1 November, 1994

Okay. I can write now. I think.

At the feast, when Cedric's name was called, I was too stunned to even speak. The Hufflepuffs were going wild, and he was grinning like a fool. As he got up to leave to the champion room, he looked over at me, saw my expression, and his silly smile disappeared. He averted his eyes and walked briskly to the room with the other champions.

Then, out of the blue, Harry Potter's name came out of the Goblet, but I honestly couldn't care less about Potter. The most I could do was try to keep my breathing even and try to not let the tears in my eyes spill over.

"Daisy," Chelsea said, excited. "Isn't this—Daisy?" I gave my head a few small shakes, and she backed off. I breathed in and out.

Dumbledore told us all to go back to our houses, and then he disappeared to the champion room. I was swept away with the rest of the students and out of the Great Hall. But I didn't go to the Ravenclaw tower; instead I waited outside the Great Hall for Cedric.

He and Harry finally came out.

Cedric saw me. "Oh, I'll see you later, Harry," he said.

Harry looked at me, then back at Cedric. "Okay, see you later." Harry headed off to the Gryffindor tower, and I waited until I was sure he was out of earshot.

Oh, I still don't know if I'll be able to write about this. I don't really even remember what we had said. All I know is that I told Cedric that he had promised me that he wouldn't enter, how this was going to get him killed, and that I couldn't bear to lose him. I tried my best not to cry, but I couldn't help having a few tears slip out. Cedric had tried staying calm, saying that this was a new Triwizard Tournament and that they wouldn't let him die. He didn't think he would even be chosen, and I had told him not to enter two months ago, so how could he possibly remember? But the more we argued the harder it was for both of us to stay calm, and eventually he just lost it. I still remember those words.

"Look, Daisy, just shut up!" he had yelled. "It's my life, and I'll live it however I want to! Just—just leave me alone!" And with that, he walked away.

Tears were streaming out of my eyes. I wrapped my arms around my middle and sank against the wall. I was crying freely, letting the sobs rake through my body, not caring or knowing if anyone saw. A few times I wasn't even able to breathe, the sobbing was so bad. I clutched myself tighter, knowing that if I let go, I would surely fall apart.

After what must have been hours, I cried myself out and slowly made my way up to my dormitory. Chelsea and Marietta comforted me, but Cho took Cedric's side. I wish she didn't, that just made me feel even more horrible.

Chelsea and Marietta told me that this was just a little fight, it wouldn't matter in the long run, and that he's right: he'll be fine.

I wish I could believe them.

I still can't get over how he yelled at me. I don't know if I'll be able to face him tomorrow in class. I haven't left my dormitory at all today. I'm hungry, but I'll live. When the others are in here, I'm working on homework, and while they're out at meals or walking around or hanging out or whatever, I'm just sitting here writing, and holding my daisy against my heart.

~Later~

When I look out my window I see Cho and Cedric sitting outside on the bank of the lake, just talking. They've been there for hours.

I know that Cho's on his side, but she should know that I'm able to see her from here! This is just adding insult to injury. If they don't leave soon, I think I might hex them to make them go away…

Oh, what am I saying?! I'm such a horrible person—thinking about hexing my boyfriend and one of my best friends just because they're talking after a fight. What the hell's wrong with me?!

I need a nap. A really long nap. Maybe that will help clear my head a little.

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