Wow! I feel like I haven't written in forever! Maybe because I haven't? Ahh I'm soooooo sorry it took me forever to post a new chapter! Thank you to anyone who is still bothering to read this! And thanks to anyone who has reviewed/favorited it means a lot to me! The only reason why it took me so long is cause I wanted to write this chapter in Riku's dad's pov but I didn't know what to write for it! Honestly I had no inspiration what so ever for his POV. Then bam I randomly thought of something to write. I know it's not that good and I know my chapters are REALLY short but once again thank you to anyone who is still reading this story. As for my Kuroshitsuji story if any of you are reading it I am still working on it and I do have somewhat of a plot for it. I'm working on chapter 2 right now I'm just figuring out how I want to lead up to everything and how long I want to drag out Ciel trying to find his sister and why they are seperated.

I don't own any of the characters in here. And all that Jazz.

Hope you guys enjoy!

**Riku's Dad's POV**

I paced back in forth in my bedroom. I could hear my wife pounding on the door begging for me to let her in. God she didn't get it though! I didn't want her! I wanted nothing to do with her, I wanted Riku. But no my stupid whore of a son was off with that other kid. Sora I think his name was. This wouldn't be the first time Riku was with someone else but it was never like this. He was normally with them for what a day? Or at least until they fucked and he would never talk to them again. Why did this stupid kid have to be different! Couldn't he just leave my son alone! He's suppose to be mine and no one elses! Why would he leave me? Wasn't I enough?

No of course I wasn't. I raped him. I abused him. The things I said to him.

NO! He's suppose to be with me no matter what. He probably enjoys what I say to him. Come on he obviously enjoys it when I have sex with him. The way he teases me, the way he moans for more. He's nothing but a whore who wants his father to do him over and over again.

No he doesn't enjoy it. You've seen the cuts on his legs. He does that because of you. Because of what you do to him. It's all your fault.

No stop it! It's not my fault. He practically begged for it. He shouldn't have teased me like that. God why does my son have to be so attractive! Why do I have to be so attracted to him? He's like a drug and I want more and more. I can't stop. He's so addicting. Every time he's under me I can't help but get turned on. And when he moans out my name and calls me daddy I loose control!

You sick bastard. That's your son. How can you be so sick in the head. You have a beautiful wife but here you are locked in your room flipping out cause you think your son is a good fuck.

But he's not just a good fuck. He's so much more then that. I remember on his 9th birthday that's when I first lost control. I couldn't help myself. My wife was away and I saw the perfect chance and I took it. The way he looked up to me with those pleading eyes only made me want to be roughter with him and that's exactly what I did. It gives me a sense of pride to know that I took his virginity from him.

I looked down. I was obviously turned on by all the thoughts I was having about my son.

"Oh god how I wish you were here right now Riku. The things I would make you do to me. I can just here your moans now." I said out load snorting another line of coke.

"Please dear just let me in!"

My wife was still pounding on the door and my "problem was getting worse by the minute. I got up and unlocked the door. I pushed her up against the wall kissing her.

"H-honey."

"You would do anything to make me happy right love?" I said biting her neck

"Ahh y-y-yes!"

"Good."

You're sick. You're thinking about Riku right now. Pretending it was him under you and not your wife. You're a sick bastard. You deserve to rot in hell. You don't even deserve to be alive right now.

I ignored what the voices in my head were saying for once and didn't fight back with them. Of course they were wrong. There was nothing wrong with me. I wasn't sick. But they did have one thing right I was wishing that it was Riku and not my tramp of a wife. That's all I could think about was Riku. I didn't even want to think about what he probably did with that that boy. It was to sick to even think about. I had to get him back no matter what the cost. He will come back to me! He has to. I know he will. He can't live without me. He needs me.

Why would he need someone like you? He hates you!

"NO SHUT UP!"

"H-Honey?"

"Get out! You're nothing but a sick tramp!" I said slapping her across the face.

He hates you.

"No! He needs me!"

He hates you.

"He needs me!"

Keep telling yourself that but he will ALWAYS hate you.

"He can't live without me!"

Really? Cause from what I see he hasn't been home in a couple days and he's doing just fine. He was even gone for 2 years and he survived.

"He doesn't hate me."

Yes he does. He can never love you.

"NO!"

yes.

"N-no!"

yes.

"He needs me. He loves me. He can't live without me. Oh god! He doesn't hate me!" I said falling to the ground. Holding my head in my hands.

you know all those things are a lie. He doesn't need you. Never did. He hates you and will never love you. He loves Sora. Not you.

"No. H-he"

You don't believe yourself anymore do you? You don't believe all your lies that you tell yourself just to get through the day anymore. You're starting to see the truth.

"I'll get him back. No matter what."