A/N: And here is the next chapter. Took a while but finally got it done :)). Sorry this chapter is so filler/pwp...

Shout_Outs:

aidabye: I know they are... I know, deep down she is sweet and kind. Personally I think her bitchy-ness is a defence mechanism. Yeah, Ed's Jacob's greatest gift :)).

kasialeg: And here's more, sorry it's late.

Rat3000: It was. *tear* but they're okay now I hope... *LoL* indeed it does!

Lovely Queen of Sorrow: And here it is.

Guest: Thank you, here's more...

RubyxLucas: I tried *smiles* Here's more, hope you enjoy.

Guest: Thanks, here's another.

DevoraDeath: Your wish is my command... Edward shall experiment!

lovingbites: They are aren't they *gushes*

Disclaimer: NoPe!

Pale Beauty and the Dark Beast: Let's Talk About Us Part II

For a week I avoided the toys that my siblings had so kindly gotten for me. At the beginning of the week my self-confidence hadn't yet reached the point of actually wanting to use them yet. I did glance at them every now and then when I was I was stuck in my room doing nothing. I'd read through the books again, so many times in that week that I memories every single one of them. There wasn't one of them that you could ask a question and I wouldn't know the answer to. I'd read through those books so much that I could pinpoint the exact page and paragraph something was in.

You could say I'd reached an unhealthy obsession with the books, but I couldn't help it. They replaced me actually having to do anything. All week Emmett kept asking if I'd used the toys yet and every time he asked the answer would be the same: No Emmett, I have not. He always appeared disappointed after the answer but then would get over it and start thinking up crazy scenarios that would involve me and the toys which was why I avoided him.

By the time the week ended even Carlisle and Esmé were curious. If that didn't make things even more embarrassing! They didn't outright ask me about them but they did wonder. It wasn't so much about the toys themselves, but they just wanted to know what I was planning on 'experimenting' so they could plan another weekend long hunt so everyone would be out the house. It was sweet of them really, but no, just… no. I was planning on telling anyone when I'd actually use the toys but I suppose Alice would See and get everyone out the house, which by the way, was embarrassing enough since they'd just know what I was planning to do.

But when the day actually came it wasn't as embarrassing as I thought it would be. Carlisle and Esmé and gotten themselves out the house a day before I was scheduled for my experimenting. Rosalie dragged Emmett out the house the morning of with the rouse that she and her 'monkey man' needed to familiarise themselves intimately. Jasper and Alice also got themselves out the house, claiming to run to Canada.

I'd built up enough self-confidence all week thanks to Jacob. He'd made it his mission to remind me just how beautiful I was and on top of that we'd been kissing more often than usual and once or twice it had led to some touching though Jacob never pushed it. The first time his hands had actually made contact with my body under my shirt I'd only frozen up for a second, not quite sure how he'd react to the way my body felt, but when his thoughts flooded my mind about how wonderful my temperature was and how good I felt, I let loose if only slightly. We'd stopped soon after because he hadn't wanted to make me uncomfortable. The second time I'd been bolder then before and found myself running my hands over his muscled body.

So I supposed I was ready, I really hoped I was ready. It wasn't so much because I was planning on doing the dirty deed with Jacob anytime soon, but just so I knew and was ready when it did happen. We'd both expressed that we were more than willing to wait and that we didn't want to rush it, but wanted it to happen naturally too, it would be both our first time after all.

""

Now I was lying on my bed staring up at the ceiling. I was mentally psyching myself up to actually get up and grab the toys. I was very nervous because I was afraid it would turn out the same way it had the first time I'd tried. But thoughts of Jacob came into my mind and I remembered the way he'd looked at me all those times after a heated kiss, those beautiful, expressive chocolate brown eyes just looking at me as though I was the whole world.

I sucked in a long breath then let it out slowly. I didn't exactly need to breathe, but this seemed to be helping. I just needed a few more moments to mentally psych myself up before I actually did anything. It took another two minutes of deep breathing before I thought that I was ready. So slowly I got off my bed and walked over to the table where the toys where. For a long moment I just looked down at them, not quite ready to pick them up yet.

After another minute or two I picked the pack up and walked back to my bed slowly. I dunked the bag on the bed without pulling anything out and sat down beside the bag. I kept throwing glances at the bag, wanting to look but not really wanting to. After a moment I just huffed out a breath and grabbed the bag before dunking the contents of the bag onto the bed.

I stood up and walked to the stereo and turned it on, playing soothing music to help me relax. I then slowly pulled my clothes off and placed them carefully on the couch before walking to my bed and laying down in the middle of it. For what felt like forever I just lay there, listening to the music.

Slowly I placed my shaky hand on my stomach and just lay it there. I could feel myself going into another panic but then Jacob's face came into my mind. An image of him after we made out, his blown up pupils and his well kissed lips. Slowly I started to relax, my eyes fluttering shut as images and sounds of Jacob filled my mind. I started to move my hand up and down my body, going over all the places Jacob's heated hand had touched.

I surprised myself when I gasped. I was enjoying this, I was actually enjoying it. I took a deep breath then reached for the lube that I poured onto my hand. I placed the lube down and took a few more breaths then grabbed my half-erect member and circled my fingers around it then slowly started to stroke it while trying to keep my breathing in check. I'd only ever tried this once and I had barely touched myself before I'd freaked out and stopped and gone into a deep depression. I let my other hand move lower, squeezing my balls gently a few times while still stroking my now fully erect shaft. I continued this way until I was comfortable with touching the area.

Images of Jacob doing this to me filled my head and they only served to make me harder and make me a little more confident with myself and so I let the hand that was squeezing my balls move lower till I felt my entrance. I froze for a moment, breathing in and out deeply, trying not to freak out; hoping I wouldn't freak out. After a few more deep breaths I was relaxed once again then circled my finger around my hole slowly and it actually felt good.

I slowly slid a finger into myself and let out a groan. I hadn't thought it would be this... erotic. I moved the finger in and out of myself, breathing deeply; keeping calm. Yep, this was definitely good! After a while I gently slipped in another finger then another and slowly stretched myself just the way the books had said. Feeling my walls clench around my fingers was something else completely. Oh how I wanted Jacob to do this to me. I honestly couldn't wait for him to take me and make me his. I just know that that would be the best night of my life.

I pulled my fingers out my hole gently then sat up and grabbed the butt plug and the lube. I poured some of the gel onto my hand then put it down again. I then grabbed the butt plug and lubed it up. I lay back down then spread my legs yet again and slowly placed the butt plug at my entrance.

Breathing in deeply I let the butt plug slide into me. It was the weirdest thing I'd felt yet, not too painful at least, but I quickly got used to it. I turned the little toy thing on to low and felt it as it vibrated within me. I clenched the bed sheets with my free hand as the sensations went through my body. It was admittedly very good.

A few more minutes passed before I finally sat up and turned the device off and slowly pulled it out of me. I grabbed the purple dildo and lubed it up too. I got on my hands and knees then made sure my backside was facing the mirror – one of the books I read recommended that I watch myself, that it could also help with me getting used to my body and being comfortable with it.

I turned my head toward the mirror and looked at much stretched hole. It was... weird looking at myself down there and for a moment I thought I'd freak and stop, but the freaking never came. I got over the awkwardness soon enough. I positioned the dildo at my entrance and counted to three before letting slide into me.

I watched closely as I slid the toy in and out of my body, clenching around it to get used to the feeling of being filled. The toy was small sure, but it was a start. I'd felt Jacob's arousal over the week and it was much larger. But I had to start small right? I needed to be comfortable with this size before I went to bigger things.

More images of Jacob came to me. Images of him grabbing my hips, pushing himself roughly into me as I moaned and groaned his name, begging him for more. My whole body vibrated as I pressed the dildo against the spot, the so-called pleasure point. It felt just as amazing as the books said it would feel. It was like… like I was on cloud nine. Goodness I couldn't wait to feel Jacob pushing into that stop; that would be something else.

I pulled the dildo out of me and lay on my back. I pushed it back into me then began to stroke myself while moving the toy. I moaned and writhed on my bed at the new sensations, they felt so good and I was so close! I couldn't help myself, as I fell over the edge the name that spilled through my mouth in a loud pleasure-filled scream was Jacob's. His face was the one I imagined, his eyes, his skin, his scent, his body, Jacob!

Slowly I came down from my high. I gently pulled out the dildo and threw it beside me. I just lay on the bed, breathing in and out deeply. That had been something else. So different, so new, but so incredibly good!

I finally got up and I grabbed the toys I'd used and walked to the bathroom. I placed the toys in the sink then got into the shower and washed the spunk off my body. Once I was done showering I got out and dried myself off. I didn't even bother to wrap a towel around my body as I cleaned up the toys and walked back to my room to pack them away.

When I was done cleaning up my room I got dressed and left to go hunt then headed to my boulder to wait till Jacob came out for his patrol. The whole time a small smile played on my lips. Slowly but surely, I would be more comfortable, and when the time was right my Wolf and I would consummate our love and I'd be ready.

To Be Continued...

Soo... Yeah hey...

I have no clue what any book about gay sex says. I've never really read them though. I have looked through a one or two sites but that's about it. Everything I wrote about the familiarising is all coming from my head so if you were like sitting there – or lying there coz sometimes I read in bed *shrugs* – reading this and screaming 'NOOO, WRONG!' then I'm very sorry :((. But yeah... That's that for yah... If you liked then *YaY* to me! :))

Anywhoo…

(",)