. Oh but I'm so heartless, though. Well you know what? I can be heartless. And I think- no, I know that I am leaving." I huffed and then walked away. I sighed because heartless just isn't me and if anyone of them know anything about me, they'd know I can't be heartless. No matter how hard I try. It isn't fair that I feel guilty even after all they've done to me. I hate it.
"Kendall!" I heard someone yell. I didn't even bother turning around because I can feel the tears about to stream down my face like the freaking Niagara Falls waterfall. I keep walking but then I fell strong arm around my waist and then they are pulling me into someone's chest. I can't do this right now at all.
"Kenny? What's wrong?" Carlos whispered into my ear. Then the tears began to run. Carlos' arms tighten around my waist and hugs me closer.
"I f-fell g-guilty. I-I want to b-be a good f-friend b-but I-I can't" I stuttered out. Carlos kissed the top of my head and took my hand. He started walking to the car. When he got to the car, he opened my door and when I got in he closed it. He's such a perfect gentleman. I don't deserve him. I look over to see Carlos sitting in the driver's seat with his seat belt on and starting up the car and pulling away from the curb and onto the intersection.
"I love you." I say softly hoping that he didn't hear but by the way he skidded to a halt when the light was about a block away. Carlos recovered quickly and began to drive again but he was still visibly shaking.
"I- You what?" Carlos asked me stopping at the stop light. I looked away and out of my window at the hospital that was still in seeing distance. Carlos took my hand and turned my face to his.
"Kendall? You what?" He asked me again. I sighed again and met his eyes to see so many emotions: Confusion, fear, compassion, peace, and love? Carlos loves me?
"I said that- that- I- I- I love you." I stutter out waiting for him to laugh at me and tell me that I'm stupid and he would never love me. But he doesn't. He kisses me on the forehead and turns back to the steering wheel. His grip on my hand tightens and he takes a deep breath.
"Good because I love you too." He said smoothly making my heart melt a little more. I look at him and he's smirking a little.
"Really?" I asked not believing him. He's never lied to me but still no one- not even my parents- have always told me the truth. He chuckled a little bit as he turned onto the highway.
"Yeah, baby. I love you and stop thinking so much. James will be okay and I know that you feel extremely guilty right now but you shouldn't feel that way at all. Kendall you did nothing wrong and I don't care what any of them say, okay baby?" Carlos asked me. All I could do is nod because I was so beyond words. I couldn't handle all of this and I needed a distraction.
"We're here, Kendall." Carlos said. I looked up and we were at my house. I got out and so did Carlos. We walked to my door as I opened it. When we walked in, I took Carlos' hand and pulled up to my bedroom.
When we step in, I close the door and walk up to Carlos and wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him. He grabbed me by my hips and jerked me closer. I start to walk backward until the backs of my legs hit the side of my bed and we fall backward with Carlos on top of me. Carlos sneaks his tongue into my mouth and I moan. I let my hands travel down to the bottom of his shirt and grab the ends of his shirt and pull it up, breaking our kiss. He leans up so I can pull it all the way off. When his shirt is off he leans back down and kisses me again. We've gotten this far but no farther. I want it to go farther so I find the button to his pants and pop the button and then zip down the zipper and start tugging. Carlos pulls back and looked at me with concern and lust filled eyes.
"Kendall are you sure? Because I don't wanna pressure you into anything you don't wanna do ever. Now are you completely sure you want to do this?" He asked me. I only nodded and pulled at his pants again. When he lets me take off his pants, he pulls my shirt over my head. I wrap my arms back around his neck and pull him back into a kiss. It was rough and filthy but tinted with love. I unwrap one of my arms from around his neck and pull at the waist band of Carlos' boxers and stick one of my hands into his boxers and grab at his shaft. Carlos groaned into my mouth. Oh, so he liked that. I do it again and he rolls off me so I just drag his boxers down all the way and his dick just spring out to life. I'm not gonna lie. The thing is intimidating. I suck in and lick the slit and Carlos groaned. I take the head into my moth and suck at it roughly. I feel Carlos pushing at my head to take him all. I relax my throat and let him push. His hips begin thrusting up and I'm trying not to choke and puke because he's not exactly small. The exact opposite. But surprisingly I don't puke. I hold down Carlos' hips and pull off of him. He groans and I just smirk because that was so amusing.
"I want you in me. Now." I say and Carlos sits up and tugs at my pants and ends up pulling down my boxer and pants. He pushes me onto my back and I try to cover myself because I'm not big like Carlos is and it's embarrassing. Carlos smiled and moved my hand. He began stroking me softly.
I was so turned on and so nervous at the same time. My heart was thumping in my chest. My dick was throbbing to his gentle touch. He was seducing me and not even trying to and I wanted him so bad. I noticed that his eyes kept getting darker and darker and darker every time I moaned his name.
"Do you have any lube?" He asked me. All I could do is nod and turn over and open my top drawer and toss the lube at him. He smirked and opened the cap. He poured some on his three fingers tips and closed it back and laid it on the pillow beside me. Carlos unhooked my legs and spread them open.
I felt weak and submissive.
Carlos let his finger circle my hole. The cold lube, which James and Logan got me as a joke because it said 'Trojan for Her', made my ass all tingly and kind of nub as Carlos slid his finger in. How many times has he done this. He is way to good at this for this to be his first time. I moan as his stupid big finger decide to make me squeal like a girl. Or at least that's what they sound like when I have accidentally walked in on James or Logan when they are doing the deed. Ew. Images I could have lived my entire life without seeing.
With his amazing and experienced fingers and hands he dipped in another finger and as he did this I yelped a little, and then I yelped again, even more loudly this time. It hurt like hell. Then Carlos leaned down and kissed me softly as he started to scissor his fingers in me. I started to loosen up and then it started to feel so good. Just to be this close to Carlos felt so good.
"Kendall, are you a virgin?" Carlos asked me. I knew I was blushing because I felt my cheeks heat up and the blood rush to them. Carlos chuckled softly because I guess he knew.
"Y-yes and don't laugh at me." I said trying to hide myself again but Carlos took my wrists in one of his hands and held them down on top of my head and he made me look at him.
"Don't try to hide from me. I love you Kendall and for you to want to lose your virginity to me is amazing. Do you know how long I have wanted this? About five years. Yup. That long and I am so pissed that my dad couldn't have told me the night before that the night before that we were moving. God! I would love for us both to lose our virginity's together and I am so sorry that we can't. But if you still want me, I would love to make love to you." Carlos said. Again crying like a girl but he wasn't a virgin. I was the only virgin and maybe I would be bad in bed because I was so inexperienced. Maybe he'd laugh at me.
"Kendall, what's wrong?" Carlos asked me taking his fingers out of me. I just shook my head and leaned up and kissed him.
"Nothing. Just make love to me as you call it." I said and Carlos nodded. He grabbed the lube again and started to pour it on his shaft. I wiped my eyes because there is no need on crying for something that I can't control or make him take back.
Carlos leans between my soft, weak, almost girly thighs. Don't judge me. I get it from my mom. Not my best feature but whatever. Carlos kissed me and lines himself up at my entrance. I can fell him begin to push in and yes it hurts like a bitch. But I'm glad it's Carlos hurting me than some idiot prick bastard who was horrible in bed anyways.
"Oh god." I moaned. I wanted to torment Carlos. And I know just how. Just what will make him tick. " Oh God! Fuck me, Papi!" I scream and Carlos tenses up. When ever I talk to Carlos' dad, I call him Papi Garcia and Carlos always tenses.
"What did you just call me?" Carlos asked as he pulled out and then pushed back in hard. I screamed like a girl. Never had that ever come out of me. I don't even know where that even came from.
"Papi!" I yelled at him. That seemed to fuel Carlos' stamina. I felt like my insides are being plowed out. Carlos is just so good at this. He knew just what to do.
"Yeah. That's right baby. Scream my name." Carlos growled. Who knew Carlos was this animalistic in bed. My entire body body felt like it was being consumed by flames.
"Harder!" I screamed out. Carlos did as I asked him and he gave it me harder. I was a screaming mess of goop. This felt so good. Like so freaking amazing.
"P-papi! I'm so close." I yelled out and then he struck something in me. I felt my body rise up off the bed and Carlos caught me and kept moving inside of me. He kept on striking that spot in me until my entire body spazzed out and I came.
"Papi" I said softly before my body gave out and I went limp in Carlos' arms while finished.
"Kendall" Carlos whispered into my hair as he came in me. He let me go and we both fell onto my bed with him on top again. Carlos rolled off of me and pulled me into his side.
"I love you" I whispered into his sweaty chest. I heard chuckle lovingly.
"I love you too, Kenny." He said as I closed my eyes and fell into the most peaceful sleep I've had in five long years because I'm in the arms of some one who loves me the most in this world.
Carlos
A/N- This was by far the weirdest smut I have ever written because it was first person. I hope you all liked it and it wasn't that horrible. Bye lovlies
~Sway Sweetheart