Wooh another chapter! I don't own Kuroshitsuji or any of their characters. So I won't waste your time Enjoy!
Pain is so familiar and yet it is such a strange thing at the same time. Why is it that the memories I recall so well are the ones of pain? The sweetness of all the other dreams, and moments of peace seem to be drowning in the moments of pain that spot the pages of my life.
I roll over feeling the pain once more as it commands me to lie upon my back but I ignore. The moments of hate and pain begin to fill my mind. Sebastian he is the cause of all this. Yet, all I can focus on it the events and people I have lost. My Mother, Father, Cassy. All of them gone in a matter of seconds and all I can do is lie here and think upon their memories.
Then the Undertaker slips in to my mind and sickening feeling rips through me. What if he is killed because of me? I could never forgive myself if he was to suffer at the hands of that demon, but how do I stop all of this? It is then that the idea hatches. My plan.
Closing my eyes I silently pray to a God I know nothing of or if he is even there. I can't say why I did this maybe it was to clam something deep within me but truly in the end I think it was just something to ease my conscious and justify what was to go into motion to stop Sebastian.
Pushing myself up I looked to the window. Winter had come and with it a blanket of snow coving all the dirt from sight. For a moment one might even think that it was a land of purity outside but sin can easily hide in the sweetest of places. A lot had happened in the month had been recovering. Looking to the ring upon my hand that signified I am too married was proof of this. I was happy—no I was overjoyed. Things were falling into place but nothing could be perfect until I ended this demon's wrath.
With pain rattling within me I somehow was able to dress myself and make it down the stairs. The Undertaker looked to me with worry but I only smiled "I'm going to take some fresh flowers to Cassy's grave today." For a moment disapproval flashed over his face but quickly he looked away with a nod.
It made me feel uneasy as if he knew what had been running through my head only moments ago. "Be safe" he whispered
"I promise" With a light kiss to his cheek I exited without hesitation.
The snow seemed to snuff out all the sounds of the world. It felt dead like this were the afterlife, but if it were than I would have all my loved ones.
The grave yard was even lonelier truly this place seemed more like a place for the dead to be forgotten than a place for their memories to be kept. Cassy's grave however was cold. The dead flowers that rested upon it were ones that had been placed on the day of her funeral. Everyone had already begun to forget her, but not me I wouldn't let that happen. Placing the new flowers down they became the only color around. The deep blue of the roses I had picked. It took forever to find someone that had this color of rose but they were her favorite and she deserved the very best.
"I'm sorry if only I could have protected you" tears begin to sting at me eyes as I fall to my knees. "But…But it's okay I'm going to make him pay or at the very least I'm going to make sure no one ever gets hurt by him again. I promise" Leaning forward I lay my head upon the stone as if it were her and maybe she would answer, but that's foolish. There was only silence and the coldness of the snow.
I know, I know it's short but I was kind out of it the last few weeks with finals and all that crap. Sad news there will only be three more chapters sorry I promise I'll try to update sooner.