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I woke up in total darkness and lying on an extremely hard surface. I didn't dare open my eyes, but instead I just kept them closed, trying to unravel the thoughts in my sleep jumbled mind. I could feel a weight and warmth buried into my side, so I opened my eyes to see a mass of blond hair sprawled out over my chest with a hand resting on my shoulder. I smiled as the images came flashing back into my mind. I had my free arm resting beneath my head as a make shift pillow, since Mello and I where still on the floor, and the other was wrapped tightly around Mello's waist.

I smiled, lifted my head and kissed his hair before lying my head back down on my arm lost in thought.

I hope I didn't hurt him, I had gone a bit rough with me being so angry and all. I didn't want to hurt Mello; I'd never want to hurt Mello in any way, let alone like that.

I felt him shuffle against my side, and I smiled again as uncomfortable, as I was, I wasn't going to move; I didn't want to wake him, he still wasn't sleeping enough and if he wanted to sleep then who was I to deny him that just because I was uncomfortable?

I felt a dull throbbing pain coming from my back and shifted myself to try to make it go away, but that proved to just make it hurt more as I hissed in discomfort. I tried to keep my mind off the pain and ran my fingers along Mello's waist, absent thoughts running through my mind. What if he wasn't okay with what happened? What if he kicked me out and never wanted to see me again? The more sensible part of my mind spoke up, Mello was the one who started that, he kissed me and never stopped me at any point during it; he was more than capable of pushing me off him any time he wanted to, but he didn't. He let me do whatever I wanted to him, and by the sounds he was making during our little fuck fest, he loved it as well.

I felt him shiver against me, and I shivered myself. We were lying naked on the floor after all. I turned my head to the side, measuring through the darkness how far away from me the bed was. It looked like it was close enough for me to reach and pull the blanket on top of us.

I reached out trying to grab the edge of the blanked with my fingertips and I could feel the satin against my fingers, but it just kept slipping out of my grasp. Growling in annoyance I tried a second time, and this time I lifted myself off the floor, careful not to move too much in fear of waking Mello.

This time I snatched the blanket between my fingers and yanked it of the bed, covering both our bodies with the cool material. I shivered against it first, but it soon warmed up around us and I found myself once again falling in to a peaceful contented sleep, enjoying the warmth of Mello tucked against my side.

I woke again a few hours later to an annoying beeping, at first it mingled in with my dream and I mumbled for it to shut the hell up. But it was only when I felt the warmth pooling against my side move, that I realized the beeping was coming from the conscious world and not the world in my sleep-deprived mind.

I heard Mello groan and stumble as he got up to navigate his way around his now trashed bedroom. Slowly I opened my eyes and blinked a few times to shift away the blurriness. I sat up softly groaning, just as Mello had when he had gotten up, and propped myself on my elbows. I watched him check his cell phone and slowly sink to the bed, noticing him wince slightly as he sat down.

I watched his fingers tread through his messy sex hair. God, I hope I hadn't hurt him too bad.

"Mello?"

He looked up at me and smiled slightly, I smiled back.

"Are you okay?" The air in the room was less than relaxed; you could literally cut the tension with a knife.

"Yeah, I'm fine ... Why wouldn't I be?"

Maybe it was just me expecting it to be tense that was making it so, I tried to relax.

"Are you okay with what happened? Last night I mean..." It's something I had to know. Waking up to a completely calm Mello was not at all what I had expected.

"Matt if I wasn't okay with it, do you really think I would have thrown my self at you like that...?" He grinned and scoffed.

"Well no... Not rea..."

He quickly cut me off.

"And, do you think I would have let you wedge me between yourself and my book case if I wasn't okay with it…?"

"Well... N…" Again, he cut me off.

"And. if I wasn't okay with it, do you really think I would have let you do that to me without pushing you off first and then punching you square in the face..?" He was positively grinning by this point. "Matt, I know you're not exactly bright when it comes to certain things..."

I scowled half-heartedly at him at this point and muttered "fuck you" equally half-heartedly.

"But I thought you would have figured out when you where pounding my ass that I was completely fine with it."

I grinned at this point, so it was just me feeling a tense atmosphere because I expected one. So Mello was fine with this, so fine that he was making jokes about it.

Mello got up off the bed and slowly walked over to where I was sprawled out on the floor kneeling down.

"Are you so dense to think that I wouldn't be fine with this?"

"Well it's just, you're well you and sometimes you're kind of hard to predict. I mean for fuck sake even L had a hard time figuring you out some times," Mello smirked at this comment but I carried on, "It's just that I've never seen you in any situation like this, so I couldn't even be able to comprehend what your reaction to what happened would be."

Mello frowned at me, "What? You think I would kick your ass? Or tell you that I never wanted to see you again and kick you out?"

"Well maybe yeah"

He smiled and ruffled my hair.

"You're funny sometimes, you know that Matt?" I smiled and leaned into the touch

"So you really are okay with everything?"

He sighed, "Yes, Matt, I'm fine with everything."

I looked at Mello crouched before me in all his naked glory, I had dreamed about this more times over the past few months that I cared to think about, and to think it finally happened, last night I fucked Mello to high heaven. I smiled as the realization sunk in.

I studied Mello's body taking in as many details as my memory could hold, just in case this never happened again.

I watched him as he stood up straight and saw him wince, listening to the groan as he began to move again.

I hurt you," it was a statement not a question and I watched as Mello shifted uncomfortably where he stood.

"No… not much anyway."

"Mello, why didn't you tell me that I was hurting you?" I stood up.

"Because...it didn't hurt too badly plus, you know, it felt good after a little bit."

"Mello, if I was hurting you, you should have said something... I didn't mean to hurt you," I was irate. Why the hell hadn't he said anything to me? He usually couldn't stop himself from opening his mouth, then realization dawned on me and my mouth fell open in shock.

"That was your first time!" Again it was a statement rather than a question.

Mello spun round and glared daggers at me, mouthing the word "maybe".

I couldn't believe it, this was Mello! For fucks sake! He is sexier than most movie stars were! How... how could he be a virgin still? I mean he was Mello...

I couldn't get my head around it; Mello had still been a virgin up until last night.

"Seriously, Mell, you should have said something. I could have really hurt you. If I would have known that it was your first time, I'd have been a lot gentler. And I would have prepped you more than I did... Mello I could have really hurt you," I walked over to him and put my arms around him waist; "I'm sorry Mels."

He smiled at me, "God, you're such a wuss."

He didn't push me away though and that's what mattered.

"If it had hurt me too much you would have known about it and you know that Matt." It registered in my mind that he was right, if it had been completely unbearably he would have let me know in one of his oh so subtle ways... that probably consisted of screaming at me and punching me in the jaw.

I smiled at him and it slowly turned in to an evil smirk, "So was it good?"

"Fuck you, "he huffed and shrugged out of my hold.

"You did Mels. I want to know. Come on, was it good? Did I make you feel good?"

Mello spun round and glared at me, but I saw the smile he was attempting to hide.

"Matt, how about you stop trying to feed your own ego and get yourself dressed."

I raised an eyebrow, smirked again and began pulling on my pants.

"But if you hurt me that bad next time, I'll kick your ass so hard you'll have to have surgery to remove my foot."

"Next time? " I whipped my head round to see him grabbing a towel from his closet.

He just grinned cockily at me in response.

"I'm going for a shower," and with that he left the room, leaving me standing there half-naked and grinning stupidly to myself.

"There's going to be a next time?!" All I got was the shower switching on for an answer and my grin widened.

Man, I need a cigarette.

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I know some are going to say wtf! mello a virgin! but the way i see it is he would have benn to busy to think about having sex taking over the mafia is a hard job! lol plus i wanted matt to be his first.

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