In the sun I sparkled like a thousand diamonds. As the new day exploded into light I was there to watch it all.

A fawn and its mother walked past my hiding place and didn't even see me. I was standing in a small nest of leaves under a huge bush. They walked by and over to a clove of rosemary and began slowly crunching the leaves between their teeth. With my new senses I could see how every one in a while the mother would glance around to see if any predators were around to hurt her baby. If only she knew what exactly was around.

I sighed; I wondered if anybody would ever care for me like that again. Charlie was one of the only ones who cared for me. But now he was dead. My mother was another, but she would never accept me as the crazy vampire being I had become. Alice and her family seemed to care for me. They were also vampires and I hoped with all my might that they would accept me. If I didn't drink any human blood I didn't see why they would throw me out.

There was no one else…except…Edward. I knew that it was all wrong that I was thinking of him like this. He was so old, but even though I only knew him for a few days I felt like we had connected better that anyone else I had ever known. Everything about him seemed like the most perfect thing ever. Maybe if I found the Cullens they would help me to make him like me, and then we could be together forever…Wait! How would I even know if he felt anything for me? I was a monster and I didn't deserve anything from anyone. I didn't want to force him into this half life.

I sniffed and wiped non existent tears from my dry eyes. The mother and the fawn had moved away as I sat contemplating anything I could do. Eventually I would have to go to another coven to learn more about being a vampire, but the only other 'veggie' coven was in Alaska; and who knew where that was.

Suddenly my supper powered hearing caught a sound of pain. A few seconds of running towards the sound I hit the unmistakable smell of blood. I was sent ravenous by the smell and doubled my pace to reach the odor.

Without a thought I attacked the creature. I sucked its warm blood, draining it within a few seconds of my arrival. I felt the balmy liquid role down my throat and energy restored itself to me.

Looking down I saw the blown liquid eyes of the doe staring with a dull sheen at me. Over in a corner of the meadow the little fawn was staring at me with terror in its huge eyes. I could see the same look in its eyes as I looked towards it with its mother's blood staining my lips.

It let out a small noise of loss and helplessness. Even though it was young it knew that without its mother it would never survive for any amount of time. I knew that it was because of me that it would never live to see the rest of what it could have had in store.

I walked over to where it stood with dread at what I would have to do. I would not let it suffer. The only way that I could think of to help it was to cull it. I wouldn't let it feel a thing- it would be quick and painless, unlike my encounter with the hunter.

Its squeal was gone in an instant as it looked up at me while dying by my hands. After I had buried the mother and child I felt like the most horrible creature on the face of the planet. How could a vampire ever drink human blood after knowing that that person had a job and a family to look after? The question drew circles in my head as I thought about what would have happened if that were a human. Laurent had said that human blood was so much harder for vampires to resist that of the animals, and I hadn't even been able to think correctly when the deer's smell was in my nose.

All I was certain about was that I needed to find Alice as soon as possible to help me with my 'problem'. I quickly resolved my plan, deciding that I needed to head to Forks now to avoid any problems later.

Looking at the grave once more I started off in the direction that Laurence had said Forks was located.

As I ran I concentrated on the feel of the wind in my hair, trying to forget about my encounter earlier. I ran through the remainder of the day, and stopped at twilight out of habit. In the dull light I could just make out a huge cloud in the distance. My gift told me that it was a huge storm, and that tomorrow it would be over me.

I hunted again, staying away from any size group of animals and set out again to continue my search for the family I was hoping to join. It was funny- I thought while running- that some of my memories were blurred like that of old pictures as I played them in my head. They were hard to recall, and once I couldn't even bring myself to remember Charlie, or Renee, or even Edward. It scarred me to know that even though I would have every memory of being a vampire soon my human memories would fade, leaving me the monster without any idea of from where I came.

The next morning the sun was obscured behind the storm clouds, so I wasn't a glittering kaleidoscope again. I was thankful for the scarce population of humans. That meant that I wouldn't have to hind on shadows when I came across them, if I didn't kill them first.

Around six that evening the storm hit. It was black to the human eye, but I could still see for miles. All my senses were on high alert for any sign that vampires were close by.

Suddenly there was a huge bang of thunder followed by a crack of lightening. As the parade moved across the sky I noticed that there would be points where the thunder was not accompanied by lightening. Thanks to my acute hearing I could tell that these bags did not come from the sky. They were actually coming from straight ahead of me. It was only a few miles farther, and seeing as it was the direction I was headed I took of in search of the source of the noise.

Ahead I could faintly smell the unmistakable smell of vampire. As I drew nearer I could hear their yells of excitement piercing the air.

As I entered the clearing they all looked to me. Some faces were friendly, another curious, and others were confused. The only thing that I was aware of was they were not the Cullens, and I looked hideous coated in blood from my last few days. No one spoke for a few seconds, which I found is a long time for a vampire. Then a strawberry blond stepped forward.

"I'm Tanya. Welcome the Denali clan."

That wretch Laurence hadn't lead me to Forks, he sent me to Alaska! The only thing I was grateful about was they were another clan of animal drinkers.

I replied, "My name is Bella Swan. I was turned five days ago. I killed my makers." They all looked shocked but Tanya quickly covered it.

"Well Bella, that sounds like a very interesting story to tell. Would you like to come back to our house? We were just finishing up Thunder Ball. You could wash up and we could help you become adjusted to our way of life."

I nodded mutely, and followed them as they sprinted away into the darkness.

So Bella has found the Denali clan, and some interesting things will soon be heading her way- werewolves, humans, other newbies...

Sarah:)

ps. if it is not up by the 12th the internet wouldn't let me add it to the story. the website had been kicking me off the last few days:(