Forbidden Blood

Part ten

Italics is Gwen's mind control.

Underline italics is Lucus' mind control.

Bolded italics is Caleb's mind control.

Thirst somewhat sated, I went back to the apartment. Lucas and Kate waited for me there. There were three other vamps as well: two men and a wild-looking girl. They were all ready to whip the snot out of a bunch of hunters. That was my first problem.

Jason.

"Lead away, girlie." One of the new guys announced excitedly.

"Shut up Erin," the girl ordered. "Don't mind him so much. He's excited about killing hunters. My name's Leah, that's Erin and Caleb."

I took the girl's hand when she held it out. Erin looked like a child, bouncing so that his hair bounced as well. Caleb was dark and stared at me as if he knew my thoughts, exactly, too a tee. It scared me.

Lucas, where did you find these people? Does Caleb read minds"

Don't worry. Caleb only reads emotions.

I sighed, feeling a little better. My emotions were screwed up anyway.



" Here's the plan then. When we go in I'll go first. I've been in twice now and have a vague idea where Jake is."

And Jason, I added in my mind.

Whose Jason? A voice asked and I knew it wasn't Lucas.

I encircled my thoughts quickly. I thought you just read emotions?

That's all that Lucas knows. Your mind is pretty confused so I decided to have a look.

Stay out of my mind! I demanded.

I'll find out soon enough, just when you don't expect it I'll find out.

Why do you care?

Because who ever he is, he's ripping at you heart. The heart that belongs to Jake but you aren't completely concrete on that either.

I can't believe you! Please, please don't say anything to Jake. He knows that I love him and that's enough until I sort thing out, I begged.

Fine, now go find Jake so I can kill a hunter or two.

I sighed, looking up at the house. He was so right about my mind that it scared me. The other thing that scared me was what I was abut to do the save Jake. I let loose the vampire in me and smashed through the front door.

"Subtle," Kate murmured; I didn't care.



I breathed in Jake's scent and followed faster than it could reach my nostrils. I threw open a door and there he was. He was tied to a chair, passed out and slightly bleeding.

All yours, I have Jake, I told Lucas.

I heard them crash in and begin the battle. I cut the roped from Jake's hands and feet. He didn't stir when I picked him up and that worried me. His heart beat so faintly that even I could barely hear it.

Carrying Jake through the battle, I went to Jason or at least tried to. Somehow Caleb was burning and Erin was ripping a hunter to shreds. I paused when I saw Jason face down on the floor. Maybe he was already passed out, I told myself. I could hear a tiny hint of a heartbeat and stopped thinking.

I put Jake on the floor and flipped Jason over. My teeth sank into his neck easily as ever. I sipped a little blood and had to pull away when a tremor ran through me. I cut my forearm with a knife from the floor and held his head to the blood. His eyes opened and he drank deeply. He was the first vampire I had ever sired.

The house had caught fire so I grabbed up both men and ran from the house. I went to the apartment because I could think of nowhere else. Jason was "dying" on the couch and I was trying to get Jake conscious. I had yet to realize the mess that I'd created.

"Jake darling come on, I need to see your blue eyes."

I kissed him everywhere and soon fell asleep with me head against his chest. Jason stirred about 1 in the morning. I heard him moan and it made me jump. I looked up and saw him start to sit up. I went to him, closing the door behind me.



"How are you feeling? Are you dizzy?"

"What happened? Why am I here?"

"You died; I gathered some friends and stormed the house to save Jake."

"So you turned me?"

The way he said it made me flinch. I felt bad about saving him now.

"I couldn't just let you die." I reasoned.

His eyes glazed in anger, helped along by the new vampire in his blood. I watched for a scared moment then he froze and his face softened to pure concern. I heard jakes heart accelerate in the other room, I knew Jason did too.

"Are you thirsty?" I asked quickly. "There are packets in about every cupboard but put one in the microwave if you have the patience. It's better."

I went to Jake as fast as I could. He was beginning to change back. I grabbed the knife I had laid out and sat next to him on the bed.

"Jake baby, you have to drink my blood. I need you back with me."

His eyes fluttered open as I ran the knife over me forearm. I helped him as he'd helped me and used up most of what to hunters had pumped into me.

"There you go baby." I whispered, pulling away my arm. "Get some sleep darling. I'll be here when you get up." I kissed his forehead gently then his lips tasting the blood but not 

caring so much. I saw the corners of his lips lift a little. I touched his cheek then I went to the door to check on Jason.

"Not eating? It seems so wrong."

I plucked up the packet and dropped it in the microwave. "You get used to it. You'll get thirsty soon enough and have to give in. It's impossible to resist."

He watched in disgust as I downed the packet, I ignored him and watched the skin heal over on my arm.

"You'll get used to everything."

"Why do you feel the need to pull me into this life? I killed vampires now I am one, what kind of sick joke are you trying to pull?"

"Jason, no, I'm not joking with you. I wasn't going to let you die. It was the only choice I had. Please believe me."

I remembered stalking him and then saving him twice. He made a face and I wanted to cry.

"Stop. I don't know what you're doing but you're making this worse. I don't want to remember those things!"

I turned away from him, hurt. I let my hands rest on the counter and the tears fell. Why was he so angry with me? I just wanted him to love me like I loved him. I didn't think that was too much to ask.



I listened as he downed a packet of blood. His thirst was already setting in. I waited until after the third packet before moving. I was going to go for a run to take things off my mind or sit on the roof where I could still hear both of them. He, however, caught me around the waist.

"Where are you going?" he demanded.

"Jason, I would have thought it was obvious to the world but maybe you missed the signs." I snapped not bothering to push myself out of his arms. It was what I wanted after all.

"Tell me then. Say it aloud so that I can understand."

He was setting me up for the truth. I didn't know how to say it. I dropped my head to admit defeat and hope that he would understand. Instead he grabbed a handful of my hair and pulled up my head so that our eyes were on the same level.

"Say it." he growled.

"Jason, I-I, "another yank of my hair and I mumbled, "I love you."

"Louder please." he demanded.

"Jason please, I love you. Let me go." I pleaded now afraid of Jason.

"That's better." He held my hair and dragged me from the apartment. "Let's go somewhere more private."

I plead with him the whole way but he was hell-bent. He slaughtered a couple for their hotel room and threw me on the bed.



"Jason, I never meant to hurt you. I didn't want to loose you. I'm sorry."

He ripped off both of our clothes and smashed his lips to mine. For a second I was surprised by the feeling of his kiss then the next I was scared again. It was a replay of the night Rey created me only rougher. The pain was so powerful that I almost called out multiple times. Each time, his lips crushed against mine sometimes inserting his tongue other times biting my lips.

Both of our eyes were glazed and our teeth found many vulnerable places to puncture. I couldn't give an opinion about him then if the world depended on it. He was so evil, so unfeeling, so exactly what I thought I wanted. I wanted Jake too though.

My body, sore from Jason's rigor, refused to move when he stood and pulled clothes from the human dead on the floor. He left, blowing me a kiss and straightening his collar. Sunlight began to drift in after awhile and I still lay on the bed naked and bloody. When I could I pulled my knees to my chin and wrapped my arms around my knees. Tears dripped from my eyes but my mind wasn't concrete on anything anymore.

Jason of Jake? Did I have to choose? Why did I save Jason? Do I really "love" him at all? Why did I have to be so damn confused about this?

Night…

Jason was long gone. I hadn't moved. I knew Jake was waking but couldn't bring myself to move.

It was only a few hours after sunset before Jake came to the hotel. He could smell Jason but kept coming.



"Gwen?" he called, opening the hotel door. "Gwen baby, what happened?"

I didn't move at all. If he didn't know better he would have thought I was dead. Alas, it would only fool a human. He sat next to me and tears begin to fall once more.

"Baby, why are you crying? Just talk to me, I promise I won't be angry with you."

My body shook, sending waves of pain. I cried because it was my fault. It was my flawed love and crazy vampling creation. I flinched when his hand came to rest on my shoulder. I wasn't ready to be happy again. It felt too wrong.

"Let's go home baby. I'll carry you if I must." Again I did not respond.

He sighed and took me into his arms as if I were a child. His fingers traced, carefully, one of the bites on my shoulder that would become a scar when I let it heal. He took me to the apartment and laid me on the bed. He laid next to me and held me to him. I would have preferred that he stab me at that point but he would never consent to that.

When he fell asleep I crawled out of bed and locked myself in the bathroom. I thought I saw Jake move but it didn't matter because he would give me my space for a while I stood in the hot water of the shower for a long time. I was trying to formulate some kind of feasible plan of action to sate Jason's beast.

So that's what happened to you. I almost thought you died with Caleb.

Lucas was reading my mind. He knew exactly what I was thinking and all the details behind everything.



If he left you for dead, basically, then he doesn't deserve you. Trust yourself a little more.

I didn't answer Lucas. I shut off the water and wrapped myself in a towel.

I'll tell him. Don't worry about it. You made a mistake, so what? We all do.