Hi everyone! So thank you for the reviews on my last chapter. I know I have already posted this chapter but I have decided this WON'T be my last chapter, as I previously said on the first posted version of this, thanks to all you who persuaded me. I am going to carry it on to maybe 20 chapters! Sorry for the confusion! Enjoy!

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6 months later

Kensi and Deeks had officially been together for 6 months. It had definitely been a busy 6 months for both of them. They had told the whole team, some (Nell and Hetty) hadn't been surprised but others (Eric, Sam and Callen) had been shocked and not seen this coming.

They had also been living together for the past 6 months, unfortunately for Deeks in Kensi's cluttered apartment, which he tried oh so hard to actually get slightly organized.

The whole team had to say they had seen a big change in both of them. Deeks no longer flirted with every girl, and he always seemed happy. Kensi always had a smile on her face and they both seemed content.

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"Kens?" Deeks shouted across the apartment. It was Saturday morning and they both had the day off, so they decided to have a lazy day at home, their home.

"Yeah?" Kensi shouted back. She was currently in the kitchen, mixing egg, flour and water in a bowl since she decided she wanted pancakes for breakfast.

"Come here for a sec will ya?" He called back. Deeks was in the bedroom, laid across their bed, fiddling with an object in his hands. Kensi came padding through to the bedroom moments later, like normal dressed in one of his over sized t shirts, which caught Deeks' breath every time he saw her like this, her true beauty coming out.

'Yeah?" She asked, her side resting on the doorframe smiling at him. Deeks patted the bed next to him, inviting her to come and sit next to him. She squinted her eyes at him, wary at his intentions, but still kept a sly smile on her face as she made her way over to the bed.

Deeks was still fiddling with the object in his hands, not looking at Kensi's face. Kensi leaned over and touched one of his hands gently, as he quickly hid the object in his grasp.

"You know I love you right Fern?" He asked, nervousness filling his voice.

"Yeah, course I do… Deeks what is this about?" Kensi inquired, staring to get worried now.

"Well… erm, right. I don't wanna loose you, ever. I want… I want something permanent…" Deeks began. Kensi stayed quiet still closely watching his face waiting for him to continue.

"I er… I guess what I'm trying to say is that…" Deeks started again, letting a breath out.

"Kens, will you marry me?" He finally said, looking up and into her eyes. Her face went blank and her body stiff as she just stared at him.

After a couple of minutes that's when Deeks realized her answer. His chest contracted in pain as disappointment and sadness washed over his face, as he made his way off the bed.

"I… I ok. I'm going to leave now, kay? I just need to… not be here right now…" He said brokenly, Kensi still didn't move a muscle; staring at the spot Deeks occupied a few moments prior.

Deeks didn't understand. He didn't know what her answer would be, but he was sure if it were a no, she'd let him down gently, instead she completely ignores him and doesn't say a word. It was not her answer that hurt most; it was the way she delivered it.

He grabbed his wallet, phone, gun and keys as he made his way to the door, turning around when he reached it to check she hadn't come out. When his eyes were greeted by an empty corridor, he nodded to himself, then made his way out of the apartment.

As soon as Kensi heard the front door click behind Deeks she burst into tears. She couldn't believe she just did that to him. He had just proposed and what did she do? Not say a damn thing. That was the worst thing she could of done in that situation. She hated herself so much in that moment, how could she do that to him? It had been the best 6 months of her life, and she just ruined it.

She jumped off the bed, wiping the tears off her face but to no avail as they kept on pouring down her cheeks. Kensi rushed through to the sitting room to find her phone shoved on the table next to the couch. She quickly grabbed it and dialed 1 on her speed dial.

"Hey, this is Deeks, sorry I couldn't get to the phone just leave a message and I'll get back to you!" Deeks' cheery voice emanated from the phone. This made Kensi want to burst into tears again, as she remembered how broken his voice sounded not ten minutes ago. She did that to him. As the beep sounded she took a deep breath.

"H-Hey Deeks. It's me." Kensi started, trying to sound as normal as possible, but failing when her voice breaks after one word, she carried on.

"I… I am so sorry Deeks… I really am. I was just not expecting that. Please, please phone me back I need to talk to you…" Kensi finished as the tears began rolling down her face once again.

She took a breath after she hung up, staring at the phone in her hand, willing for it to ring. Ten minutes later when it still hadn't rung, she got up, grabbed her coat and almost ran out of her apartment, attempting to wipe of the continuous stream of tears.

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Deeks slammed his fist into the punch bag for the hundredth time in half an hour. Sweat was pouring off his forehead and his gym clothes were soaked too.

He had come straight to NCIS HQ after leaving their apartment, after not knowing where to go or what to do. He got his gym clothes out of his locker and went straight to the gym.

At that point his breath was labored as he tore his fists away from the punch bag. He slowly walked back into the changing rooms and got into the shower. Surprising the gym was bare this morning, unlike the loud squad room he had to keep his head down to get through unnoticed.

The scalding water poured down his back, soothing his aching muscles and taking his mind off the cause of those aching muscles. He tilted his face toward the spray, closing his eyes as the water refreshed his face. He head someone enter the shower room and sighed, not really wanting to face anyone right now.

He turned off the shower and wrapped the white towel around his waist and exited the cubicle. He kept his eyes on the floor, hoping the person would not try and make conversation.

As he reached his locker pulled out his clothes, slipped on his boxers and jeans when he head someone clear their throat from behind him.

He sighed and turned around looking up, freezing when he realized whom it was. Kensi stood leaning against one of the bench railings watching him intently, her eyes red and puffy indicating she had been crying.

"What do you want Kensi?" Deeks croaked as he sighed again.

"I want to talk…" Kensi whispered walking closer to him. Deeks turned back around and pulled out a t-shirt and pulled it over his head.

"Well I think your silence was enough of an answer thanks." He grumbled, packing his locker up.

"Deeks… please, please just listen to me…" She whispered her eyes watering up again at his tone. Deeks closed his eyes slowly and turned around, opening them and nodding slightly, so Kensi continued.

"You know about my past. Jack. That… that it just made me remember the last time I made a commitment like that… it scared me. It made me remember waking up one morning and he was just… gone. It reminded how that left me… how it broke me. And I just can't go back there…" She whispered, reaching out and cupping his check with her hand.

"Kensi… do you really believe I would leave you?" Deeks asked her.

"No! Its just last I didn't believe it either and it did…" She whispered her voice now thick with tears.

"Don't you trust me not to do that to you?" He asked quietly.

"Yes! I know you wont leave me! Of course I know that! It just brought bad memories back that's all… I'm so sorry for the way I reacted Deeks, please you gotta believe me." She pleaded with him, taking his hand and holding it.

He was silent for a while; taking in the new information, then he slowly began nodding his head.

"Ok. I guess I can't blame you, it would of brought bad memories for me to." Deeks said softly, running his thumb over the side of her hand. Kensi let out a chocked sob as she wrapped her arms around him hugging him tightly as she places her head in the crook of his neck, never wanting to let go.

"I'm so so sorry Deeks." She whispered again and again.

"It's ok, yeah were fine." He soothed her.

"Yes." She whispered back.

"What?" He asked confused.

"Yes I'll marry you." She whispered into his neck as Deeks froze, shocked.

"Are you sure?" He asked.

"Yes. I trust you, and I love you I know you wont intentionally hurt me." She explained closing her eyes. She felt him remove his face from her neck as she copied his movements and was met by his blue orbs.

"I love you too." He whispered back, leaning in and kissed her gently. She kissed him back, finally happy with the man in her arms.

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