A/N I AM SO SORRY I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN FOREVER! I feel really bad! Ok so i might as well tell you, it physically hurt to think about putting a truth or dare chapter in this stroy it just didn't seem to fit. But you guys all wanted one so bad and yeah...so it was very hard to write and i'm afraid its not very good but hey at least its here.

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Chapter 10

TOBIAS POV

When Chris told me Tris had had a panic attack my stomach had dropped to my feet. She assured me she was fine now but I had to see for myself.

As soon as I walked in my eyes found hers, she was sitting there curled up on a bar stool with tears in her eyes.

She told me she was fine even though it was obvious she wasn't but I didn't push her.

We were walking to join the others when Uriah had started screaming that we have to play truth or dare.

Shit

This night is just getting better and better

I hear Tris gasp beside me and stop dead in her tracks, she starts breathing heavily and has to lean against the wall for support.

"N- no," she stutters but it turns into another gasp.

"Hey, hey Tris look at me." I say quickly, "Its ok, we can play."

"No we can't." she chokes on another sob but there are no tears as she cowers beside the wall shaking violently.

"Tris we don't have to play but…we can-"

"But what if they see," she says exasperatedly.

"It doesn't matter, nobody's gonna find out."

"But…but"

"Tris come on this is a break, a break away form everything that's going on, and you'll regret it if you leave now, you can do this, we can do this. Come on" I say and take her hand pulling her up and we walk into the living room.

I make tiny circles on her thumb with my thumb trying to help her calm down. Once we're all seated she seems a little more relaxed that there are less people but she's still nervous about truth or dare.

"Ok," Starts Christina, "we all already know how to play so I'm not going over the rules again but we need a penalty, and since nobody's drinking…" she says glancing at Tris, "We can't do shots so I think we do the remove one item of clothing rule."

Everybody agrees in some way except for Tris and I but we also don't protest so that's what we end up doing.

"Ok I'm starting!" Zeke screams, we all roll our eyes but he ignores it.

"Four, truth or dare?"

"Dare." I say in a bored tone, too many secrets to do a truth.

"I dare you to…" His voice trails off as Chris leans over and whispers something to him, which makes him grin evilly, I glare at her but she just smiles at me with a twinkle in her eyes.

"But I don't wanna die…" he whines like a little kid.

"Do it." She snaps. He gives her a pleading look but she just gives him a death glare and mutters a threat under her breath.

He reluctantly turns back to us, takes a deep breath and mumbles the dare. I raise an eyebrow at him and he sighs.

"Four I dare you, to…givetrisahickey."

What? Is he serious! No wonder he was scared, he should be. I glare at him and eye Tris, who is currently sending an even more evil glare to Christina. I can practically hear her cursing in her head, spitting fire at her "bestie"

I almost chuckle but know better than to do that besides there's a much more important thing to decide.

To take the dare, or not to take it

Honestly I care more about Tris' comfort than anything else, and if she doesn't want me to then I wont take it.

But at the same time I'd rather not lose my shirt over something like this, I mean you can still see my scars even with my tattoos I got to cover them and I'd rather not risk anybody seeing them…

I look to Tris for confirmation, her beautiful blue eyes are wide and a little scared but also determined and when I ask her what she thinks she hesitates but nods and scoots closer to me.

I pull her small, delicate body into my lap, with her spine flush against my chest. I bend down and bury my face in her hair, nosing at her jaw. She takes a light breath of surprise, that's not quite a gasp, when I press a gentle kiss to her neck. I freeze, waiting for her to change her mind but she doesn't. She squeezes my hand as a sign to keep going.

I'm aware that everyone is watching us, very carefully for that matter but I push the thought as far from my mind as possible and just think about Tris.

Her breathing hitches as I begin to kiss and suck on her soft pale skin gently and she even turns her head a little to give me better access.

Once I'm done I wrap my arms around her waist comfortably and everybody else stares in amazement then cheers and applauds and Christina has a sly smirk on her face which Tris and I both roll our eyes at.

"Wow I didn't think you'd really do it," Uriah says once everybody's calmed down. I shrug and Tris blushes, I smile at her and kiss her temple.

"Are you ok?" I whisper, she just nods and sinks closer into my chest shyly. I chuckle and squeeze her tighter.

"HOW ARE YOU NOT DATING?" Christina says, exasperatedly.

"They've got to be, I mean look at them!" Zeke adds

"That's what I've been saying!" Lauren and Shauna gush and begin chatting idly with each other.

"Its out of the question." Uriah states, Wil and Marlene nod in agreement.

"Moving on…" I mutter, "Ok Will Truth or dare."

"Dare." He says proudly, he usually wimps out and goes for truth. He was formally at the erudite school until he transferred in high school. Just like Chris transferred from Candor and Tris and I from abnegation. The others were all originally dauntless.

"I dare you to ask Molly out." I say knowing full well he'll probably get beat up by half the football team. He glares at me but I see more fear than anger in his eyes and that makes me chuckle.

Tris smacks my arm playfully and I smack hers back she laughs and asks me why I'm so mean to him. I mask my guilty expression with a laugh and tell her I'm mean to everybody. She doesn't seem to notice the face I made because she drops the subject and pays close attention to Will as he makes the phone call which will probably result in his death.

But there is a reason I just can't seem to get past his erudite past and no one, not even Tris knows that.

Luckily Molly denied and didn't seem too pissed that he asked so maybe Will will be showed some mercy but still…. it is Peter we're talking about.

The rest of the game remains pretty uneventful.

Peter gets numerous prank calls, Christina gives Will a lap dance, Uriah shoots a muffin off of Marlene's head, Zeke finally asks out Shauna, Lynn gets pissed at nothing and leaves in a huff, I'm asked my real name of course and I lose my jeans. It isn't until I'm dared to make out with Lauren that Tris seems to be not ok with the game.

She crushes my hand and I just stare at my lap, silently. The only reason Shauna dared me to do that is because they wanted to see how we'd react, just to give us another reason to get together.

When I dare to glance at Tris she gives me an unconvincing smile and nod. Its clear she's not ok with this but she'll let me anyway.

I don't want to do anything wit Lauren, oh god of course not but I would rather not just be in my boxers.

But at the same time, Tris let me give a hickey for gods sake, it would be so wrong if I did this to her.

I look at her again but she just stares at her lap, biting her lip.

I wouldn't mind making out with her…

Snap out of it

You can't do this, not right now

I pull my shirt off and tell Shauna to suck it when she gives me a pouty face, then dare Tris to kiss me. I don't know what takes over me but Its too late now, she gawks at me for a second but gives me a small smile and kisses my cheek, lingering as she pulls away.

The room erupts yet again as our friends question our relationship for the 1000th time. I glance at Tris who looks exasperated.

I lean over and brush my lips against her ear as I whisper softly

"Do you wanna get out of here?" I say rolling my eyes as Marlene shrieks

'They're whispering!'

"Oh god yes." I laugh and change quickly back into my clothes and grab her hand, pulling her out the door.

Honestly I've had enough for one night, enough of our friends, enough of pretending everything's fine, enough of pretending I don't have feelings for Tris.

AN This chapter kind of sucks but please keep reading we'll get back to the sad, depressing, angsty drama soon

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