Sorry for the long wait! I know you guys were probably suffering from the ending of last chapter. Well the wait is over! Also, to the gues that commented last chapter, I'm a guy not a girl. Heh, sorry. Anyway, here we are, finally hitting double-digit chapters. Enjoy!
Disclaimer: Frozen, Anna and/or Elsa gonna be mine someday, just not now.
Chapter 10: It's Out
"Y-you love me?" Anna said in a whisper. It was soft and almost inaudible, but to Kristoff it sounded like a somebody was screaming it out loud. He wished he could take those words back and keep the words to himself, never to let anyone know how he felt. But now standing here in real time, here he was with Anna and Eugene just having spilled his deepest secret. Not even Sven knew about it. He gulped hard, trying to find words to explain. His heart was in his throat and his knees were jelly. His head spinning a thousand miles an hour. Several moments passed. "Well? Do you?!" Anna demanded. Her eyes were tearing up and was soon going to burst. She had come here to talk to Kristoff, to find out what was going on with him. Instead, she had arrived there just in time to her Kristoff say that he loved her. Eugene stared wide-eyed at both of them as the pain in his jaw went numb. He quickly got up and said "Uh, let me leave y'all alone."
"I-uh-I," Kristoff stuttered, his mind trying to put some words together. How could he have let himself say all that? A beat. Two. Anna began to turn around to leave and Kristoff can feel it; he was going to start to lose her. He needed to say something to her fast. With a few long strides, he caught up to her and grabbed her by the arm. "Let me go!" Anna said as she tried to pull her arm from his grip. "No, Anna please wait. I'm-"
"You're what?" the tears began to fall down her cheeks.
Kristoff felt terrible and his heart dropped to the floor. She was crying because of him. "I'm sorry," he said, his voice wavering. Anna continued to look at him hard the tears still staining her face. "I'm sorry for saying that, but Anna please don't leave me," he added. Anna stopped crying, and looked him in the eyes. "Don't leave you? If I remember correctly YOU'RE the one that has left ME!" she reminded him. "You've completely ignored me these past few months! But now you're saying that you're in love with me?!" Anna yelled.
"Anna, I-"
"No, Kristoff! I've texted and called you almost everyday, but you never answered! I've tried to contact you and talk to you, but you were never there!"
"Because, Anna-"
"Just go back to what you were doing. Don't talk to me," she said harshly pulling free from his hand. As she quickly exited outside into the rain and didn't look back, Kristoff felt a mixture of both anger and sadness. Dizzy and confused, adrenaline took control of him. He went outside into the semi-packed streets after her. She hadn't gotten to far so he caught up to her pretty fast. When he did catch up to her, he turned her around, cupped her face and pressed his lips unto hers. He kissed her hard and he could feel all the loneliness and pain and anger melt away. Anna was stunned and reluctant and tried to get loose from him. But seeing she wasn't getting anywhere, she kissed him back and their lips moved in synch. To both of them, it felt so right and so amazing as fireworks went off in their heads. Her lips tasted like strawberries and as soft as marshmallows. To her, he smelled of pine and ice. She moved her hands from his chest to around his neck.
They broke apart moments later and Kristoff looked down at her with sad eyes and a forlorn expression. He felt broken and beat. There was water from the rain dripping off his nose onto the flooded street. Anna just looked up at him, meeting his depressed look and then she slapped him hard on his face, leaving a small handprint on his cheek. He was stunned at first and was about to ask what was that for but then she slapped him again and again sending the water on his face flying. He finally caught her hand and she struggled to get loose. She wanted to keep on hitting him for shutting her out and making her worry and now she felt hurt and confused all because of him. She wanted to hit him for stealing her first kiss that she had planned to save for Hans someday. She wanted to keep hitting him for making the kiss feel so damn amazing and she wanted to stay mad at him. But he held her arm in place as he watched the rain on her face mix with tears. He brought her into a tight hug and she began to sob into his chest and grip his shirt. He held her close and soon he found himself begin to cry a bit.
"I'm so sorry Anna," he whispered into her hair as he tightened his grip on her ever so slightly.
"W-why Kr-Kristoff? Why'd you leave?" she asked in between sobs.
"I felt so worthless. I couldn't stand to see him with you," he answered truthfully, his voice beginning to crack. "I thought you had forgotten about me. Anna, I was selfish and I'm sorry for that."
She continued to cry into his chest, soaking the t-shirt more. "You-you're my best friend. I-I'd never forget about you. I-I care about you, Kristoff," she sobbed. "I mi-missed you so much. I thought I made you angry with me."
He rested his chin on the top of her head and spoke, "You can't do anything to make me that angry with you."
"Please don't shut me out. You know how I feel about that," she whimpered.
He rubbed her back with his large, calloused hand and said, "I'll never do that to you."
"Promise?" she asked.
"On my life," he responded. She nuzzled her face into his chest again as she continued to cry, letting all the emotions consuming her go. He just continued rubbing her back soothingly and he kissed the top of her head. When she stopped crying, she moved her head off his chest and sniffled. He tilted her chin up and her teal orbs met his chocolate-colored ones. He gave her a small and sad smile. "We should probably get out of this rain," he said softly.
"Yeah, we should," she said softly, breaking her gaze from his and wiping away the few tears that remained. They walked quickly back to the pizza shop and as he opened the door for her to enter, he flipped the sign from "Open" to "Closed" for he wanted nobody to come in.
She sat down at the booth in the far corner and she looked at the mirror there, never looking up to see Kristoff. He went into the kitchen and brought out some hot chocolate in a mug for her and he placed in front of her. She whispered, "Thank you," and took a sip from it.
"You hungry?" he asked.
"I'm fine," she said.
He sat down in front of her.
"Anna?"
"Yes?"
He gulped hard. He needed to fix this somehow. "I know I've said this like a million times already, but I'm really, really sorry. I just...I didn't mean to say all of that. But I...I really do..." he didn't finish the sentence, but he didn't have to because he knew she understood. She finally looked up at him and this time he brought his gaze down. His Uncle had always told him that it was rude to not look a woman, or anyone for that matter, in the eyes when talking to them. But he was too embarrassed and ashamed of himself to do it right now. He brought a hand up and ran it through his hair as he found his voice and continued to speak. "And I know that this guy, Hans, makes you happy and I'm glad to see you happy. But at the same time I feel...jealous."
"Continue," she said.
He took a deep breath. "See, I was going to...ask you out the day you met him. And when we were at the restaurant, you said you didn't have anybody to dance with. And before I got the chance to ask you to, he came out of nowhere. And seeing him, dance with you and making you happy and then when you said yes to him...Anna, the way I feel about you...it's just I've never felt like this towards another person in my life. Trust me, I tried to shake the feeling off and no matter what, I just wasn't able to."
He took another deep breath and his right hand began to rub his face in agitation. "I, um, and I understand if...if you never want to talk to me again. I wouldn't blame you." He felt a stab in his heart when he said that and he covered his eyes in an attempt to keep his forming tears hidden. He was surprised to feel a small, soft hand on his other hand. He exhaled loudly and looked at his lap. Anna squeezed his hand gently and he looked up at her.
"Why would I never want to talk to you again?" she asked slowly.
"Well, because of what I said, and because I kissed you and stole your first kiss. Plus you kinda told me to not talk to you," he said.
"Kristoff, when I told you to not talk to me, it was because I was so mad at you. I didn't really mean it. And I wasn't mad because of what you said or because you kissed me. I was just mad that you weren't talking to me I didn't know why."
Kristoff raised an eyebrow. "So you aren't mad that I said I love you or because I kissed you?" he asked incredously.
She shook her head. "To be honest, I kinda liked the kiss," she said very low with a growing blush. Kristoff smirked a little bit, but it fell off his face. "Anna, I just don't want to lose you." He now had a better grip on her hand and was rubbing small circles on the back of it with his thumb. " When I'm with you, I feel at home and like 'wow this is where I'm supposed to be'. And without you, I feel lost," he said with a small shrug. He felt his a faint flush begin to form.
"Kristoff, you're not going to lose me. But that being said, I do have a boyfriend. We both know that and we can't forget about that." Anna said.
"Yeah I know." he sighed. The next thing that came out of his mouth surprised both of them. "But do you feel anything towards him?"
"Excuse me?"
Kristoff sighed. Way to go. Everything was almost somewhat fixed, and now he just had to go and open his mouth. He repeated it though, seeing as not saying anything would probably mess things up again, "Do you, well you know, feel anything towards him?"
Anna looked like she was going to say something mean to him but then she considered the question. After a few moments, she answered truthfully, "I-I don't know."
Kristoff felt the next few words escape him again. "Do you feel anything towards me?"
She looked at him with wide eyes. He shook his head. "Sorry, I didn't mean to say that. You don't have to answ-"
"I kind of do," she said.
He looked right at her his mouth slightly open in shock. "Y-you do?"
She bit her lip and she after a little while she spoke. "Yes? No? I don't know! I'm so confused about this all," she said burying her face in her hands.
"That makes two of us then." Kristoff said.
"Kristoff, I just need to get my thoughts and emotions together. Please don't feel bad," she pleaded.
Kristoff raised his hands in defense, "Hey, it's fine. I understand."
"Thank you. It's just so complicated right now!"
"I know."
Many minutes passed in silence before Anna broke it, "I should probably go home."
"Okay. Do you need someone to take you?" he asked.
"How could you-"
Kristoff dug into his pockets and pulled out a keychain with his apartment keys and another pair. "I bought myself a car last week. I needed some sort of transportation. The subway was getting way too expensive," he explained. Anna simply nodded and they both got up and she followed him to where his car was parked. When they got there, he led them to a old red pickup truck. "It's nothing special but something's better than nothing," he said.
He helped her into the car and when he got in and turned on the ignition, he drove out of the parking space and it hit him he didn't know where she resided. "Um, Anna?"
"Yeah?"
"Where exactly, uh, do you live?
She gave him instructions and he drove. When they got there, they sat silent for many moments.
"So, um, bye I guess," she said.
"Yeah," he replied sheepishly.
"Thanks for the ride."
"No problem."
Before she got off, she quickly leaned over and pecked his cheek. He sat frozen in place and watched as she scurried into the building. He touched his cheek in the place where she had kissed him and he smiled to himself. That same glimmer of hope he had early on came back.
That concludes chapter 10! Things are going to get interesting from here on out, just to let y'all know! Review, follow, favorite, share, do whatever you heart desires. Till chap 11, peace!
