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Leah grabbed me from my car and dragged me to the little coffee shop her mom owned, it was shut, no one was around but us and she sat me at one of the little tables in the back and ran to grab me water which I gulped down, gasping against the choking the sobs were causing. I had never felt this bad. I felt like I just wanted to curl up and die, I was empty and alone. My whole life was lies and I couldn't take it any more. I had wanted so badly to come back here but now I wanted to leave, I wanted to go to LA, it was easier there. I had no friends I had to lie to; I had no one care enough about me to ask the questions they were asking me here.

"What happened to you? Who did this?" Leah sat opposite me, her hand reached out and cupped my trembling ones as I continued to cry into the glass of water in front of me. I couldn't tell her. Devon would kill me if anyone found out, he would kill her. It was too dangerous. "Ally you have to tell me, did Devon do this to you?"

I shook my head, because in all honesty he hadn't done it. It was a question I could answer truthfully and she let out a slight sigh of relief before tensing up again. "Who did it?" I looked into my oldest friends eyes, hers were brimming with tears and her face was creased in panicked worry. I couldn't lie to her, not anymore I just couldn't.

"You c-c-ant tell B-brady p-p-please" I begged at her, my hand gripping hers harshly as I pleaded, he couldn't know. Her face fell, like she was unsure of whether to make the promise but she nodded, her eyes slipping shut as she did.

"Who did it?" She asked again, this time slower as if ensuring I heard each word.

"He will kill me if anyone finds out, he will kill me" Panic took over, I had never said the words out loud and they were struggling to come out now. I felt pathetic. Leah would look at me differently; she would think I was weak and a whore.

She shook her head at me defiantly. "No baby, I won't let anyone hurt you now you have to tell me who did this"

"They aren't nice men, they hurt people. I thought he was nice, I played into his games and he trapped me, he owns me, I can't leave" The sobs came again as I got the last word out, I was making no sense but she paled as if she understood me.

"What do they do? Its Devon isn't it? He did this" She growled, an animalistic growl that sent fear rolling through me, she was pissed.

"No, Danny hurt me, his brother. Devon is away. Danny did it" It was the truth but she didn't accept it, she shook her head at me like I was wrong.

"But Devon has done it too hasn't he" She stated rather than asked and all I could do was nod, he hadn't done it as bad but he had bruised me, he had hurt me before. "Son of a bitch, I am going to kill him" She flew from her seat and I mirrored her, clinging to her arms as I kept her in the shop.

"No, they hurt people Leah. He's not nice, he has all these men protecting him. He hurts people" I begged at her and she stopped, she didn't move to sit back down but she stood still looking down at me. Her eyes full of pity like I was a victim. I wasn't, I had played a part in his sick games just as much as he had, she shouldn't look at me like that, she should look at me like the monster I am.

"What does he do, I need to know everything Alianna" Her voice was firm and ordering, like she wouldn't leave until I told her.

"He runs a gang of sorts, drugs, guns, prostitutes, human trafficking. Everything, he's evil. He kills people, that's why we are here, he got involved with the wrong people, they killed his brother and his staff, we had to run so we came here" I stopped I was rushing the words out, like I was frantic to finish the conversation, she was getting angry at him, she was shaking so badly I thought she would explode. I had never said these words out loud; it felt wrong to say it.

"Bastard. I will kill him, he can't touch you anymore" The pity in her eyes peaked and I couldn't take it anymore.

"No don't look at me like that, I'm a horrible person Leah, I help him. I've helped him kill people before, I watch him do it and I say nothing, I have never tried to stop him. I'm weak, I just let him do it" I fell as the pain crumbled my legs, her grip on me held me up but I sobbed into her chest as she stood there holding me, she said nothing for a while, just let me cry but after a few minutes she sat me back on the chair and knelt in front of me.

"You have done nothing wrong. You couldn't do anything Alianna, but I will help you, if you tell the guys they will help" I cut her off, pushing her away from me, she couldn't.

"No, you cannot tell anyone, he's too dangerous. He will kill me if he finds out you know, he will kill you and your family, he will hurt Seth and Brady. No, no one knows except you. Leah please promise me please" The tears were streaming down my face again, the warmth of them burning against my shivering skin. She couldn't say anything, she had no idea what he was capable of. And Brady would hate me if he knew what I had been doing. He would think of me as a monster.

"You don't understand we can help we are stronger than he is, the guys" I shook my head at her again.

"Leah no, please promise me" Tear streamed down my face as I stared at her, her eyes closed and she let out a long sigh before nodding.

"I promise"

"I am so sorry, so sorry, all those people. I am so sorry" I couldn't hold it in any longer, I led my head down on the table and cried as Leah held on to me. It felt no better having told her, if anything it felt worse. The guilt I had tried to hide for so long rocketed down on me and I felt even weaker and even more pathetic than before. It hurt so bad to say it all out loud. How had I let my life become this?

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"Stop fidgeting, you look fine" Leah turned to me as we pulled up alongside the beach. I couldn't go home, we had driven past to see if Devon was home and he wasn't, just Danny. I would only go back when Devon was there because at least he protected me from other people. In a twisted way he at least watched my back. Leah had agreed to let me go back if he was there because I had promised her that he never did this to me, he was more of a verbal fighter with me. She still hadn't liked it but I had made her agree.

I got out of my car and looked at my reflection in the glass, Leah had fixed my face, my lip was cut but scabbing over and my cheek scratched but luckily the swelling had gone down and the bruise was only a shadow at the minute so make up kind of covered it. But I had no idea what to say about the lip if anyone asked. I had hoped no one would be here but as I looked down over the sand I could see Quil running around with Claire, Sam and Emily followed him and to my utter horror, Brady was walking close by. I had chosen the beach because I figured everyone would be at work.

"We can go somewhere else" Leah offered as she saw who I was looking at and I nodded. But as we turned to get back into the car Embry and Jared appeared, smiling at us in greeting. My heart sank. I was screwed.

"Hey girls, what's up?" Embry nodded over at us as he came closer, I dipped my head but Leah nudged me to raise it again, I was acting suspicious. Why were they always at the beach?

"Just came for a walk" Leah's answer was too quick and I noticed Jared narrow his eyes in question at her.

"We're heading up for cliff diving" Embry replied, he stopped next to me and I glanced up quickly to smile but I wasn't quick enough because he frowned. "What happened to you?" He was signalling at my lip and I bit it back into my mouth but it just hurt as my teeth grazed the closed over cut.

"She knocked it" Leah answered, again to quickly because Jared looked at her questioningly. Shit, I was so screwed.

"Oh, umm anyway, you coming?" Thankfully Embry didn't press it further and instead made a head movement down to the beach. I shook my head but Leah nodded and we both snapped to look at each other, eyes wide, what the hell had she nodded for? I couldn't go down there when I looked like this?

"So what is it?" Jared asked this time, he was even more suspicious now, we were being shifty.

"Uhh we could do for a little bit" I whispered, my voice was a little hoarse from all the crying I had done but no one commented. I just fell into a walk behind the two boys as Leah followed closely to me. "What are you doing?" I whisper shouted at her once the guys were far enough away from us. She shot them a look before turning back to me and whisper shouting back.

"You have to act normal, this is normal" She nudged me forward and I fell back into a reluctant march behind the guys. I didn't want to be normal. I wanted to go sit alone somewhere and cry more.

I kept my head low as we reached the others, only lifting it to smile at the people who said hello to me. Brady's eyes lingered on my lip for a moment before he lifted his hand to graze the scratch that ran across my cheek.

"I have a cat" It was the only thing that sprang to mind and for a second I thought Brady bought it, but then he shot me a don't lie to me look and I bowed my head again. "I fell" I tried again and this time he seemed to sort of buy it because he looked to Leah who shot him a glare back and he turned from me. Everyone began walking toward the path that led to the cliffs but I fell into a shuffle, I didn't want to go and I was hoping Leah would realise but she didn't, she just kept nudging me to keep going. I wasn't being normal, I was being the quiet suspicious girl with cuts and bruises on her face.

"Rachyyyyy" Claire squealed suddenly and my body froze, Rachy? Oh please no. I turned to look at where the little girl was screaming to and I felt like I wanted to cry all over again. Rachel, Paul and Seth were walking toward us, but I ignored Seth who smiled at me and my eyes darted straight to Rachel who was walking next to Paul, the little yapping dog following her as she made her way toward us. She stopped as she saw me and Paul went slightly awkward before shifting away from her like that would make a difference. I felt sick. Today was getting worse and worse. Leah pulled on my arm and I fell back into a walk with her, she was holding me up because she realised if she let me go I would crumble. That hurt more than it should.

Everyone had stopped near the path and sat down, they wanted food before they went cliff diving. I hovered, all I wanted to do was leave but it would be obvious if I just ran away. I tried not to look back at the couple who was closing in on us but I couldn't help it. They were right behind me, both of them staring at me like I was about to break down, I mean I felt like I was about to break down but I refused to do so in front of them. Paul drifted off toward Sam who was stood watching with interest while Rachel seemed to freeze, unsure of where to go. She offered me a small smile but I didn't return it. She was still with him. Today was a mess. Today was making me actually feel like I wanted to die.

This went on for a few minutes, I was trying to work myself to sit down but I just wanted to leave. Leah was hovering next to me, like she wanted to do something but was unsure of what to do. That's when things got worse. Rachel turned to the side and went to walk to Emily and my eyes went straight to her stomach. Her round swollen stomach. She was pregnant. My heart shattered, my legs felt like they would buckle any minute and Leah's hold on me became harder. She was pregnant, and with Paul. Even though he was nothing to do with me anymore I felt like my whole life was falling to pieces again, I was breaking. The pain that lapped at me was like it had when I found them together, except this was ten times worse.

"I uhh I need to go" I could feel the tears building up and my voice cracked as I whispered to Leah, she nodded and went to follow me but I shook my head at her and freed myself from her hold. "Alone" I whispered to her as I turned and made my way from the group of people who were trying to talk as if they hadn't noticed the awkwardness.

Rachel went to say something as I walked past her but I ignored it, instead keeping my head low I pushed myself further down the beach. I could hear footsteps in the sand behind me and I snuck a glance. Leah was following an anxious looking Paul toward me. He saw me look and sped up, his hands outstretched trying to catch me.

"Al stop" He called out and I did, for some reason I stopped and turned to look at him, we hadn't made it far from the group and they were sneaking glances at us as if trying not be intrusive, Brady was on edge, like he was ready to pounce. "What happened to your face?" Paul's own face dropped as he approached me, his hand reached out to graze my lip like Brady had with my cheek but I flinched from his touch and he quickly lowered his hand from me. I hadn't meant to flinch that much, it was a mixture of not wanting him to touch me and the way his huge hand had lifted toward me like he would hit me.

We stared in silence for a minute while Leah watched us closely. Paul suddenly let up a frustrated sigh before edging closer again to me. "Al, it's not what you think, with Rachel, we're not" Before he could finish the shout of my name erupted behind me followed by a growl from Leah. I turned to look and saw Devon walking toward me, Danny in his shadow. My stomach dropped. This wasn't good.

I turned back to Paul who was frowning at the guys heading toward us, Leah was in shaking mode again, her glare fixed directly on Danny. I looked back to Paul; I needed to keep him away from Devon. "Congratulations, you'll be a great dad" The bitterness was present and I couldn't even pretend to smile because I knew I looked ready to cry.

"Alianna I'm..." He started but again the shout of my name stopped him.

I nodded to Devon who stopped a short distance behind me and turned back to look at Leah who was vibrating with such force she was blurring ever so slightly. I shook my head at her, warning her not to do anything; I would be fine with Devon. "You don't have to explain yourself to me Paul, we have both moved on. I'll see you later Leah" I turned without waiting to hear Paul's mumbled reply and made my way toward Devon. I could hear growling behind me and knew it was Leah, I glanced back to see her stood in a ready to fight stance as she glared at the direction I walked to. I shook my head at her again and carried on, stopping when I felt Devon's hand grip mine.

"I have looked everywhere for you. Danny said you have been out all night. I have told you a million times you don't go ... What the hell happened to your face?" He started off shouting at me but turned to more of a confused yell as I looked up at him and he took in the cuts. I glanced at Danny behind him; he shook his head at me before raising an eyebrow as if daring me to say something.

"I fell" I lied and Danny set himself into a sly smirk while Devon let up an annoyed sigh.

"Was this during your night out?" He pulled harshly on me as he turned and set us into a quick walk back up the beach. I didn't reply, Danny had lied to get me in trouble, I had gone home last night because if I hadn't I wouldn't look like I did now.

As he pulled me harshly up the beach I glanced back, everyone was watching, Devon wasn't even hiding the fact he was dragging me, I was literally falling in his wake and I could make out the anger on Leah's face and the confusion on everyone else's. I couldn't bring myself to try to smile at them, or try making my walk a little more natural. I was numb and empty, I had no energy to fight him, I had nothing to fight for anymore.

GEEEE I swear ever ytime I end a chapter its depressive hahaa anyway.

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To reader – thatgirlmartina- who asked if Paul had imprinted on Rachel, no he imprinted on Alianna! Sorry if I confused you all hehe!

And to the reader who asked if he broke up with Rachel when he imprinted or whether he is with her, then you have to wait and see hehe the stuff with Rachel will become clearer as the story goes on. She is a part of it.. but I can't say any more than that hehe

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