Chapter ten:

We walked to the car, it was pouring down.

I slammed the car door. Today had been a very bad day.

Since I moved here I had, met a physcopath vampire, who said he loved me, then he dislocated my shoulder, then Matt told me he liked me and then he kissed me, and then I kissed Damon and Matt saw, and now Matt was upset ,and then Damon kissed Bonnie! urghh!

My head felt like it was going to explode.

I turned to Damon, he was still smirking.

"What the hell, Damon!" I shouted.

He looked at me smirking. "I was just playing." he said trying not to laugh.

"Urghh! You can't just go around kissing people for fun Damon!"

He shrugged. "Why?"

I sighed. "It's not fair and you know why! I thought you were supposed to be the wise one here, since you've been around for about five hundred years!"

He started laughing. I just stared at him. "It isn't funny!"

"Well I would agree with you but then we'd both be wrong." he said smiling a cocky smile.

I rolled my eyes. "Then you nearly kissed Elena!" I said exasperated.

"I know." he said flashing a smile. "I didn't though, doesn't that count for anything?"

I looked at his beautiful face, his perfrect cheekbones that looked like they were carved of stone,his porcelain skin, his full lips, they looked so soft and sensual and his eyes were what I admired most. They were a beatiful shade of onyx, two pools of starless night, with the longest lashes I had ever seen.

His ebony hair, strands falling into his eyes, it made me forget how to breath. His lips curling up into a radiant smile, his white teeth perfectly alinged.

"Damon." I said quietly, my voice.

"Yes." he said stroking my hair, I flinched away.

"I'm sorry." I said the my vision was going blurry.

"What for?" he said, his dark eyes confused.

"I can't do this Damon." the tears streaming down my face now.

"What do you mean, Sophie." he said lifting up my chin, our eyes locking on each other. His eyes seemed to go on forever, like I could see into them.

"I can't see you anymore." I whispered tyring to keep my voice normal, my throat was aching but I had to do this.

He just looked at me not speaking. He whispered something which sounded like "Everyone leaves."

"No, Damon." I said sobbing , he was making it harder.

He turned away from me. "I'm sorry." I whispered as I clumsily got out the car.

He sped off not even looking back, I kept walking, the cold rain soaking my clothes, the tears streaming down my face.

I had no one now. I was good at pushing people away, I repelled them. My own mother didn't even like me, she left so soon, that I couldn't even remember her, then I finally got a step-mum and a little brother then they left , then I got my father put in jail, I was a great daughter.

I sat down on the grass beside of the road, hugging my knees.

Then I went and blew it with Matt and I was obviously not good enough for Damon because he went off kissing my friends.

I didn't want to break up with him, when I was around him it just sent shivers down my spine. I couldn't hurt him though, he had been through enough.

I knew it was best if I broke up with him, if I didn't both of us were going to get hurt.

I closed my eyes trying to block out everything. I didn't want to be here anymore, I wanted to be somewhere where I didn't have to feel anything, where I couldn't hurt anyone. I got to my feet shakily, my eyes still closed. I took a deep breath. "Sorry Gran."

I could hear a car approaching, I stepped forward. I felt scared, I didn't want it to be this way, but I needed it, it was for the best.

Anyway, it might be better up there, I will feel loved, and I won't be able to hurt anyone.

The car was coming closer, I turned to face it. I stepped on to the white line in the middle, the headlights were so bright. I shaking uncontrolably.

I heard the brakes screech, the wheels were sliding, the road was so wet. It was still coming, and it was coming fast. I suddenly felt dizzy, everything qround me looked distorted. I tried to stay standing but I couldn't, I let into it and slumped to the ground. This is it, my last few moments here, my last thought was of two beautiful black eyes.

I opened my eyes, it was white everywhere. I felt frightened, but also a bit excited. Was I finally here, was I dead. I closed my eyes and opened them again, I look around, the white was surrounding me. It was very unfamiliar. Maybe this is what heaven is like, just white. White is a peaceful colour anyway.

It was definitely heaven, I look around just one more time to be sure, everywhere was still white. It was so quiet, I sighed happily, it was all over. I hadn't even felt a thing. I wondered if I would see an any angels, or past relations or even Jesus.

I felt uncomfortable though, like someone was watching me, just standing there and there was a beeping sound. I looked over to the left, there was a small window, but it didn't let in any light, it was making wherever I was dark. My heart started pounding, maybe I was in hell. Why would I deserve to go to heaven, my pulse was throbbing loudly. I tried to make a sound, to see if anyone was there, but I couldn't make one. I noticed the beeping had suddenly got louder, it calmed me down a little to hear another noise.

I quickly closed my eyes, at least I could control that. I slowly opened them again, I look at the white. I try to lift my hand and surprisingly it moved, I tried to feel something, I put it up to my face. There was something big and plastic covering my face, I start to panic trying to get it off, it was trying to suffocate me, but something cool stopped me, my pulse racing even faster, I didn't know what it was.

Then something warm and sweaty touched me, I felt like screaming but no noise would come out. It grabbed my wrist, pressing it firmly. I tried to get away but it had a firm grip. It finally released me, my hands were shaking, I was so confused, where was I, had I gone up or down.

I opened my eyes again, it was hard they felt heavy. I looked to my right this time, and I stared in shock. There was three angels standing next to me.

The first one was beautiful, it's golden hair flowing down to it's shoulders, blue eyes staring at me.

The second was even more beautiful, it had dark hair and beautiful green eyes, that looked like they could see into me, that one scared me a little so I looked away.

The third one was lower, it looked like it was sitting down, it had blonde hair and blue eyes that looked so innocent, that was was definately an angel, and it was holding my hand. I pulled away and it looked at me confused, I reached out to hold it again, its warm hand meeting mine.

"Sophie." said the blonde angel, its voice was quite deep, that one was male. His blue eyes staring at me worried. I tried to speak, I wanted him to look happy, but only a moan came out of my mouth.

"It's okay Sophie, were here now." he said trying to calm me, stroking my hand. He squeezed it gently.

I opened my eyes wider, to get a better look at these angels, they looked familiar. I knew who they were.

"Matt?" I croaked looking at the one holding my hand, he smiled at me. "Are we there?" I whispered smiling weakly.

"Where?" he said confused, his blue eyes looked sad.

"Heaven" I said a bit louder, my voice sounded more normal.

He shook his head, his face looked anxious.

A felt a sudden pang of worry. I needed to know where I was, I needed to know if I had lived, I felt angry, maybe I was alive.

The beeping got louder again, the angel with the dark hair, looked at the thing that was beeping, I followed his gaze, it was some kind of monitor.

He looked at me worried. "You're in hospital." he said calmy.

I felt angry, the monitor getting louder, he looked at it worried, Matt stroked my hand, it calmed me down a little.

"Am I hurt?" I whispered closing my eyes.

"No." he said relieved. "You don't even have a scratch. You're just in shock."

I nodded. "Okay." I said sleepily, "Why am I so tired?"

"They had to sedate you when they were bringing you here in the ambulance, you were screaming so much." he said grimly.

I opened my eyes slowly. "How long have I been here?"

"Only a few hours." he said looking at me closely. "It's felt like forever."

"What were you doing?" asked the dark haired one, Stefan.

"You just walked out in front of my car." said Matt, his voice sounded worried.

I just shrugged and closed my eyes. "Were you trying to get yourself killed?"

I nodded. "Yes." I said opening my eyes. "I was and you stopped me, you saved me.." I said ripping the plastic thing off my face, what I discovered was an oxygen mask. It made me angry, why couldn't they just leave me alone.

He just looked at me worried. "They were going to let you go home now." he said. "Just calm down or they won't."

I relaxed a little, I wanted to get out of here. A hospital meant doctors. "Thank you." he said gently putting the mask back on my face.

A small doctor came round a few minutes later and took my pulse. "How are you feeling?" his voice was jolly,like he was talking to a five- year old.

"Fine." I mumbled. He checked the monitor and smiled at me, he examined me, just making sure I had no injuries.

"You're free to go." he said taking the mask off my face.

I pretended to smile, Matt handed me a bag of my clothes. "Thanks."

I got dressed quickly, I wanted to get out here as soon as possible. Gran was probably so worried.

"Where's Gran?" I asked as I came out of my room.

"She said she was on her way." said Matt getting up off his seat.

He tried to help me walk but I brushed him away. "I can walk just fine." I said walking off to the elevator a bit too quickly.

They just looked at each other, I felt a bit faint, suddenly someone was supporting me with firm arms, it was Stefan.

"Careful," he said looking down at me.

I smiled at him gratefully and he let go, I walked a bit slower this time.

It was quiet in the Stefan's car, Matt glancing at me every second.

We finally arrived at my house. "Thanks." I said getting out, they all got out too.

I just stared at them. "I'm fine."

They looked at each other. "Suicide is serious." said Elena.

"I'm not going to hang myself or cut my wrists." I was getting annoyed, I hated attention.

"Just let us bring you in." said Stefan anxiously.

I sighed and unlocked the door, it was quiet in the house, I turned on the lights.

Maggie came out of the living room and rubbed against me, I shivered.

"Gran" I called. "I'm home."

I went into the kitchen, the three of them at my heels.

I took off my coat and rested it on the back of the chair, I went into the living room, she was asleep.

"You'd better just wake her up, tell her you're ok." said Matt.

"Gran." I said shaking her. Her face was pale and her hands were cold, her head just shook back and forth like a rag doll.

I shook her vigorously, "Gran, wake up!" I said tears streaming down my cheeks. This couldn't be happening.

"Gran!" I shouted, someone out their hand on my shoulder.

"Sophie." I turned around, Stefan's green eyes staring into mine.

Matt was holding her wrist, he shook his head.

The tears came, my body shaking. I grabbed the person nearest to me, I needed someone to hug.

I could smell leather, it was Stefan. I looked up at him, he gently put his arms around me, trying to comfort me.

I couldn't stop crying, the tears just kept coming. Stefan's jacket getting soaked with tears.

Finally I stopped, my throat sore, my hair wet. Elena took my hand and sat me down on the sofa, she looked at me with empathy.

She handed me a tissue, I wiped the tears away, my hand shaking.

I sat there in a daze for a few hours, I had no one now. Not a single person.

Everyone was gone, why did she leave me. I could have been with her today.

I looked up at them. "Why did you save me?" I said shouting making them jump. "I could have been with her."

I shouted at them, fresh tears streaming down my face. "Why?" I screamed.

Elena came over to me her eyes wide. "Shhh, it's okay." she said hugging me. She felt motherly. I hugged her my breathing getting slower, I was calming down a little.

She took my hand and walked me upstairs, I was in some kind of trance, I got into my pyjamas and let her tuck me into bed.

I closed my eyes, the sedatives hadn't fully worn off and I felt tired, I had an empty feeling. I didn't know what it was, but I needed something dark, something black.

Poor Sophie :( What do you think? Sorry it's bit short :P If you have any ideas or suggestions just tell me :) Please review :) xx