yay!~ I have returned!~ actually I've been back for a while... When I got back though I quickly wrote a oneshot and happily started writing this again~ but for some reason I just couldn't write... I dunno if that makes sense but I just couldn't lol!~ well anyways!~ I really apreciate all of the reveiws!~ seriosly guys!~ I really don't deserv it!~ I actually cried when I read them hahaha ^^; thanks a ton!~

Summary: Izaya always kept his feelings hidden; smirking at every attempt to be killed by the man he loved. No matter how hard he got hit with a vending machine, it would never hurt. But inside he felt pain, because Shizuo would never feel the same. High school days! ~ Shizuo X Izaya Psyche X Tsugaru!

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Izaya made his ways through the halls of Raira Academy in a rather pissed off mood. Whether it was because he read about the confession in Shizuo's phone last night or because he got a black eye from his father last night when he was woken up by his sisters' sobbing and his mother's pleas, he had no idea. Probably the first one.

The morning was terrible for him since the moment he woke up. He would have tried to pretend he was sick but didn't want his mother to go through the worry, and it didn't get any better once he got to school. Everyone at school just kept annoying him today, especially Yoko. She insisted on walking with him everywhere so that maybe she could get some Yaoi action when Shizuo came.

When would Shizuo come anyways? The brute hadn't been here all day. The fact made Izaya somewhat happy and sad at the same time.

"Oi Iza-san!" The small blonde girl called from his side, "You okay? You seem like you're on your period," She looked closer at his face.

Izaya rolled his eyes, "I'm fine. Well, until you came."

"That's no way to treat your favorite wingman!" She said in fake hurt. Izaya rolled his eyes again.

"LIES!" Yoko and Izaya heard from afar. They turned their views to the source to see Shinra running towards them, "I'm totally his favorite wingman!"

"Shinra, when the hell did you get-"

"I am much more a favorite than you are!" Yoko yelled in protest as she flung her hands in Izaya's face.

"Yeah right! What have you done!" Shinra said as he put his hands on his hips.

"Well, I was the reason for Izaya getting blondie's cell!" She said and then laughed as if it was the most heroic thing ever, "Point one for Yoko!"

"That, in the end, got me to read that Shizu-chan confessed to Sumiko…" Izaya said plainly, a glare directed to Yoko.

"Minus one point for Yoko!" Shinra declared happily, "Besides! I was the reason Shizuo asked Izaya to tutor him!"

Izaya looked over at him, confusedly, "You did that purposely?"

Shinra shrugged and grinned at Izaya, "No, but it worked didn't it?"

Izaya tapped his chin, "Yeah… your right… One point for Shinra."

Yoko's mouth dropped open, "What!"

Shinra started to dance giddily as Izaya just stared like it was the stupidest thing ever. Yoko began to hide in a corner with a dark aura around her. Seriously, why was he friends with these people?

But before anyone could say anymore they all heard an ear piercingly loud voice.

"FLEA!" The voice made Shinra and Yoko jump but Izaya chuckle as he pocketed the cellphone.

"Shizu-chan~" he said as he turned around and held the little device in his hand, clear for Shizuo to see, "Thank you so much for lending this to me." He said as he tossed it to Shizuo who fumbled while trying to catch it.

After looking over it to see if it was alright he quickly sent Izaya a glare, even though the device was perfectly intact, "What did you do to it?"

Izaya shrugged innocently although his smirk said otherwise, "I have no idea what you're talking about, Shizu-chan~" Izaya looked at him and finally noticed the black-haired girl behind him.

Memories of the cell phone swarmed in his head and he couldn't help but to clench his fist, "Oh hey Sumiko-san…"

"Sumiko!~" Yoko said from behind Izaya with her usual loud peppy voice, "My best friend~"

Izaya tensed when Yoko started talking, feeling there was something behind the perkiness in her voice.

Sumiko stared at the small blonde for a moment with furrowed eyes, before giving up, "I'm sorry, do I know you?"

Yoko came up to her, laughing rather fakely, "Oh, Sumiko~ Your so funny~" She said as she wrapped an arm around her neck. Everyone, including Shizuo gave her a weird look.

"Sorry guys, but Sumiko and I need to have some 'girl talk'," She said as she led Sumiko to the girl's bathroom. From the look on her face, Sumiko was obviously in an awkward position

Izaya new there was more to the meaning 'girl talk' but ignored it and really didn't care.

"So, what did you see in my phone?" Shizuo asked accusingly, capturing Izaya's attention.

Izaya smirked, "Just about everything," he said cheerfully, although internally he felt the exact opposite. Shinra gave him a look.

Shizuo tensed, showing anger in his features. Izaya pushed him further, "My favorite part was the 'to do list'," he said, playing a smirk on his face.

Shizuo eyes widened in surprise before clenching his fist in anger, face all flustered, "So you saw the thing about the…"

"Confession?" Izaya said with a smidge of bitterness in his voice, "Oh yeah, I saw that."

There was a silence that went over, to the point where you could hear Shizuo's deep breathing that he had when he was angered.

But when Shizuo lifted his head, Izaya's eyes widened. Izaya wanted a pissed reaction and really didn't expect him to seem so… hurt. Shizuo's brows were furrowed and his eyes almost looked sad. Izaya found himself wince at the sight once he could see it.

"Oh… Okay…" Shizuo mumbled as he rubbed his neck and looked at the ground.

Izaya was silent, just staring at the odd expression on Shizuo's face. Shinra coughed awkwardly at their silence and Shizuo and Izaya finally noticed he was still there.

Izaya tried hard to smirk, "So protozoan," He said slyly, "Why did you get here so late?"

Shizuo grunted, "Slept in," He said plainly.

"Aww is Shizu-chan not getting enough sleep?" Izaya said as if cared, "I see the bags under your eyes~" He chuckled.

Shizuo seemed abnormally annoyed with this statement, he 'tched', "At least I don't have a black eye." He snapped.

Izaya jumped slightly before narrowing his eyes in anger, "So?" He snapped back.

Shizuo shrugged, "Just think it's funny."

Izaya clenched his teeth, but he wasn't the one who spoke, "What's so funny about that!" Shinra said bitterly from behind, earning a jump from Izaya.

This made Shizuo's eyes widen. He stared at Shinra before furrowing his brows, "Defending the flea now, Shinra?"

Shinra clenched his fists, "Damn right I am! You have no right to say stuff like that to him! You have no idea what he's been through-" Shinra was cut off in his dramatic rant when a hand covered his mouth.

The hand belonged to Izaya, who rubbed his temples and sighed in annoyance, "You really don't know when to shut up, do you…?"

Shizuo furrowed his brows, "... what do you mean by..." Shizuo paused for a moment before looking over at Izaya, giving him a 'tell me the truth' look, "How did you get that bruise?"

Izaya eyes widened, before regaining his usual smirk, "Why do you care so much, Shizu-chan?~"

"Quit screwing with me and answer my damn question," Shizuo said with frustration in his voice.

Izaya smirk fell and eyes narrowed, "I get in a lot of fights."

"Yeah, you get in a lot of fights with me too. And yet, I never get a hit on you. How do you believe me to think someone else can get a blow on you?" Shizuo replied.

Izaya was taken off guard by this and for once he was at loss of words. Without anything to say, the next words just spilled out, "You don't know me… That's why you can't hit me…" He said with clenched fists.

Now it was Shizuo who was taken off guard, "…Huh?"

"Maybe if you knew what was going on in my head, what I felt, then you would be able to!" Izaya accidently yelled.

Shizuo's eyes widened and he took a step backwards at the sudden outburst. It took a while for the words to register in his mind, "…What you felt? ... What do you mean by-"

"I'm baaack~" A sing song voice was heard from afar, capturing all three of the Raira students attention. Yoko was skipping happily towards them. Izaya thanked her internally for being such an idiot and saving him from not spilling anything more.

Unfazed by the previous topic, Shizuo looked over at the girl, "Hey, where's Sumiko?"

She gave him a confused look, "Who?"

Shizuo didn't know if she was just playing stupid or if she actually was, "You know, my girlfriend."

Yoko smiled slyly, "I know no such person. Stop hallucinating you have a girlfriend, Shizuo~"

She walked around him with a shrug, Izaya glared at her and she giggled cheerfully. Shizuo glared at her too.

"Um, excuse me…" A small voice was heard, "Aren't you the boyfriend of Sumiko Ohayashi?"

Shizuo glanced at the shy looking girl, "Yeah. What of it?"

"Uhh… For some reason she's tied to a toilet in the girl's bathroom…"

There was a silence.

"Yoko…!" The blonde growled.

Yoko giggled before giving Izaya and Shinra a peace sign, "Point one for Yoko!~" She declared happily as she turned the opposite way.

"Later Bitches!~" She called out as she ran away; soon she wasn't able to be seen.

All of the teen boys stood there in an awkward air. Shizuo finally made the first move, "Jeez… That girl's almost as annoying as you, flea. I'm gunna go help Sumiko…" Shizuo said as he headed towards the bathroom, yawning as he did so.

Izaya and Shinra still stood there, staring at the place Sumiko just was.

"That girl is…" Izaya didn't know how to finish the sentence.

"A genius!" Shinra said in admiration as he hid his face in his hands, "Why didn't I think of that!"

Izaya glanced at him and chuckled lightly.

"Is Shizu-chan not eating with us?" Izaya asked as he sat down in the desk parallel to Shinra's and Kadota's with a bento box in his hand.

Kadota shrugged as he eyed his own food, "Guess not, he went up to the roof." He said before taking a large bite.

Izaya looked out the window, seeing the beautiful sky. He wondered why they weren't out on the roof either, "Well that's no fun… I wanted to annoy him," He said with a pout as he returned his attention back to Kadota.

"I wonder what's up with him… he keeps falling asleep in class," Shinra said with a mouth full of food.

Kadota rubbed his temples, "Swallow before you talk, idiot."

Shinra grinned idiotically, "Sorry." He said as more crumbs fell from his mouth.

Kadota sighed, "Ya well I think his sleeping patterns got a little screwed over the weekend and that's all…" Shinra nodded to this.

Izaya didn't pay much attention to the conversation as he watched his food that he was playing with. He was obviously thinking about Shizuo. You could tell in his eyes.

'Things to do:

-Confess'

He slammed his head against the desk and groaned. His heart ached at the memory.

Kadota and Shinra both turned their attention to him and then shared a glance, "Uh… Izaya? Are you alright?" Shinra asked.

"Dandy…" Izaya replied in a not so dandy tone as he lifted his head.

"You sure?" Kadota asked with a bit of concern, "You seem a bit out of it too today…"

Izaya sighed with a light smirk, "Yeah, I feel great… Just need some fresh air…" He said as he rose from his chair and started to walk away without saying good bye.

The other two shared another glance before watching their friend walk away. No one uttered a noise.

When Izaya got out of the class room he closed his eyes and sighed as he felt a pounding in his head and chest. He really did need some fresh air.

The next moment, Izaya was at the roof. He breathed in the air and much to his disappointment, didn't feel any better. In fact he felt worse.

He chuckled as his eyes started to water. The memory of the cell phone flooded his memories and would wash out.

"Why do I even care..?" He voiced as he buried his face in his eyes. He wiped a few tears as he sniffled. This was becoming more of a regular thing now. In fact, he was doing this every day. All because of the stupidest reason.

"Shizu-chan…"

"… Izaya…"

Izaya's eyes widened at the voice. The voice he knew way to well. Scared, he looked behind him and quickly sighed in relief.

Shizuo was sleeping. He seemed so calm as he mumbled in his sleep. Izaya instantly smiled at the sight, tears already drying.

"Izaya… I'm gunna kill you…" Shizuo said as he shifted positions. Izaya chuckled.

"Trying to kill me even in your sleep? You really do care about me…" His smiled lightly at him as he crouched down beside him. He looked at his face once more and got lost at the sight. He quickly shook his head and chuckled.

"Okay, Shizu-chan…" He said as he pocketed a sharpie. He took it out and uncapped it, "Let's have a little fun…"

He tried not to giggle as he drew a mustache on the blonde followed by unibrow and beard. He couldn't help but to laugh as he made an arrow to him mouth saying 'insert cock here'. For once Izaya was having fun and couldn't stop laughing as he held his stomach.

He wiped a tear from his laughing, "You always do know how to make me laugh, Shizu-chan…" His laughs died down.

For a moment he was quiet, just staring at Shizuo's peaceful face, "But then again, you always know how to make me cry too…"

Izaya clenched his fist before relaxing it and reaching for Shizuo's face, gently stroking his cheek. An overwhelming feeling came over him, whether it felt good or not, he couldn't tell.

"That's why…" He paused to stroke a blonde lock from his peaceful face.

"I love you…" He said with sadness in his voice trying hard not to let a tear fall.

Shizuo mumbled in his sleep as he shifted positions. At first it didn't scare Izaya. That is, until he felt warm arms wrap around his waist. Izaya was frozen when he realized the blonde cuddling up to him.

"Shizu-chan…" Izaya whispered with a deep red face, "… Get off, Shizu-chan…"

Shizuo just snuggled closer, mumbling unidentified words. Izaya had never been so flustered in his life. He buried his face in his hands, trying to relax his heartbeat.

But that's when he heard it.

"… I love you…" Shizuo mumbled, making Izaya's eyes widen in surprise.

There was no way Izaya could relax his heart beat or stop his blushing now. The world was spinning around him. At this point he was a vulnerable mess, wanting so badly to hug Shizuo back until he heard it again.

"I love you… Sumiko…" Shizuo breathed as he clung tighter to Izaya.

Izaya's once rapid heartbeat stopped. The once spinning world stopped and all hope was lost in the fire. He chuckled at himself for being so stupid. Of course he wasn't talking about him. Of course….

In the midst of his chuckling tears began to drip from his chin, landing on the cement and wetting it. Izaya hid his face in his hands again and hoped Shizuo wouldn't wake up to see him like this.

With that in mind the raven slithered from the blondes grasp and ran away, muffling each sob in his hands.

Why he was so hurt at something he already knew, he would never know.

"Know what pisses me off?" Yoko said beside Izaya as they walked down the halls after school. Izaya rubbed his temples in annoyance.

"What?" Izaya asked in a tone that showed he didn't care.

"She didn't even struggle when I tied her to the stall! In fact, when I as having a hard time tying the knot she helped me out."

Izaya rolled his eyes at her idiocy.

"I swear, once I get my hands on her…" She clenched her fists, anger showing in her expression.

Izaya chuckled as he looked at the ground, looking at his own shadow until a much larger one came and covered it up. Izaya could tell by the loud panting it was Shizuo. But now he wasn't in the mood.

He turned around with a forced smirk, "Why Shizu-chan… don't you look handsome~" He said slyly as he looked at the flustered drawn on face.

Shizuo grabbed him by the collar, "Bastard! You wrote in sharpie, and now I can't erase it!"

Ignoring his comment Izaya's smirk grew, "'insert cock here'? Dear Shizu-chan~ make sure your girlfriend doesn't see this~" he looked over to the side to see Sumiko was actually there, "Woops~ I guess she already di-"

"Kya!~ does it actually say that!~" Yoko squealed as she came up to Shizuo's face with drool hanging from her mouth.

Izaya pushed her face away, sighing in annoyance.

"You know how many teachers gave me an odd look today?" Shizuo said with narrowed eyes, pressing their noses together.

Izaya shrugged, "Don't really care."

"You piss me off…"

"The feeling's mutual…"

"Hey Shizuo," A low voice said from behind, catching their attention. It was Kadota, "The teacher wants to see you…"

Shizuo calmed down, loosening his hold on Izaya's collar before throwing him down on the floor, "I'll kill you later."

Izaya narrowed his eyes, "Can't wait."

Shizuo growled in annoyance before turning away, "See ya later Sumiko…"

The girl nodded and waved goodbye to Kadota and Shizuo. When she looked back at Izaya and Yoko, they were just staring at her. Actually Yoko's stare was more of a glare and the growls were a little odd…

An awkward silence was in the air.

After a moment of silent, Sumiko finally showed her attention to Yoko, eyes a little furrowed, "I'm sorry… What's your name again?"

"My name is Yoko Suzuki!" Yoko declared happily, "But you may call me your worst nightmare~" Izaya rolled his eyes at this.

Sumiko chuckled lightly, "Yep, you surely are scary. With your amazing rope tying skills and what not."

Yoko seemed genuinely offended before anger showed on her features, "I'm gunna kill you, I swear!" She said, trying to attack the girl. Luckily Izaya grabbed her small body with ease.

"Sorry about her she's a bit of an idiot…" Izaya said plainly.

"Let me go!" Yoko said, still struggling to get out Izaya's hold.

Izaya sighed, "Yoko, can you leave us alone for a moment?"

Yoko pouted before giving up, "Fine…"

Izaya dropped her and she walked away in a angered mood. Izaya and Sumiko stood there watching her before looking back at each other.

A long pause before Sumiko crossed her arms, "Know what I don't get?"

Izaya smirked, "What?"

"Why you hate me," Her face showed no expression, "What do you have against me?"

Izaya's smirk grew, "Well, well. The girl's smart." He glanced at her and she kept her expression the same. There was another silence, "But really Sumiko, I don't hate you. In fact I love you, just as I love all of my humans."

She raised an eyes brow, ready to talk. But before she said a word Izaya cut her off, "I just think you're stupid, that's all." His voice barely showed bitterness.

Both of her eyebrows were raised now, although her eyes showed no emotion, "Really now. And why is that?"

Izaya shrugged, "All I'm saying is, why would a girl like you, go out with a monster? It's unnatural you know…" He said in a slithery voice.

"As a little girl, I was never really afraid of what was in my closet or under my bed. I'm not now either…" She replied.

There was a glimmer in Izaya's eye, "So you agree, he's a monster."

"Of course" was her only reply.

Izaya was taken aback but never broke his smirk, "Some girlfriend you are…"

She didn't respond.

"So…. How did his confession go?" Izaya tried hard to hide the bitterness in his words.

The girl's eyes widened before she furrowed her brows, "How… how did you learn about that..?"

"I have my ways…"

Sumiko clenched her fists slightly, making Izaya smirk more at her discomfort.

"So what was it like getting a confession by a monster?~" Izaya said with a raised cheerful volume.

She was still quiet.

"What did you say back?" Izaya grinned deviously as he got closer to her, making the tense air worse.

Looking at the ground, she mumbled something awkwardly.

Izaya faced his ear towards her, "I'm sorry, what was that?~"

"I told him I didn't love him back…" She said with no expression as she looked at the ground, the once discomfort dissipated.

Izaya's eyes widened. It was quiet for what seemed like forever before Izaya started laughed chaotically, "My, my, Sumiko-san~" He said in between laughs, "How unexpected~"

The girl glared slightly at him, "You expected me to love him back?"

Izaya was a little anger, but he masked it with a smirk, "Why wouldn't you?"

"You said so yourself…" She explained, "He's a monster…" She shrugged.

Izaya eye's widened again. This time he didn't hide the anger in his eyes, "And you don't love him for that?"

She glanced at him, "How am I supposed to?"

Izaya clenched his teeth. Anger overwhelmed him. How could she be so stupid? Why couldn't she see what she had?

"So what if he's a monster!" Izaya half yelled at the girl, capturing her attention.

She seemed surprised with his sudden change of character, "What do you mean?"

"He may have an unnatural strength! He may be different from everyone else! But he gave his heart to you…" Izaya struggled for the next words, "He loved you… And that makes him more human than you'll ever be!"

The girl was taken aback, trying to find words to say back. But before she could, Izaya turned his back to her and already started walking away.

"I have to go… Your stupidity is giving me a migraine…"

And he left, not bothering to see her expression. Not bothering to look back…

Psyche stirred the pot of pink substance in front of him as he hummed away. Once in a while the batter would splatter all over him and he would giggle as he wiped it off.

He was making a cake for Tsugaru, his new best friend. Sure he still loved him, but that didn't mean they couldn't be friend. It was a one sided love that he could live with.

He stared at the substance in front of him with a pout, "Hey Alfred… Do you think Tsugaru likes the color pink?"

The horse lifted its head from out of the fridge with a carrot hanging from its mouth.

Psyche giggled, "You know, if Hibiya finds out you're out again he's gunna punish Delic again."

The horse didn't seem to care and went back to munching on the carrots. Psyche chuckled.

"Hey I've got a question…" Psyche said with a saddened smile, "Are Delic and Hibiya in love?"

There was no respond from the horse as he just continued chewing.

"I mean, I know Hibiya always says he hates Delic… But they do seem close…" Psyches eyes saddened.

He smiled at the horse that just ignored him, "Whatever they have, I guess I'm just jealous of it…"

"Do you always talk to horses?" A quiet voice was heard from afar.

Psyche instantly looked to see who it was. His fist's clenched when he saw it was Roppi.

"Do you always listen into people's conversations?" Psyche replied.

Roppi shrugged and sat on the stool across from Psyche, "… What are you making?"

"A cake… for Tsu-san…"

"… Cool…"

It was silent.

Psyche felt angered, ready to burst at any moment, but still kept his cool.

"Can I ask you something?"

Roppi smiled lightly at the boy, making him clench his teeth.

"… Took long enough…"

I'm a bizzy girl sorry if it takes a while for the next chappie... I LOVE U ALL!~