I don't need to be anything other

Than a prison guard's son

I don't need to be anything other

Than a specialist's son

I don't have to be anyone other

Than the birth of two souls in one

Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't wanna be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately

All I have to do

Is think of me and I have peace of mind

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms

Wondering what I've gotta do

Or who I'm supposed to be

I don't wanna be anything other than me

~I Don't Wanna Be~ Gavin DeGraw

Disclaimer: I don't own anything Victorious

AN: This chapter has 3 different POVs. Just wanted to let you know so you don't get too confused.

Andre POV (Earlier)

It was before Beck and Cat came downstairs and I was talking to Cat's mom, Alyssa, in the kitchen. Adam and his wife were in the living room so I didn't have to worry about them overhearing what I was talking to Alyssa about.

"Cat was acting really weird at school today," I told her, "And she was dressed really weird too. I was keeping an eye on her all day. She didn't really do anything bad," I continued, "She just wasn't herself at all," I informed her, "Then a couple hours ago it was like a switch flipped and she was back to her normal, happy self. Is that what happens?"

"Yes. She was like that this morning too," Alyssa told me, "She was being sarcastic and mean. And she never dresses that way," she told me, "Was there anything that happened yesterday that could have triggered it?" she asked, "That could have made her switch personalities like that?"

"Well, there is this girl at school who was treating her pretty badly," I told her, "Even though she doesn't know about Cat having the two different personalities she knew that Cat didn't want to be called by her full name. Cat had to tell every teacher all day which didn't help at all," I continued, "And the girl, her name is Jade, she kept calling her Caterina just because she knew Cat didn't like it."

"And then Alex brought her home to Adam and Jessica and the baby," Alyssa sighed, "It was all just too much for Cat to handle so she switched over," she said quietly, "My poor baby," she looked like she was about to cry.

"Then today in our improv class she got into a little fight with Jade," I told Alyssa, "A verbal fight on Cat's part. Jade wasn't happy that Cat was hanging out with her ex-boyfriend, Beck," I informed her, "That's what the verbal fighting was about. Then Jade attacked her. She started pulling her hair and whatnot," I continued, "Cat didn't even defend herself. She just started screaming for help so Beck and I pulled Jade off of her."

"Cat, either way, wouldn't ever hurt anyone physically," she told me, "The only person she has ever hurt, while she was switched, was herself. That is when she tried to kill herself and was sent to Meadowbrook," she continued, "That is when we found out about the multiple personality disorder."

That is when we went into the living room. Adam and Jessica were sitting on the couch and Adam was feeding the baby. I held the baby for a little while wondering where Beck and Cat were. Why were they taking so long? Just a minute later they walked into the room. Beck was introduced to the family and then Cat rushed us out of the house so we could go out to eat.

Beck POV

Later that night, after Andre, Cat, and I, went out for dinner and I dropped them both off at home, I went back to my RV and changed into my pajamas before lying down in my bed. All I could think about was Cat and what I had heard Andre and Cat's mom talking about while I was sitting on the stairs waiting for Cat.

So Cat had two different identities? There was the beautiful, bubbly, sweet girl that I met a week ago. Then there was the, still beautiful, but sarcastic and verbally abusive girl that had been around me all day until somehow she switched back. Damn, this was giving me a major headache.

I walked to the couch on the other side of the RV where my laptop was sitting and brought it over to my bed. Turning it on I waited for it to load. Once the computer was loaded I opened the internet and looked up multiple personality disorder. As soon as I started reading the part about how and why individuals diagnosed with multiple personality disorder I started feeling sick.

"Individuals diagnosed with multiple personality disorder frequently report severe physical and sexual abuse as a child," I read out loud to myself, "Oh, God," I ran my hands down my face, "What happened to you Cat?" I sighed heavily. As I continued reading my phone started to ring. I looked at the caller ID. It was Andre, "What's up?" I answered.

"Nothing really," he told me, "I just talked to Cat though and she needs a ride to school tomorrow. I know it is way out of the way," he continued, "But do you think we could pick her up in the morning?" he asked.

"Yeah, of course," I told him, "I do need to talk to you about something though," I ran a hand through my hair as I paced back and forth.

"What do you need to talk about?" Andre asked, "You sound stressed out, man. What's going on?" he told me.

"What's going on with Cat?" I asked him straight up, "I heard you and her mom talking about Cat yesterday. I heard you talking about some place called Meadowbrook and Cat trying to kill herself," I continued, "And I heard you talking about multiple personality disorder," I told him, "I just want to know what is going on."

"Beck, that is something that I can't tell you," he said, "If you want to know about that you are going to have to talk to Cat," he told me, "I'm sorry, man. But it's not my place to say."

"Alright," I told him, "That's fair I guess. We have to leave earlier than normal tomorrow if we are picking Cat up so be ready," I informed him, "I'll pick you up at around seven o'clock," I told him, "But I think I'm gonna go to sleep now. I'll see you in the morning," I said before hanging up the phone.

I walked over to my bed and sat down. I thought about looking up this Meadowbrook place but I was too tired and I didn't need any more stress at the moment. Turning all the lights off I walked to my bed and lay down. I tried to sleep but all I could think about was Cat. I didn't get to sleep until after three o'clock in the morning.

When I woke up I could barely keep my eyes open. Getting dressed I walked over to my mini fridge and took out a bottle of water. Looking at the clock I saw that it was already six-thirty and I needed to pick Andre up by seven. I had no time to eat so I figured we could stop and get something on our way to school.

I had to keep the music turned up in my car to keep me from falling asleep. Once I reached Andre's house he was already ready and walked out the door. Andre saw how tired I was and insisted that he drive and I try to get some sleep. Andre drove to Cat's house and told me to wait in the car which I had no problem doing.

It took a couple of minutes before Andre and Cat came out of the house. Cat climbed into the back seat of the car and tapped her index finger on my forehead three times. I looked up to see her smiling down at me. Her big brown eyes looking into mine. Then she held something in front of my face.

"I love you!" I exclaimed sitting up in my seat looking at the cardboard cup in her hands, "You are an angel," I told her as she handed me the cup of coffee. I kissed her hand and she giggled lightly as I took a sip of my coffee.

"Well, Andre told me you didn't sleep well last night," she started, "And he said that you were practically asleep in here so I thought some coffee might help," she told me, "I don't think that is angel status. But I'll take it," she smiled at me.

"I see you have more unicorns," I looked at her black shirt that stopped just below her belly button. It had a heart in the middle and inside the heart was outdoor scenery with two unicorns facing each other. Their noses were touching and their horns were crossing. Around her neck was a pendant with a nighttime scene and a unicorn looking out at it. She had diamond studs in her ears and her bright red hair was straightened and fell down to her ribcage.

Andre parked my car where I usually parked. When we all got out I saw the rest of Cat's outfit. Her shorts were black and they had a cool design on them. It looked like something exploded in outer space. She was also wearing pink Converse All Star Fold Over shoes. The laces were black, as was the inside with black stars on them.

When we got into the school we went our separate ways to our lockers. Then Cat made her way over to Andre and me. She leaned on the locker between us and leaned her head back against the locker behind her.

"We should probably get to class," Andre pointed out looking over at the clock. It was five minutes to nine o'clock and we had a long walk to class. Well, I did anyway, "See you later Beck," Andre waved as he and Cat walked in the opposite direction as me.

My first two hours went by slowly. They were two of my favorite classes but I just wanted my 3rd hour to come around so I could see Cat. The last five minutes of my music class passed slower than ever. When the bell finally rang I bolted out of the classroom and to my locker to get my science book. I saw Cat at her locker and walked over to her.

"Hey there," I stood next to her locker making her jump, "Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you," I told her, "I just thought we could walk to class together," she nodded as she grabbed her book and shut her locker, "So, what do you think Ms. Gellar is going to say?" I asked her.

"What do you mean?" Cat looked up at me sounding genuinely confused, "What is she going to say about what?"

"About yesterday," I replied, "What you did," I continued trying to jog her memory a little bit, "When you got all pissed off and stormed out of class. And that was after you were being really rude to her," I said," Cat still looked confused and not there was a hint of sorrow in her eyes, "You really have no idea what I'm talking about do you?" she just hung her head shaking it in a negative manner. I put my arm around her shoulder, trying to comfort her, as we continued to walk.

"I don't wanna go in," Cat stopped moving just as we made it to our science class, "I'm scared," her eyes were glossed over with tears and she buried her face in my shoulder.

"It's gonna be okay," I told her, "If she was gonna do anything about it she would have done it yesterday. Right?" I looked down at her. She sighed and shrugged her shoulders.

We walked into the classroom and to our seats. Ms. Gellar wasn't in the room yet and Cat kept looking over at me with a worried expression on her face. Then, before Ms. Gellar even came into the classroom, Lane poked his head in the door.

"Cat," he looked over to where Cat was sitting, "I need you to come with me," he told her," she looked scared, "Bring your stuff with you," Cat took her books off the table and walked down the aisle between the chairs. She gave me one last glance before walking out the door.

Cat POV

"Lane, what is this about?" I asked as I followed him down the hallway to his office. He didn't answer me and just kept walking. As we passed the main entrance to the school I saw my mom walk in. She must have been called in from work because she was wearing work clothes. She had on a pair of black dress pants and a white V-neck, draped top. She wore black suede pumps and black hoop earrings, "Lane, why is my mom here? What is going on?"

"Cat, sweetie," Mom ran over to me, "What's going on?" she repeated my question, "Is everything okay?" she held my face in her hands looking for anything that might be wrong. Then she me up and down

"I have no idea what is going on," I told her, "Lane just took me out of class and told me we had to go to his office," I explained, "So that is where we are headed right now," Mom started walking with us and we soon made it to Lane's office.

When Lane opened the door there were already two people sitting on the couch. One of them I recognized as Beck's ex-girlfriend, Jade. The other one was an older woman who I took to be Jade's mother. Why would they be here?

"Ms. Valentine," Lane started, "This is Jade West and her mother," the two women greeted each other, "I am sure you are wondering why you have been called here, Cat," Lane said and I nodded as did my mother, "Well, as I am sure you remember there was an altercation between you and Jade yesterday afternoon in Mr. Sikowitz's class," I looked at him confused and then I looked at Jade who was smirking and evil smirk.

"Jade has told me that you verbally attacked her and then you pushed her and she defended herself," he explained to me. I didn't remember any of that happening, "Does that sound about right to you?" he asked, "Or do you have a different story?" I looked at my mom expecting her to look angry or disappointed but she didn't. She just looked concerned.

There was no way I could defend myself because I had no idea what was going on or what happened. When I didn't answer Lane spoke up again, "Well, when Principal Eikner and I found out about this altercation we decided that the only fair thing to do was suspend you for five days," looking over at Jade I saw a sly smile cross her face, "The both of you," the smile on Jade's face fell so quickly it was comical.

"What?" Jade shouted, "Why am I being suspended?" she asked, "She is the one who attacked me!" she stood up enraged.

"Stop shouting Jadey," her mother said from beside my mother, "And stop shouting. You need to have respect for your authority figures," she told Jade.

"What do you two think about this punishment?" Lane asked our mothers. My mom looked at me and shook her head so only I could see. She was telling me that she didn't agree with this at all.

"If that is what you think is best," Jade's mother told Lane. Jade was about to say something when her mom held her hand up, "Jade don't. You got yourself into trouble and there are consequences for your actions," she told Jade.

"Yes," my mom looked at Lane as she took my hand, "Do what you think is best," she told him, "Is this effective immediately?" she asked, "Or do they stay for the rest of the day and the suspension starts tomorrow?

"Unfortunately, because it's so early in the day," he started, "And the …unconventional ways of Mr. Sikowitz's teaching and him being late to class most of the time the suspension will be effective immediately," he told us.

"And how will the school work situation be handled?" Mom asked him.

"We will get all of their homework together and have someone pick it up for them," he told her, "Or if there is someone in the school who can bring it to them I can get the work to them and they can get it to you."

"Okay, are we done here?" Jade asked from the other side of the couch. She was slouched back into the couch with her arms crossed over her chest, "I just want to go home," she told Lane. Lane just nodded and gestured toward the door. I was about to get up when Mom grabbed my hand again and kept me on the couch.

"Excuse me, Lane," my mother moved toward the middle of the couch, "Cat was not herself yesterday," she explained to him, "You know about her DID I'm sure and she had her other identity had taken over," this was obviously new information to me and my eyes grew wide and scared, "I support your decision to suspend her but I am just telling you that she should not be held accountable for her actions yesterday," she told Lane.

"She was acting odd yesterday during our counseling session," Lane informed her. And myself.

"There is another thing that I need to tell you," Mom said and Lane nodded his head, "Last night Andre Harris, a very good friend of the family, was over and he re-counted the same altercation that you heard about," she informed him, "He told me that Jade and Cat got into a verbal altercation, like you said, but Jade was the one who attacked Cat. That is something that I believe. Because whether or not Cat is herself or not she would never physically hurt someone," Mom explained, "I know she has probably emotionally hurt some people. I know for a fact that she has emotionally hurt her brothers. But the only person she has ever physically harmed is herself. She would never hurt another person. So all of that crap Jade is pedaling about Cat attacking her cannot be true."

After Mom explained everything to Lane we left. My mom dropped me off at home and then had to go back to work. I was at home by myself and had nothing to do. I went into my bedroom to get Javier and then just sat in the game room trying to figure out something to do. Alex wasn't home and Adam had gone home early this morning. So, I played Guitar Hero for I don't even know how long. But after a while of playing the doorbell rang and I walked downstairs to answer it.

Looking out the window I saw Beck's car in the driveway meaning that he and Andre were here. I opened the door and let the two of them in. They both looked at me with confused looks on their faces. They were expecting me to say something but I really didn't want to talk about it. My whole day yesterday was blank yesterday because Caterina took over and I had to be punished for it. Great.

"What the hell is going on?" Beck asked walking further into the house. Andre was already in the kitchen trying to find something to eat, "One minute I am sitting next to you in science class and then you just disappear for the rest of the day. What is up with that?"

"Yeah, I'm not going to be in school for the next five days," I informed him just as Andre walked back toward us, "My whole day yesterday, before like three o'clock is completely blank," I told them as I started walking up the stairs and back to the game room, "Lane took me to his office. Oh, and called my mom. Jade and her mom were in there too," I sat down on the couch where I had left the guitar I had been using for the game, "Apparently, I attacked Jade yesterday so I am suspended for the next five days. Jade is too."

"That's not right," Andre flopped down on one of the bean bags on the floor while Beck sat beside me on the couch, "Jade attacked you. You weren't even you yesterday," Andre continued, "Your other identity took over yesterday…and oh shit," he said looking beside me at Beck. I think we were both so pissed off that I had gotten suspended for something that I couldn't control that we had forgotten that Beck was in the room.

"It's okay," Beck pulled me into his side, "I already know about the multiple personalities," he told us, "I heard Andre talking to your mom about it. I know some other things too but you probably don't want to talk about it right now and I really don't want to either," he took my hand and laced our fingers together.

"That is why you were sitting on the stairs last night," I stated and I could feel him nod against my shoulder, "That is why you were acting so weird and cryptic," again he nodded, "And you were calling me Angel Face," I smiled, "Have you come up with a better name yet?" I asked.

"I'm still partial to Angel Face," he started, "So no, I have not figured anything out yet," he told me, "I will let you know when I do," he yawned. I looked over at Andre to see that he was asleep in the beanbag. He looked pretty comfortable.

"Okay," I yawned too, "That sounds good," I tilted my head to look up at Beck. Beck had his eyes closed but I couldn't tell if he was sleeping. I hugged Javier close to my chest and closed my eyes feeling Beck's grip tighten around my waist his warm hand resting on my hip.

I felt his lips press against the back of my head. They lingered for a moment before pulling away, "Get some sleep Angel Face," he told me. He just wouldn't give up on that would he? I guess it wasn't too bad. I giggled causing him to chuckle and make my whole body vibrate, "Sleep now," he kissed the back of my head again before I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

Chapter 10! Once again I hope this didn't confuse you. I hope you like this chapter! Beck is starting to find out some of Cat's secrets. Hopefully he will be able to help her out with them. Maybe? And of course Jade is causing more problems. Please REVIEW!

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