Chapter 10
Healing with Her Family
Jack went to get up so he could go upstairs and see how Gwen and Ianto were managing with the Doctor and Donna but a tight grip was holding onto him by the waist. He looked down into the eyes of his depressed lover, "What is it?" he asked.
"Don't leave me," she whispered in a soft beg, almost whimper.
"I'm just going to check on the others and get some water. I'll be right back," he said.
"Be quick," Ellie replied softly.
"I will," Jack promised, he then reached down and placed a gentle kiss to her temple.
He then stood up from the bed and walked out of the bedroom and headed down the hall where the other's were sitting and talking by one of the computers. They all looked up at the sight of Jack, looking slightly disheveled.
When they had returned, Ellie went into their bedroom and had not been out since. That had been two days ago. She wasn't letting Jack out of her sight for more than a few minutes so he was looking far from his best. His clothes were wrinkled from sleeping in them and his hair a mess.
"How is she?" the Doctor asked.
"Same as ever…" Jack sighed as he sat down on the stairs.
Donna went walking up the stairs and sat down beside him, "Don't worry, she's going to be okay. You just have to give her time to get through the pain. Trust me…a mate of mine…went through the same thing," Donna paused, "Well almost…but she did suffer a miscarriage. She didn't come out of her bedroom for days…but finally she pulled herself together and worked through the pain. Because she was strong and Ellie is too. I've seen the way she operates, and she is one tough cookie. You just have to understand…she's a woman…and still just a kid. So her emotions are going to be all over the place," she continued.
Jack looked down and then ran his hands through his hair and over his face, "I hope you're right Donna…because I can't loose her," he whispered.
Donna saw the pain in his face and looked over to the Doctor, who had never seen Jack so emotional over someone before. Yeah when she was in the coma for three days, he never left her side, not even to pop to the loo, and he thought then 'He must love her'. Then he saw how devoted he had been when they returned from popping to McDonalds (which they had returned with one huge burger and the largest size chips he had ever seen), and once Ellie went into that room, she hadn't surfaced yet. Jack had only been out of the room maybe three times. It broke the Doctor's hearts to see her like this. He then walked over, "Do you want me to talk to her?"
Jack looked up at his friend, "If you think she would listen to you…and if you think you could even try to tell her something to comfort her…" he answered.
The Doctor took his trench coat off and dropped it into Donna's hands; he then squeezed past the two and headed down the hall and into the bedroom where he heard soft and faint sobs.
Ellie didn't even move as the Doctor entered and closed the door behind him, "Ellie? Sweetheart?" he asked softly.
Ellie looked over to the voice, and though her vision was blurred due to the tears, she managed to make out the figure of the Doctor, "Yeah?" she asked.
"You need to get outside…this room isn't healthy for you," he answered.
"I don't want to go outside," Ellie said softly.
"Well at least get out of this room. You're hair is a mess and you need to eat. Starving yourself is not going to help you. It is only going to make things worse," he replied.
"Where is Jack?" she asked, ignoring what the Doctor said.
"Ellie look at me," the Doctor ordered.
"What?" she asked.
"I know about pain and suffering, loosing a child. I know what it's like. When my family was still alive my wife did suffer the same thing you did. I know exactly what you and Jack are going through. They tortured my wife to get to me…and she lost our first child. So please know…I understand. In the long run…getting her out and showing her that life can move on saved her. Now that's what you need to do…you need to get up and go out. See that life can move on. Alright?" he explained.
Ellie then began to cry softly, but not for her lost child, for her friend, her mentor. He had lost so much more than she had, and she had spent the last two days wasting away. When the Doctor, who had lost everything and then somehow managed to get through life. She sat up and hugged him, "I'm sorry," she whispered.
"It's alright," the Doctor whispered soothingly into her ear.
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Jack looked up at the sounds of feet coming down the hall; the Doctor was coming out with Ellie on his arm.
He rushed up the stairs and over to Ellie, "You alright?" he asked.
She nodded and then pulled away from the Doctor and held onto Jack, "I'm sorry for doing this to you," she whispered.
"It's alright, I know how tough it was for you," he whispered back before placing a kiss to her head.
She heaved out a sigh and then pulled away, standing on her own she looked around the Hub, "I don't deserve you lot," she grumbled.
Gwen laughed, "Yes you do. You've gone through too much in the last few months to not deserve us," she said with a grin.
Ellie gave half a smile which then caused Jack to sigh a sigh of relief.
"I wanna go outside…maybe get some ice cream?" she suggested.
"Yeah, Ice Cream sounds good," Gwen said with a smile.
"I could murder a cuppa to be honest," Donna commented.
"Well you can stay here then, I'm going out for soft serve," Ellie said simply as she grabbed Jack's hand who dug his heels into the ground. She turned around, "What?"
"I need a shower, I'm not going out right now. For that matter…" Jack paused to stare at Ellie's own look, wrinkled jim jams and very messy tangled hair, "You do too," he said.
Ellie touched her hair and then frowned, "Shit," she muttered.
"Fine…I'll go take a quick shower and while I'm getting dressed you can take a fast shower, come on," she said pulling him along with her down the hall.
Donna smirked and then looked to the Doctor who was scratching the back of his head, like when he was uncomfortable, and this just caused her to start laughing.
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"You know…we could get to the ice cream place sooner if we just took one together. Plus….it'd save water," Ellie called through the shower curtain to Jack who was brushing his hair.
He raised an eyebrow, "Ellie…maybe we should wait on that for right now," he said.
She poked her head out of the curtain, "What?"
Jack walked over, "Ellie you've just gone through a miscarriage and have been barely responsive the last two days," he answered.
"I know that…I'm not stupid," she said.
"Well maybe you should just have a shower on you're own for right now," Jack said.
"Jack…I'm fine, really I am," Ellie replied.
"You weren't earlier," he muttered.
"Well yeah…but I think I'm over it now. Can you just come in so I can talk to you?"
"Were talking now," he said.
"Yeah…but…just get you're arse in here before I pull you in myself," Ellie stated impatiently.
Jack sighed but did as he was told, he then joined Ellie and for a second just stood there enjoying the feel of clean hot water beating down on his skin.
He then looked down at Ellie who then wrapped her arms around him and she set her head on his chest, listening for a moment to the beating of his heart.
She then looked up at him, and for a moment he couldn't tell if she was crying or if it was the shower water. But then the sound that escaped from her lips confirmed it was crying. He wrapped his arms around her tighter and held her to him as best as he could.
"I'm sorry I'm crying again," she sobbed.
"It's alright Ellie…really it is," Jack whispered soothingly.
"Earlier the Doctor told me about loosing a child. His wife went through almost the same thing as me…kidnapped to get to the partner…and in the end they lost their first child. It made me realize that he was able to go on. After all the bad that happened…and I thought 'I can do it.' I know I can do it…" Ellie explained.
Jack began to rub circles into her back, "I know you can do it," he said comfortingly.
"Jack?" Ellie looked up at Jack, under half lashes. Her voice was slightly hoarse from the silent tears she had cried. Jack for a moment just continued to let his fingers trail her pale wet skin. But he couldn't deny that he felt her heartbeat pulsing under her breast. He could almost feel it against his own.
The rhythmic thump-thump of their hearts surrounded them until Ellie tried again, "Jack."
"You have to think about what you're doing," Jack mumbled to the top of her head as he embraced her still. "You have to think about what you're saying."
Ellie licked her lips, she was about to protest about Jack's insinuations but he wasn't wrong. Was this what she really wanted? After all the pain to be led into only more? Ellie didn't try to look for the words; she just pressed her lips to the soft skin of Jack's chest. Right over his heart. It was a simple gesture that said so much.
Jack took Ellie's face in his hands; her gaze was slightly glazed with a deep need. Need to fight, need to be free and need to want. He pressed a soft kiss at her temple, brushing back her formerly golden locks as the water continued to spray them. Taking his hands from her face, Jack's hands molded to her upper arms.
Whether it was to hold her in place, Ellie might never know but she didn't care. She wanted Jack in this moment. She had endured so much pain and heartache the last few days, but she felt that if she had Jack in that moment, if they did this…something in her would heal. Ellie didn't know if it would work or not, but it was worth a try. Shaking off his lightly hold on her arms, Ellie braced the sides of Jack's face with her hands, bringing him down for a searing kiss.
The cool tile was still a surprise for Ellie when her back hit it. It could have almost been enough to shake her out of this maddening behaviour. But almost wasn't enough. The heavy water of the shower still pelted the pair but the steam surrounding them only gave rise to the heat between them. Although their mouths clashed, their tongues were soft, caressing and exploring the all too familiar depths. Ellie let out a sigh against Jack's mouth but it sounded more like a whimper.
Jack felt his blood heat under his skin; he could feel it as his pulse began to race. He felt when Ellie's arms went around his neck. His fingertips brushed lightly at her waist and over her slim hips. Slowly, Jack hooked Ellie's leg behind his own, tilting her back as he let his mouth trail down her jaw to her neck.
Ellie gripped Jack's shoulders as he buried himself in her neck. Ellie sighed as Jack pressed hot kisses to the column of her throat. Ellie could say with all her heart she had never felt anything like this. She had never felt her body feel so alive. She could vaguely feel herself kissing the side of Jack's face as he moved to kiss her again. Ellie let her eyes flutter close as the rush of water became apparent again. Everywhere it hit her it was like a feather light touch. Now, she couldn't deny the tiny sobs of pleasure that were falling out of her mouth. Jack's touch was just too intoxicating.
"Jack, please." Ellie whispered. She wasn't even sure what she was asking for but she knew she needed it. She needed more than this torture. Jack raised his dark head; his all knowing smirk warmed her further.
Their lips met once more, tongues clashing a bit more frantic now. If they didn't surface in a few minutes it would become a bit more obvious as to why Ellie had dragged Jack with her to the bathroom.
She opened her eyes, and her dark blue eyes met his ice blue eyes. Ellie had been able to tell ever since the first days on the Valliant and when they were reunited, that he loved her indescribably. The few times he did say the words 'I Love You' it meant so much to her. Jack was like the Doctor in more ways than one, and one of those ways being that Jack hardly ever used the word love. Their lips separated and both were silent, taking in the sight of the other. Jack then lifted her a bit more and then managed to get her legs spread enough that he was able to slide into her body.
A sob escaped Ellie's lips at this contact, not out of pain though, but the fact that after everything that they had gone through, with her getting pregnant, and then losing the baby, he still loved her completely. She could feel it in his touch, when he looked at her, when he talked to her, when Jack would hold her late at night. Ellie knew he loved her because of the last few days; he spent night and day, holding her, rocking her, and whispering words of love and comfort into her ear.
Jack was gentle and slow as he began to thrust into her body. Her body had been through physical trauma when she had been kidnapped and he was worried that the slightest wrong move could cause her physical pain. He understood why she was crying at the moment, or at least he thought he did. Ellie then took Jack's face with her hand and brought their lips back together again. His mouth on hers made the soft cries sound slightly more like moans, which they were going in and out of being crying and moaning in pleasure.
He began to thrust a little bit harder, but it was all Ellie really needed, she climaxed a few seconds later and within five more seconds Jack did as well. As the heat of it all died down Jack stayed with his member inside her body and with Ellie pinned against the wall of the shower. She placed her forehead against Jack's and no more tears fell, nor would they for a long time.
After a few minutes Jack pulled out and helped Ellie to the shower floor, she washed her hair and Jack helped to wash her. They washed each other and when they were done Ellie was smiling slightly. He helped her get out of the shower and then put her towel on around her body. Ellie then opened the door of the bathroom into the bedroom they had been sharing during the pregnancy. She hadn't been in it since the morning of her kidnapping.
Ellie looked at Jack who had followed her in and smiled. She went to him and kissed him gently, "Thank you," she whispered.
He kissed her back and just smiled.
XX
"Gawd their taking forever!" Donna complained as she finished her cup of tea.
The Doctor once more had an uncomfortable look on his face.
"There you two are! Thought a Weevil had gotten ya," Gwen said when she saw Jack and Ellie come out.
Both were dressed in clean clothes and Ellie was wearing a bit of makeup, and a fair amount to cover the dark circles that had been under her eyes. "Sorry about that…anyways, ready to go?" Ellie asked.
Everyone nodded and grabbed their things. Ellie never let go of Jack's hand, even when they were out in the bright sunny streets of Cardiff Wales and were receiving their ice cream.
They walked over to the Dock's, Jack and the Doctor telling bits and pieces about their adventure in Cardiff with Margret Blaine. But both men seemed like they were keeping something, and Ellie knew why. Cause Jack had told her about Rose Tyler, and what she had meant to him and to the Doctor. But she smiled and quickly changed the subject to something about Weevils and how Owen had once gotten so drunk before the whole dying thing that he wanted to try to put a dress on Janet and when that didn't work out he wound up in the dress himself.
It was still painful thinking about Tosh and Owen, but she knew that they were somewhere safe and smiling down on the team, with her little girl. Knowing that they had Elmira taken care of; comforted Ellie. That and having Jack kept her going, she knew it would be awhile before she was completely healed, but talking to the Doctor, and having Jack make love to her did something and woke her old self up. As long as Ellie was with Jack, Gwen, Ianto, the Doctor, and Donna, she'd be alright. She'd always get through the problems that life threw at her, because at the end of the day, she had a family waiting for her to comfort her and take care of her…
The End
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A/N- So I know it only took me forever with this story…and personally the ending was probably a bit too cheesy. I don't know if I'll ever do anything with the Ellie stuff ever again. I might eventually….maybe after I see the new series of torchwood. Anywhos…I could give you dozens of excuses as to why I haven't updated….here are a few
Anyone who read my other stories may have heard me mention the rubbish summer I had. Well I did…summer was awful…well with the exception of meeting The Hush Sound, The Cab, and Steel Train! THAT TRULY WAS THE BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE!! lol
Well that is an excuse in it's self…I wrote other stories!! I wrote A Torchwood Picnic, As You Cry, and my current project is The Lost Daughter…
I had the idea in my head that I couldn't write smut and was going to have someone write the smut in this story for me….well….I asked a friend who shall remain nameless and she did get a bit of it for me (so a fair bit of the smut scene was done by my friend, with some editing by me and then what I added on) but she promised me that she would get me the rest and I haven't seen it since. I've been using that as a reason for not updating in so long and I decided today while watching Stolen Earth again I miss writing for Ellie, and I might as well give writing the smut scene a go myself…so there you are
Well I don't think I have a number four….just got added in there when I hit enter….stupid computer…..lol
I am sorry, truly, and totally for not updating this story. I considered putting out a message saying I did NOT give up on this story…things have just been nuts…oh! And look up lovertojackharkness on YouTube!! It's my account and I've started to make videos! Only the four recent ones are actual vids, rest are slideshows….So yeah…thanks are in total order to……
Chloe! Thank you dear for being a beta for me; I've missed you while you've been on holiday!! You've been a total doll for me, ever since I joined TIL! Thank you! I love you and look forward to discussing Torchwood Series Three with ya when it finally airs!!
Ellie! Once again I have to thank you, you let me steal your name and birthday for this story…and for Masters Daughter, and so I have a lot to thank you for! Thanks for being a listener, comforting me when I lost my kittens, reading my stories, and reviewing religiously. You are such a sweetheart and I love you dearly! Only two more years till I turn 18! Then we can meet! Lol…well that is unless you wind up in NY for next years Christmas or something…lol
And to the readers, I could list you all but it would be impossible. Without you all, this story would not have been done. I love you for your continued support and all of the great and inspirational words you've sent along. Thanks so much! All my love, today, tomorrow, and forever! Beccs!