Here is chapter 10, I hope you all enjoy! :)

"Heal Me"

"Chapter 10"

Matt's P.O.V

The clock on the wall seemed to tick by so slowly as I watched the hour go bye. Sighing heavily I took a hit off my cigarette It was 2pm in the afternoon and I was hung over from the previous night and had decided on recovering from it by drinking more and smoking until my lungs didn't want to work. My mind had gotten the best of me and I had called the hospital. Tai was in ICU, they had managed to save him. What joy at this moment did that bring me? I honestly didn't want him dead, just out of my life completely, somehow. Was that too much to ask? Sighing I slid down in my chair and laid my head back. I closed my eyes and then Sora's tear stricken face flooded my mind. I opened my eyes up just as quickly as I closed them, it hurt too bad to think of her that way. A slight knock came to the door and then it opened. Curious I sat up and turned to face the kitchen only to see my mother walking in. My stomach dropped and I knew my mouth was open "holy Shit!" I turned to see the evidence of my drunken binge on the table. I tossed my cigarette in the ash tray. Nowhere to hide the rest, I quickly jumped up and over the couch and met her in the kitchen and decided it best to keep my distance cause I probably reeked of immature actions.

"Hey Mom, what brings you here?"

"I'm here to pick you up; didn't your father tell you I was coming? I told him I would be here a little after 2pm. honestly that man." I watched as my mom shook her head.

"No, Dad didn't tell me" I laughed "What a surprise!" I put my hand behind my head and tried to look really happy. Wait till I see him, he's dead. The bastards probably at work laughing this minute knowing I'll get my ass chewed out. I looked at my mom, "Why are you here to get me?"

My mom froze and looked around the apartment. She shook her head as she looked at our garbage over flowing and sink full of dishes. "I need help at my place. Besides we need some time together, I hardly see you anymore Yamato. So go clean up, I'll wait for you. "

I raised my eyebrow in question and replied "ok?"

"Just go" I had learned never to argue with her so I hurried off and gathered my things and headed into the bathroom. After a few minutes I stepped into the shower and let the water run down my body. Being in here flooded me of memories involving Sora. One memory decided to stay persistent in my mind.

Flashback

I put my arms around Sora's waste and held her tight for a minute as I kissed her neck. Then I helped pull her clothes off and sat here in the shower. She just laughed and splashed water into my face. I joined in laughing. She had paint all over her face and hair. We had decided to paint our room. I'm pretty sure more paint ended up on us than our wall. I slid and pulled all of my clothes off and stepped into the shower to join her. She stood there smiling at me. I cupped her face with my hands and pulled her closer to me. "You're beautiful Sor, I love you" after I placed a gentle kiss on her lips. She looked up at me eyes sparkling. "I love you too. Now how about I help wash paint out of that hair of yours, Green isn't your color baby" Sora laughed as she dumped shampoo on my head and wrestled it about. I picked her up and leaned her against the wall of my shower. "There's a fee for that" Sora raised her eyebrows "Oh yeah what?" "I get to make out with you and then wash the paint out of your hair." She giggled some more and then replied "Deal" Before I knew it her lips where all over mine and her hands where intertwined into my soapy hair.

End Flash back.

I laid my head and arm against the shower wall and cussed underneath my breath. "Damn it all" God I hated feeling like this. I felt like everything was a constant reminder of her and that damn beautiful smile. I stood for a moment longer before I decided to wash the remains of my drunken night away. Moments later I got out and wrapped a towel around my waste. I looked into the mirror. I wondered why my mom even acknowledges me. Whatever her reason I quickly dressed. I walked out into the kitchen I was instantly speechless. My mom had done a home makeover on the place. She was standing at the sink wiping down the last few dishes.

"Oh you're ready. Let's go then"

I walked up to her and pulled her into a huge hug. "Mom, you didn't have to do this. Thank you." I kissed the top of her head. "I Love you Mom"

My mom patted my back and then looked at me. "Well, I know your father works a lot and you're going through a hard time right now yourself and I love you too honey. If I didn't I would have broken those beer bottles over your head and crammed those cigarettes up your ass."

"Well, thanks for not doing that. I've had my fair share of hospital visits to last."

A few minutes later I grabbed my wallet and keys and followed my mom out to her car. I slid my black shades on for the ride. It was a rather bright day out. As we approached my mom's car I looked over to her "Mom, did I ever tell you how much I love your car?" My mom laughed at me. "Just get in." I'm pretty sure I was sitting in the coolest mom car of Japan. Not many of them drove what my mom did. She had a costume jet black Jaguar. A half hour later I found myself in the middle of babies R'us or at least that's what it felt like. "What is all of this?"

My mom laughed and pointed to the living room of baby gear. "This is what happens when a baby comes early and the family doesn't have time to finish the nursery. "

I placed a hand on the back of my head and replied. "I guess so" After doing so I realized how badly my head was hurting though I knew I had to swallow my pride and ask my mom for Tylenol. "Do you have anything for a headache?"

She turned to face me and gave me that look that all moms do. "I should let you suffer from your hangover Yamato. You know how I feel about that but I won't because I really need you today, so in the kitchen right hand side on the counter."

I couldn't help but feel a little weird here. I never really came here. Honestly I felt guilty. My mom worked so hard, she was a vice president now at the news station and had just recently moved into this new apartment with 4 bedrooms, giving Kari and T.k a room and now baby Conner had one of those rooms as his nursery. Leaving what should have been the guest bedroom as my mom's office. She always gave so much for us. Her and T.k's life style was so different from my dad and I's. My mom yelling for me brought me back to reality though.

"So how did you manage to get off of work early today?" I said as I came back into the living room.

"I explained what happened. I have half the day off today and then when Conner comes home I'll have a week off to help T.k and Kari out. Things won't be easy." I watched as my mom rubbed her temples and sighed for a moment.

"You ok?"

"Yeah, it's just hard watching all of this. Kari has no help from her own mother, her dad can only help so much and I work a ton now. And then there's you, your dad told me what happened with Sora."

I turned from my mom and looked out the window. "I can't talk about her. What can I help put together?"

"How about we try to put some of your life together first. We have T.k on track now it's your turn"

I looked at my mom and took a deep breath. "They offered me a record label. I just haven't told anyone yet." I sat on the edge of my mom's couch and watched her expression change.

"Honey, that's wonderful! Why haven't you told any of us?"

"I don't know. I've been so preoccupied with everything; I haven't really focused on it."

"What do they want you to do?"

"It would start off with making a CD. And if things picked up like they thought, I would go on tour."

"Isn't that what you've worked for?"

"Of course it is, I just didn't expect to be losing a person in the process."

"Matt, I'm pretty sure you didn't lose Sora from music, I'm sure that happened from something else."

"I meant me Mom. I've changed since I started being with her. I've, I don't know what it is but something feels different."

My mom walked over and sat next to me. Placing her hand on my shoulder she spoke. "Matt, you've grown. Being a musician has always been in you, it's a second nature but that was when your heart wasn't preoccupied with something else. Taking this record label would mean letting go of your life here and maybe losing her because you think she isn't the type to handle all of the stress that comes with fame but then again she could be what grounds you Yamato. What you need. You defiantly need some grounding son.

"What do I do?" I started fiddling with one of the baby's toys as I waited for her reply.

"Matt, I think time will bring your answer best. It's just, this chance doesn't happen to everyone. You've worked extremely hard for this. But at the same time I've never seen you care about or love someone like you love her. In the end, I want you happy."

I replayed my mom's words before asking my next question. "Mom, how do I forgive her? I feel completely shattered."

"Yamato, sometimes forgiveness seems impossible. Time heals us and I think so much has happened in this past year that you haven't had the time to even process the most of it but deep down I think you've already forgiven her. You were just so heated from the incident that you took it out on her more than was needed. Don't lose her the way I lost your father. I never forgave him and it tore our family apart completely."

Time seized to exist as I sat there with my mom. We talked for hours. Everything poured out of me, things I knew I couldn't share with my dad or T.k. Eventually we started working on the nursery, we put the crib together, painted the walls and I even folded clothes and put them away. The whole time my mom and I talked. I told her how proud I was of T.k, how much I did love Sora and what I really wanted from my life. It involved music and Sora. I was determined to have both and somewhere in the conversations we had. I realized how much I missed talking with my mom and how much I needed her. It was midnight before we stopped, but everything was done and I felt like a better person. I guess my mom still acknowledge me because she never gave up on me, which was a good thing to know.

As we sat on the couch drinking tea I just blurted it out. "Can you take me to Sora's; I need to speak with her."

I was really hoping my mom wouldn't think I was crazy, but she sat her cup down and stood up. Smiling she spoke. "Remember to say exactly how you feel" She paused for a moment and then spoke while pointing at me "Stay calm." The 15 minutes it took to get to Sora's house felt like an eternity to me. As we pulled up I was a bucket of nerves. "Thanks mom" "No problem, need me to wait for you?" "Nah, no matter what happens walking home will do me good and homes only a few minutes from here. Good night Mom, I'll call you tomorrow." "You better"

Knee's shaking and heart pounding I walked up to her door and knocked. I waited a few moments and as I raised my hand to knock again the door opened and there standing in front of me was Sora. "Matt?" Sora stepped out on the porch and closed her door.

"Yeah, it's me. Look I'm sorry"

She just looked at me like I was a dream. She wrapped her arms around herself shivering. I quickly pulled my hoodie off and wrapped it around her. "Here' I stepped back. Thinking of how our last meeting was. I knew she was probably still a bit angry with me. Hell I would be too. But then the words she spoke I couldn't believe she thought they were true. She looked at my face and focused on my eyes "Matt, I thought you hated me."

I didn't know how else to respond so I just went with it. I grabbed her into my arms and kissed her.