What Was On the Chip

PG13

Sorry I couldn't resist and if have you jerk comments to say don't waste your time!

To all the fans out there, I was listening to Alison Krauss's Baby Mine while writing this, and I couldn't stop crying….

"Ready?" Kirk whispered, he was so torn apart he had no more energy to cry. Spock gently put a hand on his shoulder as they sat together rubbing his back.

"Jim wake up…" Bones pulled the blankets of him and grinned.

"Come on, get up!" he shook his best friend hard, and pushed him off the mattress, which he was barely on.

"Kirk, you're so in for it…" the camera turned to Pike, the Captain smiled and just shook his head.

"OK, fine… I'll just let Spock be Captain today when we go on the mission-" Kirk jumped up and looked shocked. Pike tried to stop laughing and failed.

"IM UP IM UP!" Bones grinned and just started laughing long with Pike. The scene then changed and both Kirk and Spock had difficulty keeping it together.

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"Jim I want you to know that the main thing about being on the ship has nothing to do with what you accomplish if it has nothing to do with the mission statement then its unimportant, and I want you to know the real meaning of Star Fleet is keeping peace within the galaxy, and If that is accomplished you have a successful mission. You are the best Jimmy, and I love you." Jim put his head down, hands covering his face to conceal the ocean of tears. Spock wrapped his arms around his Captain, his best friend.

The following scene didn't help. It was the night Jim and the crew had gotten home, and Pike was sitting in his chair singing their lullaby, Jim's arms around his center. Pike was stroking his face gently, all the way up to his blond hair. Bones must have filmed that one for him, and never said anything. Pike gave him a kiss on the side of the head and the camera faded.

"Jim…" Spock said hoarsely, Jim was asleep on his shoulder from listening to the lullaby, in reality for the last time. he didn't see Bones standing on the other side of the bed.

"Shhhh," he slipped into bed on the other side, and cradled their friend in his arms. He took out a chip, and turned it on. Pike's soft voice came out singing their lullaby. Spock leaned over and gently induced a light meld. Pike's voice seemed to sooth all three of them. They had all loved him, and respected him. He had let Bones and Jimmy run amok on a ship Jim wasn't supposed to be on, he made Spock Acting Captain, and promoted a wayward, reckless God son to First Officer. Yes, he loved all of them deeply.

"I will retrieve him pajamas," Spock said in a breathy whisper. Bones nodded, giving Jim a kiss on the head. He put in another chip. The screen flashed to Sam cuddling with Pike, and George holding the camera. Winona was very pregnant, and Sam and Chris both patted the large form, and grinned. Bones had to hold in the silent sobs, with Jim asleep on his shoulder.

Jim slipped in and out of sleep in the days on the ship. He put Pike's pin on every morning and locked it away every night. Every night he whispered a good night to his Dad and Godfather. On those lonely nights he could almost feel Pike in his grip, those strong loving arms, all secure; how he missed that. Even when the villain was captured, he didn't feel any better at all. The only distraction was saving his crew from said lunatic villain.

He needed a project; he needed something to take his mind off of everything that had happened. A sexy blond wasn't going to do it this time, and he knew that. Every night they were home in California he would crawl into Spock's bed, or cuddle with one of Pike's uniforms. It was late one nigh when they were home on leave that he got his wish he had never uttered to a living soul.

"Captain…" Jim turned from the closet, and saw what was something that would make most people think they were hallucinating. He stepped back on one foot in shock.

"You… You…" he couldn't handle it, and ran to him in three steps, and flung his arms around him, happy tears made their way down his face.

"Shhhhh, my baby boy, shhhhhh," the soft sobs still coming from his Godson were ones he had never heard before… The joy in his heart was overwhelming.

"How… How long…" Jim croaked out, starting to shake, he knew he wouldn't have much time.

"Not much little one…" he felt his Godchild hold him even tighter, he smiled giving him a kiss on his soft blond hair. He laid Jim on the bed, still cradling him in his arms, safe and secure.

"It hurts to not have you here…" tears started again in Jim's cerulean eyes. He felt his Godfather brush them away gently.

"I know, baby… But this has brought you, and Spock closer, and you took in Carol, right… Jimmy you saved our girl, all on your own… I am so proud of you, angel and I love you more than you could imagine…" Kirk nuzzled his nose against the flesh. He felt Pike's warm breath in his ear.

"I will always be with you, and remember the one thing that distance can never, ever, ever take from us?" Jim looked up, still teary eyed.

"I… Ummmmm…"

"our dreams, I will always be in your dreams… I'll talk to you there, and you and I can take walks, and play at the beach… Do not be sad, my Jimmy, my beloved Godson… You could not have made me more proud, and I Love you more than anything in the Universe…" tears spilled out from Kirks eyes, and he held him more fiercely than before.

"papa…"

"Yes, my love?"

"You were with me.. When I kicked everything back in…" Pike nodded, smiling through happy tears.

"So proud…" his Godfather whispered, kissing him on the forehead. Again they both sobbed, Kirk grabbed a piece of his hair, desperate for contact; their faces touched, and the last thing he felt was his Papa giving him a kiss, and holding him tight.