*Disclaimer* I do not own Supernatural (nor do I claim to), I just love it and happen to get alot of ideas for stories in my head.
[Once I started to write... I couldn't stop... I might just delete this... I don't know... ]
Chapter Nine: Epilogue
Curled up in the mud, unaware of the temperature, or the time, lay a man in a filthy trench coat, with matted hair, and a dirty face. He didn't move, he didn't want to, nor saw the need to. Everything was gone, it was all gone, everything… except the memories, though they too slowly faded away… as he lost himself in the darkness.
He had remembered everything. It had all come in a flash, but not a blur, his mind was to acute, even broken, to miss even one detail. He remembered the battle, he remembered his mind, shattered and scattered. He remembered thinking back to the time when he could call himself an Angel of the Lord. He remembered everything he had done. Sam's mind had broken because of him. Leviathans had nearly taken over the world because of him. He remembered his deal with the King of Hell, and destroying his older brother, Raphael, leaving Heaven without a single arch-angel. He remembered how it felt when the last of his garrison were destroyed by the Leviathans, being woken up by the tablet, the Word of God. He remembered his first death, his quest to find God, and becoming mortal and nearly human. His second death, his return, the civil war…
He remembered the race to save earth, the multiple races to save earth, from Lucifer, from Raphael, from the Leviathans. He remembered he had friends, and just how important earth was to those friends. He remembered one tossing himself into a cage for it, and no one objecting, for love of earth. He remembered how all these thoughts flint about his head, glancing back and saying "None can be allowed to escape". The earth was too valuable, to important, he couldn't make the same mistakes, he couldn't put it in danger again, nor could he allow it to be put in danger.
He remembered the struggling, the door pulling, trying to kick out what didn't belong, though the human didn't want to leave. Castiel remembered, that no matter how important the world might be, his human mattered more. So he turned around, and said the only thing that could make him let go "Your brother needs you…"
Castiel remembered being tackled, the pain of the hell hound's claws, demons gripping his arms and shoulders with fingers like claws. He remembered letting forth another burst of light, wings flapping, and being taken away, the screams fading into nothingness. He remembered crashing, exhausted, into the mud, shoulder thudding hard against the ground. He remembered not moving since, with nothing but the darkness for company.
Castiel lay in the mud, the roars of an angry serpent, huge and menacing, searching, vengeful. His wings were folded half-heartedly against his back. He didn't make a move to make himself more comfortable, the fight had left him. He took shallow breathes, eyes unfocused. There was a void, it was dark, it was vile, and it was going to swallow him whole. His only beckon, his only light had left. All that remained was too twisted to even be called souls.
Castiel slowly closed his eyes, his body going limp. He didn't care anymore, his mind began to drift, leaving him, statue still, in the stiffing mud. He began to let go. Only one thing kept him tethered, stubbornly, unwilling to allow him to let go, the man in his memories, the one who lay buried in the center of his mind, the one who had allowed him to keep his tip-of-the-finger grip on his sanity. The one who still beckoned him, he called him home. The only one who could make him sit up, fold and tuck his wings up nicely. The only one who could make him search for a way out, who could make him believe he'd escape his place, simply because he was needed elsewhere. "Dean".
THE END
[This chapter doesn't bring much closure... but I'm still calling it an epilogue... This story is now finished... please let me know what you think... should this chapter stay in.. or was the last chapter a better ending?]