my sincere apologies for the wait! Hope it was worth it :)
Bellamy seemed to notice he had hurt but he couldn't quite understand why, he wasn't one to assume he liked certainty so he wasn't going to assume until Clarke confirmed anything.
"Clarke" He said as he finally caught with her somewhere in the middle of the trees, a few minutes walk from the camp.
Clarke gaped for a moment, but finally turned to face him fighting her tears. "Yeah?"
"Look what you saw down there, isn't what it might have seemed." He turns his back to her, so that he doesn't witness her reaction, one he doesn't want to see, one that will break him.
"I am not sure why you're telling me this?" She says with all her gut and soul, because she knows damn well she wants to hear it but she cannot show him that, she has been hurt already she can't let that happen again.
"let me finish, Please I can't handle more than one person misunderstanding me at once" He turned back, pushing aside the feeling he feared a few seconds back.
Clarke stayed silent and Bellamy knew how to read her, "Nicole and I, we're just friends. And I was just telling her that when you walked in on us." Clarke raised an eyebrow and Bellamy knew she was referring to the kiss. "She was kissing me goodbye" he finally said, he didn't want to justify anything to Clarke, but somehow he had.
"I still don't understand why you're justifying yourself to me?" She hesitates saying but does it anyway.
"You know what Clarke, I've told you what I wanted to the rest is not my concern." and without another word he leaves her in the forest by herself.
Clarke cannot sleep, struggling to close her eyes. She decides to get some air, walking outside of the door ship she notices a body still sitting close to the bonfire, she wonders who it can be its past midnight. She slowly makes her way to the fire, the closer she gets she figures out who is sitting there, soon enough she sits besides Octavia. "you can't sleep either?" she presses her mouth to a slight smile. Octavia shakes her head.
"I know you're worried for Lincoln, he can take care of himself."
"I know." is all she gets out of Octavia, she is still looking at the fire.
"Then you must also know that Bellamy will come around too." She reassures, and to her shock she gets Octavia's attention.
Looking to her eyes, Octavia opens her mouth, "And what about you?"
"what about me?" Clarke asks with confusion.
"I am tired of you two acting like children, and I might be a child but I see everything." She looks away again. "He's spent all his life protecting me, he deserves happiness." tears begin to fall on her cheeks.
"hey, hey!" Clarke holds her head onto her shoulders, "He is fine, I promise."
"Please Clarke" She wipes of her tears with her sleeves. "don't fight this, if something is not meant for you, time will tell but if you fight time itself than you're only fooling yourself."
"wow, Octavia Blake lectures" she teases and they both break into laughter.
Octavia then stands on her two feet, "It's not because I'm his sister, its because I am your friend." She bends down to kiss Clarke in the forehead, "Goodnight."
The pain was searing ans constant, unlike anything he'd ever felt before. It was much worse than the time he he'd fallen down a flight of stairs during a fight with the guards that took Octavia from him and his mother. "Screw this." Bellamy grumbled to himself, kicking a clump of dirt into the air. He couldn't stop thinking and somehow his wounds were hurting more when he thought of her.
"Bellamy!" He heard Clarke's voice as if from a long distance, he than turned back to find her walking towards him.
"how did you find me?" He asked when she got close.
"Well, I remember how much you like water" She replies sarcastically.
Bellamy didn't even have the strength to be angry anymore, so he didn't bother saying anything to her. However she surprised him by sitting ride beside him, so close that their shoulder were almost touching. But he didn't move, nor look at her. He was watching her with the corner of his eyes, and she was busying taking her shoes off. Soon enough she had both of them off, and slowly put her feet into the water like Bellamy had.
"what you think you're doing?" he finally says.
"what does it look like I am doing?" She asks back but he doesn't reply. Taking a deep, and noticeably shaky breathe, Clarke continued. "I am sorry." Bellamy finally looks at her, in shock his eyes wide. She was apologizing? "I am sorry that I unnecessarily fought with you, I am sorry about the supplies we lost, and misunderstanding you, I am sorry for Octavia. I am sorry for all of it Bellamy! I don't wanna fight anymore".
"Thank you" Bellamy finally says. thank you? for what for being sorry? "Thank you for saving my life, and taking care of everyone and Octavia at the same time."
"Ok. well, now that we got all that sorted out, I just wanted too.." she paused.
"you wanted to?" He asked intrigued.
"Me and Finn are not together, he was just angry at what had happened between him and raven."
and she wasn't surprised to hear "I don't know why you're justifying yourself to me." Speech from Bellamy, in fact she chuckled which made him bring into a stubble smile. "what?" he asked smiling at her idiotically unreasonable laughter. but somehow he couldn't stop staring at her, how can someone be so strong, broken and beautiful at the same time. His thoughts were consuming him again, but then she did something extraordinarily peculiar, she placed a hand on his face. His face jerked beneath it from her touch, which makes Clarke lick her lips nervously, unsure. But she finds her defenses falling to pieces under Bellamy's heated stare and soon enough she was kissing him; Clarke freakin' Griffin was kissing him on her own accord, he didn't have to make the first move. Her kiss had nearly sucked all the air from his lungs; it was the most intense but real thing he's felt since holding Octavia in his arms for the first time.