AN: Oh God. This is a hard chapter to write. My first non Addex chapter and Alexie scene! Yay! Did you guys think I did a good job? Drop a review will ya? Hey Beth, Crane, Shore and Schmidt had another reviewer! Yay again! Hehe thanks for putting it in your profile…hehe.(how's the fray?)

And OMG! I just watched Grey's anatomy season3 last night. They really gone all out in the first episode didn't they? I mean Cristina in braided piggy tails? Awww so cute… But what's up with Alex rugged look? I think I prefer him with clean shave face. It doesn't really suit him (at least for me)…

Izzie's POV

"Where the hell is he?!"

That had caused me to sat up in the bed. "Wha—who?" my voice slurring a bit from all the alcohol I've consumed.

"I thought we had an understanding Addison. Where the hell is Alex? He's with you, isn't he?"

I shook my head as I try my best to shake off the dizziness that had come over me. "I—he's not here Izzie. He had not been here since I've ended things with him. That's uh—" God this conversation is making my head hurt. "two days ago." I managed to croak out as I fight the feeling of nausea which is again alcohol induced.

"If he's not there and I know for a fact that he didn't come home for the past few days, then where the hell is he?!" Is Izzie's voice always have been this shrilly? And where in hell can Alex be?

One place came into mind as I replied to Izzie "There's this place in…"

I found him, alright. There. Cocooned in a tent besides the pond. Exactly where Addison told me he could be. I felt the tears flowing down my face as I sat besides a rock, my back behind Alex's sleeping form, waiting for him to finally get out and just talk about this. Finally talk about what the hell is going on.

It sucks. It freaking sucks when the dirty mistress knows where your man is. Huh shows how much I knew Alex huh? It was a slap in my face when Alex didn't come home for the past two days and what's worse? Apparently Addison knew Alex's 'place' and I don't. Which leads me to the question 'does he love her more than me?' Granted he never did told me those three words, but a girl can hope right? Looks like that's what I've been doing for the past years. Hoping.

What the hell am I doing here? I didn't come here to just hurt myself, if that's what you're thinking. No it's not. It's actually much worse than that. I came here to beg (if it comes down to that) Alex to choose me, to pick me over Addison. I know you're probably thinking how weak I am right now, right? I gave him everything that I am. I handed to him every little thing I got. And yet, he still find it in him to cheat on me. Why am I the one who's groveling for him to take me back for? The answer to that is simple really (or stupid depending on how you guys see it). It's because I wanna have a really true love, I don't want to give Alex up. But mostly, because I punished myself in believing, in waiting for him to choose between me and Addison. I put up with his affair for a year (God knows how long it's been going on). And all I know is I'm done with the waiting and I'm ready for my long overdue reward for martyrdom. And the only reward I want is Alex.

Pathetic. Really, there's no sugar coating on what the hell I am since I discovered that my supposedly boyfriend is having an affair with a sultry gynecologist, in the same workplace nonetheless, the same adulterous boyfriend whom I can't seem to let go, then I find out I'm pregnant, the father being the same cheating bastard who's now missing in action and the only one who have an inkling of an idea is the one and only (or at least I hope so) mistress. Pathetic? Aren't I? I thought as I quickly wipe the tears off my face as I heard a quiet shuffling behind me.

Alex is finally awake.

Alex's POV

Something's not right. Was the first thought in my mind as I stretched out in my tent. Something is blocking my sun. Uuh two days sleeping in a cramped tent can really forget all the bigger problems he's having. I though as I continuously rub my shoulders hoping all the kinks will go away. Yup, while I'm here, my acclaimed paradise, only minimum amount of problems will be thought of. I won't think about Addison or Izzie. Now, here, here is just about me. I will go back, don't get me wrong. I will face my problems eventually, but right now. Right now, I'm just enjoying whatever peace I can get before I face all the drama awaiting me in Seattle. Granted, I did start this whole thing. If only I never kiss Addison that day. Or maybe if I didn't kiss Izzie that day. Or maybe… Uuuh no… this is my quiet time, my tranquil place. I won't think about absolutely nothing but the way my muscles ache from the position I've slept on last night.

Imagine my surprise when I saw a familiar back just a few feet from me. Oh God. You really do hate me, don't ya? I ask for a few days of peaceful reconciliation with myself void of any, albeit needed confrontations. But no… You just won't give me that huh? I sigh quietly as I gently walk towards Izzie.

I know she heard the shuffling of my feet as I sit behind her.

"Let's play a game." I raised an eyebrow as I heard her say. "We'll only ask questions. The first one who didn't question the other lose. The loser will do anything the winner say"

"Izzie…"

"Are you okay Alex?"

I sigh as I put my head in my hands. I just woke up a few minutes ago… Really, it's too early for mind games. But I owe Izzie that much. Hell, she's the victim here. If she wants to play a game instead of attacking the issue at hand then fine.

"Shouldn't I be the one asking you that?"

I can see her shoulders shaking a bit. God, I never did want to hurt Izzie. She has always been with me. Through all my shit, she always forgave me and stood by me. She waits until I get it all together and what I repay her by cheating on her? I really am an ass. No point in denying it now.

"Do I have to ask if you ever love me Alex?"

Ah the million dollar question of the moment. Did I love her? I guess. I only formed a relationship with her. Although, it really wasn't as monogamous as it should have been but… I do. I do love Izzie. I just don't think that's enough to keep me away from Addison.

"Why are you here Izzie?" What? Did you honestly expect I'll answer her question?

"Why? Do you want me to leave?" Damn, nothing is really going my way now.

"Don't you think we should end this?" I know it's cruel for me to just ask Izzie this because she really did nothing wrong. I just really really want her to take this way out. Selfish? Maybe.

"Why, are you ready to throw all the two years we had, just for her Alex?"

"I just don't want to hurt you anymore Izzie." I said in defeat as I rose to my feet and turned my back to her. I just can't take our closeness anymore. The guilt I was feeling this very moment is just eating me inside. I'm giving her an easy way out. Oh she'll cry because our relationship is coming to an end but she'll get over it. I just can't bear the thought of still being with her despite the magnitude of what my sins have done to her. "Go back Izzie---"

I stopped what I was saying when I felt Izzie's hands wrapped around my waist. I can definitely feel her shaking now as I felt her tears dripping in my neck as she hugged me close to her. "I win! I want you to stay Alex. I don't care about the affair. I can forget everything. Just stay with me. I don't want to know anything, I just want you to stay away from her. I just want another chance with you." I closed my eyes, feeling her anguish and pain as her words rolled off me. I turned to look at her tear stricken face and I just felt drained. Here is a beautiful woman giving up her pride to just let me know how muck she loves me. Fate really is cruel as I felt my defenses slide. I brush the tears of her cheek as she whispered "I love you Alex. I need you. Our baby needs you." The final blow. The baby. My baby with Izzie. Our baby. Izzie won. If she wanted me (no matter how undeserving I am), if I am given another chance to redeem myself to her, then by God, I will take it.

It's time to face the future Alex. I thought as I kiss Izzie softly, gently. The beginning of our already damaged relationship.

It's time to forget about Addison Montgomery.

AN: aaaw.. Is it too presumptuous of me to believe that someone is still reading this fic?

Let me know what you think alright? Btw, the game that is featured here is not my idea, I just change it a little to suit the Alex/Izzie moment. Actually, I got it from a movie A Love Story. It's made by Filipinos, so I don't know if they're showing it in other countries.