Tuesday

I'm still piss at Cath but I'm also worried she won't let me go and I wander what she's up to. Today in class I wasn't able to stop looking at her. Sometime she was also looking at me with a strange expression but she never come to me today. Now everyone think that we are together even Greg won't believe me when I tell it's not true. I'm not really mad now Cath had lost some of her friends and that make my worry about her. If why imagine that she did that to be friend with me why can I be friend with her. Because I just, I just don't want to lose her ever again.

Wednesday

-Are you going with her? (I agreed finally to talk with Greg again and here again he's talking to me about Cath)

-Where and with who?

-The party Friday and your girlfriend.

-I'm not going.

-Why?

-Why should I go anyway.

-Hum, hi Sara can I have a word with you please. ( Oh my god not today, you see some year ago when I was young I gave course to help other student. There I mate Gil Grissom. At first I found him cute because he doesn't know how to act around people but soon I was over it. He is one year older than my put still giving course to help people but also is grade in college. Anyway I pass time with him to study but it's nothing more than that and sometime I think that he have a crush on me and it's why I prefer to not talk with him. I mean everybody knows about my sexuality and now everyone thinks that I'm seeing Cath so.)

-Sure you can, what's the problem Gil?

-No problem. You... It's just .... That.. You see. Friday. Do you want to come with me at the party Friday?

Oh oh! Sweet guy but the key word guy. Sweet and dumb guy I'm mean I'm out, lesbian, Cath lover( I wish). How can I say that to him without make him suffer?

-Gil, has you here about Catherine Flynn?

-That she's lesbian, yes it's a rumour.

AH!!!

-Have you here the rumour about me?

-Humm.... let me think... Some people say that you are going out with Catherine.

-Yes, If I'm going out with Cath that mean....

-oh oh... I see but I don't have problem with that Cath can also come with us Friday.

What the fuck, what's a !!!!!

-Gil, If Catherine is a lesbian and that I'm going out with her that mean that we are together, like together

-I already told you that....

-WE ARE LESBIANS, I'M GAY' SHE'S GAY WE ARE GAY TOGETHER!!

Fuck, first I hurt him because of what I'm but I can't do something about that but what's the worse is the fact that I yell all this and now everybody is looking at us. Now , I don't like being the center of attention but I just confirm the stupid rumour. Argh!!! I want to kill myself , but I'm too angry now so I'm going to the washroom.

Oh my god, Oh my god what have I done. I can believe me, Oh my god, Cath gonna kill me. Okay, relax, relax, breath. Think of something. What I'm gonna say to her?

It's not my fault, It's Gil I was too stupid to see that I don't like him and that I'm a woman you love woman that it. It's his fault. Now, that I'm more relax I hear a strange noise from the stall behind me, it's like someone is sick.

-Are you okay?

-Sara?!

-Cath? Are you sick? Can you open the door?

Oh my god, this Cath. Now, I stress. I hope she's okay. Then she come out, she's pale and but look relatively correct.

-Are you sick? Can I get you something? To you want me to go get someone?

-No, I'm okay, I don't know what I have but it's been to morning now.

-Maybe you have got something, are you sure you are okay, maybe you should sit for some time?!

-Good Idea, you look a little bit strange are you okay?

-Me?!!! Yes, everything is fine, perfect a beautiful day?

-Sara, you know that I know that you're lying, right?

-Okay, but it's not my fault it was him.....I was with Greg and then Gil came to ask me to go with him Friday. So you see for some time now I thought that Gil has a crush on me. But I'm lesbian and everyone know that, but not him, he is to into himself to see what other people do. He is into his book and...

-Sara?!

-Iaccidentlytoldhimthatwearetogetherandeveryoneheartsit.

-You what?

-I accidently told him that we are together and everyone hearts it.

-And how can you do that?

-I told you he wasn't listen to me, I was trying to says to him gently that I like girl but I would understood so I lose my nerve and yell at him that we were lesbian and together so he would stop to come after me and ask me to go to party.

-Okay.

-You are not mad at me?

-No, but you should come eat at my house before.

-What? Before what?

-The party, Friday, you should come meat my mom and dad before taking me out.

My mind is a winter picture, white, nothing. Before I can say something she leaves. Okay, so now if I understand I'm going to the party with Cath, she act like it's a date, everyone think that we are together and I have to meet her family. I should have stay in my bed this morning.