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Chapter 10
Realize
The crack of burning wood echoed silently through the darkness of the wolf demon caves.
Grim stone walls lit dimly by the glowing of the flames, the fire was small but strong enough to allow the room to be visible. There in one of the larger sections of the cave were two shadowy froms.
The larger of the two forms slowly adjusted its right arm revealing a small cloth in its grip bringing it to the face of the smaller form.
The smaller form was no other but Kouga, his small body flinched as the rag made contact with his young skin.
Kome retracted her hand the cloth still intact "Kouga stay still" She cooed
"Mother I don't need you to do this I'll be fine!" He whined.
Kome sighed dipping the cloth back into the jar of herbal ointment by her side, she turned her soft gaze to the face of her son.
Her eyes and heart heavy with the sight, Kouga's young body covered in bruises and cuts dried blood traced over his wounds.
Kouga sensed her distress "Mother its nothing really father and I were just-" He began "Training? Like all the other times" Kome interrupted her tone surprisingly sharp.
Kouga's young eyes widen in surprise he rarely ever seen his mother express hostel emotions.
It had been true, again Garomaruhad decided Kouga needed another day of 'training' and like most of all the other times he limped back to this mother after it had all ended.
To have his wounds tended to, of course that's when his father allowed him to even step foot in the caves after each session.
Kome stared down at the floor her eyes narrowed her anger had retreated and was replaced with a sad stillness.
"I like training mother" Kouga lied trying to ease the situation "Father is teaching me what I have to know in order to one day be a good leader"
Kome let out a light chuckle but there was no humor in her tone "Is he?" Slowly she turned her gaze back to him "Kouga what do you believe a good leader to be?"
Kouga was a bit surprised by the question "Well Father says you must be strong and brave willing to fight for what is yours. To be great you must have power its what makes a you a man."
Kome turned to her son her eyes hard "Kouga is that all you believe in power?"
Kouga was silent what had he said to anger his mother?
"Leadership is power" Kouga said but those were not his words they were his fathers, the words that had been drilled into his head over and over again.
"Kouga your father is a wonderful leader but I want you to be greater" Kome said sternly
"Greater than father?" Kouga thought out load, "Is that even possible?"
Kome could not help but smile "Kouga, Yes leaders must be brave and also strong but there's more than just physical power"
"Like what?" Kouga said out loud the importance of power was all Garomaru had ever taught him about.
Kome slowly placed her hand over her sons raven hair feeling it rustle beneath her soft fingertips.
"Love"
Kouga was confused by her statement "Love?" He thought.
"What does that have to do with anything?" He questioned mentally, he knew what love was or he knew what his father had taught him of love and it meant one word, weakness.
"What is it?" He mother asked in a low tone seeing the puzzled look on his face.
Kouga lowered his head "Father said love is a useless emotion it only weakens a leaders scene of duty..."
Kome felt her hand slip from her sons hair then back into her lap her small hands curling into fist, but her face showed no anger only a look of sadness.
"Did he?" She thought out loud, she gave a heavy sigh "Your father never has been one for emotion but..."
Kome lifted her soft hand upward slowly she hooked a finger under her sons chin lifting his gaze to her own.
"Kouga I want you to always remember this" She smiled lightly "A great leader mustn't rule with just his fist he must have a good heart and be able to show mercy and forgiveness for his people."
Kouga could not explain the emotion radiating through his mothers blue orbs they glowed in a way he had never seen before.
"Love is never a weakness it alone can determined the difference between a good man and a great one."
Kouga eyes shined with the reflection of the fire the image of his mothers gentle face etched into his mind.
"Love"
"Kouga have you lost your mind! Get off me!" Kagome shouted balling both of her pinned hands into fists trying desperately to push Kouga's weight off of her.
Kouga only responded with more pressure to stop her thrashing, slowly he brought his lips down to the heated flesh of her exposed neck.
Gently he allowed his lips to press against her sweet skin kissing it tenderly in small circles.
The moment Kagome felt his lips tracing over her skin a shot of fear and shock tremored through her.
At first she didn't know how to respond to the sudden action, was this some kind of sick joke? What in the world was he trying to do to her? One thing was certain, she was not going to lay here and find out!
"Kouga stop it! Stop it now!" She ordered arching her legs forward.
Kouga quickly responded by pinning them down with his own.
Kagome immediately put all the strength she could muster into trying to free her pinned wrist, it was useless, it was like trying to lift a boulder.
"Kouga! You re hurting me!"
Kouga felt his heart skip a beat, "This is wrong...so wrong!" he barked mentally. No part of him wanted this, it went against everything he was, he one of the strongest leaders in the wolf demon clans forcing himself on a woman a frail human woman non the less.
"If only I could explain..." He thought, but there was no use. What could he say to her 'sleep with me or die', this was his last option.
Kouga continued to kiss up and down her neck slow and tender as he could. As much as her begging him to stop was tearing him apart, he swore to himself he would try to make this as painless as possible for her.
This would not be the first time he had taken a virgin but it was definitely the first he would despise himself afterwards.
He knew this was wicked and wrong but a small part of him wanted her to enjoy what pleasure he was going to give her.
Slowly he parted his lips allowing his moist tongue to glaze over her exposed skin in rich kisses.
Kagome's eyes widened in horror at the feeling, her stomach lurched upward in panic.
She had not even allowed Inuyasha to be this passionate with her, "That's enough! Kouga snap out of it this isn't you!"
Her words stung Kouga, she was right this wasn't him, how badly he wanted to tell her the truth but it would not ease the burden on either of them.
Gentle as he wanted to be he did not want to drag this out any longer, it had to be done.
Shifting slowly, he forced Kagome's hands together removing one of the death grips he had on her only to be replaced by another, strongly he gripped her hands above her head with one arm.
As his free hand travelled downward reaching the hem of her sweater, his fingers traced the fabric feeling the soft cotton until he reached further allowing his hand to pry under the rim.
Feeling the soft skin of her torso that the sweater was hiding from him. His free hand travelled downward, seeking the hem of her sweater. His fingers traced over the soft cotton before dipping under the rim. The feeling of soft skin met his calloused hand.
Kagome thrashed violently beneath him "Stop it! Kouga! Please!"
Kouga fought the urge to pull his hand away as she commanded but he pushed forward allowing his hand to reach its goal, he felt her soft skin swell beneath him as his hands found the mound of her breast covered by a small silk fabric.
He knew Kagome wanted no part of this but her body was responding to his touches in a positive manner her soft skin heating beneath his touch.
Kagome felt the tears begin to roll down her cheeks, she shrieked at the invasion of her body.
"Kouga please! Why are you doing this to me!" She cried.
Kouga could hear the gasping in her voice, he smelled the salt in her tears. Kouga retreated from kissing her neck his fangs bearing into his bottom lip so hard he could almost taste blood.
"It will be over soon..." Kouga told himself trying not to fall apart.
Slowly Kouga's hand reared from the cover of her sweater back to the rim of her skirt.
Applying more pressure to her waist he lifted his torso slightly allowing her legs small freedom, Kagome took the golden opportunity. She bent her knees preparing to deliver a hard kick but that idea came crumbling down.
Quickly Kouga pinned her legs again this time with his knees causing her legs to open, Kouga's knees locking them in place.
Kouga lifted upward until he was hovering over Kagome his face now only inches away from hers.
He was not surprised to see tears welled up in the corners of her chocolate orbs, an expression of hurt and panic written over her face.
In a low flat tone he spoke "Kagome-" He started, how badly he wanted to beg her forgiveness plea that she would not hate him but those were not the words that came out.
"This may hurt."
Kagome felt a scream well up in her throat but nothing came out she was too busy chocking back her tears.
Slowly Kouga's free hand went to the rim of her skirt. Gently his hand slid under the thick material to her stocking covered thigh. In one swift motion Kouga's clawed fingers shredded the black fabric exposing her pale skin.
Kagome thrashed harder than ever "Stop it please!"
Kouga held her firmly beneath him, his heart pounding in his ears his soul feeling drained as he began the unthinkable, he removed what was left of the shredded stockings freeing her thighs for his use.
Then came the final piece, the small lacy undergarment covering his goal would have to be the next thing to go.
Kouga turned his head to the side away from Kagome's gaze, his eyes closed tightly. His body stiffened as the realization engulfed him of what his was about to do.
Kagome's chest heaved her sobs spilling outward as almost every emotion raged through her panic, fear, horror, and betrayal.
"Kouga I'm begging you! Don't do this!" She sobbed.
Slowly Kouga reached up her silken thighs to the thin material of her panties, he slowly laced one finger around the waistband and began to pull downward.
Kagome felt her lungs swell as she put all her might into one last scream.
"Inuyasha!"
Kouga's eyes shot open his demon ability shot through him in a flash his grip over Kagomes frail body broke he pounced backwards removing all traces of himself from her.
It was almost like time had stood still there he now stood his feet planted firmly on the stone floor hovered over Kagome her cloths torn her cheeks stained with tears the look of panic in her eyes.
Kouga felt his stomach lurch, he felt like he was going to be sick.
His legs began to trembled beneath him he took a step backwards to steady himself.
His arms lifted allowing him view of his hands his chest began to heave his eyes shifted back and forth between himself and Kagome.
She lifted up shakely her sweater hanging down the side of her shoulder her eyes still blurry with tears.
Her dark orbs burning into Kouga's.
In a low shaky voice she spoke "K-Kouga...W-why?"
Kouga did not have the mind to respond, he felt his body shutting down it was taking all his energy not to fall over and die.
He felt so empty like the soul had just been sucked out of him like he was hollow.
He gave a final look to Kagome so many words rushed through his mind and yet none were the right ones "Kagome..." Was all he could muster than as if slipping back into the dream his body turned from her frail form and ran.
A light wind began to blow through the bare forest raising fallen snow from the frozen floor it was an unwelcome feeling.
Amaru's bright eyes narrowed at the feeling, living in the southern lands since childhood he thought he would have been used to such harsh weather but he thought wrong.
Wrapped in a flimsy fur pelt he sat on the frozen ground leaning his back against the bark of a bare tree.
The light cracking of burning wood in his ears from the fire to his right was one of the only sounds keeping him awake.
Several of the men that had accompanied him on this journey were already fast asleep curled into pelts of there own on the snow covered ground.
The dark of night had come quickly but Amaru was much to restless to sleep.
He hadn't very well since the day they left the caves he had tyred to stay constant on Kouga's trail but it was difficult for some very odd reason every time they would get close he was thrown off by the overwhelming smell of cherry blossoms.
Cherry blossoms, in the dead of winter it made no sense to him at all.
The light thumping of feet snapped Amura out of his thoughts.
He turned his gaze to the surrounding forest past the fire a shadowy figure emerged from the darkness of the trees.
Watching the figure approach Amaru quickly tossed the pelt that was covering him away getting to his feet.
It was a wolf its fur dark with the shadows covering but Amaru could see its was as white as the snow it stood upon.
A wolf Amaru knew all to well.
"What are you doing here?" He asked making his way passed his still sleeping comrades.
The wolf took a breath it had clearly been running for some time judging by how weather beaten it looked.
Slowly it replied with a series of low growls and silent barks.
Amaru listened carefully as to what the wolf had to say, then his bright yellow eyes opened in surprise as the wolf finished.
"What? Kome has worsened" He thought out loud.
Amaru quickly turned back to his men they had only been asleep maybe an hour tops but that would have to do.
"Get up!" Amaru barked kicking a few of the wolf demons that happened to be sleeping by were he stood.
"Were moving out! On your feet!" He orders.
Groggy and wind beaten the wolfs slowly began to get to there feet "What is it Amaru?" One asked
"Yea what the hell?" Another complained.
"Shut your traps and get prepared to move!" He replied sharply.
"Why what's the big deal?" One asked.
Amaru slowly turned to his men his yellow orbs glowed with a new eagerness.
"Were moving ahead of schedule, Get ready were going wolf hunting"
The depths of the caves were dark and cold no light penetrating the darkness a heavy stillness hanging over the stone hall.
Silently sitting against one of the stone walls a figure sat covered by the darkness of the hall he seemed no more lively than the stones he sat by.
Kouga's knees were pulled to his armored covered chest his crossed arms resting on his knees his head limp raven bangs covering his blue orbs.
His body was lifeless it seemed frozen Kouga did not know how long he had been sitting in this icy hall mentally punishing himself.
After fleeing from Kagome's chamber he stumbled endlessly forward into the darkness were he had come, he had no true destination only to get as far from her as possible.
He made it as far as he could before his legs gave out from the unbearable burden that had been placed upon him.
It was like the events that had accrued only moments before were nothing more than a bad dream, but every time he began to believe that precious lie he would sniff the air and he knew it was real.
His body was covered in Kagome's scent, the scent of her raven hair the scent of her unwilling arousal but the most inescapable was the scent of her fear.
It was the key forcing Kouga back to his hell called reality, he had almost rapped Kagome.
Kagome.
The one woman barely a year ago he had fought beside against Naraku, the woman who had risked her own life to save his mother a demon that she did not even know, the woman he had sworn to protect on this journey with his life.
Now there he sat wallowing in the scent of her terror, terror he had caused.
He felt so empty like apart of him had been ripped out and replaced with overwhelming self hatred.
But there was more on his mind then just inflicting mental pain on himself to ease the burden he had not lost sight of what was to come once Touketsu returned.
He would see Kagome was untouched and no doubt retreat for reinforcements.
Kouga had no plan no ideas out of this situation the only one he had, had just went up in smoke even if forcing himself on Kagome was the only way to save her life he still could not do it.
Yet he didn't know why, yes it went against everything he ever stood for but it was deeper than that. He was so close only moments away from consummating the act and he froze.
Despite his better instincts Kouga replayed the scene in his head his eyes closing tightly retreating to the memories.
He could remember the feeling of her silken fabric under his fingertips blocking his destination one quick slice and she would have been his for the taking but then...
Her scream echoed in his thoughts "Inuyasha!"
Kouga's eyes shot open.
"She called for him" Kouga thought "She called for him out of fear...of me"
Kouga could not understand this sudden feeling in his chest it was even stronger than the inner hatred growing inside him, it was jealousy.
Jealousy over all else.
This was not the first time he had found himself jealous of Inuyasha, he had always been in some small way. Knowing his declarations of love for Kagome were falling on def ears knowing she would always prefer that dog over him.
"This time its worse she preferred that mutt over me as her protector" Kouga knew his thoughts were contradicting of course she would have he tried to force himself on her but had she only known the truth maybe things would have been different.
Kouga felt his eyes narrow in anger slowly he found his balance in the darkness rising to his feet he felt his hands tighten into fist "I wont play second best to that bastard!"
Kouga slowly pushed aside his conflicting feeling and replaced them all with one, rage.
He felt a knew wave of motivation rush over him "Inuyasha's not here I am, Inuyasha cant save Kagome but I will"
Kouga felt a plan forming in the depths of his mind.
Once Touketsu comes to check on Kagome he wold not be leaving, if he could kill Touketsu quickly before he raised an alarm and sneak past the guards he could get Kagome out.
But if some how the plan failed he would make damn sure she got out, even if he didn't.
Slowly Kouga snapped out of his thoughts, out of the corner of his eye he could see a dim figure coming closer lit in an orange glow.
Kouga turned to meet the form he was not surprised by what he saw.
Touketsu stepped forward in his clawed hand a dim candle casting just enough light to reveal his smirking face. "Its dark as death in here" He grinned
Kouga did not reply.
Touketsus face remained calm "So how was it? Or should I say how was she? I wager a screamer"
Kouga felt his arm tighten the urge to beat the living hell out of him was overwhelming at this point.
"Why don't you go see for yourself" Kouga muttered through bared teeth.
Touketsu smiled "Don't mind if I do"
Touketsu stepped forward past Kouga lighting the darkness as he headed back to the room where Kagome was being kept, Kouga all to eagerly followed.
Matching his foot steps one by one.
The darkness of the stone hall was thick the way ahead lit dimly but the way behind faded back into the blackness, the blackness where Kouga walked.
The view of his face slipping in and out into the light then back into the dark but Kouga's eyes never lost focus his light orbs now slits of rage aimed at the target before him.
Silently the two walked deeper into the maze of tunnels and caves, with every step Kouga could smell Kagome's rich scent growing stronger he knew Touketsu could too.
Slowly he felt his claws flex, Touketsu would not take another step.
Then with the lift of his clawed hand Kouga was shadowed by the darkness.
I know short but sweet I just really wanted to update as soon as possible seeing as I have kept you all waiting so long but know that I will try to make the next chapter twice as long hope you still around to enjoy
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